self sabotage? :Banghead:

[Beccakmj11]

Hi everyone.

My name is Rebecca. I'm 160cm tall and weigh in at 62kg with a current goal of 55kg. However I know I will want to weigh less when I get there. But that "when I get there", seems more of an "if I get there..." today.

I have worked so hard to get to this point. 23kg of hard work to be exact.

I feel as though I'm going to go slipping back into my fat girl habits of eating bad and not exercising.

This isn't my first trip down weight loss lane. I've been here more times than what I would like to. Every time I get to a point on my journey where I feel as though I hit a wall and I just cant seem to climb over it to get past it. I always retreat back into my old habits and gain back all the weight I have lost and then some.

This is the furthest I have ever come before I hit the wall. 10kg more to be more specific. I don't know if I have actually hit it or if I'm just having one of those "poor me" days.

I feel as though I am self sabotaging my self subconsciously. like there is a trigger that I get in my mind when I get to a certain point. last time it was when I hit 72kg and I felt I couldn't break into the 60's. Now I'm at 62 and I feel as though I cant break into the 50's. Feels like the same story just a different number.

Today I just feel tired of working so hard. because lets face it, the weight loss journey is bloody hard. Anybody who says it isn't, is a liar in my eyes. Sure some days it feels effortless. Like its just part of your everyday life. But then some days feel like a real struggle. Like today.

Does anybody else ever feel like this? Like they just want to give up? Even just for one day?

But it never can be for just one day. Not for me anyways.

I feel as though I have come so far and have worked so hard but today I feel like giving up and throwing in the sweat towel.

Sorry for being so whiney but everyone needs a good whine every now and then right.

 

[luzdafuzz]

I know exactly how you feel, I seem to get within 5kgs of my goal and then get stuck, then frustrated, then one slip up becomes a week which becomes a month until I'm back where I started. Seems to happen once or twice a year to me unfortunately!

Stick with it, eventually you will get there! Congrats on weight lost so far too, that's awesome!

 

[Nostalgic]

I also know how you feel,
You have done great though getting to 62 kgs. Keep motivated and you will reach your goal.

The last kgs are always the longest and hardest to drop but you can do it!

 

[MandyH]

I know EXACTLY how you feel! At my heaviest I was 250lb, today I weighed in at 208.4lb. I'm having a very difficult time breaking the 200lb barrier. I was at just over 203lb at my closest, but then I started slipping... really bad! I too felt like I was sabotaging myself. The last few weeks were especially difficult for me. I was consuming more chips and candy in a day than we should consume in a week. It was horrible! I also pretty much stopped exercising.

This week though, I started to refocus and get back on track. I'm on day 5 of having NO candy or chips. I also exercised 3 days straight (I took yesterday off to rest). I can say that how I feel physically, emotionally, and mentally this week compared to last week is a drastic improvement! It's like I'm a whole new person. Much more positive and feeling much, much better.

The important thing is to just keep on trying. Keep eating healthy and keep exercising. Even if your scale doesn't immediately reflect positive changes, you'll feel much better and eventually the scale will also catch up. I'd also suggest taking body measurements along with weighing yourself. Your weight sometimes isn't a true reflection of what's going on. Taking body measurements will show if you're losing inches too. Keep on fighting!