SaturdaySaint's Diary

daily struggle

So...it's 1 pm... i've had my lunch...had a salad with baked chicken, feta cheese, and tomatoes.. had some tea... drinking my water (going a little slower than I had wished..) and now...someone here in the office is burning an oatmeal cookie candle... Killin me people..I swear! LOL

As much as I want something sweet...I can beat this... Everything in me tells me that it's okay.... have something... better than having 10 "somethings"... I don't know... it's a hard thing to get by... almost like I'm depriving my body... but I desperately want to loose the weight... inner struggle...

I don't have time today to read others diary's (atleast..not while I'm at work)...but... anyone have any ideas?:confused:
 
try sugar free sweets, i have some sugar free mints with me at all times, also some sugar free lollies in the car etc.

They get rid of a lot of the cravings, enough so you can deal with it anyway :D
 
Thanks for the advice! I think my biggest issue right now is..I want something chocolaty... I feel so guilty for constantly struggling with this... Then I look at my stomach in the mirror and realize that I have a goal that I need to attain... Compared to alot of people in here..I feel so weak! Or that I complain too much... Trying to change my atittude!
 
I actually like the sugar free lollies, a lot of them are really creamy compared to normal ones :D

The sugar free mints are like ciggies to me, good for after a savory meal when you crave sweet stuff etc

Concentrate on being strong, if you're having heaps of trouble sticking to a regid diet, make it less rigid but just keep the calories under what you're using (your BMI). You can eat a fair bit of food, and nice food before actually gaining weight. You just cant binge a lot, and its probably best to skip anything baked (cookies and cakes). more often.
But i mean im on a diet of 1200ish cal a day. Sometimes its as low as 800, sometimes as high as 1500. but i average out at about 1200. Ive rarely found it hard to stick to for the simple fact that i make sure i throw in a 200cal chocolate bar every now and again, some take aways, a buscuit or two etc. and of course cant forget the brie cheese (mmmm favourite).

Even if i screw up and binge and eat up to 2500 calories, i wont gain weight because thats my BMI, whats what i use in a day. I just wont loose weight for that 1 day :)

Anyway make sure you treat yourself occasionally and dont restrict the diet until you feel yourself wanting to binge :D

ps, go have a bar of chocolate. its only 200cal for a small one :D
 
Thanks SOOO much Wishes.. that helps ALOT... I'm on about 1400 a day as well... and I'm working a desk job... I'm going to have to increase it considerably when I switch jobs (soon... moving to Canada). Gonna be working with my father in law... renovations/construction...the stuff you see on extreme makeover home edition... just REALLY cool stuff... I'm excited...

I was going through some of my old Army Paperwork and realized that alot of my weight comes from physcological issues I've had in the past... I was always big boned...stokey... but my mother and brother always called me fat... heavy..etc... When I went into the Army..I weighed 186. Now..I could have toned that, and lost maybe 2 or 3 pounds, but it wasn't drastic. I got down to 175 when I left the army. When I got home... they said that "Yeah, you've lost weight...but you could still loose some more".... that's UNDER my suggested weight for my height.... I don't get it... so... now... I'm aiming for 185. Currently at 233.5 and I'm happy..this is the lowest I've been in a LONG time.. it makes me excited..and I'm getting quite used to working at getting in shape!
 
Just jump in the thread and say, "I'm in!" Simple as that! :D No one is ever turned away. I had never owned a scale until a few months ago and then I bought two and had to take them both back to WalMart b/c I became obsessive about weighing in. Now I HAVE to wait until I get to work and weigh in the nurse's office. That way I don't weigh in everyday, b/c someone usually grabs me for something when I walk in and once I've had coffee or something to eat I don't weigh in. I think joining the Friday Weigh in club will be good for you...unless you just return the scale altogether. :p

Oops, I forgot...WELCOME to the family and CONGRATS to both you and your wife for the hard work thus far. Keep it up! Best of luck to you. *OHD shakes her pom poms* :D
 
I'm a chocoholic myself...the thing is not to deprive your body or you'll want it even more. I don't know how you feel about popcorn but let me tell you this chocolately low fat, low cal snack I made the other day....oooh, my taste buds are tingling as I type. LMAO

I bought a box of the single baggie 100 cal kettle korn popcorn (100 cals, 2g of fat) and drizzled about 2 tablespoons of lite chocolate syrup (50 cals, 0 fat) over it and shook it up to evenly distribute the chocolate a bit...OMG it was HEAVEN. The kettle korn is already a bit sweet and that chocolate syrup on top...*OHD faints as she retypes this heavenly story* lol ok, I'm up...but really if you like popcorn you've gotta try this. 150 cals and 2 g of fat...can't beat that with a stick. lol

There was another low cal/fat chocolate snack recipe I saw on FitTV the other day, I'll get it and post it in your diary. I haven't tried it yet, but the lady that did made a face when she tasted it that made me believe it was YUMMY! :p
 
WOW that sounds yummy... To be honest... I obsesse I think because it keeps me motivated... if I don't... I slack... then get disappointed when I don't see a pound or two gone...but with that link that Wishes sent.... calculating my BMR... HOLY COW... it's nuts! To maintain my current weight, I have to take in 3390.9428 calories a day!!!:eek: I've been roughly around 1400 to 1600. No wonder things have started a nice decline for me. Specially with the work out regiment that we have taken on! I just had two hersey's kisses... sweet craving is gone... (for now) but wow... that chocolate popcorn receipe sounds HEAVENLY!!!!!
 
Okay... so tonight... for my birthday (and with the new revelations about my BMR)... we're having a few extra carbs... Flounder sandwich from a local shop...Yum yum yum! And some milano cookies... then back to the grind tomorrow :D I may post later tonight...
 
Good Morning.. Not so good evening

Okay..so...I kinda fell off the horse last night... went a little batcrazy with my birthday celebration. Last night I had a flounder sandwich (the flounder was deep fried...I know I know), tartar sauce... fries... bleck! It tasted "ALL RIGHT"... not like it used too... haven't had that stuff in a while! And now... I know why... I didn't get sick... I just got...I don't know... felt kinda "off". Had some rum punch (again..I know I know Calories calories calories). Then to top it all off... I had some milano cookies... now that...I ask NO forgiveness! LOL... My wife had the same (sans the rum punch) and it did NOT go over well. anyway...went to bed... and at about 3 a.m. She wakes me up telling me that my daughter was calling me... now mind you..I'm completely out of it... and I go to my kids room and puts her back in bed... come back to the bedroom and my wife is in the bathroom "laughing at the ground" I bring her some water... and in between heaves... let her rest her head on me... she's not doing well at all..but she tells me to go back to bed... because I have a "schedule" to keep...a goal. She's so sweet.. she wants to see me succeed. So I go to bed... and she comes to bed about 30 minutes later...

At 4:50 a.m. the alarm goes off...and it starts again. This time I'm flying solo. My wife goes to the couch to catch up on sleep she missed out on in the middle of the night and I hop on the bike! Here's the regiment for this morning:

20 minutes Stationary
20 Minutes Gazelle
30 Pushups (YAY.... 10 more)
20 situps

Again...went to muscle failure and I feel GREAT!!!!! No break down today... gonna push through it all...gonna make today a great day! Gonna stay "On the horse" this time! My breakfast consisted of:

Kashi GoLean Cinnamin Shredded wheat
1 Cup 1% Milk
1 Banana

Gonna have a salad for lunch... For those who pray...please do... we're running short on food..and equally short on money... I hate Florida... :(
 
WOO HOO! Way to go! The exercise looks GREAT and the breakfast too! Your attitude is like a firecracker...just fabulous. I'm wishing that the rest of your day is just as great as your morning!

As for the prayers...consider it done. *hugs*

Btw...your wife sounds like such a sweetheart, you guys sound so cute together. When you said she laid her head on you b/w heaves I thought to myself,"Awwww, now that's love."

Best of luck to you! :)
 
Thanks Ohappydaye...

I actually told her this morning while she showered how I kinda felt bad because, you know how some women find it incredibly sweet and this awesome thing when their man holds their hair back while they are have a technocolored yawn. She says to me "Honey..it's okay... you know me...I normally don't like ANYONE around when I'm going through that...no biggie.

Made me feel a whole lot better! Thing is now... we're actually thinking she's pregnant!:eek: :eek:

We want more kids..but we wanted to: A. Be in Canada (she's not on the health insurance right now because of finances... my job charges WAY too much) and B. she wanted to loose the weight before getting pregnant again...she didn't want another overweight pregnancy... Then again...she normally looses an average of 30 to 40 lbs during her pregnancies...

If we are... we will welcome our third with open arms... only thing is... we'll be seperated for a bit... If she is, we're planning on having her go up to Canada with the kids until my paperwork goes through...then I'll join them up there. I already have a job waiting and we're going to be living with her parents (they have an incredibly HUGE basement, fully furnished) until we get on our feet. All the plans are there...just waiting on stupid immigration! grrrrrrrr
 
Sounds like an exciting and slightly (understatement probably) stressful time, but don't stress. All things happen for a reason...although I let things work me up sometimes, I'm a firm believer in this. Sometimes you look at a situation and don't know how you're going to get through and the next thing you know you're on the other side of it thinking, "God I don't know how you did it, but thank you!" You all sound like lovely people and you're in my prayers. All will work out and be even better than you ever thought possible. *hugs for both you and the Mrs.* :)
 
Thanks...I'm going to post our pictures some time maybe today..is there a specific place to do so? I know there's a before/during/after section... but is there a place just to post images?
 
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