SweetGreenPear's Diary

sweetgreenpear

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Partly because of frustration, partly because of optimism, partly because of the closing of one chapter of my life and moving on to another, I find myself (once again) newly aware of my desire to change my body. I have been overweight my whole life and have had varying degrees of success (and subsequent failure) attempting to lose weight that I have carried since I was a toddler, became aware of as a child, was tormented for as an adolescent, invisible because of as a young adult, and to which I am ultimately grateful for the development of character would never have happened without.

I am graduating in the summer - Ph.D. in Communication. Dr. Pear. I'm in the midst of job interviews, relying on my personality, my charm, my humor, my skill and knowledge to get, knowing that my weight may be working against me. I am in love with a man who loves me back. We talk about marriage and children and forever, and he struggles with his weight too. He motivates me. He encourgages me. He makes me want to lose the weight for myself.

I am here because when I did Atkins years upon years ago, my failure coincided with my departure from an AOL support forum for Atkins dieters. I have yet to figure out what it is, but the supportiveness of people who empathize, and who do not judge because they are in the same boat, there is something about that which enables a person. Enables me.

My goals for my weight loss are to start, and continue and make forward progress. I hesitate to put a number or size on it because you may set a weight goal which doesn't correspond to a size goal or vice versa, and I am likely to dwell on the indicator showing lesser progress than more. However, I realize goals are motivating. As such, I wish to lose 40 pounds for my current long range goal. I wish to lose 5 pounds by the time spring break begins on March 4. This is slightly longer than 2 weeks to achieve this goal. I don't know if it is possible but it is what I am shooting for. To acheive this goal, I will be returning to LA Weight Loss centers were I found my last episode of success - 11 pounds. I will see the ladies at LA Weight Loss tomorrow, and begin my plan again.

I look forward to success.

Thanks for having me.
 
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Glad to welcome you to the WLF! Hope you find the support you are looking for. Lots of bery nice people to help you out along the way!!:)
 
welcome - glad you found your way in here.. :D

congrats on almost being a Dr.. that's exciting and sounds like you've got a great partner... and someone to be a teammate with :D

you've gone this far - you can have the weight you want :D
 
Thanks to all for the very warm welcome I have received since being here. Much appreicated. :)

So far being a member of this forum is exactly what I was hoping - I announced to no one in real life, but rather to this forum - that I was restarting my food plan this week, and I did it. I went over there, got hassled by an empathic counselor, and embarked on a new path. So, what I will announce to this forum via my diary is that this week, I will go to the gym. I don't know what day, or for how long, or how many days, but before the end of Saturday, I will see the inside of the gym and hop on an elliptical.

When I started my diary last time I didn't answer the recommended questions. I have thought about the answers though, and think it would be useful to post them now. So here goes . . .

-- How much weight do you want to lose?
How much I want to lose and how much I feel I can manage thinking about losing right now are two different things. I would LIKE to lose all but about 150 pounds (I currently weigh 230.8 pounds). More realistically, though, I have set the manageable goal of 199. That's the current me minus 31.8 pounds.

-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
At an ideal rate of 1.5 pounds per week, 20 weeks. The half-way goal is 15.9 pounds by April 28.

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
I am on the LA Weight Loss plan. I need the one-on-one counselling, modifications to the plan as I lose, and the stringent structure of a plan like that. I don't feel confident in my ability to make reasonable food choices just yet. For now, this really is a diet working toward a lifestyle change. I have to learn the skill set yet.

-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
My counselor at LA Weight Loss, this forum, and probably most importantly, my partner, Jerry. He is amazing. He struggles. He gets it. We are temporarily long distance due to a relocation he took for work which should end in June. In the meantime, we talk every day, I tell him how I'm doing, we make plans to work out on the same day to help keep each other in line, motivated and accountable. He wants to lose about 30 pounds himself (which I realize he'll do faster than I will), but he really sees my renewed motivation as something that he can motivate himself with as well.

-- How realistic is your goal?
Very, I think. I'm Portuguese/Puerto Rican - my body is just thick independent of the extra weight. I have no delusions about shrinking down to being a teeny little thing, I'm not shooting for a size 4 or anything. A 16. A comfortable 16 that would make me happy. We hit that goal, then we can regroup, revise and set out after something else. This is hard enough to do without trying to move a mountain.

-- When will you start?
I started today. I visited LA Weight Loss yesterday, got back on plan, and though I feel tremendous amounts of anxiety over it, I'm probably going to get a membership to the gym here on campus and work out tonite. Gym closes at 11 so I still have some time to make up my mind, but I really don't want to bite off more than I can chew this week.
 
Welcome Pear, and congratulations on being close to your degree. I am an undergrad communication major at Arizona State. Where are you? What do you plan to do with your degree when you have it?

Be encouraged in your weight loss! You can do it!
 
Best of luck to you on your quest. With the right frame of mind, you can surely succeed. 150 is a reality if you believe it. And I have seen much larger weight losses.

I look forward to watching you progress almost Dr. Pear.
 
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