Step by step toward my goal!

little_star

little_star

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Hello!!
Here I am again! I was here some time ago and now I am back. If you are wondering, I am ashamed I left the forum back then... but I hope you forgive me.
I will keep things short.
I lost all in all 10 kilos in few months. Once I was back from our holiday I started seriously to workout and eat healthy. I went everyday running and I felt just GREAT!

Then the winter came. Then the stress caused by graduation + work started. Then Christmas came.
I gained back 6 of the 10 kilos I lost. I feel now heavy, ugly, full and fat all the time.
This of course influence my mood all the time. And also the way I life in general.
I know I am doing everything wrong, but sometimes it is easier to complain than actually do something to change. Especially when you are stressed.
I feel horrible because I was getting there (I was only 5-7 kilos away from my goal weight) and now I am back here, almost at square one.
I am very frustrated if you ask.

In January I joined Fit boxing class once a week. But I realized it is too less and I should increase the amount of exercise.
And from today I am not having any candy or junk food.
Well...that's it.
I hope I will be able to stay motivated and get in shape finally!


GOALS:
WeekDateTarget weightActual weight
1March 1962.062.3
2March 2361.561.0
3March 3061.063.0
4April 660.5
5April 1360.0
6April 2059.5
7April 2759.0
8May 458.5
9May 1158.0
10May 1857.5
11May 2557.0
12June 156.5
13June 856.0
14June 1555.5
15June 2255.0
16June 2954.5
17July 654.0
18July 1353.5
19July 2053.0
20July 2752.5
21August 352.0
22August 1051.5
23August 1751.0
24August 2450.5
25August 3150.0
 
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Hey Littlestar,

I know how you feel, I did almost the same thing except possibly even worse. Back in 2010 I went from an all time high of 314lbs down to 242lbs, which for me was great. I was running 5 times a week, eating great doing all the right things. When winter came I slacked of the running, but took up Hockey, it just wasn't the same. I moved back to the city and found myself eating out a lot and making poor decisions. Daily running became, I'll stop in and grab a milkshake on the way home from work today!

I knew it had gotten out of hand, and after Christmas this year I decided I would confront my suspicions. I was very dissapointed to see that I had rebounded all the way back up to 306lbs. I am notw trying to work back down to sub 250. I've spent the last 6 weeks getting my eating in check, and now I am going to focus on getting exercise back into my life. I play Hockey once a week, I plan to take up running again, and I will start commuting to work by bicycle in another 2 months, once the snow has melted.

Good luck in your journey
 
Thank you so much for your reply.
It is nice to see that I am not the only one that face challenges with keeping an healthy life.
We will do it! :) Unluckily this is not a linear journey and it's normal to face up and downs.

Maybe we can learn from that experience. Getting there and then let it go made me feel horrible. Now basically I feel like a ball that barely can move. Even if I a not at my original weight I still feel "the heaviest I have ever felt", which is weird and unpleasant. But I am determinated to change now.
Yesterday at fit boxing class I was thinking that I really like to keep myself healthy and inside me there is a tiny little girl that love sports, eating healthy and be active. But she is trapped in this layer of fat. I have to free her.

It's very impressive you are playing Hockey, it is such an interesting game.
I am also planning to start running again. Actually the weather is already getting better and the snow has started melting. I hope it keeps this way, so I can go running again.

:)
 
Little by little I am starting to have the rhythms I had in summer.
Outside is not so cold anymore. The snow has mostly melt and I am considering of starting running between today and tomorrow.
:)
 
Welcome back little star! Nice to see you're still at things.

Do try not to get too down on yourself if you have any setbacks. None of us are perfect. Well except for me, of course. :-D
 
Hey Star! Glad you came back. Don't be ashamed- even though I know the feeling.

I went from my highest weight of 280+ down to 168, maintained for about a year, went up to 226 in the next year, got down to 189 last September and now I'm back up to 231 :p

Its an ongoing battle. The important thing is to not give up. There will be ups and downs, but keep coming back to that healthy lifestyle and you will get results.
 
Thank you for your encouraging words.
You are right slickzchik, it is an ongoing battle. It is frustrating to think I was almost there and now I am back here again. But at least we are trying and that is already a lot!! We are aware of the problem and want to fix it.

Lately I have had a lot of problem with my self-esteem and even if they are not related (or only related) to my weight, I know losing these 12 kilos will make a difference in the way I feel about myself. :)

I really wanted to start running in these days, but unfortunately it started to snow again. Sigh Sigh :(
 
I am organizing a little dinner tomorrow.
These social situations are the ones that challenge the most my tries of staying healthy.
I have spent now some time figuring out what I want to cook. I decided to go simple, cooking chicken with cheese sauce for the guests and for me a huge and beautiful salmon salad. I am going to do extra salad if someone wants to.
The dessert is the most challenging part. I dont want to bake any cake and was thinking of something cold.
I have found this nice "ligher" version of panna cotta and fruits which really looks appealing.

Basically it is composed by milk, some greek yogurt, sugar and vanilla. It sounds good, what do you think? :p Does it sound I want to put my guests on diet as well? (It is not a fancy dinner, just a nice and informal gathering with 1 or 2 friends).
 
WELCOME BACK!

I hope you have forgiven yourself for leaving and gaining weight. If you haven't, please do. Look yourself in the mirror, tell yourself it is OK, and that you will keep trying to do better. Will you fall again? Maybe. Will you leave the forum? Hopefully not. Will you get back up and keep pushing forward? I sure hope so :)

Sounds like you are off to a great start! But remember if you are craving something really bad, sometimes it's OK to give in just a little. It keeps you from going insane and keeps you from having a complete binge fest.

I'm glad the dessert turned out for you :) And really if you are trying to eat healthy there is nothing wrong with trying to serve a healthier dessert at a dinner you are hosting. Or frankly even if you took it to someone else places. If people don't like or want it, nobody is forcing them.

For me, I think I may give in a little too much to bad foods, and give too many excuses for why it's OK to cheat this time, but that's OK. I keep trying and I don't give up and that is the key for us all, to never give up. Always forgive and move forward or you will be stuck in the past and never reach your goals.
 
Oh, your words always help a lot.
I am so proud of you and your motivation is inspiring! :)

This time I will not leave!! I will free tiny sporty girl inside me!
There are a lot of things happening in my life that I cannot control. I can control this and I know that once I achieve my goals I will fee proud of my self.
I will do it!! :) Thank you so much for your support.

I just discovered I am lactose intolerant and I am kinda suspicious also with lactose free milk and products. I am going to try 1 week without dairy and let's see what happens.

Yesterday I went to fitbox class and it was hard. I think I should try to increase and go twice a week now. I had a lot of fun. I really like it. Everytime I come back I feel the tiny girl inside me wants to come out. Yes. In reality, under all this layers of fat there is an active and sporty girl that really wants to come out!!
 
Welcome back! The fitbox sounds like a good source of exercise, and fun too! High intensity, so you may only need half the amount of time than if you were only walking.
 
Thank you GreenSurf.
Yes, in my life I tried many sports and activity. The fitboxing and running are what really release my stress and gives me more and more energy.

Today I ate some ham, tons of fruits (oranges and strawberries), salad and 2 small chicken legs.
 
Good for you for experimenting with different workouts and finding one that is great for you! When you find something you enjoy, than you will stick with it.
 
PS. LOVE THIS! [X]68 - [X]65 - []62 - []60 - []58 - []55 - []52 - []50. JUST DO IT NOW!
But when I try to make my own under my ticker it says its too many characters... how'd you get it all to fit?
 
Yes, I had the same problem.


Try to simply copy the signature and change the numbers next to the box. If it continues saying you have too much characters you should shorten the text somehow (delete spaces, put bigger goals, etc.). I think the problem is that having the weight in lbs, the numbers have 3 "figures", so it takes more space.
 
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Glad to hear you are enjoying the Fitboxing! FREE SPORTY GIRL!! :D

slickzchik: I had that issue with my sig as well. That's why my ticker isn't on there anymore. Need to try playing with it and try getting it back there.
 
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