spootiee
New member
Hello all! I decided after a major breakdown with my mother today that I really do need a support group or forum for this weight loss journey.
I've been a tad overweight since I was a toddler really and I have been consciously watching my weight for about five years now, ever since I broke up with my first boyfriend and lost ten pounds though some odd disordered eating. I've graduated from high school since then and I'm moving onto my second year of college! I really do love school and I'm proud to say that I alluded the "freshmen 15" with the help of our glorious gym and daily food diaries.
My method is calorie counting and nothing else really makes sense to me otherwise. There has been overwhelming evidence that calorie restriction is beneficial for your overall health and mind, and its what makes sense to me! (I'm a nursing major and I'm scientifically and methodically based.) I understand proper nutrition is essential with calorie restriction and that you can't just eat junk!!, but (here it comes lol) my downfall is stressful overeating and mindless binges. This is what happened to me last night and resulted in a horrible morning.. I also have PMDD, which is really hard to deal with sometimes. I'm finally doing something about it this summer with a visit to my doctor at the end of July and we'll discuss my options. I don't really want to go on birth control because I'm afraid of the weight gain that may come with it, so I want to see what she says about a raw diet change or whatever she suggests!! (If any of you have suggestions, I will be more than glad to hear them. I pretty desperate lol.)
I'm a happy, fun-loving kind of person with a beyond marvelous boyfriend/fiance <3, family and friends, a paying job, an overall great life, but I get so worked up over weight and how long I can run or anything that I don't seem to come up to par with. I suppose that's called a perfectionist, but I am far from one I think. I just need a place for like-minded people with the same goals.
I'm 5'7", currently 157.0 pounds (normally in the 155 pound area), 38" bust, 31" waist, 40" hips, and working towards being 130-125 pounds. I'm an apple/triangle shape, even though my measurements say different. I carry most of my weight on my stomach, back and arms, and have skinny legs lol. I really don't care if it takes me a whole year, but I want to pass through another summer of being self-conscious. I love myself and I want that to reflect on the outside. I just need to conquer my bingeing tendencies, and I will do it!!
Day 1: The Newer Epiphany
current weight 157.0
breakfast
7a fiberone bar (140)
banana (100)
fiberone w/ skim (300)
lunch
12p quesadilla (250)
salad (100)
fudgesicle (40)
dinner
7p grilled chicken salad (500)
2 andes mints (50)
water 112oz
total 1480 calories
BMR -1550
out -150 walk 30 mins
net -220 calories
I usually do a lot more exercise, but today I took the day off since I was a right mess this morning. I was in a very very distraught since I overate the night before and the scale wasn't nice to me. I just have to remember that if I eat crap, I really feel like crap!! My mum said, "Look what its done to you! How can you go back to eating like that even though you know what it does to you?!" She was mad and trying to talk me down from my hysterics, but I literally ran off because I'm a maniac. I need my TOM now!!!! Anyway, tomorrow's a new day and I will learn from yesterday. I did really well eating wise! I just have another four hours to go through without giving in. At the moment I don't feel the need to do anything besides finish my crystal light.
Plans for tomorrow:
-walk w/ mummy for 40 mins
-walk for 10 mins, run for 15 mins, walk for 5 mins (running program)
-walk w/ jenny for however long
-work @ 1230p
I won't need to pack any food for work since it's at 1230 til 6p. That's nice. I hate doing that. I also have issues with eating food at work. We have samples out and I'm always tempted. I have to stop and I will. So busy, day tomorrow.. I wrote on here three times already! (I've always been trigger happy.)
Cheers!
(Sorry for the confusion of deleting all my posts from before. I thought I was going to delete the account because of my username, but I'm at the point where I don't care who knows that I calorie count and that I'm aiming to lose weight by finding me on Google. I guess its a good thing lol)
I've been a tad overweight since I was a toddler really and I have been consciously watching my weight for about five years now, ever since I broke up with my first boyfriend and lost ten pounds though some odd disordered eating. I've graduated from high school since then and I'm moving onto my second year of college! I really do love school and I'm proud to say that I alluded the "freshmen 15" with the help of our glorious gym and daily food diaries.
My method is calorie counting and nothing else really makes sense to me otherwise. There has been overwhelming evidence that calorie restriction is beneficial for your overall health and mind, and its what makes sense to me! (I'm a nursing major and I'm scientifically and methodically based.) I understand proper nutrition is essential with calorie restriction and that you can't just eat junk!!, but (here it comes lol) my downfall is stressful overeating and mindless binges. This is what happened to me last night and resulted in a horrible morning.. I also have PMDD, which is really hard to deal with sometimes. I'm finally doing something about it this summer with a visit to my doctor at the end of July and we'll discuss my options. I don't really want to go on birth control because I'm afraid of the weight gain that may come with it, so I want to see what she says about a raw diet change or whatever she suggests!! (If any of you have suggestions, I will be more than glad to hear them. I pretty desperate lol.)
I'm a happy, fun-loving kind of person with a beyond marvelous boyfriend/fiance <3, family and friends, a paying job, an overall great life, but I get so worked up over weight and how long I can run or anything that I don't seem to come up to par with. I suppose that's called a perfectionist, but I am far from one I think. I just need a place for like-minded people with the same goals.
I'm 5'7", currently 157.0 pounds (normally in the 155 pound area), 38" bust, 31" waist, 40" hips, and working towards being 130-125 pounds. I'm an apple/triangle shape, even though my measurements say different. I carry most of my weight on my stomach, back and arms, and have skinny legs lol. I really don't care if it takes me a whole year, but I want to pass through another summer of being self-conscious. I love myself and I want that to reflect on the outside. I just need to conquer my bingeing tendencies, and I will do it!!
Day 1: The Newer Epiphany
current weight 157.0
breakfast
7a fiberone bar (140)
banana (100)
fiberone w/ skim (300)
lunch
12p quesadilla (250)
salad (100)
fudgesicle (40)
dinner
7p grilled chicken salad (500)
2 andes mints (50)
water 112oz
total 1480 calories
BMR -1550
out -150 walk 30 mins
net -220 calories
I usually do a lot more exercise, but today I took the day off since I was a right mess this morning. I was in a very very distraught since I overate the night before and the scale wasn't nice to me. I just have to remember that if I eat crap, I really feel like crap!! My mum said, "Look what its done to you! How can you go back to eating like that even though you know what it does to you?!" She was mad and trying to talk me down from my hysterics, but I literally ran off because I'm a maniac. I need my TOM now!!!! Anyway, tomorrow's a new day and I will learn from yesterday. I did really well eating wise! I just have another four hours to go through without giving in. At the moment I don't feel the need to do anything besides finish my crystal light.
Plans for tomorrow:
-walk w/ mummy for 40 mins
-walk for 10 mins, run for 15 mins, walk for 5 mins (running program)
-walk w/ jenny for however long
-work @ 1230p
I won't need to pack any food for work since it's at 1230 til 6p. That's nice. I hate doing that. I also have issues with eating food at work. We have samples out and I'm always tempted. I have to stop and I will. So busy, day tomorrow.. I wrote on here three times already! (I've always been trigger happy.)
Cheers!
(Sorry for the confusion of deleting all my posts from before. I thought I was going to delete the account because of my username, but I'm at the point where I don't care who knows that I calorie count and that I'm aiming to lose weight by finding me on Google. I guess its a good thing lol)
I love running, I realized that I could have kept going and that I may be able to run a full 30 minute if I tried!! That's exciting!! But I don't wanna kill that passion so I'll take it slow 
lol During truck, my boss was like, Oooh let's get donuts from blah blah blah blah! and the red light and siren go off in my mind, SHOOT! SHOOT! I can't have those!! I had a great breakfast and I cannot ruin my day with donuts. I will start with a half and then I'll just each the other half and then think why not? and eat another!!!! I KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN! So I hurried over to our food area in our store and tried to find the healthiest thing we carry (which I must tell you is really really difficult since everything is candy...) I settled for veggie chips. I didn't care about the price. I always wanted to try them so now was my chance. I bought them and tried to share them with my co-workers, but they didn't want a lot of them. I ended up eating like 3/4 of the bag by grazing throughout working. It wasn't very big, but it just goes to show was frying anything will do to its calories!! I figure these 400 calories worth of veggie chips are better than 1 or 2 OR 3! donuts any day. I'd walk by the donuts and feel good that I'm not touching them. And when I'd open the lid and think about tasting one, I'd think: Sara, NO. You will feel like crap and everyone on the broad will not take you seriously! (Thank god for you people. The unknown accountability is amazing btw 
I'm a freak lol