Tales of Chub Rub: peachykeen's diary

peachykeen

peachykeen

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So I woke up and I'm fat. Not sure at what point I stopped taking care of myself and started making bad choices. Can't remember when I put down the grapes and picked up the potato chips, or chose a Netflix marathon over training for a marathon. But I did. It's unclear when putting on my jeans from a laying position became the condition instead of the exception. When skinny jeans became my reality-not because I purchased them, but because my boot cuts just became too snug and calling them skinny jeans made the reality sting a little less. Why I got so out of control I started avoiding mirrors, sneaking candy shamefully in a bathroom so only I knew my horrible addiction, and needing to catch my breath after a flight of stairs. Where I became the "funny one" to my friends because who wants to hang out with the fat chick if she's not even good for a laugh? I am angry with myself that I got here, and ready to take my life back, instead of feeling like a prisoner in my own skin. So there's my truth: out loud, (un)proud, and working to get out of this hole I have dug for myself before it's too late and I'm buried in it.
 
Welcome to the forum peachykeen. Your story could have been my story. I don't how it happened to me either. My turning point was a visit to Vietnam in 2006 where I felt like a big fat giant. 6 months later I decided to do something about it and did. I lost 36kgs & am currently 5.5kg above my lowest weight.
Most of us in the forum have been or still are where you are now. The support in here is really good & is non-judgemental. Use your diary however you want. It is your space. Tell us how you're feeling, ask questions, just chat. We'll come visit you in your diary & you are welcome to come visit ours. Cheers and all the best, Cate.
 
peachykeen said:
So I woke up and I'm fat. Not sure at what point I stopped taking care of myself and started making bad choices. Can't remember when I put down the grapes and picked up the potato chips, or chose a Netflix marathon over training for a marathon. But I did. It's unclear when putting on my jeans from a laying position became the condition instead of the exception. When skinny jeans became my reality-not because I purchased them, but because my boot cuts just became too snug and calling them skinny jeans made the reality sting a little less. Why I got so out of control I started avoiding mirrors, sneaking candy shamefully in a bathroom so only I knew my horrible addiction, and needing to catch my breath after a flight of stairs. Where I became the "funny one" to my friends because who wants to hang out with the fat chick if she's not even good for a laugh? I am angry with myself that I got here, and ready to take my life back, instead of feeling like a prisoner in my own skin. So there's my truth: out loud, (un)proud, and working to get out of this hole I have dug for myself before it's too late and I'm buried in it.
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Hey @peachykeen

This is step 1. You have made the realisation so you are already on your journey.

Don't fret, don't panic, you are at the right place in this forum, a lot of people will help you here and a lot of people have been where you are.

I lost 45 pounds in 3 months and didn't even feel like a diet.

Have you tried the Paleo?

I am happy to help.

Alfie
 
Thank you, Cate. I appreciate the kind words. I have a long road, but great support in family, and this online community seems very nice.
 
Paleo, thank you very much. I have not tried that diet, although I'm not much of a meat eater, so I am just trying to focus on eating healthy and exercising right now.
 
Welcome! I am new here as well, and started a couple of days ago. The good thing about this forum, is you feel somehow accountable once you start writing..
 
Hi peachykeen, If you have your family's support that is such a bonus. It is a lovely community. I have made great friends here & have got to meet some personally. I am really honest in my diary- with myself & with everyone else. We get to know one another & get genuine unconditional support. Concentrating on eating healthy & exercising more is enough to set you on course. Cheers, Cate.
 
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