Day One:
I am 40 years old and I am in the worst shape of my life. I swore that I was never going to be in this shape at the age of 40. I have gotten on and fallen off of the weightloss wagon so many times. I don't know what is going to make me stick to it this time. I keep thinking about living to see my children grow up. I keep thinking about the chest pains that I have been having the past few months. About being out of breath walking up one flight up stairs...hearing myself huff and puff. I am too young to be this way. I can feel the rolls on the back of my back touching together, my butt cheeks going up and down when I walk, how I am slowly becoming agoraphobic (afraid to leave the house) because I am embarassed about the way that I look. How I have sabotaged myself in professional relationships and jobs because I am so self conscious and I am constantly comparing myself to my colleagues. I am in sales and a great number of women in sales are thin, gorgeous women. I am good at what I do and I keep thinking that soon that won't matter if I keep getting bigger.
This time I am going to pray daily for strength (I did sporadically before). I am going to focus on how my wonderful, gorgeous, supportive husband still thinks I am sexy and constantly wants to have sex with me. I don't want to always focus on the negative. I need to have some positive self talk. This is day one. I can do this! I CAN do this!
SO: here are the stats:
I weigh 255 pounds (only 45 pounds away from being 300 pounds!!!)
I am 5'8" tall
I would like to lose 80 pounds.
My timeframe is 1 year.
I know that morning exercise is best for me so my plan is:
Start out doing at least 30 minutes of cardio 5 days a week, 2 days of strength training per week.
Drink at least 64 ounces of water per day. No more than 1 diet soda per day. Slowly cut out sugar in all forms.
No more fried foods.
Increase vegetables and fruit intake per day.
I will start with these few actions.
I am 40 years old and I am in the worst shape of my life. I swore that I was never going to be in this shape at the age of 40. I have gotten on and fallen off of the weightloss wagon so many times. I don't know what is going to make me stick to it this time. I keep thinking about living to see my children grow up. I keep thinking about the chest pains that I have been having the past few months. About being out of breath walking up one flight up stairs...hearing myself huff and puff. I am too young to be this way. I can feel the rolls on the back of my back touching together, my butt cheeks going up and down when I walk, how I am slowly becoming agoraphobic (afraid to leave the house) because I am embarassed about the way that I look. How I have sabotaged myself in professional relationships and jobs because I am so self conscious and I am constantly comparing myself to my colleagues. I am in sales and a great number of women in sales are thin, gorgeous women. I am good at what I do and I keep thinking that soon that won't matter if I keep getting bigger.
This time I am going to pray daily for strength (I did sporadically before). I am going to focus on how my wonderful, gorgeous, supportive husband still thinks I am sexy and constantly wants to have sex with me. I don't want to always focus on the negative. I need to have some positive self talk. This is day one. I can do this! I CAN do this!
SO: here are the stats:
I weigh 255 pounds (only 45 pounds away from being 300 pounds!!!)
I am 5'8" tall
I would like to lose 80 pounds.
My timeframe is 1 year.
I know that morning exercise is best for me so my plan is:
Start out doing at least 30 minutes of cardio 5 days a week, 2 days of strength training per week.
Drink at least 64 ounces of water per day. No more than 1 diet soda per day. Slowly cut out sugar in all forms.
No more fried foods.
Increase vegetables and fruit intake per day.
I will start with these few actions.
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