Starting over (and over and over)

After work, I did deep water aqua fit for 1 hour with my friend Steph. When there I ran into a couple of friends that are now going to the same class and it happens that we will be going to about 3 classes a week together. That makes it a bit easier to get into the bathing suit in a public place..lol
 
So cool that you met some exercise friends.... I want some too! Unfortunately I'm not a natural at this friendship maintenance thing... like, only the 2 most stubborn of my friends are still my friends... and we don't see eachother often, and that's just fine :)

But I remember having more friends... maybe at a later stage in my life again :)

Keep on keeping on!!!! and STRRRRREEETCH! :hurray:
 
Ankebuzz said:
So cool that you met some exercise friends.... I want some too! Unfortunately I'm not a natural at this friendship maintenance thing... like, only the 2 most stubborn of my friends are still my friends... and we don't see eachother often, and that's just fine :)

But I remember having more friends... maybe at a later stage in my life again :)

Keep on keeping on!!!! and STRRRRREEETCH! :hurray:
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Awww, i can be your online exercise buddy, I don't think your friends are stubborn, they just know a good thing (or person) when they have it. ;)
Im STRRRRRREEEETCHINGGGGG!
 
Breakfast: egg omelet, spinach, peppers, 2 toast with margarine and 1 apple
Lunch: tomato soup with 10 saltines, water
Snack *at funeral, tea service* 1/2 sandwich, 1 date square, 1 lemon square, coffee with cream and 1 cube sugar
Dinner: Caesar salad with light dressing, croutons, BBQ'd lemon chicken, bun, pepsi, water
 
Ohhhhh what a day... actually weekend. Too many carbs, fat, and so on. I am feeling a bit defeated right now. Even though i have not gained any weight, I feel like a human garberator, a really BIG human garberator. I know being so down on myself is not going to accomplish anything, but its just how I feel.

yesterday: ate out all day, breakfast lunch and dinner, and then i had pop on top of it all. I felt sooooo freaking sick this morning.
Today: ham sandwich at noon
Dinner: all you can eat sushi, with friends.... (need i say more), pepsi
Dessert: chocolate cake

I am mad at myself, but I do recognize that I feel aweful and I hate that more than anything. The excess food is what is making me feel like crap. Dan (boyfriend) and I talked about how i am feeling and about my discouragement with myself. He told me to get on the forum and vent..lol and get back on track. So, here I am... I am not giving up.
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Brazenly-
this is the perfect example of what is wrong with us-it's a cycle. We feel like sh-- about ourselves so we eat more, the more we eat the shi---er we feel and so on and so forth...if we can't find another way to respond and react to ourselves we will NEVER conquer our inner demons (whatever they may be for each of us) and continue with this vicious cycle. You have to know in your heart that you are good enough, strong enough and worthy of making the changes you want in your life. However, you can't begin to do that until you put yourself on a pedastal- the self-talk should be more like: "I am a diva, I am sexy, I am strong" something to that effect. If you tell anyone anything long enough they will buy into it and telling yourself is no different. The fact that you are aware of your self-sabotaging self-talk is the first step, now just begin with self-empowering self-talk. I know it sounds a bit kooky but it is important to how you view yourself (inside not out) and it takes time; not unlike putting on the weight which didn't happen overnite. Your'e a beautiful person don't deny yourself of your own potential.

Good Luck and NEVER give up!!!
 
brazenlysasse said:
Ohhhhh what a day... actually weekend. Too many carbs, fat, and so on. I am feeling a bit defeated right now. Even though i have not gained any weight, I feel like a human garberator, a really BIG human garberator. I know being so down on myself is not going to accomplish anything, but its just how I feel.

yesterday: ate out all day, breakfast lunch and dinner, and then i had pop on top of it all. I felt sooooo freaking sick this morning.
Today: ham sandwich at noon
Dinner: all you can eat sushi, with friends.... (need i say more), pepsi
Dessert: chocolate cake

I am mad at myself, but I do recognize that I feel aweful and I hate that more than anything. The excess food is what is making me feel like crap. Dan (boyfriend) and I talked about how i am feeling and about my discouragement with myself. He told me to get on the forum and vent..lol and get back on track. So, here I am... I am not giving up.
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Yeah, the cycle of "I ate badly so I feel bad so I am going to eat badly some more" is a nasty one.
But, here is what I always say when things aren't going well:

Every day is a new day.
Every day is a new chance to do well, to get it right.

It really doesn't help us much to dwell on our failures, or the days that don't go well (unless you are one of those RARE folks who actually finds that sort of thing motivational). If we go astray and miss the target, all we can do is take aim again and try to hit the target again.

You've been doing well. Don't let an off day discourage you.

Oh, and re your post earlier this week - it is indeed spelled 'teriyaki'. :)
 
I am feared at all you can eat sushi buffets.. Its another one of those food that I just have no self control on. But I never fret when I do it, because i stay on track more often than not. although I have had two consecutive days of high calories. Movie popcorn and ice cream afterwards :)

Don't beat yourself up for it. When I was "trying" to lose weight, at my highest weight. I would simply say, "oh well, I messed up, I'll just start again on monday" I have come to realize that is a very destructive yo yo diet mentality. If you slip. get back up immediately and get back on track.

thanks for stopping by my log :)
 
Danab, thank you for your kind words of encouragement. You are so true, I have always struggled with putting myself on a pedestal. My boyfriend jokingly said.."just follow me, I put you up there all of the time"..lol. I agree that the negative self talk gets me nowhere, and the self empowering talk needs to take over my whole being. Thanks so much for stopping in. :) Michelle
 
Hi Cord the Seeker, thanks for stopping in, I agree that i can't dwell on it because if I do it will set me up for disappointments all week. I woke up feeling positive, especially after I read my posts this morning. Its all a good kick in the ass to get myself together. *thanks for the confirmation on 'Teriyaki'* lol, I use the stuff a lot so I should know how to spell it.
 
Hi RJAZ520, thanks muchly for stopping in and I really did enjoy reading your diary. You seem to have a pretty good balance and unerstanding of how You work and how your body works (even through ups and downs)
Any kind of a buffet is just not the best thing for me because I keep going when i am full...but I am better than I used to be. At least with sushi, we had lots of low fat choices.
I feel good about learning how to do whats right for my body and for me, its just quite the process. *When do I get to pull of these training wheels!* lol
 
Hello Michelle, hope you are doing well. :)

Just wanted to say Hi. :) :seeya: & no prob with the rep, I LOVE giving it!! It always makes me feel just that much better, and may be it may brighten someone else's day..IDK

Lata
 
RunningGirl said:
Hello Michelle, hope you are doing well. :)

Just wanted to say Hi. :) :seeya: & no prob with the rep, I LOVE giving it!! It always makes me feel just that much better, and may be it may brighten someone else's day..IDK

Lata
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Hey there, Im doing pretty good thanks, Love your new belly piercing. Hope your doing well. :)
 
This morning I made Dan and I an omelet (yes i do realize i eat a lot of them, but they work for me) He isnt too fussy on egg white only so I just added some extra with enough yolk to keep it yellowish. lol. it was still tasty. We had sauteed peppers and mushrooms on the side. Soda water with mango juice
Lunch: Chicken and veggie wrap with salsa, diet coke, water
Dinner: Salad, bun, grated cheese, little bit of an olive oil, balsamic dressing. Lots of fresh herbs in the salad
 
Tonight I prepared a couple meals to make cooking a bit easier.
Turkey meatballs *made with turkey and grated carrots, onion, spices* simmered in chicken stock with celery, sweet potato, green onions and peppers.
I also bought some chicken that Dan and I will BBQ up and have in the fridge for wraps or to top salads.
My little proud moment for dan- he has had NO slurpies, chocolate or chips for over a week. This is a HUGE thing for him. Because of that, he is much more focused on helping me make better choices, help me cook and prepare food to have on hand. Its a huge help and I am very thankful. His weight had started to creep back up again, but just cutting out those things and he has started losing the weight again. :D Its all good!
 
WOOT! Yay Dan!!! :hurray:

MMmm those Turkey Meatballs sound Delish, and that Soda Water with Mango Juice, mmmm :drool5: :drool5:

I just saw your new picture, and I was like "Holy Smokes" She's HOT!!!! OW OW!!!!:willy_nilly:
 
RunningGirl said:
WOOT! Yay Dan!!! :hurray:

MMmm those Turkey Meatballs sound Delish, and that Soda Water with Mango Juice, mmmm :drool5: :drool5:

I just saw your new picture, and I was like "Holy Smokes" She's HOT!!!! OW OW!!!!:willy_nilly:
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OMG, lol... thank you. Not a usual term I use to describe myself.. very nice of you to say though. *you made me giggle and blush at the same time... Well Done!* lol
Yes, definitely Yay Dan!!! hurray.

You made my day - Michelle
 
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