Stan2
New member
I'm naughty and weak.
I've been cross with myself; Angry, disappointed, sad, upset, ashamed and a whole host of other negative feelings too. I've eaten foods I shouldn't have, drank beer I didn't want or need to and generally felt a bit hollow for a good couple of months now.
I tried to carry on from where I was, but the cushion of knowing I'd got 40lbs of the way down my journey was kicking me all the time. "Go on, you deserve it" moved from a weekly treat to a daily one and that was it, the slippery slope had been hit.
So here I am once again, starting again. I'm starting my counter on my current 306lbs and the first target is 300 when I'll reset it and start all over again. Little victories, one step at a time is how I'll take it.
This week I'll be stopping the bad stuff. No chocolate, no crisps, no beer. I can easily live without them anyway. As soon as I've got them beaten I'm back onto the fully fledged calorie counting and sub-300 here I come! Woohoo!
Anyway, I'm sorry I let you all down and hid in the corner. I crave your forgiveness. Everyone has been wonderful since I joined the forum and I feel especially close to one or two of you here - you know who you are - and I'd like to apologise to you guys most of all. **group hug**
I hope you'll accept me back and give me some more of that excellent support I had before I went a bit off the rails
I've been cross with myself; Angry, disappointed, sad, upset, ashamed and a whole host of other negative feelings too. I've eaten foods I shouldn't have, drank beer I didn't want or need to and generally felt a bit hollow for a good couple of months now.
I tried to carry on from where I was, but the cushion of knowing I'd got 40lbs of the way down my journey was kicking me all the time. "Go on, you deserve it" moved from a weekly treat to a daily one and that was it, the slippery slope had been hit.
So here I am once again, starting again. I'm starting my counter on my current 306lbs and the first target is 300 when I'll reset it and start all over again. Little victories, one step at a time is how I'll take it.
This week I'll be stopping the bad stuff. No chocolate, no crisps, no beer. I can easily live without them anyway. As soon as I've got them beaten I'm back onto the fully fledged calorie counting and sub-300 here I come! Woohoo!
Anyway, I'm sorry I let you all down and hid in the corner. I crave your forgiveness. Everyone has been wonderful since I joined the forum and I feel especially close to one or two of you here - you know who you are - and I'd like to apologise to you guys most of all. **group hug**
I hope you'll accept me back and give me some more of that excellent support I had before I went a bit off the rails