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hey everyone,
i'm just going to start my diary off with a little backround information on myself! i've been struggling with the same 10 pounds for like 2- 3 years... i've done atkins before and i lost a lot of weight, (got down to 118lbs), and i gained back my weight... back up to 135!!

i've been yoyo dieting since then.... last year i got down to 113lbs, but it wasn't really on purpose... lol... it was from a lot of stress and just not eating... working way too late!! i'm in my early 20's, so my metabolism should be really high, but i've done a lot of damage to it from my yo yo dieting...

so basically i need some accountability, and i just need to commit to MYSELF and do it!! i keep getting started and going right back to my old habits, so i just need a kick in the bum, and need to be consistent with my efforts...

so i'll be writing every day a little blurb of my motivation for the day, and just checking in to let you all know what kind of progress i've made for the day...

thanks to you all for your support!!
 
welcome to your diary - and sounds like to a new mindset too - welcome to the world of healthy eating and taking care of yourself :)

enjoy your stay and have fun while you are here...
 
today has been a pretty good day so far... it's a very busy day at work so it makes it much easier to stay on track.... what seems to throw me off is the weekends! i don't drink or anything, but i get very lazy on the weekends and i just want to sleep and do nothing! and then i start losing track of my eating... and it isn't that i over eat a ton or anything like that, i just totally lose my focus for 2 days and by monday i seem to gain back anything i'd lost through the week... so my goal this weekend is to make it all the way through staying focussed and following my plan!!!!

monday's are my days off because it's my long work days... i travel to my worksite and it's a 2.5-3 hour trip... so almost 6 hours is used just to travel! so i leave my house by 5:45am, and then get back home at around 9:45-10pm... so i don't have enough time in the am to hit the gym because they open at 5:30, and they close at 9pm... so mondays just aren't ideal... then tues-friday i work out in the morning before i head off to work, and i'm TRYING to incorporate my workouts into my weekends...i want to do some sort of activity every single day except mondays... even if it's just a 20 minute wal

i've been working out on and off for what seems like FOREVER... i've never actually stuck to a workout schedule for longer than 2 weeks, so that's my first challenge! i'm aiming to follow the workout schedule consistently... that way it'll become just a way of life instead of something that i need to fit INTO my life...

so wish me luck!
 
thanks for your support guys!!

well, today went really well.. i went to the gym in the morning before work, and then i went for a walk after dinner... it feels good to be on track!

i'm focusing on all the reasons why i want my goal! it's funny because so often we want to reward ourselves by eating whatever we want, when in the end, the "reward" turns into the very thing that's holding us back from feeling better about ourselves, from having a new level of self confidence and all that! i find myself saying things like "oh man i've had a hard day, i just don't even care about my eating plan... i deserve to just relax and eat whatever!" when in reality, what i'm really saying is "oh i've had a hard day, now i'm going to make myself feel even worse about me, and pull myself farther away from my ultimate goal"... lol.. that doesn't make any sense to do that anymore!!!!!

the short term reward and "feel good" sensation is so tempting at first, but these bad eating habits have been what's holding me back from truly feeling good about myself... so how good of a reward is that??

this summer is going to come whether i like it or not... and i can either stick around the same weight and be miserable for yet another summer wishing i'd just DONE SOMETHING EARLIER... OR i can spend this summer feeling confident and proud that I FINALLY DID IT!!!!

hmm... i think i'll take option 2!
 
GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so frustrated... i keep gaining!!! but i know why... easter was a "fun" weekend....lol...

but now i'm back on track, and i'm just so mad at myself for screwing up and wasting so much time.. .i've been yoyoing for months now...

when will i just get it??? i can never be consistent... i'm always one week good, and then 2 weeks bad.... i NEED to stay consistent this time...

i hope i can....
 
stay_strong said:
GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so frustrated... i keep gaining!!! but i know why... easter was a "fun" weekend....lol...

but now i'm back on track, and i'm just so mad at myself for screwing up and wasting so much time.. .i've been yoyoing for months now...

when will i just get it??? i can never be consistent... i'm always one week good, and then 2 weeks bad.... i NEED to stay consistent this time...

i hope i can....
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Sorry I'm late on the Welcome to your diary....Welcome anyways, and dont stress much over easter...I ate way over what I should have also....just jump on track this week...come in here for support...and YOU CAN DO IT!!!! ;)
 
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