SIck of being ME!

Food is like xanax

Well i can't really say that watching calories is too restrctive it's limiting my food choices. I guess I don't experiment enough with my meals to make it interesting which is necessary for success in the long run. I also binge eat. Binge eating is my biggest downfall. If something alters my mood to anything aside from being relaxed or happy I immediately turn to food to take my mind of things. I know this is bad and it is something I definately need to work on because I am tired of losing 10 gaining 5...

I do the exact same thing. Food can be like a drug. chocolate sends you up so high and when that one fades you chase another, sweeter, sweeter and sweeter still, until you're going for the hard stuff, the sour jelly beans that are pure sugar, its really awful. I do it as a way to calm myself down if I'm super stressed and it does--but I need to turn to a hard Sweat instead of sweets to really relieve anxiety and stress. I'm with you!
 
Food really is like a drug. Too bad I'm addicted... :)

Had a not so good night sleep and now my neck hurts and I can barely turn it to either side... not fun.

Going to try to do better as far as good goes today. Yesterday wasn't such a good day and today I feel crummy. Hopefully I can keep this feeling all day long and not eat anything that I shouldn't.
 
yesterday is done - put it behind you and focus on having the best day you can possibly have.. it might not be 100percent -but do the best you can :)

Hope your neck feels better... stiff necks are the worst...
 
I guess I did alright food wise yesterday. I'm feeling really crummy today though. My neck still hurts and to tell you the truth I've just been donwnright pissy. I feel bad for my husband... lol. Poor guy he's being a good sport. Starting Monday he said he's going to try and help me stay on track. He's going to help make sure I exercise and encourage me to eat right. Hopefully this will help. I want to lose the 25 lbs I gained back from the 50 I lost. It's very discouraging but I hate my body right now and need to get the weight back off.
 
He's a brave man to volunteer for that duty :) be gentle with him- remember he's encouraging you because he loves you and because you asked him to :D

(I recently talked to an online pal who's wife asked the same thing :) a week into it she was ready to bobbitize the poor guy because he was doing what she asked :D It was seriously a sitcom moment :D
 
Yes I'm not sure he quite understands what he's getting himself into especially becaue I'm really trying to back as much away from ice cream as I can. Doing this is bound to help me lose weight because I realized that I eat a lot of ice cream... more than I ever realized. The thing is is that I love it so much and I know the cravings are going to get to me. I'm not sure what I will do to my poor husband when he attempts to stand in the way... lol. Having realized that at some point I will probably rip him a new one for some reason I wrote myself a letter reminding me of why I asked him to help and hopefully that will keep me calm... although I'm not quite sure. haha

On another note... my neck is less crampy today which means I can look to my right! Fantastic.
 
Had a nice weekend with my husband. We went to watch my sister in laws all star team paly at a softball tournament and so far they're winning so yay! Devised a new exercise/eating plan that went into effect today and so far so good. It's only 10:45 but I'm positive today will be a success.
 
Trying to stay strong and finding it difficult. But other than that I guess I'm doing alright. I don't think that I quite understand losing weight. I've been monitoring my calories the past two days and have been trying to stay around 1600. I've exercised each day on a stationary bike for an hour and have gained 1/2 a lb. I'm sure it's water retention or something like that but I'm confused none the less. I just wish losing weight were easier. It's a hard emotional battle. My goal seems far too unattainable... on my weight loss journey I've lost about 80 lbs and for the past couple of years just kind of hovered here. I know that I would look and feel great at a 60 lb loss but then theres that side of me that wants to be really thin. I don't think that I ever will be super thin because I'm just not "built" like that. I have broad shoulders and big hips! haha. I guess I should learn to accept who I am. I know that I am not unattractive. I think that I do have a very pretty face and I hide my weight really well so in that respect I am lucky. I just really want to be skinny! lol
 
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