Hey all
Another update from me, woohoo! This week has been extremely stressful and I'm literally fried. I just took a test today in my Fundamentals class and didn't do too great. I got a 70 and need to maintain at least a 78 average so I can pass the class... The test will be parred and I'm praying that my score will go up a bit but I don't know how much. I will find out tomorrow afternoon. Yesterday was 6 hours of lecture and a 2 hour SIMS man lab (in our school's multi-million dollar lab where I got to take BP's and listen to normal/abnormal heart and lung sounds on our life-like state of the art mannequins

) Tuesday was my lab day, and it was hell. We did meds and it was an extra large class due to the holiday and no school on Monday... I made it through though and now I know how to properly give meds, including interdermal, subcutaneous and intermuscular injections.... I was a little shaky

but I did pretty good.
There is this one instructor who is a bitch from hell... She made me physically ill on Tuesday from all her negativity and bitchiness... She is so mean to other students and other teachers and I can't handle it. Luckily she didn't direct anything personally towards me but I have friends who weren't so lucky... I just have to remember she has to live with herself, and she is a sad sad individual who gets off on picking on /embarrassing/ demeaning nursing students.
My clinical is about to start here in a week and a half or so and I'm a little nervous... It just seems very overwhelming and I don't know if I'm completely ready for it. I will do my best and hope for it all to work out.
Work is changing. That's been my other stress this week. They are changing my title and my shift

... I still have to maintain my full time status but I think it's going to be alright with my 3x12 hour shifts each week, so a total of 36 hours... My dad is now my official boss and he won't let anything bad happen to me, so I'm covered there. It was just stressful thinking I might have to get a new job and that is something I can't handle right now. School is taking up so much time/effort/energy and I can't do that too...
I haven't been to great with going to the gym this week. I did make it twice last weekt though. I'm just so tired all of the time. I keep waiting for things to calm down and they never do. Food hasn't been too bad but not great. I'm working on that, like I always am. I would really like to get to the gym more but sleeping or studying or doing some dumb project always seems to win out... My bro has started hitting the gym more though, so I'm happy about that, and kinda jealous he has the time to go more than me. I'll get there

It's still early too. I got a little over 3 months before Pride and hell even if I can't take my shirt off, lol... I still could drop 20 or so lbs and looks sexy in a tight tee shirt or something? I gotta take the positives...
There is a boy prospect in the program with me... He's not in any of my classes because he's in the 2nd section (I'm in the first) but I occasionally bump into him... He's always starring at me and "hunts" or looks for obscure reasons to talk to me. My friends notice him hovering around me and trying to think up reasons to just talk to me

I think it's cute. He hasn't announced he's gay or anything (LOL) but this guy is gay for sure. Let's just say "I can smell it in the kitchen" hehe...
Hope you are all doing well and I'm going to try to come visit some of your diaries,
-Sam