Taking the Plunge.

Well... just got a compliment so Im in a bit of better spirits to end the day, The people I baby sit for are mid-20s and the husband came home, he's always a little awkward but I got home and the wife fb-chatted me thanking me for taking care of the kids and said "Nick said he thought that you looked beautiful and fit, but didn't think it was appropriate to say so. So I'm passing on the compliment :) " so I really needed and appreciated that today. Granted its been a year or maybe even two now since I've seen him but atleast someone noticed something, ya know?

Unfortunately this was followed by my Mom seeing the new scale and asking why I needed it... wtf? Definitely peeved me a bit, I swear she's in denial sometimes.
 
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I know, that might change her tune... but idk, I just try and ignore it because I would love to lose the weight and throw it in her face (as horrible as that sounds)... and i decided to weigh myself again this morning since I've heard its best to weigh yourself in the morning before you eat anything so as of this morning I was 160.8... I guess that makes me feel a little better about myself because its on my 160 number but I'm just keeping at it & hopefully I will see results soon. *fingers crossed*
 
Well its been a good day :)
It was absolutely beautiful out today, around 84 degrees which compared to the 97 we've been having in the south is pretty AMAZING. I was sure to take full advantage... I took the dogs I walk daily on a nice long brisk paced walk up around their very hilly neighborhood then came back to my own dog being rather hyper and still having a spring in my step so we went for a run around the neighborhood... Then I had dinner with my parents at Showmars, it was so yummy, I had a Grilled chicken pita with lettuce, tomato, and pita sauce... and even resisted the fries my Mom offered multiple times... then I went riding and my Dad came to watch for the first time in years... the drive there and back was really nice because I was also to take a few minutes to mention the frustration I've been having with my Mom. He understood, she tends to make critical comments toward those she loves most. :/ Oh well, atleast he knows how I feel now and he can watch out for my frustration around her and stick up for me a bit more, he might even tell her to lay off a bit in one of their late night talks? ... Anyway, I feel good about it for now

To eat I had:
Just over a cup of Quaker Oatmeal Squares cereal (end of the box) prob 300 cals
A ham and cheese sandwich
An apple
A grilled chicken pita with lettuce and tomato
 
So today has been ok, nothing too special... For exercise I took the dogs for another nice long walk and I'm going riding in the morning :)

Its the end of the week so groceries were sparse and so I changed things up a bit
Breakfast: Natures Valley Honey Nut Granola bars (140 cals)
Lunch: Sushi- California Roll, with brown rice, immitation crab, avacado... No soy sauce
A cup of sliced Strawberries
An Apple (snack)
& for dinner I splurged and had a sub from Firehouse, a club... but I'm still managing to resist desert and a Mt. Dew :)
 
That's so nice that your Dad is so understanding. And way to resist the fries! That's one thing I need to work on. Saying no to free food. My Dad offers to take me out for ice cream every chance he gets, just to test me. I finally started saying no last night! So it is possible :)
Chicken pitas sound really good right now.
 
Haha I think the saying no to free food thing is part of being a poor college student, we take what we can get when we get it... but good for you to resist, its definitely difficult! & Yes the chicken pita was so yummy! Im pretty sure I could eat that daily!

Well last night was eventful with my ex... gotta love them... not. It's an extremely complicated situation but in the end he constantly treated me like crap and somehow I still choose to be friends with him which leads to some very interesting conversations when he's had a drink or two and/or is having issues with his current girlfriend (who he started officially dating in order to piss me off)... so last night was no exception, however, I really wish I had the guts to use the comebacks that come to mind to some of those texts but no matter how much he has screwed me over I'm still ridiculously nice to him and put up with way too much. Heck, if it tells you anything all my friends hated him and my Mom said if I got back with him she'd disown me... (in a half joking/half serious way) ... so I feel like I should admit that part of me is trying to lose weight for myself and for my next relationship, to make myself more confident with guys (so I learn I don't have to put up with shit like his anymore) ... and part of me wants to show him even more what he's missing. (He admits to regretting letting me go) ... Wouldn't it be nice to put up a hot pic of me in a bikini on facebook? Ok, end rant.

On a good note I weighed myself this morning and I'm officially out of the 160s, I weighed 158.8 :)
 
Ah! Isn't it awesome getting out of that last weight set? I'll hopefully be out of the 170's by next week. It feels so good!
I know exactly how you feel with your ex. Mine was a total beefcake. Shaggy blonde hair, blue eyes, and a complete fitness freak. It would be super tasty to be able to look hot next time I run into him.
Making ex-boyfriends jealous (and I hate to admit this) is probably one of the top 5 reasons I want to lose weight. So much for altruism.
Anyway, he sounds shisty as hell. I vote you don't get him the time of day six months from now, and watch him drool.
 
It was a very exciting moment for me! Its encouraging that I might actually be on my way to achieving the goal I've set.
& I agree with the ex's thing... it's a tough one to admit because you try and make it about you and bettering yourself but its an added punch. My most recent and troublesome was naturally skinny but was starting to get a beer belly and put on a senior 15, maybe more :p but since he graduated in May so he no longer has the excuse of being a college kid, he's just letting himself go. However, I do prefer to stay atleast cordial because as odd as it is I'm still close to his Mom, she became a second mom to me, one who's a little more sane and a lot more encouraging... She proved to me that a boyfriend's Mom can see me for more than the stealer of her son & never just saw me as his play toy, instead I was actually a person. She even calls me her daughter substitute since he's an only child :) But I would definitely love to see him drool, that would be quite possibly the best revenge, especially because I'm a believer that Karma is a bigger bitch than I need to be with ex's.

But I've had a good day so far
I had a cup of sliced strawberries for breakfast (out of cereal)
The other half of my Firehouse sub for lunch (I know those are rather high in calories so I keep that in mind for the rest of the day)
An apple for snack
& dinner is yet to come, hopefully it will be something healthy, im contemplating cereal since we went to the grocery store.

I also got to see my future roommate today, it's really nice to see people from school over the summer because I really do miss all of them!
 
Well as much as I'd like to report that I had cereal for dinner as I'd originally planned that didn't happen. I ended up going out with my parents and two of their friends for a half month late birthday dinner for my Dad. It was my first time at a restaurant since starting my journey and boy was it difficult, we had mexican, which isn't my favorite but I ended up having shredded pork tacos with guac and lettuce... which was preceded by chips and salsa/cheese dip... although, I didn't eat nearly as many as I usually would have its kind of awkward to just not eat any because the rest of the table looks at you funny... then they brought out my Dad's birthday surprise which I had a few bites of and I can only imagine the calories that masterpiece had... but then I went out with some friends to shoot off fireworks and was able to resist the alcohol temptation placed in front of me.

Unfortunately some of my newer friends (who know my future roommate) asked me to go swimming today and while I think it would have been fun they all have perfect bodies and I don't have a suit I like, my covering one is ugly and I still have way too much tummy to wear that bikini and not feel extremely self conscious around their perfect bodies. So I blamed it on having to hang out with the family till this evening and I will just stick to my neighborhood pool for soaking up the sun.

On a positive note I did get up bright and early and went riding, the mare was being a bit of a brat so i feel like i got a good workout... however, Im trying to convince myself not to over compensate for last nights disaster meal on todays food choices. So far I've had a cup of cereal with milk (250 cals) & water... but It's 12:52pm and I'm contemplating skipping lunch and just having a snack later (My Mom's making steak for dinner which will probably include baked potatoes and something else horribly fattening) I'm definitely in that guilty phase right now.
 
Oh & last nights famous text from the ex "Do you ever watch Dog the Bounty hunter and think your boobs could be that big one day?" ... More fuel to my fire.
 
Well I wasn't super last night/yesterday, I ended up snacking on my fair share of watermelon and an apple before having a salad, steak, and corn on the cob for dinner. Luckily my Mom didnt make the peach cobbler she plans on just yet so I hope that will be resistable... I was pretty ticked yesterday when she came home from the grocery store with 2 containers of chocolate chip cookies, 2 bags of peanut m&ms, & peaches for cobbler... However, I resisted when she offered to make me a ham, egg, & cheese sandwich for breakfast this morning. & I once again resisted alcohol last night :)
I also walked to and from the neighborhood pool when we went yesterday while my parents drove the short distance.
 
I took the dogs on a walk today and I've had:
1 cup cereal (250 cals)
1 Peach
Watermelon
5 cal crystal light fruit punch pouch
We will see how dinner goes...
& On a personal note my internship starts tomorrow :D
 
Really great that you resisted all that food your Mom offered you. Its so hard to say no, especially to the stuff you love. I have the same problem with my Mom, and I haven't been near as good as you.
 
Thanks for the compliment, it's really tough, especially tonight, I'm about to give in to a piece of peach cobbler she made but I've told myself I will only have one piece total and might as well get some while its warm... and for dinner I had a Roasted chicken leg, 2 perogies, and a corn on the cob... I'm so good till dinner :(
 
Sending you good energy from here so you will have the courage to resist bad food. It is trail and error for all of us and it takes a lot of strength to say no to food that you are used to eating (or food that is so yummy). Good luck!
 
I'm rather frustrated right now, just hopped on the scale and it read 158.6, .2 pounds lower than last week :( I don't know what the heck is wrong cuz I'm definitely creating a calorie deficit.... well, I'll be on to vent later cuz I have to go to my internship soon but grrrrr I can't believe it, I'm really trying, and in the almost 3 weeks Ive been trying really hard I've lost 2 pounds, tops.
 
I've been riding horses (one & sometimes two) atleast twice a week. and I go for atleast a 30 minute walk every day... and run like twice a week :/ I don't have a gym and its really hot so Im really limited with exercise right now... but I just started my internship this week where im active and on my feet 6 hours a day. I'm so frustrated, for the first time in a long time I'm actually sticking to it for longer than a couple days and I hate not seeing results.
 
Would it be at all possibly to get a tiny set of free weights, or an exercise band? Muscle is so important when it comes to metabolism.
You'll see results, I promise, just keep truckin!
 
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