skinnywishes
New member
Ok, crunch time....252lbs, which is 20lbs neavier than when i first thought about losing weight and joined the forum 10 months ago. It is all my own fault - I KNOW to make healthy choices, i KNOW to exercise, i KNOW that if i dont change my habits then i will ned up looking and feeling more awful than i do now 
i cant keep pretending that I am 'cuddly and cute' or that i just have 'a healthy appetite' I have a roll of flesh that is beginning to hang down over my hips...just a little bit but soon i will have a whole big roll of fat hanging down. My dress size keeps getting bigger and my self esteem plummets in direct relation to the size of clothing i need to buy.
There is a massive difference between the me that i am and the me that i want to be. The only thing standing in my way is that the craving for food is so strong sometimes that it overcomes everything else. I dont eat huge amounts of food all the time but i will occasionally binge and pig out on candy and sandwiches.
My husband is amazing and loves me totally no matter what size i am so i know that i am really lucky. But i have hit rock bottom and no longer want to go out in case people comment on my size or look at me and think i am disgusting (the same way that i did with a hugely obese woman in the shopping centre today - how hypocritical am I??? That could be me soon if i dont change my habits)
So here I am - no bravado, no BS, just a last ditch attempt to make myself live a bit longer and fell a bit better. This time it has to work.
i cant keep pretending that I am 'cuddly and cute' or that i just have 'a healthy appetite' I have a roll of flesh that is beginning to hang down over my hips...just a little bit but soon i will have a whole big roll of fat hanging down. My dress size keeps getting bigger and my self esteem plummets in direct relation to the size of clothing i need to buy.There is a massive difference between the me that i am and the me that i want to be. The only thing standing in my way is that the craving for food is so strong sometimes that it overcomes everything else. I dont eat huge amounts of food all the time but i will occasionally binge and pig out on candy and sandwiches.
My husband is amazing and loves me totally no matter what size i am so i know that i am really lucky. But i have hit rock bottom and no longer want to go out in case people comment on my size or look at me and think i am disgusting (the same way that i did with a hugely obese woman in the shopping centre today - how hypocritical am I??? That could be me soon if i dont change my habits
)So here I am - no bravado, no BS, just a last ditch attempt to make myself live a bit longer and fell a bit better. This time it has to work.