Hello Annoyed, I'm Reese, Senior New Here. Just to start, I wish I was 50 yrs old again to do things different!!! I've suffered from depression most of my life but to contain it I exercised to feel better and it worked and kept me at about 130 lbs most of my life until I turned 51 and menopause set in. Lighten up, you're still YOUNG and ABLE. Me, I want a makeover as soon as I lose my weight and I'm working to make money to pay for it. To combat what you're feeling do this.... Love yourself, beautify yourself. Today's world has videos on anything you want to achieve. You can have the body you want, the beauty, and the money so that ALL the nasty comments you'll get will be "I bet her good looks are fake" or "If I looked that good, I wouldn't be in a place like this". My point is if you don't like it, surpass it. PROVE THEM WRONG! You can do it!!! I did 6 years in the Army so I know I can transform myself and YOU CAN TOO. For inspiration, check out women in their 70's and 80's who look like their in their 30's or 40's, there's lots of them! Hope this helps.