Stinkers' Diary

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I found and joined this forum a week or so ago. I have been debating whether to write a diary. I wanted to because I think it will help in many ways. I think I feared being laughed at or being the most overweight person on here. Well today I decided I would do it. I need the support from others that have been down the same road, that are just starting out like me. So here goes. I am bigger than I have ever been in my life. I wanted to do something about it but had the attitude of "what's the use". The hubby and I eat healthy. I just also included lots of sweets and junk food. I finally admitted to myself that I am addicted to food. I am also an emotional eater of junk food. During this past Christmas I did the cookies, candy, etc. and wow did I feel like crap. It occurred to me that the reason I was feeling so yucky was the sugar and junk. I didn't do the New Year's resolution, even though it was in January that I decided I was going to do something about the weight and that once I made this decision I would truly give it my all. I have been on every diet imaginable and they lasted only a few days. So I decided I would be on the common sense diet. I would eat healthy, portioned foods and that I would walk while I did this. I was definitely the couch potato. Because of the weight, I huffed and puffed if I tried to do anything, therefore that made me feel embarassed so I didn't do any form of exercise. So I started out 5 mins. a day on the treadmill at 1.7 (speed). I did that for a while and when I became comfortable with that I increased this. I am doing 15 mins. at 2.3, twice a day and doing some weights. I have lost 7.5 lbs. It may not sound like much but it is major to me. I feel better. I think writing this down and hopefully having support from you guys will definitely help. My family and friends mean well, but sometimes it makes things worse. I have a long journey a head of me and I realize that. I have accepted that and I will take it a week at a time. I am not going to make unrealistic goals. I feel lucky that at this time I have no major medical problems, but I don't want to push my luck. :eek:
 
I am back. Trying to get my diary ready. I am hoping to get this ticker on here correctly. Seeing the weight and my progress will help. I started my life change eating habits 7 days ago and it hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. Dinner tonight was a baked chicken thigh, skinless, steamed cabbage and steamed green beans. I am portioning the food. So it is 1/2 cup of the veggies. Iced tea with Splenda and lemon. I will start with tonight and go from there. I have been doing this since January 23rd, but I won't go back and try and list all of the foods. Prior to dinner I did my second walk on the treadmill. Even though it has only been a week I feel much better.
 
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:D Eat as much of the veggies as you want! Just make sure they aren't smothered in delicious sauces, lol. I'm lucky that I like them plain or with just a slight buttery film over them, because I can eat 3 or 4 cups of veggies at a time, even a couple of pounds is pretty easy to eat, if I really like them.

It sounds like you are seriously beginning to make things work, and I think it's great that you are making a diary; it really helps keep me honest. Exercise is a great thing to write down, too. It REALLY helps you track your progress, and to understand things like "I've stalled out my weight loss at 20 lbs, and it feels like I can't lose anything to save my life, but I can walk a couple of miles with no problem!" Sometimes it takes a friend to point out that we are building muscle even when we aren't obviously losing weight; just fat.

Anyhoo, I hope to see you posting here regularly, it makes a big difference in my life to do so, and I hope it helps you, as well.
 
Hi QJ, Thanks for your encouragement. I feel very good about this "change" of my eating habits. I hate the "D" word, LOL. You are so right about the rich sauces. That's the problem now, lol, I have had all of those rich sauces, delicious breads, fried foods, etc. too often. I think I am going to enjoy this diary. When you are writing it and then reading it....wow is that a wake up call. Thanks again for your support, hope to see you around.
 
welcome to the forum and to your diary - i wish you much success on your journey - you've got the right attitude so i'm sure you'll do fine.

There's no reason why you can't have your favorite things - just adjust them to your new lifestyle... theres a ton of resources on the web with low fat cooking recipes...

enjoy
 
Hi Maleficent, Thank you for your support also. I am glad to be here. You are right about having the things that you like, I just have to learn the true meaning of moderation. LOL Growing up in the south, that's how "love" was shown my making your favorite dishes. lol Thanks again.
 
If you want some real fun, come back and reread your posts in a few weeks, see how much "you-now" annoys the heck out of "you-then". :D Of course, you have to post a few pages of material between now and then or it won't make sense.

By the way... Motivation and encouragement are the most important factors about making yourself healthy, to me. There are a lot of different ways to accomplish your goals and some do work better than others, but the most important thing is to actually work on getting rid of body fat in a relatively healthy way.
No matter what else you might see or how confusing things might get, keep your real goal in mind and don't be afraid to modify your plan if some part of it seems to be failing you. The plan can always be improved, the important thing is to keep working on it.
 
LOL, I am sure re-reading the posts will be quite interesting and fun. Looking forward to it. You are so right about the motivation and encouragement. That is why I am looking forward to this forum. I don't feel like I am the only one that has these issues now and if I am having a bad day I can have someone to get me back on track. Thank you again for the advice, believe me I truly appreciate it.
 
Wecome to the forum! Looks like you've got a good plan. You should do very well and when you need help write it down in here, we all have opinions!;)
 
Hi Stinker (OK, I really hate calling you that!) ;)

Welcome to the WLF and to your diary!

First, I want you to know, you are NOT alone. You are NOT the largest person at this site - and even if you were...this is where to start!

When I started, I had over 100 pounds to lose (many of us here did/do), and let me tell ya, I remember the feeling of "What's the use" it is the most overwhelming thought I ever had.

However, (and this is a BIG However), you CAN do it.
One day at a time.
One meal at a time.
One pound at a time.

All those pounds you've got ahead of you to lose will come off exactly the same. One at a time.

You know the old you is not the person you want to be. It's about making small steps each and every day towards your goal. There will always be meals that could have been better then others - that's called life - what counts is that those meals don't side track you from the over all downward progression.

You CAN do this.

Welcome again to the WLF :)
 
Today has been going good. Had a good nights' sleep. Was up around 7:30 am. Had my cup of tea w/splenda and lemon. Through me some sweats and a t-shirt on and did my walk on the treadmill. I am doing 15 mins. at 2.3, twice a day. After I do my walk, I work with a couple of 5 lb. dumb bells. It actually feels good. I was never one to exercise much but since starting this, I actually look forward to it. They say it takes 21 days of doing something to get into a habit of it, it must be true. Breakfast was 3/4 c. of Weight Watchers Almond crisp oat bran cereal w/blueberries, skim milk for cereal, 1-scrambled egg, 6 oz. glass of skim milk to take my vitamins. I almost forgot, I did start on my bottle of water while I was walking. Lunch will be tuna w/chopped celery and a little chopped onion, low fat dressing on some salad and chopped tomato, iced tea. DH will be home for lunch. He is being very supportive also. Since all of my family live in Louisiana it's hard to explain to them how you are feeling and all. They just want to feed you so you will feel better. LOL That's why I am enjoying this diary. I can see it in black and white. And when I decided to do this, I made a deal with myself that no matter what I would write down everything. The good days and the bad days. I also appreciate the feed back that I get from the people here. It really helps. I guess this is it for now. I don't weigh again until Feb. 5th. That will be interesting that day.
 
Thank you M2M. You will never know how much that helps me. Oh, please call me Jan. It's a long story on how I got this nickname and it has just stuck with me for my computer use. It has been many a day that I said it was no use me even trying because I felt like it was too much weight to lose, I was too old, (47), I felt like I was the only one that was trying to lose, everybody else was getting to eat what they wanted, etc. I had many excuses on why not to do it. Finally, towards the end of December 2006, I decided I was tired of feeling yucky, my DH was worried about me and I finally realized that I am very lucky in many ways and should be the happiest person in the world but I wasn't because of the weight. The weight was the only thing I could come up with that I wasn't happy about. So DUH, do something about it then. So I had a long talk with myself, and explained to myself, LOL, it wasn't going to be easy and instead of expecting the weight to be off of me in a couple of weeks I set realistic goals for myself and decided I would truly give it my 100 %. I also decided it wasn't just a diet for a few weeks that it would be a good, healthy life change. My new words are moderation and portion sizes. Oh gosh, I didn't mean to ramble on. Again, thanks for your encouragement and please call me Jan.
 
You got it Jan - I just can't call you Stinker!

I can relate to all you posted - I think when you get to that point, where you have that talk with yourself, you just KNOW it's time to make a change.

Even though I was committed to doing it at the beginning - I think there was part of me that still didn't believe it.

Me? Under 200 pounds? Um. No. Hadn't seen the underbelly of that number in oh, 20 years or so.

Me? Wearing clothes that can be bought some place other then Lane Bryant or those "specialty size" stores? Um. No.

But slowly our vision becomes reality.

You've got an excellent mind set - and truly, the best place to start.
It's not a diet. Diets fail - they do by design. I could NEVER have gone on a diet. Never. Not and stayed on it.

I could change my idea of portions. I could drink a bit more water, choose moderation and maybe move a bit more.

I made lots of small changes at first - I had been losing weight for 19 weeks before I ever counted a calorie. It truly was about small steps. Every day.

It took me 20 years to get to where I was - I could take 2 years to get to where I want to be.

At 47 you're not too old. You don't weigh too much and it isn't hopeless.

Jan, you can SO do it!
I'm glad you're here.
 
200 pounds? HA! Not since I was about 14.
I prefer to call you Stinker, but then again, I am that kind of guy :D

It's good to see you are already planning for what to do if you have a bad meal; and to not let it throw off the rest of your day.
 
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