Rho's Diary

Thanks guys. Your kind words mean a lot.. Feel slightly better but not much... I guess I'm really sensitive - I don't shrug things off easily, whether negativity or happiness. It's just me.

Yesterday was really busy for me - didn't get home until nearly 8, so couldn't go the gym. Made up for it today though, with both a weight training session and a cardio session (burning 344 calories).

I've decided to go on my next walk tomorrow - a li'l over 11miles so I'm off to go prepare my clothes and food for it..

Don't know why, but posting's just made me feel worse! I wonder why..

Have a good weekend all..
 
I've decided to go on my next walk tomorrow - a li'l over 11miles so I'm off to go prepare my clothes and food for it..
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I'm always amazed to see someone voluntarily doing a walk that long :) it's a nice distance though... not too brutal but not easy either...

enjoy it...
 
I think I know whats bothering me. Lately I've been feeling like I've GOT to be positive all the time. It's not like I'm not a positive person - I am!! But the fact is life throws certain curveballs my way that ain't so great. I decided right at the start of this diary to be honest with everything - my feelings as I go on this journey, everything. I don't think it'll be fair if all my posts are full of air and light - my life hasn't been airy and light! I have my negative moments, no, periods, where people keep disappointing me which gets me down, but I always pick myself up cos, well, I have to..

I'm not even sure why I'm saying all this, but I just think that above everything, it's important to be true to myself. Ok, I've said what I want to say. I'll go back to my preparation now..
 
you can't possibly take the super grouch crown from me - so feel free to be negative and talk about what's on your mind whenever youo feel like it.. no one says you have to be susie sunshine all the time - I don't trust people who are all perky all the time - they at least need to share their stash of happy pills :D

this diary is about your journey and your mood and reflections at the time - be honest with them...
 
maleficent said:
I'm always amazed to see someone voluntarily doing a walk that long :) it's a nice distance though... not too brutal but not easy either...

enjoy it...
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Aww, thanks Mal - if not for the fact that I enjoy it so much I don't think I'd do it. In any case, you're aiming for 60miles yourself! On my way to the gym tonight I found myself limping slightly cos my left knee was acting up, but after my workout the pain was gone.. It's the same with walking, only the benefits spread to the mind (I've not been too happy lately and walking helps release the mental pressure), and the benefits aren't just physical.. It's also a rare pleasure that's for me alone (although I am planning some walks to include friends) so I guess that's my main motivation.. Plus the lovely scenery doesn't hurt either :)
 
Plus the lovely scenery doesn't hurt either
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my favorite walk is along the water front - so my scenery is not only the water and the beach - but also the beautiful beefcake that inhabit the beach :) now THAT'S lovely scenery - too bad i'm too old and to me to be of interest to them :D
 
maleficent said:
you can't possibly take the super grouch crown from me - so feel free to be negative and talk about what's on your mind whenever youo feel like it.. no one says you have to be susie sunshine all the time - I don't trust people who are all perky all the time - they at least need to share their stash of happy pills :D

this diary is about your journey and your mood and reflections at the time - be honest with them...
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Thanks Mal. I felt a few tears prickling my eyelids but decided I was just being too damn sensitive..(maybe PMT, who knows..) The fact is when there's no pressure on me to be happy I turn out happy anyway! In an ideal world everyone would be happy as a long summer's day... Ah well, I feel much better now that I know I'm not been chastised (at least by one person) for not being giddy with happiness all the time :)

Thanks Mal..
 
maleficent said:
my favorite walk is along the water front - so my scenery is not only the water and the beach - but also the beautiful beefcake that inhabit the beach :) now THAT'S lovely scenery - too bad i'm too old and to me to be of interest to them :D
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That sure cracked me up!!!:rotflmao: Whatever floats your boat!! Attractive people make up the scenery too! :D
 
Thanks again Mal!!

I feel ready to take on the world now... (It's funny how a few well-chosen words can make the world seem like such a better place :) )
 
RhoRho said:
That sure cracked me up!!!:rotflmao: Whatever floats your boat!! Attractive people make up the scenery too! :D
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the less than attractive ones (yes, I'm judgemental :D ) make it really entertaining too - there's an older guy I see every week who goes out walking wearing black speedos, white socks, black sneakers and one of those only men would wear heart rate monitors strapped to his bare chest. He always looks so damned proud of himself too :)

first time i saw him, I wanted to bleach my eyes :D
 
Oh wow - I laughed so much at the image of such a guy my sides hurt. I think it's great that people like him feel so free to express themselves in as wild a fashion as they choose! Hell, it makes the world more entertaining! I kinda get bored of seeing the same ol' tanned muscular good-looking guys sometimes... (I lie!!!)

I'm off to bed now - early start tomorrow. All packed and ready for the walk, camera and all. Have a fantastic night, Mal and every other lovely person on WLF!
 
This is your diary, and you need to write whatever you want, don't for a minute think that just because you're feeling down or negative that it's unimportant or that you must put on a happy front. I have depressing moments daily, so I get you. I am sensitive as well. Just be honest and it will be alright, I want to know how you are, not how you're pretending to feel. :) Be negative, it's so much more interesting. hahaha ;)
 
Rho first and foremost I think your a sweetheart! I thank you for stopping by my diary when you can, even when I'm not able to get by yours. It means a lot to me! You know in your past post you mentioned sometimes not feeling cheery all the time, you know that's normal, we ALL get that way every now and again. It's impossible to stay happy 24-7 when life throws us curve balls all the time. I think your on an incredable journey right now, your learning more about yourself and your taking time out to care for "YOU" also. We are all human, we all have fears, we all cry and we all try and push forward. I think your doing a fantastic job on your weight loss journey. You eat well, your moving your bod and most of all your still coming to WLF for advise and to give us uplift. I'm glad your here! My diary would be lonely if you were not! :) :jump: :jump: Have a wonderful weekend miss beautiful!
Kim
 
I find diaries that reflect the person's true feelings and what's really going on in their life, the good bad and ugly, more interesting than those positive types that dont tell the real story (like in my own I avoided the topic of how I kicked H out for 4 days last week LOL).

How'd the megga walk go? So nice of you to convert the distance to miles for us. Kilometers mean absolutely nothing to me..
 
Rho I'm just curious about how you're doing today, I hope you're feeling better, but if you're not, I wanna know too! :hug2: ;)
 
Thanks for your comments guys. Your support means more than you know :)

Ok - I'm back. The walk took a grand total of 10 hours, which is a record for me.

My body is making a thousand promises of pain but I'm damn proud of myself. I ended up doing 6 EXTRA miles.. not because I wanted to, mind, but because I got lost.

From the get go I found myself in the middle of nowhere and the directions in the book just didn't make sense (Read that as Rhoda read the directions wrong..lol) so I ended up wandering around for close to 45 mins...but that was ok. The sun was shining, it was a beautiful day..no sign of rain.. I was cruising..

I went through mile after mile, y'know, quite easily.. I had such a blast..Until I got lost somewhere over Farthing Downs.. Such a beautiful place, I'm sure it's hidden its fair share of bodies...people who got lost in there and couldn't find their way out... I got so lost I couldn't even retrace my steps, so I fumbled my way through the woods.. I reckoned I had to come out to houses sooner or later, right.. After 45 mins of going in the totally wrong direction, I was surprised when a man and his dog literally popped out of nowhere.

He must have seen the look of relief on my face as he immediately asked if I was lost. I couldn't nod fast enough! Thankfully he knew the area inside out, and was able to advise me on how best to get back onto the London Loop. He was so sweet - I wish I knew his name.. Sometimes people have a short but intense effect on your life, and you find yourself regretting it was but for a moment.. Thanks to him, I was able to find my way back, even though it took me another 45mins..

Oooh, a highlight of today's Walk.. After around 9 miles, I climbed over a stile, emerging into the most beautiful field I've EVER seen!! It was a lavender field and the air was filled with the maddeningly intoxicating scent of lavender. There was a path of green right through the field, and on either side purple as far as the eye could see.. It was breathtaking, it really was..

By this time I was so relaxed I was already thinking of what I'd have for dinner once I got home.. Only 2 miles to go, after all..

Anyhoo, I got into the final stretch, Oaks Park, and proceeded to get thoroughly lost. Maybe I was still in my relaxed mood... I thought I'd find my way out somehow.. unfortunately the woods just got thicker and thicker and it got darker and darker. For the next 2 hours I wearily trudged the woods of Banstead (the area), eventually emerging onto a road. I was really relieved cos at least nighttime wouldn't set with me still in the woods! That was my nightmare - thankfully it didn't happen.. But the road walk itself was such a nightmare... so long, and I kept hurrying so I'd be within civilisation before it got completely dark, but that didn't happen. The sun set but thankfully there were a few streetlamps, as well as headlights from cars..So a walk that should have ended around 7.30pm, with the skies still nice and bright, ended around 10.30pm, with the skies dark and me standing at the loneliest looking bus stop fervently praying that the single service was still running.

As I waited for the bus I listened to the radio and ate my last solitary sandwich while cars zoomed past on the lonely country road. I was so happy to see the bus that would cart me off to civilisation - as much as I like the country I don't want to be stuck there overnight without so much as a tent! There are cows, for goodness sake (no running away from the great big things - at least they didn't chase me today..)

My right leg's flared up in pain again - I think I might have to see the GP about this cos the left leg doesn't hurt as bad...but then maybe I should give it a few days so I can heal properly first..

My arms are scratched and bleeding - it was hot so I didn't have sleeves on so all the brambles and stuff got extra nutrients from my blood..yeurch, but despite all the pain and discomfort I have to say I feel fantastic. (MENTALLY!!) I did so much thinking I got TIRED of thinking and just gave in to nature, let nature in (no, the woods didn't have coke in them..lol) I'm planning a 10 mile walk with friends on the 21st and I'm thinking I need to do a trial run by myself beforehand...just so we don't get lost like I seem to be in the habit of doing, cos I just KNOW they'll start panicking, and I can't just say "Chill out!" like I would with myself..

Ok, that's me for now. I didn't get a good night's sleep last night, which is the reason I started off so late today, so I'm determined to make up for it tonight... There's so much I want to say about this walk - maybe I should start a journal cos I like to talk!

I hope everyone is hunkydory - have a nice night all. :)
 


WOW! What an adventure! Fun but a bit frightening. Yikes!

Did you happen to bring a camera with you? I am trying to imagine that beautiful lavender field. It sounds simply magical!

That is so wonderful that you had enough courage and strength to venture about like that! Great work!

Hugs,
Vanessa
 
I also hope you were able to snap a picture of that field. What a great story Rho, you have a lovely skill :) you retell the experience well! I'm amazed at the number of miles you've logged and it's no wonder you are losing the weight with your treks. I hope you get good rest and I hope you see your doctor about the leg pain. :hug2: Thanks for sharing.
 
Aww, thanks guys. The wonderful news is yes, I took a camera, and the even more wonderful news is I took extra rechargeable batteries, so when the first 2 died I just replaced them! So I managed to take more pictures this time, well, not when it got dark. I was more concerned about finding my way out..

The lavender field was simply gorgeous. Twas the Mayfield Lavender fields. There was a sign asking walkers not to pick the lavender (as it's to be sold) but I don't think it was necessary - the scent wafted all around and settled on you, which was just as good. And the middle of the sea of purple stood a tree with a couple of tree tables underneath. The contrasting colours made it a photographer's wet dream. I'm really glad I got to take pictures. I hope to post them up today or tomorrow. PS: Sara, thanks.. The scenery did it all really..

Update: My various parts are singing out a symphony of pain. It's my fault really. I did a weight training session literally the night before so I was already quite sore. Still, as much as I moan about pain, I must be addicted to it for me to keep getting myself into painful situations, right. I've got to do a bit of food shopping which means I've got to leave the house. Even the thought fills me with pain, but I think it'll actually be good for me, cos nothing beats exercise pain like more exercise!
 
Hey Rho, that was such an excellent post about your walk. In my mind's eye I could just feel as if I was in quaint old England. Oooooooooh! Now I want to go sniff around a lavender field. You are very courageous too, I would be scared to death to be lost in the woods by myself. And to be happy to see some strange man on your own in the woods, well you're more trusting than I as I would've been scared out of my wits. Just be careful mami, but keep enjoying this new hobby. It would be great if you and your friends decided to make it a regular thing, though I know you like to go off on your own too.

A few years ago I used to do these 10 mile hikes in the mountains nearby with a hiking club. Everytime I did one of those on a Sat or Sun, I not only burned tons of calories but I also avoided overeating that day, as I do most every weekend. So I knew that after a grueling day, I would be showing a pound less on the scale on Monday rather than a 2 pound gain. Unfortunately I dont hike any more, but they were very helpful to my weight management.
 
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