Scared out of my mind

juni said:
- tis like my mind was totally shut off when I was gaining all those weight these last few months. Whatever was put in front of me, I ate
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Juni that is soo me. i think the harder i tried to control my eating the more i ended up eating. It's like in my head i was rebelling against myself. haha if that makes sense. At one point i even thought i was a compulsive eater and actually looked it up at school to see if there was such a condition. There are actually quite a few journal articles on it :p

I know that that wasnt my problem though. I was just being too restrictive. I tried cutting out carbs from my diet. That was the biggest mistake because i ended up being hungry all the time.

Anyway I'm trying to eat more balanced meals now and not really cutting anything out of my diet. Just being really careful about portion sizes. It's working so far...and im going to keep positive and say i am going to keep it up :)

Weekend is great so far. Yesterday i was soooo close to having 2 slices of pizza. I was watching superbad (i think i only watched the first 30 mins of it) and they kept showing a bunch of scenes with food and people eating. Made me want to eat!! So i turned it off. Sat there for like 2 minutes trying to convince myself that i wasnt really hungry and that watching the movie just gave me the munchies. So anyway i distracted myself by listening to my Ipod for a bit. It worked. But then i started thinking about food again so i ate an apple and a few grapes. And that did it!! Kudos to Kara for mentioning the healthy snacking!! :)

Anyway today is going pretty good so far. I went to a step class this morning which completely wiped me out. but im glad. i think today im actually too tired to eat. Ive been pretty much reading all day. Im taking an online summer course and my exam is aug 10th. SOO glad its almost over!

So far im pretty pleased with how the weekend is going...but there is still tonight, tomorrow and monday. Wish me luck!!
 
Weekend is almost over and im doing great!! Yay!! never in a million years did i ever think that i would be looking forward to the end of a weekend :p

Im really excited that im losing so much weight so quickly but also a bit worried? I'm thinking its mostly water weight and ill end up stuck at this weight for a week or two if not longer until my body catches up with itself...

Anyway yesterday morning i went out for an hour 15 min walk with my mom. The balls of my feet were killing by the end of the day. I literally couldn't walk. I took some advil before i went to bed and again this morning and my feet are much better. Still a bit tender but not as debilitating as last night.

I just got back from a FIRM class. basically weights. The class was alright except i have almost no upper body strength :(
Hopefully i can be consistent about going to that class. Im not really a big fan of free weights though so dont know how thats going to go...I carry most of my weight around my ass and my thighs so ive always been focusing on exercises that will tone my legs

Hope everyone had a good weekend!
 
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I carry most of my weight around my ass and my thighs so ive always been focusing on exercises that will tone my legs
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Despite common myth, this isn't really productive.

You can't "spot lose" or "target" weight loss. Working your legs is not going to make you lose more weight in your butt or hips or thighs. In fact, it might make things worse before they get better - because what happens is that as you develop those leg muscles, they'll become a strong base to push the fat *out* from where it is.

Mind you that does NOT mean stop training your legs. That would be counter productive. But you do need to train your FULL BODY in order for there to be balance between your top and bottom half.

Your body will lose weight where it loses and there's not a lot you can do to control that. Unfortunately! :) What you can do is train your whole body equally so that as the weight comes off, you'll have a good balanced, fit look, rather than strong fit legs and flabby, saggy arms. :)
 
Kara you are so right!! For most of may and june whenever i went to the gym (which wasnt often) i pretty much went on the bike and did squats and lunges.

Usually i gauge my weight gain by looking at my legs so since my legs looked like they werent getting much fatter i thought i was doing alright. wrong. i guess i was focusing too much on my legs. My torso started to expand and i didnt even notice! Now that i think back to it i wonder how i didnt! I feel like a lot of it is on my back and around my belly.

:iagree: you cant spot lose. i just read up on that recently. i wish i had known that earlier...like 4 months ago:p

Anyway, since i tend to gravitate away from the elliptical, im trying to do more of my workouts in classes. That way im forced to work my entire body AND not give up after 5 mins:D
 
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Mind you, I love squats and lunges because they work some of the biggest muscles in your body as well as being good full body exercises (a good squat or lunge will require you to develop a strong core to maintain balance, as well as working your legs and butt).

And the elliptical is great for cardio work. I'd say don't ditch one over the other or anything - just everything in moderation all the way around. :)
 
Moderation, and switching it up. I learned the hard way that you can get stuck in an exercise rut and you body just adjusts to the work, but if you switch it up you body has to keep guessing. Have you thought about meeting with a trainer once or twice? I'm doing that tonight, I can't wait.
 
I'd love nothing more than to have a personal trainer. I'm trying to save all my money for tuition, so perhaps some day when i have more money to spend at will.

Any ideas how long to wait before changing an exercise routine?
 
i knew it was too good to be true! the weekend went by too smoothly. its like the calm right before a storm:nopity: and can i be any more dramatic please?!

so i went up to bed today around 11:00. I had had a long soul searching discussion with my dad around what i wanted to do after i finished my undergrad. It was a great discussion and it got me thinking about things from a new perspective and since i forget things freakishly quickly, i wanted to write them down - but i was too tired. So i figured id do it tomorrow. Funny thing, im lying in bed and CANT SLEEP! i wasnt hungry, i hadnt just worked out (it had been at least 7 hrs since my workout) and i wasnt too warm (summer this year feels more like early spring). SO i lay there thinking about the discussion i had, and thought well since im not sleeping, i might as well go type up my thoughts. Not a bad idea right? Right. if i had stayed away from the kitchen! *sigh*

I dont even know why i went to the kitchen. But when i did i found a box of dates. Im a sucker for date fruit. I dont know who brought them but i wish they hadnt :(. They are loaded with calories! I want to say they are empty calories, but i know they have some benefit since they arent your typical definition of processed junk food. but again its like eating a lot of raisins. Its straight up sugar!!

Whats worse is that right before eating i had a fleeing moment of *do i really want to do this?*. key word here is fleeting. I might have even already been eating by then. Anyway at the time i didnt care. typical. Guilt is always so damn slow to make an appearance. I'm trying to console myself by remembering that i had lost a good amount of weight and cheating a bit doesnt mean its all over, but its so hard! I know strictly speaking its not a big deal. Start again tomorrow. But i feel so darn guilty and now i feel like eating more to make myself feel better:cuss:

actually just typing this out has kind of made me feel better. I can almost see someones reply being like, are you serious?? you're flipping out over some dates? Like its not THAT big a deal. get over it already. Saying things out loud (or in this case talking to myself) or typing something someone will read really makes a difference. Okay. This is good. Glad i got this out of my system before caving and totally sabotaging last weeks work. I'm going to try and sleep.
 
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are you serious?? you're flipping out over some dates? Like its not THAT big a deal. get over it already.
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Heheheh. :)

You're on the right track. One slip on the top step doesn't mean you have to throw yourself down the staircase. :)

Hang in there. And there is some positive to be able to say that you binged on dates, and not a bag of potato chips. Small steps to progress, baby! :)
 
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One slip on the top step doesn't mean you have to throw yourself down the staircase.
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:smilielol5:Thanks for that visual Kara! I totally imagined myself slipping, shaking my head in disappointment, then jump off. Except it was a ladder :p I'm very much a visual person so that had me laughing for a good minute :D
Anyway its a good analogy and im going to use it every time i feel despair:jump:
...and thanks for your encouraging words!!

Owl - i think you are right, today i was craving sugar as well. I ate a banana but it didnt work. So i had honey with a whole wheat pita, still hungry. Had a boiled egg. waited. Drank some water. 1/2 hour later still hungry :( So i had white rice with honey. :D Guilty pleasure. Then I felt like i had too many carbs too late in the day (it was 7pm) so i went to the gym for 30 mins of cardio and some circuit...

I was going to take today off to give my body a break but i felt like i might continue eating if i didnt leave the house.

I dont know if this is all in my head but whenever i do muscle classes i always feel like i cant control my eating afterwards. Is that normal? I realize that working your muscles increases your metabolism for a bit after you end your workout but should i still feel like overeating the next day??

I think im going to forgo weighing myself for a bit because im sure im not going to be losing anymore for a bit - and i know that if i weigh myself and the scale goes up a pound i might go a little crazy :p

So anyway, I think i will weigh in again around Aug 15
 
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I dont know if this is all in my head but whenever i do muscle classes i always feel like i cant control my eating afterwards. Is that normal? I realize that working your muscles increases your metabolism for a bit after you end your workout but should i still feel like overeating the next day??
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Working your muscles is intense - especially if you do it right. On my weight lifting days I come home so hungry I could gnaw off my own arm. Seriously. One of the worst fights I ever had with my housemate was over the fact that I cannot wait 2 hours after a workout to eat something. :)

I strongly recommend that you look into having a protein shake (or something with lots of protein - like tuna or eggs) immediately after a good workout. I usually have a scoop of protein powder in low-fat milk - but sometimes if I have the calories budgeted in my day, I have a scoop in some really icy cold orange juice. If you use vanilla protein powder, it tastes kinda like an Orange Julius (you know ... from those places that used to be in the mall).

You should give yourself a good dose of protein and carb after a workout anyway because that's when your muscles are really needing the protein to work on the healing process.

It'll help the hunger pangs even into the next day.
 
ok scratch that q about muscle workouts and being hungry :D I just read Kara's post in SparkErosion's diary...:D
nice advice
 
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oh lol! Kara, that was quick! Thanks for stopping by again. i was seriously thinking of not doing anymore muscle classes - I'll stop by a nutrition shop tom and pick some up :hurray:
 
So i just wrote my exam yesterday. Yay, glad that is out of the way. Unfortunately though i wasnt being as careful as i could have been with counting my calories for the past couple of days. I also indulged in ice cream :D

Anyway im starting over again. I didnt weigh myself. I'm sticking to my guns and not weighing myself until the 15th. If i weigh myself and see that ive gained a bit of weight, i get all depressed and it makes it so hard to stick to my plan. I dont know why.

So i took two days off and didnt work out. I went for a run on thursday night. First time ive been running in a while because i had shin splints. It was a good run though, looking forward to my next run. Maybe tonight or tomorrow.

Glad to be back on the forum. Looks like i have a lot of catching up to do :)
 
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nightrunner said:
So i just wrote my exam yesterday. Yay, glad that is out of the way. )
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So that's where you have been busy. :) Hope the exam went well?

Hey, an ice-cream once in a while is allowed. If you punish your body it is bound to revolt. The only way to avoid that is to understand the power of moderation. :) I am only now beginning to (veerrrrry slowly) understand what moderation actually means. Plus you had to sit for an exam, so you are allowed a cheat day here and there.

Also important is that you recognise that you haven't been keeping to the healthy schedule and want to fix that. Good luck!!
 
Hey Juni :) I honestly cant say if the exam went well or not...I'm a child studies major and i was required to take a human anatomy and physiology course.

...made me scratch my head too :p

Man i totally hear you with moderation. I mean my head gets it, my stomach doesnt. I treated myself to some dark chocolate yesterday just because i had such an awesome workout. After i was full and not enjoying the chocolate anymore what did i do? Continue eating :| i know like what the hell is wrong with me that i cant say no to chocolate, i told myself it would melt if i didnt eat it. I wasnt entirely lying to myself because as i was eating it it was melting on the wrapper. Of course i could have just drove home and put it in the fridge but, at the time it seemed like a better idea to just eat it.

So yeeeah :p i think moderation with food is something im going to be working on for a long time. I'm good at it sometimes, but with the right food, or the wrong food really, all thoughts of moderation are hard to find.

Right now i just avoid temptation. So i make sure when i want to have a treat i buy something in a small package so i can just finish it and not be tempted to keep snacking throughout the day.

Anyway i went for a run this morning. yeah thats right THIS MORNING :hurray:I had to stop about half way through and walk though...next saturday ill aim for a solid run. Then ill treat myself to some more chocolate :D
 
.next saturday ill aim for a solid run. Then ill treat myself to some more chocolate
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Just a thought ... it might help if you stop thinking about rewarding yourself with food. :)

And especially don't reward yourself with foods you KNOW are problem foods. You know that chocolate is something you have a problem walking away from - so using it s a reward is just courting another bingey kind of situation.

FWIW, I have the same control issues with potato chips. Anything else I can eat a single serving and walk away. I cannot seem to stop putting potato chips into my mouth. So I NEVER use them as a reward. If I do eat them - say with a sandwich or something - I buy a single serving bag so there's no possibility I can eat more.
 
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