So, I've been a registered member for awhile, but only now do I have the courage to post my dreaded before pics. Actually, it's probably more desperation than courage at this point. In finally posting pics, I hope to feel more accountable and maintain a routine long enough to reach my goal.
I'm currently 214.6 pounds at 5'5 w/ a medium-large frame. My short term goal is to get below 200, and my not-as-short-term goal is to get back to
160. In my first year of marriage I hovered around the low 160's and thought I was disgusting, despite the fact that I got hit on all the time. Now that I'm above 200 and rarely get hit on, I seriously regret not appreciating my former body and build.
I struggled w/ eating disorders as a teenager and discovered I was insulin resistant a couple of years ago. At the time I thought this diagnosis would motivate me to for once be thin but healthy, as I desperately do not want to become a full blown diabetic. However, it seems to have made things worse. I already have a tendency towards obsessing about food, whether I'm eagerly anticipating my next meal, beating myself up over what I just ate, or avoiding food altogether b/c I get anxious about eating in front of other people. Since my doctor told me I needed to eat a carb to protein ratio of 2:1 at every meal to avoid diabetes, thoughts of food became even more all-consuming and overwhelming.
I have recently decided to just eat HEALTHY and stick w/ reasonable portions instead of worrying so much about numbers. As far as exercise, I wear a pedometer every day and aim for 10,000 steps. If I haven't reached this goal by the time I get home from work I hop on my elliptical until I do.
Sorry my mirror is kinda weird, but it's the only full length I have. My before pics are below...
I'm currently 214.6 pounds at 5'5 w/ a medium-large frame. My short term goal is to get below 200, and my not-as-short-term goal is to get back to
160. In my first year of marriage I hovered around the low 160's and thought I was disgusting, despite the fact that I got hit on all the time. Now that I'm above 200 and rarely get hit on, I seriously regret not appreciating my former body and build.
I struggled w/ eating disorders as a teenager and discovered I was insulin resistant a couple of years ago. At the time I thought this diagnosis would motivate me to for once be thin but healthy, as I desperately do not want to become a full blown diabetic. However, it seems to have made things worse. I already have a tendency towards obsessing about food, whether I'm eagerly anticipating my next meal, beating myself up over what I just ate, or avoiding food altogether b/c I get anxious about eating in front of other people. Since my doctor told me I needed to eat a carb to protein ratio of 2:1 at every meal to avoid diabetes, thoughts of food became even more all-consuming and overwhelming.
I have recently decided to just eat HEALTHY and stick w/ reasonable portions instead of worrying so much about numbers. As far as exercise, I wear a pedometer every day and aim for 10,000 steps. If I haven't reached this goal by the time I get home from work I hop on my elliptical until I do.
Sorry my mirror is kinda weird, but it's the only full length I have. My before pics are below...
Hi Renee
I know what it's like to have a love/hate relationship with food ...not fun... you just have to put everything into perspective and realize that you have control over it and not the other way around....But easier said than done!!!! Stay consistent & good luck!