The amazing shrinking woman (I hope!)

Tigpuppy

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This is a diary of my weight loss journey. Since it will be a record of the road back, I think it's important to start with how I got where I'm at today.

Growing up and throughout college I was always the 'skinny one'. I could eat what ever I wanted and never seemed to gain any weight. I also HATED exercise, but it never seemed to matter. I was 5' 5" and 107 lbs when I got married at age 18. I looked down on overweight people and always said if I ended up like that, someone should just take me out and shoot me!

By the time I graduated from college my metabolism was starting to slow down and I had put on a bit of weight. I was up to about 125 lbs. I began working at a sedentary job as a software developer, located 75 minutes from where I lived, so not only was I sitting in front a computer for 8 hours a day, I was also sitting in the car driving for 2.5 hrs per day during my commute. I had no kids and no life, so I started working 12 hours a day, plus the 2.5 hour commute. I ate breakfast in my car while I drove (pop tarts, toaster strudels, caramel rolls - once in a while oatmeal or cereal). I would order in lunch every day from one fast food place or another and eat at my desk. I'd grab something from a drive thru on my way home every night and eat while I drove home. Went to bed when I got home, and started the whole thing all over again the next day.

It wasn't long before I was tipping the scales at 150 lbs and decided I should probably do something about it. I was 26 years old and decided it was time to make a bunch of changes in my life. My husband and I had been married almost 9 years and figured it was time to start a family, so I went off the pill. I cut back my hours to normal 8 hour days. I also joined a gym and jumped right in to an over the top exercise program. I went to step aerobics 3 nights a week for an hour, and lifted weights for an hour 2 nights a week. I took weekends off. The first few weeks I thought I was going to die - I was REALLY out of shape. But after a few weeks it got easier and easier, and I found I actually enjoyed the aerobics classes.

Then I got pregnant and miscarried at 6 weeks. I blamed it on the aerobics and quit. I got pregnant again the month after I miscarried. I suffered from severe morning sickness and went from 150 lbs down to 130 during my pregnancy. I threw up all day every day the whole pregnancy, even in the delivery room. After my first daughter was born (healthy thank goodness) I was nursing and couldn't believe how hungry I was all the time. And food tasted SOOOO GOOOOOD now that it would stay down. I pigged out all the time with the excuse that I was a nursing mother. Except I was the only one that I knew of who gained while nursing instead of losing.

By the time I got pregnant again 2 years later I was 165 lbs. Again I suffered from horrible morning sickness for the first 7 months. I dropped down to 145 lbs during that pregnancy, but like the first time around, I pigged out again after my 2nd daughter was born and used nursing as an excuse.

This time I ballooned up to almost 180 lbs by 3 years after my last pregnancy. Around that time I started a home based business selling nutritional supplements and started taking them myself. As part of the training for my business I started to learn about nutrition. I began to try eating healthier, switched to whole wheat instead of white, added more fiber to my diet and the pounds started to melt away.

I was back down to 160 lbs when I got pregnant for the last time - this time with twins. Again morning sickness was wicked, but only lasted for the first 5 months. The day before I delivered I was 200 lbs. I was induced a month before my due date because they thought one of the babies had stopped growing. I had identical twin girls - one healthy and ready to take home. The other had some problems and was in the NICU for a week. It was a very stressfull week where I stayed at the hospital with them because my home was over an hour away. After we all got home I finally decided to weigh myself to see what the damages were. I was surprised to find I only weighed 165 lbs!

This time I tried to be more careful about gaining weight while nursing. I managed to stay the same for the 2 years that I nursed my twin girls, but then after I weaned them, the weight started to creep back on. By the summer of 2009 I was up to 175 lbs.

The health insurance provider thru my employer started an incentive program around that time to get employees more active and healthier. I decided to join and started walking every day with my girls, and doing light exersize several days a week. The numbers on the scale were starting to go back down and I was at 170 when I was bucked off a horse and badly broke my arm. The healing process was long and painful and by this last spring I was up to 185 lbs.

This last February my oldest daughter was looking thru old photo albums and came across a picture of me taken about 12 years ago. I was sitting on my husband's Harley and was wearing a leather bikini top and skin tight jeans that I could maybe fit around one thigh now. I think I was about 120 lbs at that time. My daughter was shocked that I used to look so hot at one time in my life and she said Mom, you really need to lose weight! I was pretty embarrassed at how far I'd let things go. I looked at myself in a full length mirror without any clothes on (I hadn't done that in forever!) and I thought YUCK! That's just disgusting! I don't know how my husband could stand to be intimate with me any more. I was repulsed by my body. I did a little research on the internet to find out what a healthy body weight for my height would be and was not happy to find out that I was considered obese at my current weight. I finally decided it was time to get serious about losing weight.

So I started my weight loss journey - hopefully for good this time.

On March 1, 2010:
Height - 5'5"
Weight - 185.8 lbs
Size - 18 dress, 16 jeans, 38G bra
Hips - 48"
Waist - 36"
Ribcage - 36"
Bust - 46"
Thigh - 27"
Bicep - 14.5"

I had my daughter help me take before photos in my underwear from front, side and rear view. I'm too chicken to post them though!
 
Weights and measures update as of 5/21/2010

Since I started trying to lose weight I discovered that my health insurance provider has a web site where I can track my daily exersize as well as log all the food I eat. It calculates the calories, fats, fiber, etc for me and tells me which major food groups I've been eating. I found out that most days I was eating 3-4000 calories per day! So I decided to start out just by watching what I eat. I've been trying to make healthier choices and have tried to train myself as to what a proper serving size is by measuring everything I eat.

Since I'm not active at all I've been aiming for 1200 calories a day or less. I figure once the weight has come off, I can adjust it upwards to maintain my weight, and will allow myself to cheat more often. For now I allow myself to splurge 1 day a week. Initially I was crushed to find that all the progress I made during the week was undone by splurging too much on that one day, so I try not to overdo it any more.

I've kept a journal of sorts over the last 3 months of my weights and measurements and I take new pictures of myself in my underwear at the beginning of each month.

So far here's how I've progressed:

3/17/2010 - weighed in at 181.4

4/1/2010 - weighed in at 176.9
Hips - 46"
Waist - 34"
Ribcage - 34"
Bust - 44"
Thigh - 26"
Bicep - 14"

4/21/2010 - weighed in at 172.8

5/1/2010 - weighed in at 171.2
Hips - 45"
Waist - 33.5"
Ribcage - 33.5"
Bust - 43"
Thigh - 25"
Bicep - 13.5"

5/5/2010 - weighed in at 170.4

5/16/2010 - weighed in at 167.8

5/21/2010 - weighed in at 165.4
Hips - 44.5"
Waist - 33.5"
Ribcage - 32"
Bust - 42"
Thigh - 25"
Bicep - 13.5"

5/27/2010 - weighed in at 163.8

So far I've been pretty happy with my progress. I don't know if I'm going about this the right way or not. I'm going to try getting in more physical activity because I've been worried about the sagging skin. From what I've heard if you tone the muscles underneath many people's skin will actually tighten up quite a bit.

The only other option would be cosmetic surgery - which freaks me out!!! Don't want to go there if I don't have to.
 
Excercise for tighter skin and muscles...

So far I've been pretty happy with my progress. I don't know if I'm going about this the right way or not. I'm going to try getting in more physical activity because I've been worried about the sagging skin. From what I've heard if you tone the muscles underneath many people's skin will actually tighten up quite a bit.

The only other option would be cosmetic surgery - which freaks me out!!! Don't want to go there if I don't have to.

Wow - well done - you are inspiring. It is a slow process, and it helps to see others on the same journey.

For phisical activity, I have chosen yoga - I have never been fond of a pounding heart and racing breath, so I opt for strengthening.

I found some really nice youtube clips: yoga for weight loss.


I especially like the visualization exercise she does.

Otherwise you can try the 5 Tibetan Rites - google it, there are quite a few sites offering free instructions. It is suppose to be wonderfully rejuvenating.

Have a grand day!
 
I guess I should set some goals here.

I know I'll never be the size I was when I first got married - I've carried 4 babies inside me since then, and two of them at once to top it off! I think it's unrealistic to even think I'll be that small again. I don't even know what a healthy weight is for me - I just know that I don't like how I look and feel.

So I've plugged in my numbers on a few web sites I've found and the great internet tells me that the ideal weight for someone my height (5'5"), age (36), and body frame (small) is somewhere between 115 and 150 lbs. HUH??? That's a huge range! SO since that really wasn't helpful, I think I'll shoot for 135, which will be exactly 50 lbs less than where I started at my heaviest.

I know that when setting goals you should have a deadline by when you hope to accomplish your goal. I have no idea how long it 'should' take to lose this weight though. Based on the fact that I've lost about 20 lbs in a period of 3 months so far, I would think that I could keep up this current rate. So that would put me roughly 4 1/2 months down the road. I'll round up and give myself until the end of the year to get down to 135.
 
I'm going to try and record what I eat and any exercise I may get.

Breakfast: 2 chocolate chip muffins made from a box mix, except I replace the water with 2% milk and the oil with apple sauce. Washed down with a glass of milk.

Lunch: Spring salad mix with 2 eggs cut up and 3 slices of canadian bacon cut up. Couple tablespoons of Robusto Italian salad dress (I always pour the oil out of every newly opened bottle, so it's mostly vinegar and spices I'm eating).

Snack: Dried fruits (apricots, blueberries, cherries, and cranberries).

Supper: Grilled talpia and gave in and had a cup of the kid's mac and cheese. Also had a small glass of sangria.

Activity: Finished digging my garden (by hand) and mowed the entire lawn (about 6 acres) using the riding mower. Did the trim work with one of those push mower troy built things. My arms/shoulders are killing me and I have blisters on my hands! OUCH!

I've noticed the last few weeks how 'mushy' my flesh has gotten. The fattiest areas seem more lumpy. I wonder if this is because my skin is looser or if the fatty areas are disappearing unevenly. My belly looks especially wrinkly. When I had more fat it sort of smothed out all the stretch marks. Now that I'm losing weight the skin is sagging more. I'm afraid carrying twins has done permanent damage to the skin on my tummy though. Even if I lose most of the fat in that area, I don't know if the skin will ever shrink back up.
 
Depressing morning today. Weighed myself after I got out of the shower and I had gained almost 4 lbs since I last weighed myself. I was up to an even 167. I couldn't believe it. Granted I have really long hair and it was wet, and I usually weigh myself BEFORE I shower, not after. But 4 lbs? My hair can't hold THAT much water, can it???

Maybe I'll do it over again when I'm home for lunch and see if dry hair makes that much of a difference.
 
Ok, so I stepped on the scale again over lunch and it said 165 on the nose. That's a little better since I knew I ate a few things over the weekend that I shouldn't have. Like chocolate chip muffins (even if I replaced the oil with applesauce when I made them) and a 2nd piece of home made pizza instead of the 1 I knew I should have stayed with.

Stepped on the scale again tonight just now to double check (I was at 165.8 lbs) when I took my first of the month measurements and pictures. Those were at least very encouraging, even though I'm up a couple of pounds. So since I usually use my am weight for tracking I'm going to use my lunch time weight for today's log.

06/01/2010 - weighed in at 165.0
Hips - 44"
Waist - 32.5"
Ribcage - 32.0"
Bust - 41.0"
Thigh - 24.5"
Bicep - 13.0"

So even though I've gone up a couple of pounds in the last week or so, I can obviously see that I've lost some more inches in the last couple of weeks. I'm not sure if this is because I've been doing a lot of hard physical labor in the last few weeks and have built up some muscle or what. I wonder if I can find someplace on the internet to tell me how long it takes to gain weight in muscle when calories stay the same? I'm guessing that would be pretty hard to calculate.

As far as food today this is what I've had:

Breakfast: Half a granny smith apple, 1/3 cup of vanilla yogurt, 2 cups of coffee each with 2 tsp of non-dairy creamer

Lunch: 1/2 can of Campbells split pea soup, 2 cups of coffee, each with 2 tsp of non-dairy creamer

Snack: None (got too busy and forgot to eat it)

Supper: 1/4 lb lean ground beef burger, grilled potatoes, carrots, celery, onions, 1 small glass of sangria.

Maybe I should also keep track of how much water I drink? Today so far I think I've had 5 glasses of water (8 oz each) and will probably have another before bed tonight when I take my vitamin.

I keep debating with myself whether or not I should post my monthly pictures. I can definately see a huge difference between today and March 1st when I first started this whole thing. I've tried to wear the same thing each month when they are taken (granny panties and bra). I don't think I'll be able to keep doing that though. I'm so excited that they are actually getting too big for me!

The only person I have told that I'm trying to lose weight is my daughter so far. But other people around me have started to comment on the fact that it looks like I'm shrinking. Even my hubby made a remark the other day - so if someone who sees me every single day is noticing a difference, I can imagine how people who see me only every month or less will react next time they see me!

I find it hard to believe that this is actually working!!! YEAH!!!
 
Yesterday was hectic! But I managed to 'behave' (most of the day).

Breakfast: 1/2 of a golden delicious apple and 1/2 cup of vanilla yogurt, coffee with 2 tsp non-dairy creamer.

Lunch: Sandwhich (2 slices whole wheat bread, 1 slice swiss cheese, 3 slices deli thin smoked turkey, mustard, and a pile of spinach leaves), coffee with 2 tsp non-dairy creamer.

Supper: McDonalds Fish Fillet sandwhich, coffee with 2 tsp non-dairy creamer.

I had 8 cups of water throughout the day as well.

Supper time was hard. I worked late and the kids and hubby all wanted Mcdonald's for supper. I'm not crazy about their salads, and they are expensive considering what you get (or don't get?). I can make a LOT of salads at home for the same price, and they taste much better! So instead I decided to just have the fish sandwhich. I wasn't sure if something else on the menu would have been a better choice or not. What I should have done was just drive a couple miles down the road and gotten myself a subway sandwhich instead, but I was running short on time and needed to get home. I wish fast food places would have other low fat/low calorie choices besides salads - it would sure make my life easier!

But even with the poor choice for supper I think I'm still under my 1200 calories for the day. And last night before bed I stepped on the scale and it said 164.4. I think I'm a bit obsessive about that scale. I think on average I weigh myself 3 to 4 times a day just to kind of see how I go up and down during the day. It's surprising how much it can fluctuate in a day! As long as it goes down on average over the course of a couple of days I'm happy though!
 
Hi Tig
I hate McD’s for their low cal menu. And their salads are even more expensive here in Canada.

I could eat salad for a week on what I pay. So I avoid them too. I get my kids what they want and I get a water with ice. It sucks but Im not givin in….unless I am super hungry. But most times I can eat before I go there if I plan it.

Also thinking about keeping a couple energy bars with me. I just had one to try a couple days ago and I was impressed. It filled me pretty good and held me over till lunch which was 4 hours. Im going to buy a box and keep a couple in the vehicle for times like that.

I don’t think the fish at Md’s is any healthier than any other item they have. (The wraps aren’t too bad…)
The fries are what kill you in calories I think.

I think you you did alright considering the choices. The main thing is you gave it a lot of thought and consideration. Something you probably never did before. ( I didn’t when I got my double quarter with cheese and a side mc chicken and xl fries and drink.) And that was normal…once a week at least…usually more.


The scale is my worse enemy too. I talk to it….yell at it, (under my breath), threaten it. But I jump on it at least once a day. Yup…your not alone ?

Have a great day!
 
Flumes - Good idea on keeping some energy bars handy. I've never tried any yet, but I've heard some people say that some are not very good. Almost an aquired taste type thing. Do you recommend any?
 
Yesterday was a good day - I ate healthy all day! But I was so busy that I didn't have any time to do any cheating because I helped supervise 3 archery classes last night after work.

Breakfast - 1 cup whole grain cheerios with a little less than 1/4 cup cranberries thrown in, and 1/2 cup of 2% milk.

Lunch - 2 cups salad (spring leaf blend) with 2 chopped eggs and 3 slices of chopped canadian bacon, and 2 tbs of Robusto Italian dressing (with the oil poured off), and 6 baby carrots.

Supper - PB&J sandwhich in between archery classes, 1 stalk of celery, 1/2 cup of sliced green bell pepper.

I usually relax and have a small glass of red wine in the evenings before bed, but got home late and was too tired, so just went to sleep. I know alcohol is supposed to be a big no-no when dieting because it's pure calories but I decided that I wasn't going to deprive myself of something I love. Besides, red wine is supposed to have lots of health benefits in moderation, right?

I stepped on the scale right before bed and was happy to see it say 163.8!

I also decided to try out the fitday website. It's not too bad I guess, but I like the food tracking site provided by my health insurance company better. It has more selections for foods, especially by brand name. My health insurance company's site also has a section of their website that allows you to create a personal exercise plan and to track your physical activity. You get points for logging in and recording your physical activity every day as well as your food and water intake. You earn bonus points for filling out healthy assessments and tracking your weight and blood pressure. You can redeem these points for exercise equipment, clothing or gift cards. Also, they have made deals with many gym's around my state so that when you come in you swipe your card and you get points, plus they pay for most of your membership dues. Unfortunately I live on a farm in the middle of nowhere and the closest gym to me is about 75 miles away, so I can't take advantage of that benefit. I'm on my own for any exercise I get, which is usually none.

With 4 kids and a full time job I find it really hard to get exercise time in. Summer time isn't quite so bad because I'm out helping my husband with the farm work and I usually do all the yard work myself and put in a big garden every year (with my job I find it relaxing to do menial physical labor where I don't have to think so hard). I know if I could find the time to get in some sort of weight training and/or cardio it would kick up my weight loss a notch or 2, but so far I just haven't been able to find the ambition to do it.

Ambition! Here Ambition! Where are you Ambition? Ambition....?
 
Well, today ended up being a pretty busy day!

Foods today:

Breakfast: 1/4 of an apple, 1/2 cup dry wheat chex, and 6 oz container of non fat vanilla yogurt sweetened with that NASTY aspartame crap! Man I hate that stuff!!! I wasn't paying attention when I went shopping the other day and grabbed the wrong stuff. Now I have a ton of it in my fridge and can't stand to eat it. I'd rather eat plain unsweetened yogurt than that stuff. YUCK!

Lunch: Same as yesterday - 4 cups salad (spring leaf blend) with 2 chopped eggs and 3 slices of chopped canadian bacon, and 2 tbs of Robusto Italian dressing (with the oil poured off)

Supper: Sloppy Joe sandwich (Manwich Bold sauce) on white bun (BAD! But my cheesy little small town grocery store didn't have whole wheat), and celery and baby carrots.

Didn't get around to having any snacks today because I was too busy. Got off work early today and helped my hubby with some farm work because he put his back out and can't lift anything right now. Then I hooked up the trailer, piled the kids into the farm truck and went to the next town 20 miles away to pick up some lumber for a weekend garden project I have planned. Got home and unloaded the lumber, carrying it up a flight of stairs to store it in the hay loft of our barn since it's supposed to rain tonight. Does that count for a work out?

I stepped on the scale this evening after supper and it said 162.4 lbs! That made me pretty happy, but I'm a bit concerned too if I'm loosing too much weight too fast. I know I always hear that it's not good to do that, but what are the ramifications really of losing too fast? Not sure I have to worry too much though with the weekend starting. I always dread weekends because it's so much harder to eat healthy because my husband and kids aren't dieting like I am. My husband has a super high metabolism and he eats junk all the time, but never gains weight. He's 48 and eats stuff like white bread, tons of pasta and pizza. Stuff that sticks to me like glue - it makes me so mad sometimes! Many days he has a candy bar and pepsi for breakfast. Chips are a major food group for him too. So there is always a lot of junk food around my house. There are a lot of weekends where I end up gaining back any weight I've lost the week before.

To try to prevent that from happening this weekend I have a big project planned for myself. I have a 12' X 6' raised strawberry bed in my backyard that I put in last year. I planted the strawberries, but they didn't produce very much their first year, and what few berries they did manage to make, were eaten by birds before I could get them picked. This year I refuse to share my berries with the birds! So I am going to build a removable hinged A-frame cover for my raised bed to keep the birds out, but let the bees in to do their job of pollinating the blossoms.

I'm hoping if I stay busy enough I won't be cheating on my diet this weekend. We'll see how it goes I guess!
 
WOO HOO!!! I feel great!!! I just worked out for 30 minutes (10 minutes of stretches and 20 minutes of step aerobics). And that's even after all the hard phycical labor I did today!

Even though today was my cheat day, I still had a fairly good day calorie-wise. I probably should have thrown in a few more veggies, but oh well.

Breakfast - instant high fiber cinnamon swirl oatmeal with a packet of plain mixed in because I think the flavored ones are too sweet. 1 1/2 cups of milk.

Lunch - Same as yesterday and the day before - my favorite salad with eggs and canadian bacon and Robusto Italian dressing. I know it's not the best to eat the same things day in and day out, but this will be my last for a little while. I'm out of lettuce! And with living in the middle of nowhere on a farm, I can't exaclty just run out and pick up some more.

Supper - 2 egg omelette with ham, smoked turkey, onions, mushrooms and olives with salsa poured over the top. YUM! But now I'm out of eggs too! Also had my usual glass of wine after supper.

Snack - took the kids over to the next town on an errand and went out for ice cream cones and had a small one myself. Oh man it tasted SO FREAKIN' GOOD!!! I also had a handfull of dried apricots when I felt like my energy was petering out mid afternoon while I was working outside.

When I stepped on the scale this morning it sayd 161.2, but tonight it says 163 even. I still have quite a bit of work to do on my strawberry bed tomorrow, so I'm hoping I'll be able to make it thru the weekend without gaining back everything I lost last week. So far so good I think!
 
Man am I sore today! I'm definately not used to all this physical activity - with working out last night for the first time in forever and also the hard physical labor I put in this weekend in my yard. I'm plum tuckered out tonight!

Foods for the day:

Breakfast - 1 cup cheerios, 1/2 cup 2% milk, a 6 oz container of non fat light key lime yogurt, and 1 cup of cubed cantaloupe.

Lunch - 1 cup spaghetti noodles with 1/4 cup home made meat sauce, carrots and green peppers.

Supper - Grilled talapia fish fillet, 1 cup brown rice, 2 cups watermelon, 1 small glass of sangria.

The scale is being nice - I was at 161 first thing this morning and it's reading 163.0 tonight. So I didn't lose any more, but at least I stayed the same. I'm participating in the June challenge and I put my goal as 157 lbs. I think I'm well on my way to hitting that goal! YEAH!

I've started thinking about a reward for myself for hitting the halfway mark of my goal of losing 50 lbs. I have waist length hair with bangs and usually just cut/trim it myself. I'm thinking I might treat myself to a professional hair cut. The problem is finding someone I trust. I've had BAD experiences in the past with having my hair cut professionally and having them listen to what I want. They always want to cut too much off. At least now longer hair styles are more in style, so hopefully I won't have to fight too much to keep most of my length. I love my long hair. I'd seriously cry if they chopped off too much!
 
I took some measurements this morning out of curiosity and I realized that my thighs have shrunk far enough so that they are now the same size as my waist was when I got married! 24 inches! How could I have been so freakishly skinny back then????
 
Hi TP,

Nice to read you are doing well! Congrats on the lost pounds!

As for the energy bars....I only have one recomendation...cause thats the only one I have tried lol. And I like em. I bought a couple dozen the other day for 1.00 each.
Theyre called Clif bars. Pretty natural and about 240 cals each. You can cut them in half if thats too many cals. I had another today..."maple nut. Too friggin sweet. But I ate it anyways as I had a busy day. (I hate it when people call and say, "Ok...we got to do this now"....ok...and I'll just pretend I dont have kids in school or anything else going on. Anyways...enuff bout me lol.

The strawberry patch sounds great. My dad had one in the garden when we were kids...he put this nylon screen overtop to keep the birds out. They tasted soooo different from the ones you buy in the store. (There we go...me again) lol

You are doing great! Keep at it...its a struggle, and sometimes hard...but youve come a long way already and are doing sooo well! Congrats!
 
Another good day! Woo hoo! I'm SO proud of myself!

Foods for today:

Breakfast - 6 oz container of nonfat light yogurt and 1/2 of an apple

Lunch - smoked turkey breast on wheat sandwhich with muenster cheese, mustard and spinach and 1/2 cup of diced cantaloupe

Supper - home made grilled Italian chicken breast on penne with cheesy alfredo sauce and broccoli and onions - it tasted SO awesome! I could have totally binged on this and pigged out, but I was a good girl and measured out 1 cup and ate only that much! I faced temptation and I survived!!!

To top it off I worked out agin tonight doing step aerobics for 20 minutes after raising the height on my step as high as it goes, then did some stretches for another 20 minutes or so.

I've been keeping on track pretty well lately, but I can't help but wonder how long I'll be able to keep this up. I've never stuck with any weight loss program this long before.

Every time I feel like doing something stupid like eat an entire cream cheese coffee cake by myself, or pig out on a whole bag of chocolate candy bars I dig out my before pictures and compare them to my most recent during pictures. So far so good. It's given me the willpower to just say no. But really, how long can it last?
 
"How long can it last" hahaha! Sounds just like the little voice in my head when I'm doing well at a goal I set for myself (especially if I "failed" before and don't really trust myself to do it "right")

Well done on the amazing progress so far, I look forward to following your diary!
 
Thanks for the comments and encouragement - it sure came in handy today! I ate a couple hundred more calories than I normally do and I REALLY did not feel like working out tonight. I forced myself to do it anyway.

Note to self - do NOT take multi-vitamin prior to exercising! I kept burping up that nasty taste the entire time I was working out. BLECH!

Foods today:

Breakfast - 1/2 cup dry wheat chex, 1 cup cantaloupe, 1 6 oz container key lime nonfat light yogurt.

Lunch - smoked turkey breast on whole wheat with mustard, meunster cheese, and spinach on it, a mozzerella cheese stick, 1 cup cantaloupe (the last of it - it was getting over ripe!), and coffee with creamer.

Supper - Was rushed for time so had an Arby's junior roast beef sandwhich with 1/2 a packet of horsey sauce on it, handfull of dried cranberries.

I feel wiped out tonight and barely made it thru working out. I didn't get enough sleep last night I think (got about 4.5 hrs). Usually I think I get about 6 a night on average during the week, more on weekends.

Work is pretty stressfull right now because I have a HUGE software module that I designed that will soon be released. I tend to eat when I'm stressed. Tonight when I was doing the grocery shopping for the week it was SO HARD to walk past the candy isle. I'm really craving chocolate right now - or better yet, a bovarian cream filled, chocolate frosted donut!!! YUM!

Instead I bought a ton of fresh veggies to have around the next week or so. I planned to wash and cut them all up, but I'm just too zonked tonight to tackle that project. It'll have to wait till tomorrow after work.

Until then I hope everyone else is doing well on their weight loss journey. Just grit your teeth and push on thru - YOU CAN DO IT!!!

(at least that's what I keep telling myself tonight)
 
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