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I must be eligible for a loyalty card around here now right? I reckon this is my 4th attempt lol. The 2nd & 3rd attempts were short lived though, so I made sure I was 'up for it' this time before starting my diary.

This time I'm doing it all differently from before though. In the past I was all regimented and counted my calories carefully, marked down my exercise, I'd plan ahead carefully etc etc. In the end it just didn't work for me. I was too restrictive and that led to wanting to eat stuff that was bad, eventually those cravings just get the better of me.

So this time I'm doing it much more 'freestyle' :D

Haven't counted a single calorie in advance (did a couple of times at the end of a day just out of curiosity) and I've stayed well clear of anything fatty. Since I started at the beginning of June I've managed to greatly reduce the amount I eat without being hungry. If I do get hungry, I eat; but on the whole I've treated my eating as if it were an addiction and got myself down to the bare necessities.

I don't intend keeping a daily update on this diary like I have previously as it doesn't really fit with my 'freestlye' approach this time, but I will be updating quite often as it's my outlet to the world :)

Anyway, I started on 1st June at 335lbs : This morning I weighed in at 311.6lbs. I'm pretty pleased with that as it's been very little effort so far.
 
Had a gym session today. I really hurt! lol

My mate is a strength & conditioning coach and offered to give me some 1 to 1 in his private gym (ok, his garage, but it's all kitted out). Today was my 3rd session and it can only be doing me good because it hurts me every time :D

Feeling good, will do a weigh in on Wednesday so I can establish a regular guage for that.

Will also visit some other diaries at some point to give my support :)
 
Hello and welcome back :D

This is my third time I have been back on this site but it's the best I have ever done in my life in trying to lose weight.
 
Welcome back Stan!

I also started June 1st so we're in this one together!

It takes some trial and error to find something that works for ya, so good for you for putting in the effort to give it another go!

I know what you mean with the restrictive calories stuff. I hate reading every label or weighing/measuring stuff so usually I just give a rough estimate and round it up.

Keep it up my friend! your down a good 5% already!
 
You have learned what doens't work and that in it's self is very valuable knowledge. I would love to have a friend with a gym garage!!! (I would love to have my own gym garage - but the bikes don't like to be outside)
Welcome back!
 
Thanks peeps, means a lot to know support is there... err here :)

Well, my bottom hurts. Yes, yesterday's gym session where my mate had me sweating and pumping away has left me with a sore rear end.

Innuendo aside, those lunges he got me doing have properly made me sore!! Booked in for another session tomorrow after work. It's a weird feeling, I don't want to go in the slightest, but now he's invested this time in me, there is no way I can let him down. I know I'll have enjoyed it once it's over, but before and during is just not fun lol
 
On a major downer today for one or two reasons. Well, one, but we wont go into that just now ;)

I have eaten surprisingly well considering, but the temptation to trough and comfort eat is strong right now. I am trying my best to resist the lure of the dark side which is why I'm here a little earlier than usual, trying to pass some time and find a little inspiration along the way. Things have been so easy until today, I haven't wanted or craved for anything particularly bad, but right this minute... wow I could eat and eat until I was sick just try and cheer myself from this gloom :(

I can't believe how a handful of negative emotions can have such an effect. Why am I like that? Why is food my emotional help? Why not exercise or cheesy films or, or, or anything else?

Well I do feel better now for letting that out lol. Anyway, did a weigh in this morning and I'm at 310.8. No surprise it's barely down on the last weight as that was only a few days ago, was at a different time of day and I've started building up some muscle in the gym. It's gonna be Wednesdays from now on though for weighing in :)

Thanks for stopping by and reading, I hope I didn't depress you too much :p
 
Ok so I found something supremely kick-ass inspirational right here.

Amazing stuff. I can do that too, there's absolutely no reason I can't.
 
Stan said:
Ok so I found something supremely kick-ass inspirational right here.

Amazing stuff. I can do that too, there's absolutely no reason I can't.
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Yep, he really is a inspiration and gives me belief that it can be done.

Sorry to hear your feeling down, hope you stay strong and don't binge.
 
Thanks JLStretton.

Well I went for a long walk yesterday then treated myself to something bad from the bakery (2 sausage rolls and a bacon savoury) to cheer me up. Then felt a bit guilty so went out for another walk. The route must be about 3 miles, maybe a bit more so it's a fair workout. The binging urge does seem to have passed now thankfully.

Although I say it was guilt that made me walk, it was as much something that was on my mind and I find walking quite theraputic - especially as the route is very quiet, save for a few dog walkers it's just me and nature out there.

In fact it was so theraputic yesterday that I decided to take a 2nd day off work; I've just got in from 4hrs of walking (I did rest for 30 minutes at one point though, my feet were sore!). Reckon I must have clocked up around 7 miles all in.

I do feel a little better but I wont rule out another walk just yet. I think I must be coing crazy!! lol :willy_nilly:
 
Hey Stan, welcome back! Don't worry about how many times you fall off the horse, the fact is you keep getting back on to ride another day, this time it will be the time you make it buddy.

Next time you get a craving, go for a walk first and see if it subsides. It will give you time to reflect on the decision you are about to make. Trust me, the mind will either find a reason to do it, or find a reason not to, but in your heart of hearts you will know the honest truth and then your walk, time and judgement will lead you to the right decision.

Good luck!
 
Thanks big2small, gotta feel sorry for that horse though - hopefully I'll get some weight off and make it easier for him ;)

Well I went out for another walk because the weather is going to turn bad here for the weekend, not much chance for getting out unless I'm really keen lol. Must be about 10 miles for the day today - does google let me measure distances? I'll try it later as I'm interested now!

Going to try doing these now too (stolen from Irishprincess' thread!)

1. What is your current height and weight?
5 feet 11 inches or 6 foot on tippy toes. My unofficial weight this morning was 307.8lbs (unofficial as I only really count Wednesday morning weights)

2.If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
224lbs, but that might not suit my large frame, so maybe a stone heavier will have to do.

3.What celebrity do you think has the perfect figure?
Will Mellor (you non-Anglais might need to Google him lol)

4.At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
Not bothered so long as I make constant progress in the right direction

5. Why do you want to lose weight?
To prove someone they are wrong

6.Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
No

7. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
Me, feeling down and weakness caused by the 1st two

8.Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
Comfort eating, laziness, unhappiness, not knowing enough about my own body and lack of self discipline.

9.Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
No really, I tried that a few times before. It's not the route that works for me although I'd still recommend it to others to try.

10.If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
I'd have to learn to say no to girls for a change :D

11.Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Used to all the time. Infrequently now.

12. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
I did do habitually. Now I eat what I need when I need.

13.Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
There's a reservoir 10 minutes walk from my door that is about 3 miles or so all the way around so I walk either there or down the canal towpath. Sometimes I walk around town or into one of the villages nearby. My mates garage gym is the other place I go. He tortures me there.

14.What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
Just to prove that person they were wrong.

15.Do you have rewards for certain goals?
Nope, although I hope for one ;)
 
Thanks for writing on my diary!! You've lost so much weight well done:) We all have down spells so turn that frown upside down the next time you are feeling low, and go for another walk! Exercise helps alot!!

Also no bother taking my survey i copy and pasted it form someone else! It was fun to do!! Keep up the great work!! I know you'll prove that person wrong:):)
 
OMG no wonder my feet ache a bit lol. Used to measure the distance I walked today.

12.9 miles

:eek:
 
Bit of a slacker day today.

Slept in until 10 this morning, then pottered around doing nothing in particular. Bit of shopping, an afternoon nap and then round to my sister's for tea (she had some computer problems she wanted me to fix, her cooking tea is my payment). Had some really unhealthy (aka very good) tasting burgers which has to be the fattiest thing I've eaten for 6 weeks.

I knew she'd cook something bad so I'd prepared by not having much beforehand. Am I really a changed Stan? :eek:

Felt good to have my feet up for a bit today. Also felt pretty good when my sister asked if I'd lost weight as I looked slimmer in the face (had some baggy clothes on, so the rest of me was a bit hidden - actually, what am I saying? ALL my clothes are a bit baggy right now!! :D).
 
Hey Stan. Welcome back! Fourth time lucky they say!! No seriously though, well done so far - 24lbs is looking good and I'm sure you do look slimmer if your sister is starting to notice.

Emotional eating is a big problem for a lot of us here but when I looked at it a bit more deeply...I realised I used ANY emotion as an excuse to eat...when I was sad, it cheered me up, when I was bored, I'd pick at food, when I was happy, it was a treat, when I had something to celebrate, it was a HUGE treat....You name it, I had a reason to connect it to eating. But it never really changed the emotion, just added on the lbs. I try to make food about just being the fuel that my body needs...but it is hard to change your relationship with food. When I was a kid, we didn't have much food around as it was just me and my mum and she worked 7 days a week to keep things going - so now that I am grown up, food (buying lots, having full cupboards) is a way of demonstrating to myself that I am doing ok and that we have cash.

Anyhow, I massively digress, but I urge you to think through when and why you eat and what you eat...in an emotional way. It really helped me understand and try to counteract.
 
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I try to make food about just being the fuel that my body needs
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I think those are words I'd have liked to find and include in my opening post where I talk about food being an addiction to me. It's so frustrating; if I were addicted to nicotine or alcohol the obvious answer is to give them up but of course, you can't do that with food.

If I can get to treating eating as just a fuel intake then maybe I can also replace my comfort eating with something else. I think I found that something else if I'm honest, she just isn't interested though :(

Which spirals me back into my current emotional roller coaster ride. I'll do it, I'll beat it, I'm sure of it; it just makes things harder that's all.

But enough self pity. Today was a crazy day.

I knew I was playing cricket all day today so I put almost 1k of calories down my neck in preparation (the other week I didn't have much beforehand I flagged somewhat!). I got through the game ok (including another half-century for my collection :D ) without running out of energy then went to a party at my mums.

Now only last week my mum congratulated me on losing some weight but warned that keeping it off was the hardest thing. So why why why did she have the chocolate fountain going today? Cheers mum! lol.

I did have a bit of party type food while I was there but for once I didn't gorge myself on it. And I didn't even go near the chocolate fountain :)

Edit: Forgot to say why it was crazy today so I'll explain briefly. Cricket is a summer sport but today, 22 blokes stood playing cricket in the pouring rain and freezing cold. I couldn't even feel my hands for most of the game. Stupid British climate! :D (so ok, not that crazy then!)
 
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Right, I'm going to have to change something here. Got tortured in the gym again earlier, finished at about 5.15 and as always my buddy tells me I have to make sure I eat plenty of protein within half an hour.

So I think, "Well I might as well have my tea then" and did. But that's too early as I've found out, and I wasn't even hungry then anyway.

So I ate around 5.40ish and then by 8.30 I'm ready for my tea. I had a bit more chicken and another cucumber (mmm, love cucumber) just to keep me going, but that's not the point as it's getting me used to eating more food which is a bit dangerous given my history! lol

I'm going to have to do some research and find something quick to prepare with plenty of protein that wont hit me with either too many calories or end up filling my stomach when I dont want it filled. Hmmm, thinking cap on.
 
I hope your not just eating protein after your workout, it is more important to have carbs in that 20 minute window to replenish glycogen stores in the muscles which also helps to get that protein to where it is needed.

If you get cravings for high GI carbs like chocolate then post workout is the best time to indulge as this is the only time high GI carbs are used immediately for recovery.

the protein/carb mix of chocolate milk is a good post workout snack/meal without wasting money on supplements.
 
Aww heck Trusylver, I didn't know that. Back into planning I go lol :smash: Heaps of thanks for the info though :)

Well, today was pretty run of the mill. Ate well, did a bit of light exercise having a laugh with the lads etc etc. But by this time tomorrow I could have some news I'm so excited about!

But I'm not going to say what it is just yet in case it doesn't happen as planned (aint I a tease! lol), however I'll post pictures if it does :D

Oh, and I'm weighing in tomorrow morning too. I was looking forward to weighing in, but it's kind of got eclipsed!!!
 
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