Jericho
New member
Hello. My name is Ken. I hope that here, I can get the extra support I need to begin this journey.
I have always been a bigger person for as long as I can remember. Part of this is in the fact that I have a big broad frame. I don't look my current weight, partly cause of the fact there is 'some' muscle under the fat, but these are excuses in my mind. The fact is that I've currently reached 400 pounds. There was a time that I hovered at 245-275 as a teen/young adult. About 10 years ago, I reached 311 and that scared me. I had started walking and watching what I ate. I got back down to around 275 and promised never to get to 300 again.
Over the last ten years, I spent 4 years in the middle east. I was also unemployed for two periods over almost a year each. The most recent was from April. I just got a new job but during that time, I ballooned up even more. I was around 350 before the unemployment. I have now hit 400.
I look in the mirror and can see the weight. It was the little things, such as looking at my hands and thinking they are getting puffy when they never was before. Most of my clothes are tight or too small. It's hard to find clothes now. Clothes I saw that I really liked don't fit in the least. A silver chain I bought in Tokyo is noticably tight now. I got winded from walking from the parking garage to my building..roughly a block with some stairs. Medically, I've been lucky. My blood pressure is perfect but I have minor asthma, low testosterone (bad spelling but I do take a gel for it now) and low Vitamin D (also taking a pill). I don't have any sexual desires, with a fiancee who is starting to feel the rejection is her and not my weight. I turn 35 this year.
In other words, as the title says, it is no longer a choice. I have thought about surgery but I really think I can do it without that. I know some of my pitfalls (eat when bored, grabbing fast food on the way home, Binge eating and lack of exercise).
The one time I was really losing weight and changing things, I did it through my own modivation and an online forum. That forum was taken over by spammers and scams. I need a new home. The path will be a long one.
So...Hello.
I have always been a bigger person for as long as I can remember. Part of this is in the fact that I have a big broad frame. I don't look my current weight, partly cause of the fact there is 'some' muscle under the fat, but these are excuses in my mind. The fact is that I've currently reached 400 pounds. There was a time that I hovered at 245-275 as a teen/young adult. About 10 years ago, I reached 311 and that scared me. I had started walking and watching what I ate. I got back down to around 275 and promised never to get to 300 again.
Over the last ten years, I spent 4 years in the middle east. I was also unemployed for two periods over almost a year each. The most recent was from April. I just got a new job but during that time, I ballooned up even more. I was around 350 before the unemployment. I have now hit 400.
I look in the mirror and can see the weight. It was the little things, such as looking at my hands and thinking they are getting puffy when they never was before. Most of my clothes are tight or too small. It's hard to find clothes now. Clothes I saw that I really liked don't fit in the least. A silver chain I bought in Tokyo is noticably tight now. I got winded from walking from the parking garage to my building..roughly a block with some stairs. Medically, I've been lucky. My blood pressure is perfect but I have minor asthma, low testosterone (bad spelling but I do take a gel for it now) and low Vitamin D (also taking a pill). I don't have any sexual desires, with a fiancee who is starting to feel the rejection is her and not my weight. I turn 35 this year.
In other words, as the title says, it is no longer a choice. I have thought about surgery but I really think I can do it without that. I know some of my pitfalls (eat when bored, grabbing fast food on the way home, Binge eating and lack of exercise).
The one time I was really losing weight and changing things, I did it through my own modivation and an online forum. That forum was taken over by spammers and scams. I need a new home. The path will be a long one.
So...Hello.
