onesicpariah
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Hi, all.
My name is Alisa and I stumbled on this forum and decided to join.
My issues with my weight have been longstanding, considering my age. I'm only 19, but my body has made me extremely uncomfortable since I was in first grade! By the time I was in sixth grade, I was the size of an average 30 year old woman, about 5 feet 4 inches and 144 pounds; all the other girls were barely reaching five feet and were, naturally, well under 100 lbs.
I've always been too tall, too big by everyone else's standards. I started to feel normal in high school when I realized that I was no longer a monster and that size I had come to be in sixth grade stayed with me, give a couple of inches of height.
However, I'm always the 'chubby' one in my family, mainly because my mom is so thin as well as my older cousin. Actually, everyone is thin in my family. It's hurtful when family says that I could stand to lose a few pounds, and it gets especially annoying when my mom taunts people who are above 125 pounds; it makes me feel horrible!
So, I've decided to try harder than before to lose weight. I've got a very healthy diet, especially compared to everyone else in my region--I live in a very active Mexican culture that screams out tamales and chorizo tacos as dietary must-haves.
I eat plenty of greens, always have. I drink water all day, and I have some milk whenever I hanker for it as well as natural fruit juices. I love different kinds of beans, and tofu is a must. I'm a lover of natural food, but I am very much a lover of steaks, as well. Everyone antagonizes me for my food decisions, but they come around to appreciate my dedication to keeping my heart healthy and my immunity high.
My biggest complaint is my belly fat and back fat; I've never worn a bikini and with my body the way it is, I never plan to. I find myself disgusting most of the time, and I don't want to think like that. I have bigger friends that I think are absolutely gorgeous, but I can never see myself in that light.
As far as my physical activity goes, I run and play tennis on a daily basis. I couldn't do that as often during the fall/spring semesters in college, so that's an upside of taking the summer off of school. I would do swimming laps because I love it and I'm actually really good at it, but I'm really broke right now and can't afford to do anything that involves spending money like visiting the municipal pool. I guess that's the downside of not taking the summer semester...no free gym!
So right now I'm at about 145-150 lbs. I'm 5 feet 7 inches. I don't have leg cellulite or anything, so I feel like an apple on toothpicks at times. Also, I've been eating healthy and exercising for a while now (try since jr. high), so I'm hoping that I can find a way to lose weight without killing myself with the heat (it's been 105F + daily here over the summer).
I don't have any pictures of my full body right now because I just haven't come around to doing so, but I'll upload them sometime. My goal isn't exactly a weight, it's getting rid of my belly. I'm so sick of it, and I'm sick of people pointing it out (mostly my own mother).
I hope y'all have some encouragement for me and some words of wisdom because I'm really needing it right now. Thanks!
My name is Alisa and I stumbled on this forum and decided to join.
My issues with my weight have been longstanding, considering my age. I'm only 19, but my body has made me extremely uncomfortable since I was in first grade! By the time I was in sixth grade, I was the size of an average 30 year old woman, about 5 feet 4 inches and 144 pounds; all the other girls were barely reaching five feet and were, naturally, well under 100 lbs.
I've always been too tall, too big by everyone else's standards. I started to feel normal in high school when I realized that I was no longer a monster and that size I had come to be in sixth grade stayed with me, give a couple of inches of height.
However, I'm always the 'chubby' one in my family, mainly because my mom is so thin as well as my older cousin. Actually, everyone is thin in my family. It's hurtful when family says that I could stand to lose a few pounds, and it gets especially annoying when my mom taunts people who are above 125 pounds; it makes me feel horrible!
So, I've decided to try harder than before to lose weight. I've got a very healthy diet, especially compared to everyone else in my region--I live in a very active Mexican culture that screams out tamales and chorizo tacos as dietary must-haves.
I eat plenty of greens, always have. I drink water all day, and I have some milk whenever I hanker for it as well as natural fruit juices. I love different kinds of beans, and tofu is a must. I'm a lover of natural food, but I am very much a lover of steaks, as well. Everyone antagonizes me for my food decisions, but they come around to appreciate my dedication to keeping my heart healthy and my immunity high.
My biggest complaint is my belly fat and back fat; I've never worn a bikini and with my body the way it is, I never plan to. I find myself disgusting most of the time, and I don't want to think like that. I have bigger friends that I think are absolutely gorgeous, but I can never see myself in that light.
As far as my physical activity goes, I run and play tennis on a daily basis. I couldn't do that as often during the fall/spring semesters in college, so that's an upside of taking the summer off of school. I would do swimming laps because I love it and I'm actually really good at it, but I'm really broke right now and can't afford to do anything that involves spending money like visiting the municipal pool. I guess that's the downside of not taking the summer semester...no free gym!
So right now I'm at about 145-150 lbs. I'm 5 feet 7 inches. I don't have leg cellulite or anything, so I feel like an apple on toothpicks at times. Also, I've been eating healthy and exercising for a while now (try since jr. high), so I'm hoping that I can find a way to lose weight without killing myself with the heat (it's been 105F + daily here over the summer).
I don't have any pictures of my full body right now because I just haven't come around to doing so, but I'll upload them sometime. My goal isn't exactly a weight, it's getting rid of my belly. I'm so sick of it, and I'm sick of people pointing it out (mostly my own mother).
I hope y'all have some encouragement for me and some words of wisdom because I'm really needing it right now. Thanks!
