Sophies diary

i guess we're both having rough day today. must be some kind of telepathy :D definitely go workout because then you'll feel better. i would if i didn't have this stupid fever.
 
thanks guys. sorry, i didnt go :( and now my mum is making me feel so guilty about which is making me mad because i cant actually remember the last time she did any exercise.
and now also shes having a go at me saying im lazy and that im turning into my friend ( who has dropped out of school and didnt do any of her exams and was diagnosed with a mental illness and depression and builimia) just because i said i dont want to do this advertising projet. i dont udnerstand why she said that because this year ive worked so hard and i did really well in all my exams and got accepted into further ed. and also for years now i have done stupid things like this and got put in lazy peoples groups who wont work and moan all of the time and ive ended doing all of the work for them and not getting any thanks - dedicating all my free time to something that nobody even appreciates. and now ive decided that i dont want to do that. and everyones turned against me.
 
its your diary sophie... moan, vent, yell all you want.

moms will always be moms. she is probabily afraid that you will become depressed and drop out(or become bulimic or anorexic), and maybe she's afraid you'll lose your momentum with exercising and all, so she wants to stay on top of things. i would probabily worry myself like that if i had kids...it comes with the territory.

i don't know how things work in english schools. all i know i always had to do everything. most of the times i didn't think i needed it (and lots of times i didn't, at least not yet lol). but you would be surprised. maybe it wouldn't be such a bad thing to go... you would be surprised how advertising is important...even when applying for a job - you advertise yourself. who knows you might learn something new.

cross out this day it was a bad one... tomorrow is new one. *hugs* Lena
 
i am feeling much better after a tantrum,moan and good cry :) amazing what they can do. also i apologised to my mum (how does she always manage to win?!) and weve talked about it and its all sorted and i feel much better. also upped todays calories today to 1274 as they were hanging a bit low due to the bad mood.
thanks for the support lena - i do get what you mean about my mum being worried. hows the loss going?
 
i'm wighing myself tomorrow morning, so hopefully its ok, but i feel a bit bloated so i don't know really. its probabily water...hopefully it wil pass. glad to see you doing better.. don't you know mom always win lol. good to see you upped those calories, you eat to little sometimes considering how much you burn. i'm off to wash my hair and relax infront of tv with hot cup of tea.

see you tomorrow :) Lena
 
yeah you go and relax :) have fun
anyway as i was saying..increasing calories.. now my total for today is 1545. wowzah that creeped up lol. ive just managed 500 calories in an hour. shows what bad tempers do for you :|
so now i am going to go and drink loads of water and hopefully the big binge will come to an end. i am still within my calorie allowance so thats fine i guess.. just dont want to go into bad habit territory!
 
Hey Sophie,
I hope you and your mom find a common ground.

I think this time frame 16-19 (generally speaking) is often times the hardest period between mother & daughter. Remember, no matter what you think at the time, this is a phase. No different then any other phase in your life, and it will pass.
 
thankyou m2m - its nice to have it from somebody elses perspective - somebody who has already seen it and experienced it :)
 
im feeling pretty negative about today as a whole.
i didnt go training
and i know if i had gone training i wouldnt have had chance to have had that binge i just had.
i really want a loss this week. i dont want to lose motivation :(
 
Oh Sophie, so sorry you are having such a bad day, and hooray for you for staying within your calories even though you are having a bad day! I hope you guys reached a mutual agreement about things! Keep your head up!

I really am fine, it's just a small infection in my urinary tract that will be zapped out with some of these fine antibiotics I got prescribed from the doctor (and a nice little pill to help ease the pain until the antibiotics start working).

I have to go get on the treadmill for my daily exercise though, I promised myself that I wouldn't miss this day due to this little infection and it's not bad enough to keep me down! So.. off we go.
 
Hey Sophie, I'm just dropping a line to tell you I understand, and nobody is going to say anything bad about your venting here. This is a great spot to do it, and sort of what it was designed for. But... Are you sure that's what is bothering you?
Take some time and think about what is going on around you, it sounds like you are feeling a general malaise and there is always the possibility that your mother isn't completely wrong. If your behaviors have changed a little bit in recent weeks, then she might finally be noticing the differences, so remember that she is probably just trying to get you to talk or to aggravate you into telling her what is really buggin' you. Mom's are like that, sometimes.
It's good that you and her have made up a bit, but be sure to look at the total exchange between the two of you. Anyhoo, I hope tomorrow goes better for you, I know what the "bad day" thing is like :D
 
ohh im very relieved photocrazed! because you said - "so you know what that means" and i thought no i dont lol .. so then i typed it into google and it came up with all stuff to fdo with cancer and i was like eeeeeeeeeee
so im very glad that its alright and good on you for getting back on the treadmill and doing your stuff. and i am going to the gym tonight aswell :)
and i have finished my days eating and have done really and managed to stay between my 1400-1700 target. so today in was 1595. and out i will record later due to not having been to the gym yet!
thanks qjay for understanding - it makes me feel a whole let better .. i do see what ytou mean about my mum and her being worried now. i guess i was just feeling very tired and low and probably overreacted a bit but it was nice to have a place to let it all off!
 
Hey Sophie, sounds like you have had a bad couple of days :( Glad you are feeling a bit better now. I always find that I get really grumpy when I haven't exercised. It's like I need the feel-good factor from exercise. I also feel like I have messed up and that drives me further into my general frustration. Tiredness is the killer for me too. I get really mad at everything and just have to take some time out to just let it all go before I can come back to the real world! :D I think everyone has good points in what they have said in your diary over the last day or so. My Mum has a habit of saying things in what seem like an offensive way when she is concerned. Her worry makes it just all comes out wrong I think! Glad to hear you have had a chat with her about it.
Sounds like you are having a good day today - good luck at the gym :)
Oh and I think someone already said this but this is your diary and you can say whatever you want to when you are here. That's what it's all about!
Rachie :D
 
hi rachie :)
yeah i spose i can just let everything out in this diary - if somebody doesnt like it then they dont have to read it i guess.
relations with mutti are much better now thanks everyone .. i think we were both jusdt having a bad day at the same time.
erm didnt get to the gym as the car didnt start so went for a run instead. intended to do 5 times round the block but only managed 3 and a hlaf as i started to feel quite sick on the third lap.
stats for today (though not pleased with myself the lack of exerciseness in the last two days) - i agree with you that not exercising makes me bad tempered rachie - i reckon it just gives me a chance to let off my steam!
CALORIES IN: 1595
CALORIES OUT:2600
come on two poundsssss come on :|
 
don't worry sophie i'm sure those 2 pounds already went away, hey you did some exercise...and any is better than none. i went to the doctor and i have to stay home for the next few days. thank goodness its not flu but an extremely bad cold combined with allergy. hopefully i'll feel better soon so i can go and workout :)
how was school?
 
glad to see youve been to the doctor - it will make you feel better knowing what is wrong with you! an allergy to what, may i ask?
school was a better day today because i felt a lot more positive and got my work done. but im not looking forward tomorrow because i have to make a presentation :|
 
haha thankyou - i thought it was kinda appropriate
and thankyou - sure need it
hope you have a good day tomorrow!
 
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