emmaroo91
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hey, I am a past user and I did used to keep a diary “diary of a tubby teenager” and although its really very cringe worthy to look back at its also very interesting and amusing .
I didn’t really have a clue about dieting back then and everything I have learnt all by myself with experience and time lol
I had always been a big girl from my first year of school, taller and properly heavier than all the other kids and it seemed to be whatever age I was my weight was also the same, and when I hit my 15 th birthday I reached a whopping 15 stone 10 pounds on the scales I knew something had to change..
Unfortunately I didn’t go the right way about it at all!
I seemed to think if you didn’t eat then you would lose lots, that’s when I would eat around 500 calories a day it would usually consist of a low fat porridge in the morning, 1 apple and properly a yoghurt however after a week or two a gave up on not eating it seemed no fun
then ironically I started to binge on cakes,pies dohnuts and family sized bars of choclate purging afterwoods
after being a bulimic for about 2 months my mum found out so i stopped and coincedently i gained another stone lol
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I seemed to get a bit of a grip after that period of stupidity, although I wasn’t dieting it was better than abusing my body in the ways that I was doing.
Another birthday came by, I reached 16 and yet again I weighed 16 stone 10 lb’s
The unhealthy lifestyle carried on till July 17th 2007 and everything changed from then on…
Even though I made up aloud of mumbo jumbo about why I wanted to lose weight my main reason for losing weight was to Be more confident in myself because my self esteem was completely rock bottom and to be more accepted by my peers how shallow? but like I said b4 always the fat girl in class and the fat friend to my group.
not only have I lost just under 3 stone I have gained so much more qualities in myself,
_ I am lot more confident i used to constantly wear long sleeved tops and shrugs to cover my arms , now i dont give a damn i want look nice and how a 17 year old should dress
I have high morals and a lot of respect for myself i used to think guys didnt like me because of my weight but the reality is , if i believe that so will they and if you or i really do feel good about ourselves it will truely show
and for someone with as self esteem as low as mine the mind & body have to make a truce a work together to lose the weight .
I have also been pushed into new situations well out of my comfort zone such as the big move when I moved to south Wales on august the 24th and joined college where I made lots of friends and my personality shone where as in high school my weight used to hide it away
however i recently found out we are moving back to my hometown (3 weeks tommorow)so i have the chance to make it whatever i want to make it and undo past mistakes.
Theirs been a couple of low period in my healthy lifestyle too, and at times it’s been my main focus and at other times ive let it slip.. Quite a lot to be frank but because I study animal care I was always kept active which helped prevent any weight gain luckily
For the past 2 months I have also been frequently going to the gym (how addicting is it really) and ive been eating very healthily however sometimes I can eat a little bit more of stuff than I need so today just to keep track of things I have started calorie counting again. And I thought well the heck I may aswell start a new diary too seen as we now have 2 months off college
anyway if you did read my longgggg introduction then thankyou and i hope you can join me and give that extra push along my way as i will try to do for others
-Emma xoxox
I didn’t really have a clue about dieting back then and everything I have learnt all by myself with experience and time lol
Past
I had always been a big girl from my first year of school, taller and properly heavier than all the other kids and it seemed to be whatever age I was my weight was also the same, and when I hit my 15 th birthday I reached a whopping 15 stone 10 pounds on the scales I knew something had to change..
Unfortunately I didn’t go the right way about it at all!
I seemed to think if you didn’t eat then you would lose lots, that’s when I would eat around 500 calories a day it would usually consist of a low fat porridge in the morning, 1 apple and properly a yoghurt however after a week or two a gave up on not eating it seemed no fun
then ironically I started to binge on cakes,pies dohnuts and family sized bars of choclate purging afterwoods
after being a bulimic for about 2 months my mum found out so i stopped and coincedently i gained another stone lol
.I seemed to get a bit of a grip after that period of stupidity, although I wasn’t dieting it was better than abusing my body in the ways that I was doing.
Another birthday came by, I reached 16 and yet again I weighed 16 stone 10 lb’s
The unhealthy lifestyle carried on till July 17th 2007 and everything changed from then on…
Even though I made up aloud of mumbo jumbo about why I wanted to lose weight my main reason for losing weight was to Be more confident in myself because my self esteem was completely rock bottom and to be more accepted by my peers how shallow? but like I said b4 always the fat girl in class and the fat friend to my group.
Present
I am now 40lb’s lighter than this time last year and at 5 foot 10 that makes me just a little bit in the overweight catogery of my bmi not only have I lost just under 3 stone I have gained so much more qualities in myself,
_ I am lot more confident i used to constantly wear long sleeved tops and shrugs to cover my arms , now i dont give a damn i want look nice and how a 17 year old should dress
I have high morals and a lot of respect for myself i used to think guys didnt like me because of my weight but the reality is , if i believe that so will they and if you or i really do feel good about ourselves it will truely show
and for someone with as self esteem as low as mine the mind & body have to make a truce a work together to lose the weight .I have also been pushed into new situations well out of my comfort zone such as the big move when I moved to south Wales on august the 24th and joined college where I made lots of friends and my personality shone where as in high school my weight used to hide it away
however i recently found out we are moving back to my hometown (3 weeks tommorow)so i have the chance to make it whatever i want to make it and undo past mistakes.
Theirs been a couple of low period in my healthy lifestyle too, and at times it’s been my main focus and at other times ive let it slip.. Quite a lot to be frank but because I study animal care I was always kept active which helped prevent any weight gain luckily
For the past 2 months I have also been frequently going to the gym (how addicting is it really) and ive been eating very healthily however sometimes I can eat a little bit more of stuff than I need so today just to keep track of things I have started calorie counting again. And I thought well the heck I may aswell start a new diary too seen as we now have 2 months off college
anyway if you did read my longgggg introduction then thankyou and i hope you can join me and give that extra push along my way as i will try to do for others
-Emma xoxox
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i feel hungover just thinking about it! however i want to make the most of my short time left in wales whilest i can , but calories in alcohol is just soooo high
Thank f*** for that