Shawnna's weight loss diary...

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shawnnam

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Well, I guess this is it. When I was about 14 I found myself in the same situation as I am now, I was then at my heaviest weight ever at 146 pounds and swore I would never ever get that "fat" again. I went on the "crash" diet, starved myself, and went down to 125 pounds in a month. I managed to keep the weight off for about five years, but I recently started college. I am here at 20 years old, approximately 160 pounds (I don't know for sure because I am scared to look). My clothes don't fit, I can't walk up hills without feeling like I am going to die, and I don't feel comfortable even showing my body to my fiance. I want to do this right because in about a year and a half I will be married to the man of my dreams and I don't want to have to worry about my weight anymore.

I cannot count how many times I have been "on" a diet, and how many times I have quit and restarted. I am sick of the media making me feel like I should not eat, and I am sick of having the mindset that "thin is in," I just want to be healthy and happy. I want to be able to wear a cute bikini on my honeymoon without covering my stomach or not going at all.

So, today I went for a walk with my mom, tomorrow will be a challenge but I am determined to make it.

I do not have an ultimate weight goal because 20+ pounds is daunting, so my goal for this week is to eat "clean," drink at least 64oz of water daily, cut out the diet soda and artificial sweeteners, cut down on meat, up the veggies, and enjoy exercise with my sweetie by taking walks around my local 2 mi around marina. If I can do all of this, I will know what I am doing is right and I will see results. All I hope for in the end is to be healthy and hopefully fit back into my size 7 pants!

So here's to the beginning, wish me luck (I need it). :) Thanks for any and all support!

xoxo,
Shawnna

This is me about a year ago...
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This is me at about 140 pounds...
(in the gold)

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This is me and my fiance in Hawaii about 1.5 years ago, I was approx. 145 lbs...

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02/16/2010

Well today I have been good. For breakfast I had 2 organic eggs with mushrooms and a lite yogurt. As a snack I had some unsalted roasted nuts, and for lunch I had an organic whole wheat tortilla with some garlic hummus on it with romaine lettuce and grilled green bell peppers and mushrooms, a lite string cheese, and a banana. I have been drinking water and kept my mind off of junk food... then I went to school.

I go to a University and apparently today every club is having bake sales, free bbq food, and the food court just smelled so good! But, I did resist and every time I had the urge to go grab some deliciously greasy food I just took a big gulp of water and kept on walking! yay me.

I have to find my mp3 player then I plan on going to the gym to do some strength training and then walk for about an hour with my mom after around my neighborhood.

For dinner I got some salmon that I am going to broil and I am going to make some broccoli and couscous mmmm... couscous.

So, although my day is not over I just thought I would let everyone know how things are going and that although it is hard it is possible to skip the free burger stand or the tantalizing chocolate bar staring at you with puppy dog eyes from inside the vending machine. I really would love some support and am willing to support anyone and everyone on this journey.

Good Luck!

xoxox,
Shawnna


02/17/2010

So today is the second official day of my new healthier way of life. Last night I has a little mishap and ate 3 fudge pop's (60 calories each), but I also went to the gym so I don't think that the 180 calories will devistate my plan.

Anyway, last night I went to the gym and did the elliptical for 20 minutes at resistance 8 and then I went to the treadmill for 25 minutes with an incline of 6 and a speed of 3.5. This morning I went to the gym again, but I did the elliptical for 30 mins on the "weight loss" setting with a resistance of 6 on the lows and 9 on the highs for a total calorie burn of about 325 calories. After the elliptical I went to the treadmill for 15 minutes at an incline of 8 and a speed of 3 for a total calorie burn of about 95 calories. Not bad, 420 calories in 45 minutes, that's 1/12th of a pound :) yay.

As far as food this morning I had a whole wheat roll with 2 tbs of peanut butter on it with a lite string cheese, for a snack I had a lite yougurt and a protein shake, and for lunch I had the same wrap as yesterday. For my other snack I had 1/4 cup of nonsalted roasted nuts and about an hour later I had a banana, for dinner I plan on a bowl of high fiber cereal with some nonfat milk... mmm :)

So far I have consumed 52 oz of water, which is pretty close to my goal of 64 or more oz per day. I have class until 6:45 tonight so I have to find a bowl and spoon somewhere for my cereal.

Well, that's it for today! I know that for smokers the first 3 days are the hardest in terms of quitting and if dieting is anything like that then after tomorrow it should be easy sailing for me :D

Thanks for the comments and support everyone!
:seeya:

xoxo,
Shawnna

05/18/2010

Hey friends!

Well today is my third official day of being healthy. Sorry I have not answered questions that you have asked me but I will now! :)

I currently don't have a healthy hobby but I think I am going to start rock climbing, it burns TONS of calories and strength trains like crazy.

I am 5'7" and currently weigh.... 170 POUNDS!!!! I finally gained enough courage to go on the scale and it had 170! OMG, I had NO IDEA I gained this much weight, but I am going to keep going!

Also, I have a flirty girl "fitness" pole already lol it works you out a lot if you have the video but my room is too small for it so I can't use it right now, but it is really good exercise!

Finally, I have not even thought about a final weight goal yet, because then I will feel overwhelmed. My ultimate goal would probably have to be to fit back into my size 7 pants, at 140 pounds I was in size 9 so if I could get between a healthy 130-135 I will be over joyed!

I think I answered all of the questions you guys have asked me, but I will recheck in a little bit after class. As far as yesterday I did really good, and found a yummy treat! I put a packet of truvia on a lemon and it tastes just like candy but the truvia has no calories and is supposed to be "natural." So, I think I found a good "cheat" item :)

This morning I woke up at 7:30 ate breakfast, waited 30 mins then went to the gym, total calorie burn of about 475! YAY!!! I have also reached my goal of 64 oz of water a day for the past two days. My hunger is finally stabalized and after the gym I wasn't even ready to eat my arms off so it was easy to just have my protein shake and a light string cheese and be satisfied.

I am so happy with myself because I am finally doing this the right way, and I am actually eating.

Something that made me think last night was something I learned in my substance abuse class at school...

When dealing with addictions there is a theory as to what the process is....

Pain (emotional or physical) leads to bad decisions and those bad decisions lead to bad consequences and those consequences lead us to feel shame or guilt, which leads to pain, starting the cycle over again. I am addicted to food, when I want to be happy I eat, when I am sad I eat, when I am depressed I eat, when I am stressed I eat! So I have realized that if I make bad decisions it will only lead to me feeling guilty and shameful so now when I think about reaching for a bag of cookies I meditate, do some deep breathing, and clear my mind of food, which will lead me to peace.

So I thought I would share that because it totally clicked a light on in my mind and made total sense and inspired me to keep on keepin' on!

Good luck everyone and thanks for the support!

xoxox,
Shawnna



EDIT: So I finally got the courage to take my "befores" and I also found pictures of my body at about 130, which is where I will hopefully be in some time!




02/18/2010


Random thoughts:

When I lose 5 pounds I am going to get myself a new workout outfit,
When I lose 10 pounds I am going to get a manicure.
When I lose 15 pounds I am going to make my hubby give me a very long massage ( :p He just doesn't know it yet.)
When I lose 20 pounds I am going to have me and my fiance take our professional engagement photos :D

Another random thought:

Ice cream looks nasty when its all foamy and mealted in the sink and that is what it looks like when it sticks to my thighs... ew

I should take "before" and "afters" as well as a progression photo every week so I can keep positive.

I use to hate water, but now I really enjoy drinking iced water a lot :D yay for me.

I need to go to whole foods to get some more fruits and veggies.

I should really eat more salad (yuckie).

I hope more people comment on my diary, keeps me occupied :jump:[/SIZE]
 
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I am in a similar boat, I remember making a chart when I was 14 (and started being really sick) with my weight on top and how it would go down. I was 130 pounds then, I wanted to be 115. It never went down though, it just went up up up until at 165 I just wanted to curl into a ball and die of embarrassment.

You are very pretty and look great at 140, is that your goal? Or do you still ache to be 125? I know I am not fat right now but I just always wanted to be 115 or 120 and never have been since I am an adult... hell well since the age of probably 13 (I am 25 now). So even though I am ok now, I still feel not right, not ok. Where do you think you will feel ok, do you have an idea?
What are you going to do in terms of sports? Walking? That is great but maybe an active hobby would really help you too. You are so young you could start a new one, one you always fancied doing (I am planning on starting gymnastics next year... and yes I know it is totally crazy but I always wanted to do it!). For me the real breakthrough in exercise came when I joined my current dance school and rediscovered how happy dancing and moving makes me. Before that exercising was a bit of a chore, something I did not necessarily fancy doing at all but felt I should do.

Your food sounds good and yummy and your fiance looks like a sweetie, I wish you all the best (but no luck because nobody needs luck on this journey you need knowledge and understanding and a little bit of willpower to change bad habits), Camy
 
a lot like you

I am also 160lbs and engaged to be married in October! Like you, I also want to be able to wear a bikini on my honeymoon and look good for my future husband!!

just 2 years ago I weighed 110lbs. I was so happy with myself and my body. Then I got into cake decorating and went to culinary school. Worst thing that's ever happened to me lol!! I got up to 180lbs and since November I've lost 20 lbs! My weight loss has slowed down though. In fact the past few weeks I haven't lost anything. I'm postive that it's because I haven't been eating enough. Now it's going to be hard to add on calories since I've been used to eating so little.

My top advice for you is to eat AT LEAST 1200 calories a day! If not more! Just eat all the healthy things! fruits vegies nuts protein. And even when you have a bad day, just know that tomorrow is a new day and tell yourself you're going to get there. You WILL reach your goal if you keep at it!! It takes time. I've learned that the hard way. I've been up and down in weight for years. My lowest I weighed 95lbs just 4 years ago.

You can do it! I'm here to motivate and help you if you will do the same for me!!!

God Bless!
Becky
 
Hey Shawnna, just stopping by to wish you good luck in your weightloss journey :)

I'm also a 20 year old uni student, congrats on having the willpower to resist the seemingly everpresent bake sales and barbeques that turn campus into a dietary minefield.

I agree with Camy that it would be helpful to establish a hobby (by the way, gymnastics? very cool). Walking's great, but I'd always feel as though I was 'doing it to lose weight' not 'doing it for enjoyment'. Personally I'm about to start taking pole-dancing classes with a few friends to try and turn losing weight into an interesting and fun experience.

Anyway, best of luck with it all,
Emily
 
You can do it! I agree you look great at 140lbs. How tall are you?

Good luck to you! we are all here if you need us :grouphug:
 
Just want to wish you luck and hope to see you make some progress towards your goal soon :)
 
Sounds like you're off to a great start. Once upon a time I was thin too. But we can make it back! I really hope you make your goal and feel great on your honey moon:)
 
I hear ya. When I was 112lbs, I wanted to get to 106lbs. I already knew my next goal was 99lbs. I thought I was disgusting. So sad.

I've lost 10lbs from my original high and at that point, I had to wear something under my skirts. I hate that feeling!
 
hope you're not getting a stomach flu.. hope u feel better.

I think we can never be fully satisfied with our bodies , but looking at my before pictures helped me a lot and boosted my self esteem.
 
Did your tea have caffeine in it? I know if I have green tea on an empty stomach it makes me sweat and then sometimes I puke. Like at work in the morning if I grab a cup of tea before eating my breakfast I get all weird feeling and then puke in my trash can - all the guys at work like to think I am pregnant but that isn't the case. It's the caffeine I believe making me feel like that on an empty stomach - something to think about. Have a good weekend and keep it up!
 
out of curiousity, how many calories are you taking in daily?

its ok to have some sugar! you dont have to completely restrict yourself from it..
 
I know ur trying to cut back on the pop but what about coffee it has caffeine and that would make ur headaches go away ... if it is a caffeine headache.
 
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Sorry to hear that :( Hope you feel better soon. The best to do now is to just relax and eat healthy. Don't push yourself too hard.

You are doing great so far. Keep it up. You are certainly in the right direction by increasing veggies and fruits and cutting off of the meat and dairy. I only heard this advice yesterday. You are way ahead of me. lol

Your pictures with the fiancee look very cute. You guys look like a very nice couple. :)
 
shawnnam said:
So today is Sunday, February 21st and I am officially 2 pounds lighter :) The scale said an even 168 pounds today, it has not quite been a week yet and I am sure some of that 2 pounds is water weight, but I am doing it :D Hopefully next week I can see another 2 pounds, putting me at 166 (that would be nice).

Anyway, I am still sick with the stomach flu AND it has snowed like 1.5 FEET here :/ LAME. I hope I get better soon so I can start going to the gym and keep on with my eating.

Well, I am off to eat some chicken noodle soup, a hard boiled egg, and some flat, warm ginger ale.

-Shawnna
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Congrats !!!! I was two lbs lighter today too ... altho i think mine was all water weight it still felt really nice to see the numbers go down :D YAY US !
 
Props to you girly !!!! My monthy visitor ALWAYS kills me lol ... but you CAN and WILL resist :) Dont give in !

You know the only reason we want chocolate is because there is a "feel good" chemical in it ... similar to the one released during sex ... so do something that makes you feel good instead of eating chocolate (shop, be crafty, do whatever) and you get that feel good feeling without the bad stuff :)
 
Mmm... salad

So I just had like the biggest salad I have ever eaten in my life (almost a full pound)! I went to wholefoods and got mixed greens and spinach, some seasoned mushrooms, a little bit of sliced turkey breast, some pieces of grilled tofu, balsamic vinegar, and a very small bit of extra virgin olive oil. I am sure it was close to 400 or 500 calories but it was filled with good for me stuff so it's all good :p

Also, I have hit my water intake for the day and have been able to dodge the chocolate cakes at the store.

Anyway, thanks for stopping by! I know tomorrow will be an equally successful day :)

-Shawnna
 
Hey everyone....

Today has been okay, I had a class at 9 that lasted for 3 hours before I could eat anything so I was pretty hungry, luckily I had some portioned out nuts and a banana as a snack so I didn't resort to some crappy candy bar or anything.

I am not up to my 64oz of water for the day yet but am about half way there. I had a chicken green chile salad from Bajio, only hot salsa as the dressing and the grilled chicken and onions that comes on it, and treated myself to a diet soda. I haven't had a diet soda in almost a week so I thought it would be okay to just have one and I filled the cup up with mostly ice (about 70-80% ice) so that I wouldn't be drinking so much soda.

So, I am about to go get suited up for the gym :D Hope all is well with everyone in the forum!

-Shawnna
 
I worked my ass off.... literally!

Whew! That's all I can really say. I just got home from the gym about 30 minutes ago and I must say I kicked some ass! I spend 45 minutes on the elliptical on the interval weight loss setting and burned 520 calories, then I jumped onto the tredmill and went for 40 minutes and burnt an additional 300 calories! w00t w00t, thats 820 calories just during my workout AND I stuck to my calories and water intake. :D

Next week I think I am going to slowly integrate strength training into my routine, probably like an increase of 5-10 mins a week to make sure I don't lose my lean muscle and I am probably going to have to up my calories some if I keep doing intense workouts like today.

Signs that my hard work is paying off....



  • [*]I can walk without huffing at school.

    [*]My stretch marks are less visible.
    [*]My face is glowing.
    [*]I have not been craving anything.

    [*]I can go longer and harder at the gym.

    [*]My muscles are SORE.

So, I am POOPED, but I am so excited. I am going to just do a non-official weigh in tomorrow since it will officially be one week of my new habits... but my real weigh in's will be Sundays.

I will post some updated pictures later this week, or maybe on Sunday after I weigh in. I know there is a difference. I have gotten TWO compliments on how "my face has slimmed down."

So, life is good over here! Sorry I post so much, I just love this forum and feel like it helps me remember all of the good I am doing for my body when I post what is going on.

I hope everyone is well! :jump:

-Shawnna
 
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