Hello everyone,
Well have lost six pounds, but want to lose so much more! ugh ..seems like it will take forever. I dont walk much, which I should. Today going out with Derek for an extremely short walk, but walk anyway. Going up the ways to this little inlet of a park, its where they put the Christmas tree for the city. Well they usually put a pice of art there and they have the statue and the benches and garden. Its cute and pretty, simple, cobblestone ..works for me. So I am going to walk there and sit and than I dont know. The door is open, so I can walk further..or I dont know ..not feeling very good, been depressed lately and with health things coming up, possible cancer issues or full blown menopause, well I am down. Well I have to get tests done anyway, first to show whether I am pregnant and it means actually a ultra sound, because I have pcos, which can cause it not to show up in a blood test or on a pee test, so I have to wait for the doctor, took a pee test, negative, but its too agressive, the symptoms, if my mother says I might be pregnant than I am probably pregnant and thats what my mother said ..and SHE never believes me when I think I am pregnant, there have been scares, but this is too big of signs ..so I might be pregnant...wierdness. ..already thought of names ...but hey we will see, take one day at a time, may just be a sign of menopause, which my family does go through early menopause and both possiblities could explain my instablity in mood, I am very emotional ...seems I am ..stalled .. I cant see to get myself to walk ... and tired all the time and than cant sleep at night ... always feel restless ..so dont know whats going on ..ugh ..its so hard, but They made an appointment for June sixth, which is coming up fast, so I will have a go on my way ..lets see whats going on kind of attitude, must be serious, because usually they make me weight three or four months to set up an appointment, they made it in one week ... lol ... at least I know I am being taken care of ... so ... we will see ...will keep people updated on that ..but I do plan on going forth with the weight loss effort, just if I am pregnant, no baby fat, just the regular fat I get ... yes I know, regular lol ugh ..well I am fat to begin with, so I want to lose that ..so maybe eating a healthy diet with baby on board and keep a moderate pace to my life and not killing myself to lose weight would be good, because I want to be healthy at the same time feeding the baby ... hard ..dietician def in order ..but if I am not pregnant full steam ahead with losing weight!
ttylater friends
love yas
natalie jo
btw ..weight :340.6
not going to set up ticker until I find out whats going on, if I have a baby or not ..we will see regardless I am having the baby. And I will lose weight so I can be active with my baby. I had a friend who was overweight and couldnt even get on the floor with her baby ..sad .. I felt so bad .. I tried to get her to go walking with me, now I understand how she felt, just wish i had known ...but I tried so hard to get her to come walking with me, but she wouldnt ..my skin is a little thicker I think, I plan to go walking and I do care what people say, but I know the best thing for me to do is to just walk and not listen ... because otherwise I let them dictate what I do and how much I stay inside, already has happened, now I need to get out and start walking and really start taking care of myself and especially if I have a baby on board, but wont give you names, until we know for sure ...
ttylater
love yas
natalie jo
I agree with Derek, doesn't matter where ya walk, as long as you walk. If you have someone with you, even better!! Good on you for getting rid of facebook. I have one, but I'm not too into it, I guess. Don't get on often and don't play the games, soo yeah.