SoSel's Diary

The epidural situation would take a while to explain, but it can be summed up to some very uncomfortable and nearly constant back pain. I'm, of course, way past that now. My back hurts every now and then, but that's normal wear and tear. lol!

Today's Food

BF- mini bagel, cream cheese, small apple, lite yogurt
L- smart ones raviolis, spinach and carrot salad, lite italian dressing
S- 2 pineapple slices, 1 serving Sun Chips, banana muffin Slim-fast snack
D- So flippin' embaressing! I can not even account for all I ate! We went to a "healthy" Chinese buffet. No msg and they cook everything differently. Seriously, no dripping grease. I dunno how they do it, but it tastes different and good! I ate meat, veggies, rice, veggie eggrolls, wontons, fruit, and 3 cookies. I feel so full, satisfied, and not really guilty. ::shrugs::

EX- 10 mins with that dance video trying to learn the steps, 10 min pilates ab work-out, 10 mins pilates buns/thighs work out (for a total of 30 mins back-to-back b/c that's how I did them), I also got an ax and tried chopping wood (I know that burned a ton of calories b/c I was working out some pent-up rage), and I did some counter-top push-ups because I was on the phone and bored... lol!

I bet I'll feel like I got beat tomorrow! It's a weekend. Plenty of time to relax and steer clear of Wal-Mart. Hope everyone enjoys their weekends!

Sel
 
Your food looks good. I love the sound of the healthy Chinese. :) LOL at the counter-top push ups! :D
 
I kept hearing that I needed to write down the reasons I wanted to lose weight, so I would not lose or confuse my motivation. I started making that list and want to input it here where I can access it on those hard days. I wrote this about 2 weeks ago.

1. To be the best Mom possible. So I can run, play & put up with my kids in general. To have the energy it takes to be a devoted mother.
2. To be able to persue who I really am under all this chub. I hold myself back from things thinking, "I'm too fat to do that." Be it ---, recreation, or even relaxing. What will I do when weight is no longer an issue?
3. To feel better in so many of life's little tasks. No more pain from bending over to pick something up. No more labored breathing after a light work-out. Instead of snapping at my kids when they want something, I'll jump up and do it without a thought. Freedom from weight.
4. I am, at this point, obese. The word itself is scary. I may even be diabetic. To control what I eat and make sure I exercise is the only way to combat diabetes. Pills and shots are not a solution. I've heard this recently, "digging our own graves with a knife and a fork." I plan to cover up that hole with diet & exercise. And I thank God that it's not too late to start now.

Note: I have nothing against medicines to control diabetes. I don't know for sure if I have it. I was tested and ok not too long ago. My main worries were that I wasn't losing weight and I'm always thirsty. I've always been always thirsty, and I had trouble losing weight b/c I wasn't eating healthy. It took awhile to learn that I couldn't cancel out a double quarter pounder with cheese and fries by going to Curves. I'm 24 years old. I have a lot to learn and unlearn.

I feel better now. Whew. It's exciting to share my goals and thougths with like-minded people, and not my friends and family who are tired of hearing about it! God bless everyone!
 
I can totally relate to 1 and 2...I had no idea you were a CUrves fgirl...I go to Curves also and so do a few more of us here...I stopped before Xmas and havent returned yet however I will on monday I want to get my measurments and body fat taken, if Im not loosing weight maybe I am loosin body fat...

I am sorry I couldnt stop by yesturday, I couldnt get on the site in the am and I worked late and didnt get home till 7 pm and then had to do dinner and soend time with the kids make a cpl phone calls and so the list goes on...We went to bed at 10, lol, I am so pathetic...10 is late for me it seems these days, LOL...Weekends make no difference I am tired man...

Im glad I had the chance to catch up with you, I like visiting you daily :):):)

Have a good weekend!!!

 
Food Log for 1/20

BF- cereal, milk, 1/2 nana
L- 12 tater tots, 7 chicken nuggets (no trans-fat), green beans (can), carrots (fresh!), ranch dressing
S- Slim-a-Bear klondike bar
D- spaghetti noodles, spag sauce, turkey sausage, 1 piece whole wheat garlic toast

Ex- None b/c I really freakin' hurt and it seemed dumb to make the problem worse!

Trying to get back on track with my eating. I found a plan I had used before with good results. I'm not even eating all the food allotted (or over-eating others) and keep fussing at myself. I'm working to portion and do this right. I think it will be natural soon enough. ::crosses fingers::

I wore this pair of pants to church this morning it would have been a sin to wear a month ago! My bottom is toning up, but it's really my hips shrinking that's making my clothes look better. ::does happy dance:: I've always heard, "it's easier to lose weight when you have it to lose." I guess I belong in that chorus line afterall! Weigh-in is tomorrow morning. Ya know, it's really b/c of the weigh-ins that I stopped drinking soda. I don't want my body retaining anything that's going to make the scale inch up if I can help it! I have my fingers crossed that I can update my tinker! :p
 
*Update your tinker* HAHAHAHA...sorry that was a cute and funny typo...Im sure you will be moving it, your doing great girl...I will check up on you in the am and see...
 
LOL! Good point. It's a ticker... I always thought it was tinker. My mind reads what it wants to. :p

So, I lost .8 lbs. :) I'm now 198.2. My digital scale is silly. I weighed 199 last Monday. I was a little concerned that nothing would show. I did splurge a bit last week. It's been hard. Wonder what I can do with a fresh start this week?

I do have a concern. I had to take my son to ER last night with a temp of 102-something. (I can't remember b/c I was shocked and sick myself) So turns out that we have a virus. A nasty cold/sinus/allergy all-in-one general discomfort kind. The doc didn't give a specific name. What's the point? We're flippin' sick and it shows. Plus my hubby works in the ER and this doc is kinda a friend, so he probably wasn't as formal. And we still had to wait almost 3 hours to be seen... Point is, I'm weak. I tried to do pilates yesterday and had to quit. My body won't let me do much. And I spent half the night coughing, so I barely slept. Meds or not, I am sick. Will my body fighting this virus be working hard enough? I really feel that I can't do much. And it's raining, so no walk. But why would 2 sick people walk in the cold? I feel stuck. I just don't want to gain this week. If I could only hold onto what precious ground I have gained so far, I will be estatic. Any ideas?
 
Listen to your body...if you are sick and weak get your rest, dont push yourself...watch what you eat, keep it in check and be aware because if you arent exercising you arent burnign it off...

Just rest up and get better soon
 
For sure. Rest is what you need. No pushing. Eat carefully. I hope your nasty bug is gone soon. :)
 
How I feel:
Tired. PMS. Throat feels like a brillo pad. Can't stop coughing. Everything from my waist down is sore. :confused: Dunno why.
What I'm thinking:
My abs are getting an amazing work-out from all this coughing. PMS and no bloat! This reward I bought myself today... this "you'll need it soon when you loose a bit more weight" reward... tried it on when I got home and it already fits! ::does happy dance:: How is it possible that I weighed less last night than I did when I woke up? 2 lbs less?
What I ate yesterday:
BF- slim fast shake
L- 2 slices whole wheat bread, 1 tbsp peanut butter, carrot slices, ranch dressing (although, um, I didn't exactly digest all of it fully...)
S- mini bag kettle corn popcorn
D- Healthy Choice Salisbury Steak meal
No exercise. I was barely able to do laundry, put that away, and make beds. It took me about 10 minutes to make my queen size bed. I'm flippin' exhausted and trying not to sit on my bum all day.
 
Oh SoSel,
I hope you're feeling better soon! Brillo pads do not make for a good throat feeling!
 
SoSel: "How is it possible that I weighed less last night than I did when I woke up? 2 lbs less?"

I don't know the technical answer to that. I reckon we must breathe in something heavy sometimes! (Where else could those weird weight gains come from?)

Get well soon. View attachment 2442
 
Stepped on the scale this morning just b/c it was there and it said I weigh 195.3, I think. The ounces throw me off. Anyway, to me, that's 3 lbs! I try to wait until Monday to weigh myself, but this Monday when my readings went high to low, I didn't know what was going on. :confused: So... I won't claim it until Monday. I hafta keep it off. ::nods head::

I am sick of taking antibiotics. I got the Z-pack, and that's new to me. I have requested to never take amoxicillin or penicillin if possible. This new med makes me so exhausted! I went to bed at 9:00 last night. During the day I can barely get things done. It's miserable! It took me 2 hours to get through Wal-Mart yesterday. I didn't even look at all the things I normally do and didn't get all the things on my list b/c my body wanted to quit. I'm normally in and out in an hour. (Our little city boasts a Wal-Mart with many open check-out lanes, totherwise, it'd be hour and a half.) It took me an hour yesterday to sort laundry. I'm only washing for me and the kids, and it wasn't even a week's worth of clothes! All I can say is this, thank goodness I have been getting back into shape and eating better. I'd be a slobbering couch potato right now if I hadn't changed my ways!

Ok, and now a question. I have a defined natural waistline. Even during my pregnancies this line never filled out. It's weird. And I've been working on my abs and they're tightening. So, from above my waistline (belly button area) to below my ribs, and boxed in by my abs, is chub. How the heck do I get rid of that!? The skins all strecthed out from a 9 lb and a 10.5 lb baby. I love my kids, but they are here and that chub has to go! Without it, I'd look pretty good. :D Suggestions?

Food Log for 1-24
Breakfast-Slim Fast French Vanilla, 1 serving
Regular Coffee, 2 cup (8 fl oz)
Nestle Coffee-mate French Vanilla, 6 tbsp
Splenda No Calorie Sweetener
lunch-Smart Ones Lasagna Florentine, 1 serving
dinner-Healthy Choice Chicken Teriyaki with Rice Medley, Mixed Vegetables in Butter Sauce and Apple Cherry Compote, 1 package yields
Frozen desserts, Klondike Slim-a-Bear, Vanilla, 1 serving
snack-Baby Carrots, raw, 1 medium
Baby Carrots, raw, 1 medium
Kraft Ranch Salad Dressing, 1 tbsp
Nabisco Wheat Thins Crackers, baked, 1 serving 136
Daily Totals 1,395 (cals) *doesn't include cough drops and meds.*

I'm under my cal goals. And no, I'm not whining. Is that okay if I'm sick like this and can't exercise? I tried to eat good things. It's hard to eat at all when you can't taste much and your throat is itchy.

Ex- none & I still feel like I got beat. (Wal-Mart? he he)

Wow, dear reader, I can not believe you finished this whole long chapter. Whoa. I need support like this! You guys and gals rock! :D
 
Your sick dont beat yourself up, your food looks fine and good...you walked around walmart for 2 hours and it exhausted you, tha tis exercise, lol...I relaly hope you start feeling better soon!!!
 
I want to say CONGRATS on the 3 lbs.!! That is exciting. What you are doing is paying off!! When your sick, lay dwon and rest! Get well soon!!:)
 
It's clear you still need extra rest rather than extra exercise. It's not like you're laying down all day and just wondering how you'd feel if you move. You are moving - you know that your body has a good reason to want more rest. It may not be the meds making you so tired, it may just be the bug. Hang in there, keep doing the food, and the no ciggies (you champion), and keep eager for the time when you can get lively again. :)

I love the new avatar btw. :)
 
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