Shell's diary

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Meshellibel

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Well I started visiting this site Sunday night. I had a talk with my husband and was very depressed about my weight. He is a little chubby but it actually looks good on him. Most of his is muscle, he does construction and lifts heavy windows and doors all day. So he really doesn't have to worry about it as much. It has been wrose the past couple of weeks cause he has been doing homeowners houses and let me tell you the woman that are in the huge expensive houses are the lonliest here. He gets hit on ALL the time. It's sick it really is.
I weigh in at 158 and I'm 5'4''. I have a goal weight of 125. I would love to be there by mid-may but I think that is a stretch. I have been eating around 1200 cals a day and trying to do 30mins. of cardio on my eliptical. Haven't got into any other type of cardio yet. My favorites are Tae Bo, Denise Austin and The Firm. I haven't done those tapes in over a year. I recently had baby number 2, he's 5 months. The only time I really have to exercise is when he is sleeping. My daughter usually joins me. I am also having a hard time with cravings and drinking enough water. It's just hard getting motivated period. I mean I have been very depressed cause I can't fit into any of my clothing and I am stuck wearing my maternity clothing. Just does not make me feel good about myself. :( I have no energy and hate feeling this way. I should be happier and have more energy to play with my kids. I am 22 and should not be so tired and out of shape. Makes me mad and sad. I did lose 2 pounds so far this week by just cutting out junk food. I also started to drink more water when I felt a carving. I hope this starts some kind of weight loss. I'm just so depressed about letting myself get this way. I mean I was never a model type looking person but I would love to feel good about the way I look and right now I do not. Thank you for letting me vent a little.
til' another day, Michelle
 
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Michelle, I'm so glad to see that you started a diary. I think you'll find that it really helps keep you on track, both physically and emotionally. Good luck with your weight loss. I'm sure you're a beautiful girl and wonderful mom. Soon you'll be playing with those kids and wearing them out! :) Stick to it!
 
Hi shell 2 pounds is a wonderful start, cutting out most of the junk food is even better. Good on you for making these changes.
 
Welcome to the forum Michelle. It is hard to get motivated, but keeping the diary and getting support really helps. And don't be so hard on yourself! I'm the same age as you and I don't have any kids and I'm much heavier than you! You're a mother and a wife and I'm sure you have a very busy life-not that that's an excuse to overeat, but those are things that you've already accomplished so young in life. I suggest you give yourself a realistic time frame to lose the weight (for example, mine is 80 pounds in a year, which is 5 pounds a month) and make sure you keep up with your journal. It's incredibly helpful! See you around the foum!
 
Thank you guys.
I didn't well yesterday and I didn't do bad either. I did wonderfully in the beginning of the day and then had to run errands around dinner time and ended up eating out. I ate at burger king. Yuck. But it was really good just alot of cals. Overall I had about 1770 cals yesterday which is higher than what I have been eating but it's okay because it's still under 2000, which is my goal. I didn't exercise yesterday but I woke up bright and early and exercised with Denise Austin for 15 min. and then Tae Bo for 20 mins. I am proud of my self right now. I plan not weighing myself today so I don't get a let down after last night. Hopefully today goes better. :) My spirits are really high today. We are getting our taxes done today as well, so hopefully we get them back soon cause I want to get a stepper, an exercise ball and some new videos. That should help out. Oh yea and some heavier weights. I plan on exercising again tonight for 30 mins. on my eliptical trainer and hopefully that will make up for last night.
This kinda embarassing but I am enemic(sp?) so I have to take iron everyday. But, it is backing me up like no ones business. I have been eating oatmeal, brown rice, whole grain breads and lots of veggies but NOTHING IS HAPPENING. I am about to call the doctors. Any suggestions?
Til' tomrrow, Shell
 
I am doing so bad today I shouldn't even eat dinner! so far I have had-

Breakfast:
1 cup Bran cereal
.5 cup milk
1 tsp. sugar
1 cup coffee w/s&m
cals :300

Lunch:
Half tuna salad sandwich
cals :292.5

Snack:
1.5 cups green beans
1tbs. butter
3 squares choc.
1tbs. pb
1 s. apple
1 cup coffee w/s&m
cals: 398

Total: 990.5

I might as well just stop now before I get out of control here. I don't even know why I just ate all that food. I could understand if I ate one or the other but that was 2 snacks. Maybe I will just eat veggies for dinner with like 2 ozs. chicken. I have only been able to get down 4 glasses of water. I am disappointed in myself. Well I will definitely be exercising this evening when the kids go to bed. It is snowing up here again, grrr. Anyways that was so off topic. I was doing so well this morning. :confused: , don't know what happened. I think maybe it could have been from when my MIL came over and we started talking about bills. They are never fun and they depress me. So maybe that is where it came from. Well thanks for the vent. I am going to try and clean and stuff down some water and unsweetened hot tea. Maybe that will help some cause I am going to start eating the cabinets, lol.
til' later, Michelle
 
You haven't done that bad at all, just don't skip dinner. Stay positive!!! You can do it. Keep your chin up and keep smiling :D
 
Well, I didn't do as bad as I thought I was going to do yesterday. Although I did gain a pound I think it is just water from all the junk yesterday. For dinner I had:
4oz. Chicken
2 cups peas and carrots
1/4 cup mac and cheese
cheesecake
TOTAL: 530 cals.

That made my total cals for the day 1605.5. Which is better than I did the day before. I did exercise last night while the OC was on. Makes it easier to stay on the eliptical when I have a distraction. I only did a half mile. That kinda disappointed me but my mom called and we had woman talk to talk about,lol. I am thinking about doing the exercise during the afternoon to give me an energy boost and then again at night. I need something to get these pounds off. I am way off my goal here. I am suppose to be losing 2.22 pounds a week. Probably more now, since that was for last week.Today I have had:
coffee w/m&s
Cheesecake
1 L. strawberry
TOTAL:356

For lunch I will just have to do better. Maybe some fruit with p/b and some veggies. With a load of water. Okay that seems to be good. I am also trying not to smoke anymore as well. Messes with my exercising, not to mention how stupid I must look going outside (no smoking in my house, I have kids). I don't have any today so hopefully today will be a success. Besides I seem to lose more weight when I don't smoke and drink(don't do, but once in a blue moon). Well, til' later.....Shell :p
 
Hey, you didn't do so bad the other day-one thing you might want to consider doing is fining calorie free subsitutes for the things you add to your food-like Splenda instead of sugar for your coffee and cereal and a no calorie butter spray. Also use spices to season your food and you will feel more full and resist the urge to put sauces or anything like that on. You're doing a good job though, don't get discouraged.
 
Every lil change you make counts.
I read somewhere that taking our a piece of bread a day out of your caloric intake can let you lose 10 pounds a year. In other words reducing calories by 100 each day that is 36500 calories a year,...so if it takes 3000 calories to loose a pound then that is more like 12 pounds a year.
So those changes you are making will make a huge difference,...it just takes a lil time.
 
Alright, well this weekend was a disaster(sp) :eek: . I gained 3 pounds since last week. I know this weekend went bad cause I ate all weekend, and I mean all weekend. This week I hope to do much better. My hubby stayed home from work today so it is messing my day up. I have set things I do at certain times and he's messin it up, argh. Oh well. Hopefully I can take a nap or exercise later and he can watch the kids. I did get a compliment this weekend though. Somebody asked me if I lost all the baby weight from my son and I was like no, that I had about 20 pounds to lose to hit that mark. But he said I looked nice. I was happy. I just wish it was easier for me to get the weight off. A lot harder this time than it was before with my daughter. I was also a lil younger too, but still I am young. For breakfast I had a big bowl of ice cream, lunch was ants on a log and a half bologna & cheese sandwich. I love ants on a log. It is so good! Well hopefully I will be able to get better as the day goes on. I just need to get more water down. That has been hard lately. Just tell myself, today will be better!
Michelle
 
Well tonight went down the drain. I ate a huge plate of nachos, a huge plate of dinner and a small choc shake. One thing that is good is that I had 2 cups of veggies with dinner. Which made me feel better. I didn't drink any more than 32 ozs. of water either. Hopefully tomorrow is better.
Michelle
 
Maybe I did do as bad with last night as I thought cause I lost a pound. YEA! I'm happy. I think I am having a fat day! You know when you just feel like blahhh. That's how I feel. I think when my lil guy goes to sleep today I am going to exercise. I kinda fell of track for the past 3 days. Yesterday in large cause my hubby stayed home from work. Today he went, which I am happy cause I need my space too.
I went out and bought splenda for my coffee to lower the cals, I thought it was going to be gross but it is actually pretty good. For breakfast I am having:
I cup coffee
Cream of Wheat
total cals:190 cals.
Which is pretty good cause it leaves me enough cals to have a snack this morning. :) Well Hopefully I get better with the water. It's so hard for me to drink a lot of it in the winter. I think cause it makes me cold. burrrr. Well hopefully lunch and dinner go better I am proud of myself already! :)
Michelle
 
i was having a hard time figuring out how much i should eat at each meal in order to still feel full and yet not eat too many calories all day... If you eat 5 meals (300 cal at the main ones and 200 at the snacks) then you are at only 1300 for the day! It can seem mid afternoon like you have eaten sooo much, but as long as you are keeping the food healthy, you will be fine. Remember to feed yourself well at dinner - that is the meal that get's your body through the night. Breakfast is important as well because it gets your body going again. Keep at it =) You can do it!!!
 
Well lunch and snack went well today. For lunch I had a cheese and bologna sandwich. For a snack I had ants on a log. I had 2 stalks which is a lot but it was tastey. The total cals for the 2 are 526. So today is going well. I might need another small snack like an apple or something before dinner or something.
Thank you amomono for a calorie break down of meals and snacks during the day. That really helps out a lot. Since I am trying to keep around 1200 cals a day that is perfect. Thank you so much. I will test it tomorrow to see if it helps, but I know I eat big dinners. Even if it is a couple cups of veggies, it's still a lot. We'll see how it goes. I still need to get the exercising under control cause I normally do that between 8-930.
Michelle
 
no problem.. and if you find you are eating less at breakfast (like only 200) go ahead and do around 400 for dinner... you won't need to eat tons of food at dinner if you have had four "meals" already during the day. Keep your portions smaller and it will help. That was my hardest thing to learn b/c i kept thinking i needed to fill my plate. We americans like to biggie size everything!
 
I'm so EXCITED!!!!

The portion sizes is very hard for me. I had nacho cheese and some chips for a snack yesterday and then after all was said and done I thought about how I could have cut out some serious calories. I could have eaten the cheese with carrot sticks instead of the chips. That would have saved a lot. But I am getting better with portion sizes. I kinda remember them from my pregnancy. I had gestational diabetes while I was pregnant and had to monitor EVERYTHING I ate. It was nuts but it does help take off weight. I might try it again!
Well this morning is great. A cup of coffe and a bowl of cream of wheat which is 190 cals. I have also lost 2 pounds this week. But I am taking off what I gained over the weekend, I gained 3 over the weekend. If I can lose 2-3 more pounds than I will be good cause I will go under what I was before. I would like to be 154-155 by this weekend. That is a good goal and I know I can do it, I just have to exercise. Today I will too. Yesterday I slacked on exercising.Hopefully today goes good as well. But I am so siked I lost 2 pounds!!!!!!
Michelle
 
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