Shinsplint's Diary

Shinsplint

Shinsplint

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A new year, a new challenge!


I am an Australian woman looking to lose weight and hopefully go from 81kg to about 60 by the middle of the year. So far, I have been a yo-yo dieter. I started at about 65kg then dropped to 63 & a size 10 at 18. Since then, I have gone up to 72, then 77, then 92, then back down to about 77, then back up to 83-85 and that's where I have hovered for the last few years. Last year my weight went up to 89kg because of very stressful events in my personal life. I went overseas for a holiday and ate my stress away. When I came back, I cut out the junk food and joined a gym. I got down to 80kg then Christmas came and I went on a month-long binge. Went back up to 82kg before cutting out all sugar, including diet yoghurts and honey and muesli bars. These things were making me crave carbs even more. Now I'm down to 81kg and eating very little every day and working out at least 4 times a week.


I'm hoping to stay motivated by watching The Biggest Loser online.
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I'm also participating in the February challenge here. Aiming for 79 kgs by the end of the month. That probably won't happen but I always believe in aiming high!
 
I'm sweltering away in the middle of another Melbourne heatwave. I feel sorry for the school kids; every year the really fine weather only begins just as the school holidays end. This is another irony to add to my list of Murphy's Law examples. If anyone reads this and has any others, please post and share them. Because this world is very absurd sometimes and sharing a laugh about its ironies is what keeps me going.


Like, here's a funny thing: On Australia's Biggest Loser, a whole bunch of guys and gals who are overweight try to lose as much weight as they can each week and the one who loses the most is termed 'the biggest loser'. The one who loses the least is treated like a traitor to their team and considered for elimination from the Biggest Loser house...


Except, when you look at how these guys train, they don't just do cardio, they also do weights, boxing, obstacle courses, military-style training, rowing.... All sorts of shit which must be building a whole lot of muscle. And muscle weighs more than fat. So what often happens is the person who has trained their sweaty ass off the MOST during the week ends up being the one to lose the LEAST weight. That is, GROSS weight. Because when it comes to FAT, they have probably lost the most, but because they've been building so much muscle from training so hard, the weight loss is not reflected on the scales, which don't differentiate between muscle weight and fat weight. So the person who has trained the hardest is the person who technically must be eliminated. So this show is a real irony.


I don't really know why I'm mentioning this in my diary, I just need to blow off some steam at some of life's injustices. I would call into the show and suggest they use a tape measure instead of a weighing scale and take waist measurements each week, but I don't think anybody would take my suggestion seriously... :conehead:


So anyway, today, along with the heat, I've had a boring Sunday sitting at home, trying to rest my tired legs. I've got pains in all my veins which come and go, and a feeling of intense heat both from the weather but also seeming to be coming out of my every pore. My hands feel swollen, my face is puffy and I feel like crap. Incidentally, it's my first detox week after cutting out sugar YET AGAIN. So maybe next week will be better?


At any rate, tonight I had the biggest craving for carbs. I've had 2 sandwiches today and I still feel like I could eat a couple of bloody baguettes more. I wonder if I can go on like this day after day, just wanting carbs to eat! I'm not even hungry, my stomach isn't howling, I'm just feeling empty somehow. It must be boredom...
 
Today was a very active day. I went to a step/hiLo class and then Pilates. I was surprised by how easy the step class was; I was expecting not to be able to do it for very long because of my weak knees. Also, the aerobic part of it went well too. I must be fitter than I thought so that's ALLL good! ;)


Food was 2 sandwiches with ham, cheese and tomato, a little butter to grease the machine, and 2 nectarines for breakfast. Then a whole rye bun with apple, cinnamon, raisin and some other fruit (no added sugar; it was from the health food shop) and a cup of unsweetened organic cocoa made with full cream milk. Last 2 days I didn't have bread, only an apple during the day, cocoa at night, and fish with white rice on Monday. Yesterday it was chicken soup. I haven't been eating enough but with a new job as a cleaner, the bleach smells I've been snorting up my hooty each day have put me off to the extent it's affected my appetite. I feel like I'm smelling bleach and urine wherever I go.


For the last 2 weeks I've been pushing the envelope of my fitness a bit, doing classes and working out on treadmills at the gym and doing some dance classes, stretching, Yogaing and attempting some kick-ass toning classes. I realise how unfit I am and how much further I have to go before I am as fit and toned as I'd like to be. It's only when you have to hold your own weight up on your own small wrists and ankles that you realise what an impediment all that extra fat is. I can't wait to get rid of it, honestly...


Weight is down a couple of pounds to 175. That's 79.5kg... The first time I've been under 80 in months. If I can get down to 70, I will be at my pre-21-years-old weight, but that is a long way away.



Well, okay. I guess it's time for today's irony. Why when you're stuck in traffic for half an hour are there no good songs on the radio, only annoying ads and chit-chat, and as soon as you reach home, your favourite song comes on just as you're getting ready to rush into your house for dinner? If this has ever happened to you, let me know. I'll know I'm not alone. And crazy. haha
 
AGood luck on your journey! You can do this easy peasy! Just stay on track..everyday!

We have the biggest loser here in the US too. This Season has been really bad. Too much bitching among the contestants. I have enough drama with a tween in the house, don't need to watch it on TV! LOL!!
 
Hey LunaChick-


Great name! What's the story behind that?


I definitely agree, there is a lot more bitchiness on TBL than there used to be. I'm convinced that it's all scripted and the contestants are people who agreed to make an acting debut, and the only thing real about all of it is the weight loss. Of course, maybe they fudge the numbers on the scales at weigh-in to fit in with the script and just for a little added drama...


Thanks for your encouragement. Good luck on your own journey. :)
 
Originally Posted by Shinsplint


Hey LunaChick-



Great name! What's the story behind that?



I definitely agree, there is a lot more bitchiness on TBL than there used to be. I'm convinced that it's all scripted and the contestants are people who agreed to make an acting debut, and the only thing real about all of it is the weight loss. Of course, maybe they fudge the numbers on the scales at weigh-in to fit in with the script and just for a little added drama...



Thanks for your encouragement. Good luck on your own journey. :)
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You're very welcome! Well...The meaning of Luna is goodess of the moon (I am a total night owl) and if you put chick on the end of it, it sounds alot like Lunatic...:coolgleama: That's me in a nut shell!
 
Hey new friend

Good job on pushing yourself a bit on the exercise, just dont injure yourself early on. I have done that one before with well ...shinsplints actually.


I visited Melborne once but it was in January and it was nice weather.


We get the same kind of heat here in Texas but it is in July and August.


Just head for an air conditioned gym. At least in the heat your appetite is somewhat suppressed
 
Originally Posted by LunaChick



You're very welcome! Well...The meaning of Luna is goodess of the moon (I am a total night owl) and if you put chick on the end of it, it sounds alot like Lunatic...:coolgleama: That's me in a nut shell!
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Wow, how pretty! I'm sure you must be very pretty to match your name. :) There is a girl called Luna in the Harry Potter series, in the films she's played by a really beautiful girl. And I'm sure you're not a nut, at least you sound anything but!
 
Originally Posted by brawny77


Hey new friend

Good job on pushing yourself a bit on the exercise, just dont injure yourself early on. I have done that one before with well ...shinsplints actually.



I visited Melborne once but it was in January and it was nice weather.



We get the same kind of heat here in Texas but it is in July and August.



Just head for an air conditioned gym. At least in the heat your appetite is somewhat suppressed
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Lol @ shinsplints. I'm sorry about that; I've had them myself and they're not fun. (I had them when I chose my screen name).


I've always thought of Texas as being a bit like the red centre of Australia. Very dry and hot. But you must get cooler weather during the non-summer months right? But yeah, thank goodness for AC in gyms, I wouldn't go otherwise. In fact, in my Yoga class it gets so cold we have to bring blankets.


Thanks for stopping by. :biggrin:
 
What a restful weekend I had. :santa:


I skipped my dance class on Saturday as my muscles had had enough. Every group in my body had issues with me so I gave the old guns a break for a couple of days. Bought chocolate and ate steadily for 24 hours till Saturday night. Then on Sunday I had a juicy steak, spuds and a nice salad with home grown tomatoes. After the chocolate binge, my weight dropped from about 80kg to 79. I also looked skinnier in the mirror. This had taken me 2 weeks, and in all that time I had been feeling horribly bloated and my weight wouldn't budge. So now I'm reconsidering my plans and thinking of having a junk fortnight as it seems to help to rapidly switch back gears for a day.


I did okay today with getting back on track. Went to the gym and worked up a sweat on the treadmill and this time managed a 13% incline for a minute. Heart felt a bit heavy though so I didn't push it. But I did manage a good 5 minutes at 12% at 5.2 kph and my heart rate went up to 180-185 bpm. This is pretty good considering it used to shoot up to that at less than 5% incline at 5kph! I think my heart is kind of impatiently waiting for my fat ass to catch up with it in fitness level. The old cellulite has really moved all its furniture in and doesn't want to relocate. (You know how that is, having acquired way too many books over the years and thinking it's just easier to put up with your noisy neighbours than pack all that shit up?)


I bought a blood pressure monitor because of concerns about the way I felt: pressure in my head, headaches, some vertigo, not able to lean over for long.... Anyway, I took it several times and it's about 115-120/70. The 70 is a bit higher than normal. Will have to keep an eye on it for the next few weeks. It could just be from the increased exercise. I'm a hypochondriac but it could be from muscle damage... I hate having to guess what my body's up to. I wish it could just send me a polite letter, like my Superannuation company. I Need This. Do This. That shit's happening because of this. Give that to me one more time. Thank you.


So... in response to a great idea I found on brawny's diary, I am starting my own list of non-food-related comforts and loves. This is what I have so far:


*The beach on a perfectly still morning

*Yes, those lovely cold mornings when you wake up in your warm bed and realise it's a sleep-in day. (Ooooooooooooo YES!!!)

*Hmmm let's see....
 
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*Shopping for clothes after you've lost weight and not recognising the hottie staring back at you in the mirror;

*Winning at Bingo (this hasn't happened to me yet but I do have a flutter side to me and it's only a matter of time);

*Dancing.... all day.... all night...... With abandon :party:

*Reading a favourite book on a rainy afternoon

*Listening to music (don't know why, but I'm on a bit of an Elvis kick at the mo)

*Having someone say to you, "You've lost a HEAP of weight!" (Bro said this to me yesterday)

*Seeing cute babies at the shops and having them smile at you until their mum turns to see what they're staring at and smiles at you too!

*(This is less of a comfort one and more of a motivator): Having guys check you out. It's been a while and I reckon I'm due for some of that service - and not just from the creepy guy at the corner bookshop who's into pre-Raphaelite art.

*A hug from mum

*Watching The Biggest Loser


You know, there are many more but I've hogged enough net space already. I'll continue this at a later stage when I've got more good news to diarise... hopefully!
 
Originally Posted by Shinsplint


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*Shopping for clothes after you've lost weight and not recognising the hottie staring back at you in the mirror;

*Winning at Bingo (this hasn't happened to me yet but I do have a flutter side to me and it's only a matter of time);

*Dancing.... all day.... all night...... With abandon :party:

*Reading a favourite book on a rainy afternoon

*Listening to music (don't know why, but I'm on a bit of an Elvis kick at the mo)

*Having someone say to you, "You've lost a HEAP of weight!" (Bro said this to me yesterday)

*Seeing cute babies at the shops and having them smile at you until their mum turns to see what they're staring at and smiles at you too!

*(This is less of a comfort one and more of a motivator): Having guys check you out. It's been a while and I reckon I'm due for some of that service - and not just from the creepy guy at the corner bookshop who's into pre-Raphaelite art.

*A hug from mum

*Watching The Biggest Loser



You know, there are many more but I've hogged enough net space already. I'll continue this at a later stage when I've got more good news to diarise... hopefully!
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I like the list idea. After reading yours, I'd say our personality is much alike! I was saying to myself..."Oh I like that", and "i like that too", "Ohhhh..that's a good reward"...LOL! I would add "Feeling the Sun rays penetrate you soul"....:coolgleama:


Have you read anyting on calorie zig-zaging? Kinda sounds like what happen when you ate the Chocolate and lost weight...which make me totally jealous...btw! :reddevil:
 
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Great list, Shinsplints. I'm inspired to make my own. I long for the day someone says I've lost a heap of weight :D
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Hey Starlillies! Boy, my diary must have a pretty name magnet stuck on it to attract all the posters with lovely screen names. =)


I'd love to read your list. Might give me some ideas to replace chocolate as a reward!!


And I'm sure it won't be long before you lose stacks of weight so prepare yourself for the compliments when they start flooding in! =)
 
Originally Posted by LunaChick







I like the list idea. After reading yours, I'd say our personality is much alike! I was saying to myself..."Oh I like that", and "i like that too", "Ohhhh..that's a good reward"...LOL! I would add "Feeling the Sun rays penetrate you soul"....:coolgleama:



Have you read anyting on calorie zig-zaging? Kinda sounds like what happen when you ate the Chocolate and lost weight...which make me totally jealous...btw! :reddevil:
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Wow! That is funny because reading your diary, I also had some of those moments. I thought sometimes I was reading my own thoughts, so alike they were to mine. =)

I hear you about the sun. Today was cloudy here and I felt so chilled to the bone. Would have been wonderful to sit in the sun!


Yes I have heard about the calorie 'zig zag' method! A friend of mine would have a junk day every week and she lost heaps of weight and became super fit. I tried it back then as well but just couldn't keep it to one day - it would always spill over into half of the next week! I don't know how I'm going to fare this time; keeping my fingers crossed. But before you envy me, I should tell you that eating chocolate for a whole day after 1 or 2 weeks of abstaining has a sort of unpleasant... erm... cleansing effect on your body. :eek:
 
173 pounds WOOT!


After that push on Monday I took a break on Tuesday as was sleep-deprived. Slept today as well but went to the gym in the evening. Didn't push too hard though, barely got my HR up to 110. A very easy night and I think it did me good because my face was glowing afterwards. It wasn't guns blazing but it felt too good and healthy for me to think it's not doing me any good!
 
Great job on the 173! 160s are right around the corner!


I really liked your list....I did mine to kinda try and move my focus away from food...I have been way too focused on food and when you really think about it so many other things in life are more worth savoring.
 
Thanks brawny. Wow, I never thought of the 160s! I've never been there before. =) You've given me something to shoot for!!!


Today I couldn't believe when I stepped on the scales and saw I was down another pound to 172 lbs.


Of course, it doesn't look as good as it did when I was in my 20s, but I love it anyway!


Today's food was a couple of ham, cheese and tomato sandwiches with a little butter, some cocoa and a few hazelnuts. Didn't do much. Went to my job, had a nap, then hit the gym for an hour but felt tired and got a stitch. Then I went to an hour of dance class which was mostly learning moves so not too much cardio. And now I'm having yet another late night which will send me into Swearville in the morning and make me look like Morticia Addams without her makeup. I really need to make that avocado face mask....
 
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