RENiEDiZZlE
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well im finally getting to my diary!!!(its about time lol)
Well first off, My name is Irene (hiii irene!) lol jk!
As far back as i can remember i have ALWAYS been overweight..even as a baby. My father likes to say its my mothers fault for just shoving food in my mouth when id cry and it developed into the whole "comfort foods" thing...i say no. Im very overweight and i allowed myself to become this way..with the craving for a BK kids meal everyday after school, second helpings at dinner..etc, etc. sure, my parents should've not enabled me to have these things..but hey anything to shut the kid up right? In 4th grade i weight 150lbs!! 150!!! thats the size of an adult! its two 4th graders!! i was a mess. So to top it all of i have 1 older sister that is 7 years older than me. We look pretty much alike (i think i even have prettier facial features than her)..with one difference. She is about 120lbs. She has this body that she never worked for a day in her life and i just dont understand it! So i pretty much grew up jealous of the girl who i concider my absolute best girlfriend. Even know! in about 10 days we are going to Dominican Republic for a week...she'll get to prance around in these cute little bikinis while i sit there looking like a beached whale!! I know I know its not her fault...i think she wants me to lose weight more than i want it lol..but still..its just so not fair ;[
so i grew up with the taunting for my classmates (wow..kids can be so0o cruel)..even the 3 girls that were supposed to be my best friends in elementry school would make so much fun of me that id run home after school crying! making me want to eat even MORE. It carried on to middle school..which was scarier cuz kids i never met where even MEANER. ill never forget this one day my friends and i were out to lunch in the 6th grade, i was wearing a backstreet boys shirt and this kid (pretty much the class bully) goes.."hey irene do you know WHY they call themselves the BSB?" i go, no..why? and he infront of EVERYONE says "CUZ YOU TOOK UP THE WHOLE FRONT"...i was so mortified! They also cracked jokes like "IRAN, IRAQ, IRENE!"..they where mean man..very mean..and my own friends would laugh along with them! how ruude.
So in H.S. i didnt get made fun of really..i mean i cleaned up alot wore nice clothes and people seemed to be more accepting..but very very very decieving and backstabbing!! like this one friend i have (still to this day just not as close....any guy i had an interest in she would make sure of it to flirt with them if not even HOOKING UP with them...i really dont know why she did it, but she did. even guys that i already got with..if she knew i liked them..bam like clockwork..she'd be all over them..i mean im sure they would rather her size five body then my size 22 but still shes supposed to be a friend!!! H.S. sucked pretty much. I had so many crushed, and honestly i hooked up with most of them (they prolli just used me)..but no one ever wanted to be with me..to this DAY i have never had a bf and im about to be 20!! and trust me not to sound conceited but i dont think im an ugly girl..but i guess guys dont like girls with meat--they like stick figures.
Well now to present day...
Im 20 , about 5'4ish packing a good 230lbs. Other than that im relatively healthy (no high blood pressure, chol., diabetes) or any of that..YET. ive attempted the gym 3 times already..dieting all that..but this time i wont let myself fail!!!!!!! i just cant..to save my life before its in danger, and to just happy. ive made a goal to drop atleast 50lbs by july (5 months from now)which will brong me to 180 ...and hopefully with diet, excersize, and the support of all you lovlies i can do it!
as of right now my plan is hit the gym up 5 days a week...monday, wednesday, and friday take cardio burning classes..then on tuesday and wednesday do half hour tredmill, half hour elliptical....and i dont have a set diet but im just not eating as much and eating better foods...all the calorie carb stuff is too confusing for me lol
until next time--
RENiEDiZZlE
Well first off, My name is Irene (hiii irene!) lol jk!
As far back as i can remember i have ALWAYS been overweight..even as a baby. My father likes to say its my mothers fault for just shoving food in my mouth when id cry and it developed into the whole "comfort foods" thing...i say no. Im very overweight and i allowed myself to become this way..with the craving for a BK kids meal everyday after school, second helpings at dinner..etc, etc. sure, my parents should've not enabled me to have these things..but hey anything to shut the kid up right? In 4th grade i weight 150lbs!! 150!!! thats the size of an adult! its two 4th graders!! i was a mess. So to top it all of i have 1 older sister that is 7 years older than me. We look pretty much alike (i think i even have prettier facial features than her)..with one difference. She is about 120lbs. She has this body that she never worked for a day in her life and i just dont understand it! So i pretty much grew up jealous of the girl who i concider my absolute best girlfriend. Even know! in about 10 days we are going to Dominican Republic for a week...she'll get to prance around in these cute little bikinis while i sit there looking like a beached whale!! I know I know its not her fault...i think she wants me to lose weight more than i want it lol..but still..its just so not fair ;[
so i grew up with the taunting for my classmates (wow..kids can be so0o cruel)..even the 3 girls that were supposed to be my best friends in elementry school would make so much fun of me that id run home after school crying! making me want to eat even MORE. It carried on to middle school..which was scarier cuz kids i never met where even MEANER. ill never forget this one day my friends and i were out to lunch in the 6th grade, i was wearing a backstreet boys shirt and this kid (pretty much the class bully) goes.."hey irene do you know WHY they call themselves the BSB?" i go, no..why? and he infront of EVERYONE says "CUZ YOU TOOK UP THE WHOLE FRONT"...i was so mortified! They also cracked jokes like "IRAN, IRAQ, IRENE!"..they where mean man..very mean..and my own friends would laugh along with them! how ruude.
So in H.S. i didnt get made fun of really..i mean i cleaned up alot wore nice clothes and people seemed to be more accepting..but very very very decieving and backstabbing!! like this one friend i have (still to this day just not as close....any guy i had an interest in she would make sure of it to flirt with them if not even HOOKING UP with them...i really dont know why she did it, but she did. even guys that i already got with..if she knew i liked them..bam like clockwork..she'd be all over them..i mean im sure they would rather her size five body then my size 22 but still shes supposed to be a friend!!! H.S. sucked pretty much. I had so many crushed, and honestly i hooked up with most of them (they prolli just used me)..but no one ever wanted to be with me..to this DAY i have never had a bf and im about to be 20!! and trust me not to sound conceited but i dont think im an ugly girl..but i guess guys dont like girls with meat--they like stick figures.
Well now to present day...
Im 20 , about 5'4ish packing a good 230lbs. Other than that im relatively healthy (no high blood pressure, chol., diabetes) or any of that..YET. ive attempted the gym 3 times already..dieting all that..but this time i wont let myself fail!!!!!!! i just cant..to save my life before its in danger, and to just happy. ive made a goal to drop atleast 50lbs by july (5 months from now)which will brong me to 180 ...and hopefully with diet, excersize, and the support of all you lovlies i can do it!
as of right now my plan is hit the gym up 5 days a week...monday, wednesday, and friday take cardio burning classes..then on tuesday and wednesday do half hour tredmill, half hour elliptical....and i dont have a set diet but im just not eating as much and eating better foods...all the calorie carb stuff is too confusing for me lol
until next time--
RENiEDiZZlE
