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Hope you're not watching the cricket Stan! 5/8? WTF? You've won the ODI series, but wow!
Seriously though- hope all is well in your part of the world xo
 
Stan said:
woke up feeling a bit chesty but didn't think much of it so went out in the snow for a walk. Really struggled with the walk though, I felt really ill and barely had any pace in my stride for the latter part of the walk. Looks like I've caught some bug which is annoying as I never really felt 100% since the last one
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Hmm, 'a bit chesty' and 'some bug' turned out to be the early throws of pneumonia :eek: luckily it has only been quite a mild case though and although I'm still not doing so great I'm definitely on the mend. It only hurts now when I breathe :p

But on the up side I have zero appetite lol.
 
Pneumonia does suck. I had it 2 years in a row once for AGES each time. Just breathing is exhausting! Heal well & quickly Stan.
 
I only had it once, when I was 8. They thought I had meningitis so I ended up quarantained in the hospital which in my recollection was worse than the pneumonia after the first day or so. Mom brought me three fresh (library) books a day to keep me manageable :D I also got a plush cat and a Barbie with a(n unbelievably) pink bed from aunts and our pastor was very apologetic afterwards about not having been to see me so I guess it was bad :angel:

Tl;dr: I sincerely hope the worst part of your pneumonia experience is boredom.
 
Sorry to hear you're not up to your usual spritely self! Miss your adventures. Rest up, friend. Hope you feel well again soon. :)
 
LaMaria said:
I also got a plush cat and a Barbie
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I got literally no Barbies. Where do I complain to? :p

Thanks everyone. Is it bad that I continued to go into work despite being ill? I'm so desperate to get on well there that I didn't want to take any time off. Not the only stupid thing I've done since my last entry anyway. I'm in such a foul mood with the world and it's so deja vu...

Few days ago I'm out with a couple of friends celebrating a birthday. I'm driving one of them home so I'm not drinking; she's an amazing friend and having been through so much bad luck in her life yet achieved so much I can honestly say she's my hero really. I have a crush on her and I'm pretty sure she knows it and I suspect she has a slight crush on me too; but she's married, albeit not exactly happily, so it's a complete no-go. Anyway, at various points in the evening she's either got her hand on the inside of my thigh or putting my arm around her or has her arms around me. At one point she's got arms around my neck and is talking to me literally lip to lip telling me how much she loves me. I like to think I'm a good person - I did enjoy the attention but I didn't take advantage. Well, sort of. When we got to the car she was struggling to seal her phone and bank card into her pocket so I leaned over and helped. Next thing she's kissing me...and I'm kissing her back. It's not that I think this is the blossoming of a beautiful romance or anything, I know the score with hubby etc and it was really only just a fairly short few moments. It's just left me feeling really angry and depressed, but I don't know who with or even why exactly.

She knew about Girl when that happened and was savage over the whole situation, but here she is doing pretty much the same. It could be this I'm angry about, or it could be that since then she's sent considerable lengths of message to me explaining what I already know about her relationship, ie rocky but not ready to break up by a long shot. It does seem like she's gone out of her way to try to tell me we're only friends when I already know this. I'm actually ok about the situation, I may even tease her about it when I pick her up next week, but I can't reconcile why I feel so angry and down about stuff.

Anyway back to the real world, as I was feeling so mopey I bit the bullet and got on the scales to see what the damage is from not doing any exercise for what feels like an eternity. Came in at 292lbs which I think is a slight loss from my previous weigh-in a couple of weeks back. So that's put a much better spin on the week at least!

I'm still feeling pretty ill insomuch as I can't seem to breathe properly. My chest feels clear most of the time but my cough is still sounding much rougher than it feels. Seems to be that although I can take a good deep breath, enough oxygen isn't always getting into my system so I find myself gasping a little or feeling light-headed sometimes. I'm sure there's a better scientific description lol. I wont be doing much exercise this week anyway, maybe just something light at the weekend.

As I've not been doing much I've actually watched some TV! I caught up on a series called Derry Girls - highly recommend it if you can watch it in your region - and also binged watched a US show called Search Party. Now I'm hooked on both so desperately need the third series of SP to be made and can't wait for tomorrow for the next episode of DG. This is what being ill does to you haha!
 
Stan said:
It's just left me feeling really angry and depressed, but I don't know who with or even why exactly.
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I´d say you feel taken advantage of. I certainly would. Especially if she knows about the Girl episode and how much it shook you. This is not acceptable behavior for a friend.

Congratulations on the unexpected weightloss but please don´t start working out again until you´re truly well again. No need to get literal heart issues just to get to your goal weight a week earlier.
 
I second what Lama said. Also, to be blunt, it was shitty of her to make out with you when she probably has an inkling of how you feel while also saying she's not ready to end her current relationship. That mixed message bullshit irritates the bajeesus out of me. It's inconsiderate and insensitive at best, manipulative and intentionally cruel at worst.

Please allow yourself adequate recovery time. Pneumonia is one of those things that will have long lasting impact on the body. It took my mom 6 months to feel like she was completely over it.
 
Aww thanks both. It's awesome to have neutral outside opinions I can trust. I'm definitely going to give her a hard time and make her squirm when I pick her up next week, she deserves it lol. I do feel much better and less angry already now I've shared what happened too.

Just wanted to upload this as I think it makes cool reading lol. You can see my resting heart rate tracking me getting sick haha! It starts rising from 21st Jan for a week until it peaks on 28th Jan - those were the two dates I first felt sick and the final day that I felt really bad. Three days since then I've felt grotty but improving. I think its cool anyway lol

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Thanks for the advice re recovery too ladies; I'll take it steady I promise :)
 
I hear you on the resting heart rate. It's a pretty good indicator of when things start going sideways which is one of the reasons I keep a close eye on mine. I tried a Garmin Vivoactive HR for a bit over a week and returned it to spouse Spice once I fixed the strap on my older version. I have no idea what it was doing to get a resting heart rate. The HR version has an optical heart rate sensor built into the watch and it is no where near in the ball park when I am doing an activity. I've checked it after a workout and have seen max rates of under 100 when the chest strap monitor reported over 160. I've also seen it report rates in the 40s over night yet indicate a resting heart rate of 55, even as the live view shows 52 as I'm ensconced before the dinner table. I think it works OK in the dark when there is limited activity, but it's just useless otherwise, at least on my wrist. I've looked at reviews of various fitness trackers on the Wareables review web site and the reports were that most of the optical monitors were a bit suspect. The good news is that the HR version will still pair with a chest strap and give an accurate read. I also have seen a 3rd generation Vivoactive and it allegedly has improved optical accuracy over the previous edition. If and when my old one dies, I'll upgrade to one of those as it still retains the ability to pair with one of several chest strap monitors, just in case.

It's cold here and my step counter hasn't hit 3000 for a month. I can't wait for some better weather. Hope you get back above your average soon.
 
Stan said:
I'm definitely going to give her a hard time and make her squirm when I pick her up next week, she deserves it lol. I do feel much better and less angry already now I've shared what happened too.
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I'm glad you're going to give her a hard time. Please don't let it pass as a joke though as I think your feelings should be respected more & she should know that. I am glad that you are feeling better & less angry. It simply is not fair to you & you don't deserve it xo
 
Passing something off as a joke may feel easier since it lets the other person save face and maybehopefullyperhaps they won´t get angry with me for speaking up but it also lets them ignore the fact they actually did a crappy thing. Even though they already know that.
 
Don't be too hard on yourself about the woman, Stan - we're only human. One thing I have learned thus far in life is that I can't change other people. Their behavior is the collection of all the experiences in their lives - and since I don't know their experiences like they do, I also don't know why they do what they do. The only person I can really know and change is myself. If that makes sense.

I really hope you feel better. It seems terribly unfair you have been so sick this season! Sending hugs, friend.
 
LaMaria said:
Passing something off as a joke may feel easier since it lets the other person save face and maybehopefullyperhaps they won´t get angry with me for speaking up but it also lets them ignore the fact they actually did a crappy thing. Even though they already know that.
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I'm seriously starting to think LaMa is my shoulder angel - the good angel too lol. These are exactly the thoughts that came into my head! I do listen, I promise :)

I did see my friend today but she was feeling really ill so I didn't want to get into a conversation of this nature while she was so down. It'll keep.

Jenniquest said:
I really hope you feel better. It seems terribly unfair you have been so sick this season! Sending hugs, friend.
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Thanks Jenni. I'm definitely on the mend now, fingers crossed I'm 100% asap :)

Back to walking today; I did a pretty leisurely 12k of steps during the day and followed it up with a further 10k steps walk in the evening. Didn't press myself too hard as I could still feel a little restriction in my chest as I came up the hill near the end of my walk, but all in all it went pretty well. Resting bpm has also returned to the previous level; it's created a little sickness mountain lol

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"I'm seriously starting to think LaMa is my shoulder angel - the good angel too"
:rotflmao: Be warned that I'm not above pulling your ear should the need arise.
 
Generally ate badly yesterday and had that in my head while I was walking today... so I carried on walking and walking lol. Ended up at 12 miles all in one go in an epic 3hr 45min jaunt. Probably should stay away from the cake in future as I've clearly developed some sort of weird self-punishment technique!

Not a lot to report this week. Food has been ok, steps have been good. Resting heart rate continues to roller-coaster :confused:

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