"That which does not kill us makes us stronger" - Elle's diary

Have I told you lately that you're awesome? Because you totally are.

Enjoy those 180's, you've earned 'em.

And really, 4 or 5 beers??? I would be drunk off my ass. And totally hung over the next day. It is a little depressing to get drank under the table by someone who is not even old enough to drink....
 
Thanks girls for stopping by!

The past few days I've been sick with some sort of bug. I haven't been doing much of anything besides sitting home. I've felt like complete crap so I haven't been in the mood to work out but even despite my lack of exercise, I'm still losing. Wed & Thurs, I went back up into the 190's but today I'm down to 188.5#. :)

But I've gotta go fix myself something for dinner cause I'm supa hungry. I'm sorry I'm not on here but once I'm feeling better I'll be back.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
 
Girl.. I hope you start feeling better soon, because I'm coming up to Roch this weekend with Sean. We'll be going to Vertex on Saturday and I would LOOOOOOVVVVEEEEE to see you. Let your girl know. Love yas... by the way... congrats with the lost, doll.

-Sheryl
 
Wow! I was just thinking that it doesn't seem like it was that long ago that we were all excited because you hit onederland. And now you're already in the 180s. Fackin' fantastic girl!!

Somebody better warn the good people of Rochester that Sheryl's coming to town!! I cannot wait to hear what transpires...Something wicked this way comes...:rotflmao::rotflmao:
 
bikinibound said:
Somebody better warn the good people of Rochester that Sheryl's coming to town!! I cannot wait to hear what transpires...Something wicked this way comes...:rotflmao::rotflmao:
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Shit.... I promise. I will be on my best behaviour and I'll make sure to log a day's worth of food in prior to going to Roch, so I can fit Guinness in when I'm there. LOL!! It's corset time! It's corset time! WOT WOOOT!

-Sheryl
 
Elle girl... where the fack are you???

Anyways, mami... I'm going to be at Vertex on Saturday. I'm really hoping I can meet up with you. I'll go ahead and email you my cellphone number on this end (here at WLF) if you want to meet up. Alright, girly.. I hope you're doing well. Miss yas...

-Sheryl
 
So I'm really sorry that I haven't been on here lately but there's a good reason...

Last summer I got really sick very suddenly. I was fine the day before but when I woke up in the morning, I was insanely sick. I could barely speak; my glands were swollen, the right one on my neck to the size of a softball; my throat was sore and scratchy; and I was really dizzy.

I scheduled an emergency doctor appointment for that day. My doctor ran all sorts of tests and couldn't find anything abnormal in the results yet she and all the other doctors could see that I was clearly sick. I was there for a few hours while my whole body was poked and prodded and had just about every possible test done. All the results were normal. The doctor gave me some super strength antibiotics that would kill anything that was going on. She made me promise that I would come back in 4 days if I wasn't better so she could run tests for more serious diseases.

I ended up feeling a bit better in a few days so I didn't go back. Ever since then I've had a ton of problems with the same gland in my neck. And because of that, I get really sick about 6-7 times a year.

Recently, I got really sick again. Just like how I was last summer. I went to the doctors about a week and a half ago. She ran more tests and found nothing. I'm not sure what's wrong with me and that's really taken up most of my time lately.

I've kind of set dieting and everything else in my life on the back burner. I'm still at 188 though.

I'm mostly worried about what might be wrong with me. If nothing is showing up in tests, it makes me worried. My doctor is confused about it all too. What makes all of this worse is that I don't have my health insurance anymore, so all costs are coming out of pocket. :eek: In a few weeks, once I get some more cash flow going, I have to go back to my doctor and have more tests run.

Again, I'm really sorry that I haven't been on here lately and I'm going to try my hardest to get on here more. But since being sick, I find it hard to even get out of bed most days. And to Sheryl, I'm really sorry that I didn't make it to Vertex to see you. :[

Right now, I need to get some sleep because I'm feeling pretty tired. I'll try and get on here this week and catch up with all of your diaries and leave some comments to you all. I'm sure you're all doing SO well! Miss you girls, hope everyone is doing well.
 
Elle!
So sorry to hear that you have been so sick. It sucks when your sick, but I can't imagine so sick and not knowing what is causing it. You poor thing.
Don't worry about the whole dieting thing. Focus on you. Besides that it's not really a diet anymore right. Just a way of life. So when your feeling better you can get back to exercising and all that.
I'll be praying for you sweetie!
 
Thanks so much for the kind words miss bell!

Alright, I'm back finally. My doctor doesn't know what's wrong with me seeing as how I'm feeling better. So we're just going to agree that I have some sort of gland disorder. Later on I'll get more tests done, but for the time being I need a break.

Lots of shit... yes, more shit, happened this week. To make a really long and sad story short, my boyfriend and I had to give away our little chihuahua. I really don't want to get into the story because I haven't cried yet today about it and really want to avoid it at all costs. We found out that we had to give him away monday night at like 11.30-12 and then the next day by 2pm he was gone. It was the most devastating thing that I've had to go through in a long time. David and I are both pretty torn up about it, especially seeing as how it was so sudden. We miss the little guy.

As for my eating healthy, I haven't been doing too well but I haven't gained. I currently weigh 187, which is good. Wish it was lower but I've had a lot of things going on lately and that's affected everything. Just gotta take things one day at a time I guess.

The good ole' friend TOM is visiting right now and I'm sure as hell glad it is. My schedule is all messed up so there for awhile I was thinking that I could be preg, which would nooooot have been good. Luckily it's just my retarded body. Going to the gyno on monday to get everything checked out. Kinda shitty I have to go when I have my friend, but I guess I'll be fine. I'm going with a friend (a literal friend. haha) and we already have our appointments set so there's no going back.

Alright... I'm gonna go check out everyone's diaries. Hope you're all doing well. <3
 
Hey Elle glad you are feeling back to better, well sorta anyway.
So sorry to hear about your pup. :cry:
As much as I joke around about our dog I would never ever want her to suddenly be gone. Though she is getting old enough that one day she could be all by herself.
Glad to hear that you are still holding steady at 187. That is a wonderful accomplishment Miss Elle!!!! :jump:
Even though you know that you haven't been eating well you maintained. So that is huge. Now all you need to do is pick the ball back up and run with it.
I hope the doc can figure out what is going on with you. :confused:
That would royally suck to not feel well and not know why.
Well I gotta go and check some other diaries. Not alot of time today. I am going to a concert tonight and I need to to go get ready. :jump::jump:
Love ya girl! :hug2:
Take care and remember take everything one day at a time.
It will all work out. I promise. :)


ellebelle said:
Thanks so much for the kind words miss bell!

Alright, I'm back finally. My doctor doesn't know what's wrong with me seeing as how I'm feeling better. So we're just going to agree that I have some sort of gland disorder. Later on I'll get more tests done, but for the time being I need a break.

Lots of shit... yes, more shit, happened this week. To make a really long and sad story short, my boyfriend and I had to give away our little chihuahua. I really don't want to get into the story because I haven't cried yet today about it and really want to avoid it at all costs. We found out that we had to give him away monday night at like 11.30-12 and then the next day by 2pm he was gone. It was the most devastating thing that I've had to go through in a long time. David and I are both pretty torn up about it, especially seeing as how it was so sudden. We miss the little guy.

As for my eating healthy, I haven't been doing too well but I haven't gained. I currently weigh 187, which is good. Wish it was lower but I've had a lot of things going on lately and that's affected everything. Just gotta take things one day at a time I guess.

The good ole' friend TOM is visiting right now and I'm sure as hell glad it is. My schedule is all messed up so there for awhile I was thinking that I could be preg, which would nooooot have been good. Luckily it's just my retarded body. Going to the gyno on monday to get everything checked out. Kinda shitty I have to go when I have my friend, but I guess I'll be fine. I'm going with a friend (a literal friend. haha) and we already have our appointments set so there's no going back.

Alright... I'm gonna go check out everyone's diaries. Hope you're all doing well. <3
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I'm glad to see you back. Sorry about your dog! Be happy you haven't gained anything, and then jump back on the horse. I hope you feel well soon. My body is being wacky too. Good Luck at the gyno.
 
Hi Elle,
Sooooo sorry about your dog. I know you loved him. :hug2::hug2:

Glad you're feeling better.:) Hope everything checks out at the gyno.

Yep, maintaining is great when you're going through rough times. Those are the times when people tend to go back to bad habits and stay there. You've done a great job.:)
 
Hey elle, long time no see. I'm sorry I haven't been by here in a while. A lot of stuff has been going on with my family too. Things just keep pulling up on us. Anyways, I hope they figure out what is wrong with you very soon and I am glad your feeling better. I am so sorry about your pup. I know how hard it is to have to say goodbye to them. I have had to do that too. Its like they are your baby and i couldn't personally ever give a child of mine up. well anyways glad to see even through hard times you were still able to maintain your weight loss and not to back to bad habits.

hugs girl, heather
 
wtf! ...seriously?!

Miss Bella, Brandy, Kimberly, Amber & Heather:
You girls are awesome.

I suck at being around here for the past... god, I don't know how long.
I'm never online anymore really.

I just can't seem to get back into the groove of things lately. I want to exercise but I'm just finding it really hard to get that motivation. Even though I bought a new pair of jeans the other day from Old Navy and they're a size 12, you'd think that that alone would be a great motivator seeing my pants go from a size 19-21 to a size 12 in thirteen weeks. I think I'm at that point where some people say in their heads 'oh, well I lost a bunch of weight so I don't feel so bad anymore so I can rest up for awhile.'

Well, I don't want to rest. I want to lose more weight and get to my goal but I'm suffering from a lack of motivation. And I haven't come on here because even when I am online, I feel like I'm letting everyone down by having not lost virtually anything and by being in a slump.

I know that I probably should come back on here and catch up with everyone because when I was on here all the time before, I was so motivated and felt like I was on top of the world. I think come friday, I will start being on here more regularly. I get my new internet installed then and of course I'll want to mess around with it. So I'll have no excuse to not come by.

So friday, I WILL be on here and I WILL read everyone's journals and comment. Also, exercising will happen then too.

Alright, I've got some crap to do around the house (dog got fleas so she needs a bath and a spray down. EW) but Friday, I will be here. I love you all and will see how everyone is doing then.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
 
:drooling:Hey Elle~:jump:
Glad to see that you popped back in on us!! And you know for sure that I wouldn't ever let ya down! :beating:
I know what you mean about the lack of motivation. :drooling: I usually get that everytime I am losing weight and I get to a certain point. Either people start asking if I am losing weight or I get to my first goal and then I just slack way off. But not this time!!! As hubby says I am hyper-motivated! :rotflmao:
You'll have to stop by my diary to catch up on everything as it is way to much to put in here but needless to say I will have no reasons for not working out daily!
So stop on by........looking forward to hearing from you.
Don't let that non-motivation get to you- YOU CAN DO THIS AND YOU HAVE DONE THIS!!!!
So like I always say,"Grab that bull by the horns and throw him to the ground then give him a good swift kick!" I know you can do it!!!!
 
Hey Elle,
I agree with Bella--sometimes you just have to make yourself do it. Now if only I could take my own advice when it comes to eating...lol.

Good to see you back! :hug2:
 
Hey Elle, everyone has their moments when things we just don't feel like doing things. I know up until sunday i believe it was i hadn't exercised on my elliptical for 2 weeks. I went to see my husband with alex and leaving him was harder then I had ever imagined it would be. usually it was always him leaving to go back to where he was stationed or back to afghanistan. Anyways that won't be happening anymore. He's coming home for good we just have no exact date yet and of course the military is taking their sweet time giving us one. Its driving me nuts.. lol anyways just saying that i know where your coming from. take care and hope you get back into the swing of things really soon.

heather
 
Hi miss bella!
Thanks for the support and encouragement hun. :] I'm glad that you're doing so awesomely this time around!! I'll be sure that once I post this, I'll stop by your diary and catch up with what's been going on.


Thanks for stopping by Kimberly!! I'm planning on starting fresh tomorrow morning, bright and early :] Exercise, eating well (just went grocery shopping so it won't be hard), and keeping motivated!


I'm sorry Heather! I hope that they give you a date soon, it's that waiting period that's always the worst. I'm glad though that you, alex and your husband won't have to deal with him leaving again. :] I'm glad you started working out again, I'm getting into it again tomorrow. lol



Okay, so today was a really looooong day... and it's only 4! Got our internet hooked up which took from 12.30-3.00. Yeah, way too long. So now my day is feeling pretty much gone. haha. And it definitely doesn't help that it's freaking freezing out!

Alright, I'm gonna look at some journals and try and make it all the way through them all. But if I don't, I'll get at it tomorrow. Tomorrow morning, I will be waking up and doing my day right. Exercise, eating well and not being so glum. I'm gonna get back into this and kick my own booty!!
 
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