Shawnna's weight loss diary...

Hey guys,

So I have not been on in a few days, but I am still alive and well. My fiance and I broke up after 6 years and I guess the last thing I thought I needed was to be online where I could easily check my myspace or facebook only to see stuff by him, which would tear me up.

I am living day by day. Things I have realized about myself are that I have been living in fear; fears that I will never be a certain person or I will be alone... but I NEED to stand on my own two feet, I NEED to work on me, and I have taken this bible quote into thought "Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye?" I cannot try to change or "fix" someone else when I have my own self to work on. I need to realize my own selfworth and not rely on someone else to show or prove that. I am a STRONG person, and I will be EVERYTHING I WANT to be.

As far as losing weight, I am sure I have lost. I have not eaten much from the stuff going on, and on top of that my stomach has shrunk from me not eating too much. I couldn't even hardly finish a small salad that before I could demolish, I basically gave myself a bipass surgery without the surgery lol. I need to get a new scale because the one here at my moms house does not give consistant readings... arg. Oh well :) I will update soon enough.

Hope everyone is doing well.
 
Sorry to hear about the breakup. Nothing I say now will make you feel better. Stay strong, hun.(((((HUGS)))))
 
Awwww. Sorry to hear the bad news. Hope you can deal with everything and still shine like you usually do.

And you are right...you have to worry about number 1 before you can fix everyone elses problems.

Good luck with everything and hope you get a handle on it.

Take care.
 
I cannot imagine what you're going through right now, and I'm so happy that you are such a strong-willed person. It takes a lot of fortitude to have that kind of insight into your own life, especially during a difficult time. That's amazing. Good for you!
 
Sorry to hear about the break-up. I can't even imagine what you are going through. I had a dream the other night that my hunnie left me two weeks before the wedding and I woke up with that heart broken feeling - it only lasted a minute until I realized it was a dream but it felt so real at first and I wouldn't wish that pain on my worst enemy. Take care and try to eat something - even if it's chocolate to ease the pain - you will bounce back in no time! Stay strong.
 
Hey guys :)

So I know I have been MIA for a while now, but I am still alive! After my breakup I kinda just needed some time out with friends, and diet was not at the top of my mind...

I finally got a chance to step on a scale and I am down to 153.2 (with food and water in me!) yay!! I was sure I gained, but everyone else was saying "Oh, how do you keep losing weight!?" and I thought they were just being nice... I have not been eating well, but also not eating much... Yeah, food consists of del taco, mcdonalds, panda express... but I have only been eating once a day and downing most of my calories in wine..

I am going to get back on track... :)

Oh, and I tried on my size 7 pants... they FIT!!! Like, really fit.. and those old size 9's? BIG! I am so overjoyed... really I am.

Thanks so much to everyone who has supported me, and I am glad to be back!

Loves!
 
Welcome back lil' buddy!!

Man...you went MIA and came back more than three pounds liter. I'm gonna take a break too.....j/k!

We got new faces and lost some old ones.....oh well.

Glad your back...and I saved your seat for ya! lolol

Have a great nite!
 
Hey guys,

So today I am in the 140's... somewhere between 147-149 :) yay for me... doing a happy dance. I now weigh as much as I did my freshman year of college and as much as I weighed when I was in Hawaii! I will try and put some pictures up later.
 
Hey guys,

So these pictures were taken this morning, I have officially lost more than 20 pounds :) I am so proud of myself, and I am so thankful to have everyone here who helped me...

Only another 15 or so pounds until I hit my goal :)
 
Hey there! I was just reading through your thread and I wanted to tell you that you are such a huge inspiration! Your progress pictures are awesome! My starting weight was about 4 lbs heavier than yours and seeing how far you've come is so encouraging! Keep up the good work! :D
 
I have read through your journal!! WOW! nice work. I too have anxiety and depression. It definitley complicates things. Thanks for the example.
 
Hey guys,

I know I have been MIA, my life has been busy and no too focused on weight loss. I guess I just wanted to stop by and give an update, I just moved into an apartment with my friend recently, I will be starting school on Monday, and I have just been going out a lot and having the time of my life. As you could imagine my diet has been lacking, I have made some pretty poor choices, but I am starting to eat right again... I bought salad stuff just the other day (yay!) My weight as of today is 148.6, How? I have no frigging clue how I am losing weight, but I will take it.

Also, people have been noticing my weight loss! :) I went to my old job and they told me I am looking "great" and my little's (from big brothers, big sisters) mom had given me the insult compliment, "You used to be fat, and now you are really skinny! I thought you were sick, did you just work out?" Lol Kinda a downer, but thats okay..

Hope everyone is doing well! :) I know I am.
 
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Wow, you look great! I hope my stomach is that nice and flat when I'm done with this. Also, that's an absolutely beautiful tattoo you are working on there!
 
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