*Stephanie's Diary*

Your doing great Stephanie! I dont know if your like me and can't stand the thought of water but I've been buying the Crystal Light in the classic Orange and I could drink that stuff all day.. Makes water taste a whole lot better!! I look forward to seeing your weigh in results on Monday i'm sure you will do great!!
 
Stephanie hope you had a great weekend!! One of the things that makes it easier for me to drink more water is I keep a bottle on my desk and I never let it hit empty. It seems like I can drink more from a bottle than I can from a glass, I know it's weird but it's just one of those things that work for me :)
 
Yeah I agree with the bottle/glass thing. I had a 12 pk I was going to put in the fridge at work and went off and forgot it this morning but I did drink alot of water over the weekend :) I was wondering about that Crystal Light too. Do you buy it in the bottles already or is it like pre-packaged powder and what exactly is it, just flavoring with no calories?? It is hard for me to get in the routine of drinking water all day, every day so that Crystal Light might help out alot. I also have a great story for you guys! I had been using this 20 + year old scale that I took from my mom when I moved out. Well since I decided to become very dedicated to losing weight and being healthy I thought it was the right time to go buy a new scale. So I bought a digital one and it even tells you how much you have lost or gained since you last weighed in. It is VERY cool!! Well I get it home and try it out and it says I only weigh 163!!!!!!!!!!!! That old scale told me last week that I weighed 175!!!!! My jaw hit the frikken floor, I could not believe it!! So just an fyi out there to anyone who is using an old scale and thinks it doesnt make a difference, it does!! So my Monday morning weigh in was 160.2 and so that is where I am going to officially start this weight count from week to week. Also, heres my food from Friday, Saturday, and Sunday....

Friday - Worked out for 20 minutes on Elliptical machine before breakfast
Breakfast - Half a wheat bagel & apple juice....285
Lunch - Lean Cuisine & water.....290
Supper - 2 eggs, fried w/ light butter & 2 strips of turkey bacon....268
2 beers...190
Friday Total.....1033

Saturday - Worked out for 20 minutes on Elliptical machine before breakfast and rearranged living room furniture all by myself :)
Breakfast - Frosted Mini-wheats w/ skim milk....437
Lunch - 2 homemade Low Cal Banana Nut Muffins...354 (I was running errands all over town before the game so I just brought these & some water with me so I wouldnt be tempted to eat fast food)
Game Time & Supper - One bowl of homemade chilli w/ fritos....360
4 beers....380
Saturday total.....1544
I know Saturdays food is not all that great but I knew I would be eating and drinking more since it was game day so I tried to make up for it on Friday & Sunday. OH! and Alabama lost :( Oh well, we'll get 'em next year!

Sunday - didnt work out at all :(
Breakfast - skipped (I didnt wake up until almost 11)
Lunch - Boneless Buffalo Wings w/ side salad & water.....1000 (I looked this up on the restaraunt website and it said 1150 but I'm reporting 1000 because I ended up only eating about half of the serving of the wings so its really probably less on this but I'm going to say 1100 to be safe)
Supper - One Low Cal Banana Nut Muffin......177
1 beer.....95
Sundays total....1272
Sundays food probably wasnt that great either but I think I did pretty good considering I NEVER try and figure out how many calories I take in when eating out but it was a real eye opener when I figured this out. But all in all I think I had a good weekend. I know there have been many of weekends when I ate WAAAAAYY more than that just purely out of boredom and my boyfriend works on Saturdays so it can be hard to not eat out of boredom so I am fairly proud of myself :) Yay me! It was hard to calculate the calories in the homemade stuff too but since I made the stuff myself I knew what I was putting into it so I tried to stay as light as possible on everything and I calculated the calories using the calorieking.com (Thanks sooooo much for that link! It has helped soooo much!!!) So that is my food from the weekend and my Monday morning weigh in. Ya'll are great and thanks once again for everything!
 
Looking good Stephanie! I use to but Crystal light I got it in Individual powder containers and poured them straight into a watter bottle and drank it that way. Its good when you dont like water real well. I hate water so I put Cayanne pepper on nearly all my food to make me drink more. I guess we all do what we got to do. Your food looks good by the way. Saturday isnt too bad, it could of been worse. Congrats on your weight how awesome to find you actually weigh less then you think I would love that my unfortunantly my hubby and all 4 girls have been on mine and it seems about right...darn it...LOL, anyway sweetie keep up the great work. You are doing awesome!
 
Thanks for the Cayanne Pepper trick Julie! Thats a really good idea! I started drinking alot of water today and it has left me feeling very full. I am feeling ok today but I am really not looking forward to Thanksgiving on Thursday. I always pick this time of the year to start losing weight and it always puts a damper on the holidays. I am still planning on enjoying some of my favorite foods, I just dont want to over eat and its really hard not to you know? I'll stay strong though :) I'm going to try and fill up on turkey and just have one peice of my pie, not one of each :) Ok well here's my food from yesterday....

Breakfast - One Low Cal Banana Nut Muffin w/ apple juice....287
Lunch - Lean Cuisine.....290
Supper - One Bowl of Chili w/ Fritos.....470 (I was really hungry so I had two servings of Fritos!!)
2 beers....190
Mondays Total - 1237

Yesterday was pretty good except I didnt work out. Me and my boyfriend have been REALLY lazy this week since its a short week but I think I'm gong to work out when I get home today so I can have that piece of pie on Thursday :) Ok well thats all I got for now but I'll be back. Bye :)
 
Enjoy your piece of pie on Turkey Day but like you said just have one slice instead of one of each. I'm going to try and fill up on the veggies and the turkey and stay away from the carbs and the starches. It's going to be tough but it's what I have to do.
 
Doing good!

Your doing really good! You are very pretty with that smile:)
 
Yeah that is part of my problem. Its like I forget what I'm doing and my goals and stuff. And its not that I dont want it bad enough but you just get caught in this routine of eating a certain way and having fast food at your fingertips and it really does cloud your judgement. And I make excuses for myself like I just did. I weighed myself this morning I gained 2 pounds over the holidays. I weighed myself the Wednesday before Thanksgiving and I was down a pound and I weighed this morning and I am up 2. I ate Thanksgiving leftovers all weekend (and it really wasnt so much the pie!) so I dont have calories to report because I really did eat homemade leftovers all weekend. Thanksgiving weekend was not so great so of course I spent the whole time making myself feel better by eating. I mean I had fun but this time of the year is always kind of confusing for me. I know this isnt the relationship forum, but I have been with this guy for 5 years and every year we go around to our families and eat and they all ask the same thing "When are yall getting married?" and we just sit there because this issue haunts us to no end. This time of the year its really nice to have someone to enjoy all the holiday fun with but we usually spend it in this akward "Dont ask, dont tell" stage because I want to talk about it and I know he doesnt and he knows I do and it drives me crazy. He doesnt want to get married "right now" but 5 years?!?!?! I mean do you put a time limit on these things? And the fact that he isnt breaking down the door to marry me makes me question myself and our love and I just dont understand if its me, or something I do, or dont do and it makes me think "ok what about when he is ready, is the fact that it took him this long mean that he thinks he has to do this because he owes it to me or does he really want to, are we really in love??" I just dont know and I know the smart thing to do would be talk about it with him but I cant. He does not want to talk about this at all and if I ever bring it up he starts the conversation out fine but you can tell in his voice he is getting mad because he wants to avoid it and I want answers. I feel stupid for getting upset over this but I obviously know in my heart that there is something wrong or it wouldnt bother me. And I dont have anyone to talk to about this. I dont like to let my mom in on my business and no one I know really has good advice or really cares for that matter. I just dont understand why life cant really have the fairytale ending that its supposed to (or so I thought). But I am back on my diet today. After seeing that two pound jump this morning I thought I was going to breakdown right there on the scale. But it does feel better to get back on my routine of wheat bagels and lean cuisines so I am ok :)
 
Don't worry about the weight, it was the holidays and you're back to watching today :)
As far as the relationship thing, I was in a similiar situation about 5 years ago. I had been with someone for over 4 yrs and it got to the point where I felt if we weren't going to go to the next level there was no point staying together. I didn't need to get married the next day but I did need more of a commitment. We had a hard talk and decided that we were more comfortable with each other than in love with each other. It was hard realization here I had spent four years with someone just to find out we were better friends than anything else.
But I do believe it in the end it does work out. We're terrific friends he's married with kids and I'm engaged. Talk to your boyfriend as much as you guys don't want to discuss it you're right after 5 yrs you should.
 
Thanks for the reality check. I thought my feelings were justified, I guess I just needed someone who is not a male to remind me that my feelings do count. Alot of times I can supress it but I shouldnt have to. And I told him the same thing, I dont need to get married tomorrow but knowing that we really are going to one day would be nice. I just dont know what to do now, especially since its been confirmed that I am not losing my mind. Thanks alot for the reply, it helped alot!
 
I am feeling pretty good today so I was going to go ahead and post my food from yesterday...

Breakfast - Cheddar on Wheat Crackers & Water...200
Lunch - Lean Cuisine & Unsweet Tea....290
Supper - Foot long Subway Club & Water.....640
Yesterdays Total.....1130

I also weighed this morning and I lost a pound from yesterday so I feel alot better. I knew I just had some holiday food that hadnt digested yet! As for the relationship thing I'm just going to sit on it for a while. I dont want to make any quick hormone based decisions but I am going to talk to him about it when the time is right. I just dont know when that might be and I havent really decided what direction my life needs to go in yet so I'm going to think about it for a while. But I am sooo glad I feel better today. Yesterday just wasnt that great of a day. I guess coming back to work after a long break had me kind of ill too. I feel great today and I didnt even work out this morning either. I keep lowering the bar for what a "great day" is but I guess thats a good thing :) Ok well thats all for me today!
 
Yesterday was another great day so I am going to go ahead and post my food since I know for a fact I have a busy day ahead of me.

Breakfast - Cheddar on Wheat Crackers & Water....190
Lunch - Lean Cuisine & Unsweet Tea...290
Supper - Stir Fry Veggies & Shrimp & a little soda to drink with it (I couldnt resist and I was in need of some sugar)....250 (unless veggies have tons of calories I dont know about)
Bedtime Snack - Green Apple w/ Peanut Butter....300
Yesterdays Total.....1030

I know that number seems kind of small but I did cook my veggies in a little butter and yes I promise it was just a little!! But even though the number should be more around 1200 so my body doesnt start starving itself, I think the calories I took in were fulfilling so I think its ok :) Well I have tons of work to do so I am going to get started!!
 
Looking good Stephanie very impressed with your meals and your doing excellent staying within your calorie range. Good Job!!
 
Thanks Julie!! It was alot harder at the beginning than I thought but its come pretty easy now. I still find myself really hungry sometimes but its probably because since I am not eating food, I am thinking about it! Well I am going to go ahead and post my food from yesterday....

Breakfast - Cheddar on Wheat crackers & Unsweet Tea....190
Lunch - Lean Cuisine & Unsweet Tea......290
Supper - Grande Soft Taco (I know it wasnt the best choice but it sure did fill me up!) & Water.....450
2 beers....200
Yesterdays Total.....1130

So not too bad but I didnt really get my calories from good places but when I have days like yesterday I try and think positivly about it because I could have EASILY eaten waaaaay more than that so even though supper wasnt all that great for me it couldve been alot worse but I am getting there. Ok well I have another busy day so Im getting started....
 
Stephanie... I'm so bad.. I posted in your journal about the Crystal Light and I haven't been by to check on you for a while!! I'm so sorry!! It looks like your doing great! It is amazing how new scales can make a big difference!! lol.. But I also by the individual packs of crystal light.. I think there is 10 or so in a pack. I find it easier to just dump it in a water bottle shake it and go!
 
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Thanks for the fyi on the Crystal Light. I'm going to the store to re-stock all my low cal foods so I put it on my list! Heres my food from yesterday...

Breakfast - Wheat & Cheddar Crackers & Water...190
Lunch - Half Subway Club & Unsweet Tea.....320
Supper - Stir Fried Veggies & Beef......376
2 beers....200
Yesterday's total.....1086

Yesterdays total does a bit low but I did cook my veggies with a little butter so it probably wasnt as low as it looks. But it really was with a LITTLE bit of butter. Does anyone have an recommendations for butter substitutes? It needs to be a butter I can cook with so thats really the hard part. Ok well the big weigh in is coming up on Monday so I'm going to be extra good, especially since last weekend was Thanksgiving and I pigged out the whole time!
 
Sorry I have been gone so long. I try not to post over the weekend so that I can take those few days and build up my mental strength for this. I must say I did pretty good over the weekend but I did have sesame chicken from a chinese restaurant on Friday and it was still with me until Sunday. It had me showing 2 pounds heavier on Saturday and Sunday but on Monday I came out ok for my weigh in so I guess it just kinda left me bloated and full for a few days. I know I shouldnt have splurged with the sesame chicken but I was in need of a good hot big meal, something to stick to my bones. I just had been feeling hungry for a few days and I guess that was my "binge meal" but I did come out at 159.8 on my weigh in yestreday so I am happy :) I lost my 2 pounds from the Thanksgiving holidays and one extra so I was very pleased! I really should post on the weekends though because I never remember everything I had over the weekend unless I write it down, but I do count the calories on those days I just dont remember for my diary. So I guess I'll just start with yesterdays food....

Breakfast - Apple Juice & Cheddar on Wheat Crackers......330
Lunch - Lean Cuisine & Unsweet Tea.....290
Supper - Homemade Deli Sandwich & String Cheese.....400
1 beer....95
Bedtime Snack - Nature Valley Granola Bar....140
Yesterday's Total......1255

Its so weird how when you count calories you realize how you got so big in the first place. Like I really used to think "Well I had that but it wasnt THAT bad, why am I gaining weight?" but I havent touched some of the stuff I used to eat and I cant imagine what the calorie count on some of that stuff is. The one thing I am waiting for is when my boyfriend notices that we havent ordered pizza in a while and wants it on a Friday night. I know its got to be coming soon because he loves pizza on Friday, I dont know why but he does. Its so hard not to eat more than one piece but its soooo fattening! Well maybe he wont notice for a while :) And something else I wanted to share was that if you live near a Jason's Deli, they have a wonderful all you can eat salad bar. And you can get soup with the salad bar for a dollar more. They just have sooooo much good stuff on the bar and places like that are few and far between in Alabama and everything on their menu is trans fat free and they have low fat ice cream for free and it tells you the nutritional info on the machine, its too cool! I guess I am just not used to such a health conscious place but I like it :) Ok well I better get back to work and hope yall didnt think I was gone because I cant do this with you guys!!! Bye :)
 
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