Rena's diary

ummhusayn

ummhusayn

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Ok, diary entry number 1. So when i started this diet on june 4,2007 i was 244.6 and scared as hell to get to 250. Ive never been 250 and never though i would be on the verge of making it there. So i decided to make a change. No diet, no counting calories, no weight watchers, and no atkins....just plain HEALTHY EATING!!!! I cut out most white flour and all fried food. I cut out candy and cut back to lite and fat free snacks. I do however take sundays off. It works for me. If I know that Sunday i can have anything... mon thru sat i dont have to cheat. So just with diet alone i lost 11 pounds. then 2 weeks ago i joined a female only gym (a true gift from God) and now i am down to 229.6. I havent been this weight since before i met my husband which was 4 1/2 years ago. I am soooooo proud of myself. My goal for now is to get to under 200 by halloween. I can use all the support and ecouragemtn i can get!!!! As motivation i have decided that when I get to 180 i am getting my belly button pierced.lolol Might not seem the drastic but I am a Muslim woman who covers completely so that would be a gift for meand my husband alone. Something I have always secretly wanted but never would dare do ( especially since you cant see it with a roll covering it!!!!)lolol. Ive lived my life being the fat girl. I remember when I was in 5th grade.... a friend of mine told a boy i liked him... his response was.."maybe if she loses 60 pounds". I was so hurt and continued being hurt for the rest of my life. So now i am married with 2 kids and am happy with everything in my life... except my weight. God willing one day I will wake up, look in the mirror, and love myself completely.

rena
 
I am soooooooooo excited. I conquered the elliptical today!!! I was on it for 45 minutes and 4.3 miles. For me this is huge. I have never been more proud of myself!!!! Last night my husband bought me an mp3 player.... so today it was loaded up and ready to go!! I think that was the key to my success.

I LOVE EXERCISE :eek2: (OMG i never thought i would say that!!!)

congrats to ME!!!

rena
 
bad day yesterday......after the gym i couldnt walk due to pain from endometriosis. I hate having this stupid disease and dont want to have another surgery for it right now. Ive had 2 surgeries for endometriosis, 1 for gallbladder stones, and 2 c-sections and all with the last 3 years!!! The pain is bad so today i didnt go to the gym since the exercise yesterday made it worse.

On a better note...tuesday i went to kennywood(a local amusement park) and for the first time of my life i didnt eat a thing from there!!! It was an awesome experience to be able to turn down some of my favorite foods. I never had willpower before in my life...thats how i know this time i am right on track! Also the jeans i wore usedto be tight but i found myself all day pulling my pants up because i was losing them!!!!

Also wednesday i weighed in at 228.4 which felt soooooo good. Im determined to get to 225 by august 1.

Rena
 
I hope you feel better soon, well done on the torture machine they call an elliptical :jump:
 
Food Food Food

It was my sisters b-day yesterday. Why is it that every celebration has to revolve around food? Anyways, speghetti, lobster, fried zucchini, pie.... i managed to hold my ground and not give into temptation. It really is getting much easier to say no.

I am however getting just a little discouraged with the scale. I have been at 228 for about 5 days. I cant stand it. Why does it take so long for the numbers to go down????? I know i shouldnt be hung up on the number but i am. I do feel much better and my clothes fit better. I really feel my body being toned and i have muscles where i never thought they existed!!! It just hard to wait for the fat to be gone. When i am at the gym i feel so light and so thin but then i look into the mirror and get a shock.....im still fat!!! It is like i am trapped in this huge body and am struggling to get out. I know to lose the weight slowly is ideal but its hard. 1-2 pounds a week seems like nothing but i know in the end it will add up.

Im debating buying a pair of jeans that are way to small to be my "goal jeans" in like a size 12. Any thoughts?

Rena
 
does anyone here not feel hungry int he morning? I woke up today and could hardly force myself to eat a peach. Normally in the morning i eat a banana on a small wheat pita with a bit of peanut butter. It seems to give me great energy. Today though...not too hungry. Im going to have some veggie chili for lunch....hope it is good.
 
Hi again Rena,

hope everything is going better for you. :) Now as to your question: I sometimes wake up really hungry in the morning, so instead of running to the fridge I try to drink 2 cups of water. (Sometimes your brain makes you think you're starving, but infact you're thirsty.) I always wake up looking forward to eating a good breakfast, usually after some cardio or weight training. ( I try to wake up much earlier than my husband, so that I can do it before he wakes up.) Hmmm... so in other words, nope.. I can't relate to your situation! Ha! Jeez.. how's that for a round-about answer! Anyways... just make sure to eat something for breakfast being that it really energizes you for the remainder of the day! By the way.. thanks for dropping in to my journal. :)

-Sheryl
 
whats really crazy is in my younger days(lol) when i would be up late and eat at like 1 or 2 in the morning....the morning after i would wake up hungry as hell. It was crazy. My hunger though usually comes in the evening which is not good at all. Lately i try not to eat a big dinner. It seems to be working so far.

Rena
 
almost had a breakdown.....but it passed...lol Baby is sick and my son was throwing a tantrum and i almost gave in and started eating some iraqi rice and chicken i made for my husband.....but i stopped myself and had 3 crackers with peanut butter and a nectarine. I am most definately an emotional eater. When i am stressed the first place i go is the kitchen.

So anyways i take sundays off the diet.....anyone else do that? I find it helps me to stay on track the rest of the week.

Rena
 
ummhusayn said:
So anyways i take sundays off the diet.....anyone else do that? I find it helps me to stay on track the rest of the week.

Rena
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I'm not as strict on my diet on Sundays (I eat crap food in moderation), however I still get in at least an hour of walking. It's like this... if it works for you, then keep with it. :) I hope the baby's feeling better and your son isn't driving you insane. haha Take care, Rena....

-Sheryl
 
I hope your baby's feeling better:)

I don't take anytime off because I can't trust myself. When my weight really gets down a bit I plan on training myself to be able to eat some crap in moderation... right now I have to be sooo strict. If Sunday's off works for you than its a great plan!

I had to train myself to eat in the morning and throughout the day. I was more of a eat from 2-3 in the afternooon on... soooooooo not healthy. After forcefeeding myself 5-6 times a day for a week or two my body got used to small meals at different times including the morning.

~Jenna
 
the baby is still sick and super crabby. I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown....lol Honestly the exercise helps... a lot!!! Went to the gym today and didnt feel like working out at all. Did some weight training then i was going to do 20 minutes on the elliptical. Once i was on the i decided to do 4 miles...like 38 minutes and got a super good workout. I love when i sweet like crazy....it makes me feel productive!!

Tried my first Luna bar today....it was excellent. My trainer said they are fantastic. She also says i need to eat all day. AReally im going to try and work on that this week.

tommorow bringing the baby to the doctor.

Rena
 
Hey Rena,

I'm so sorry the little one is still sick :(

You did awesome at the gym today... I love when I get into the groove and I just keep going and going... it feels so great. I know its stupid but the sweatier I get the more accomplished I feel:)

I see a lot of people eat those luna bars I should try some.

Keep up the great work
~Jenna
 
ok...so went to the pediatrician yesterday and he said baby Fatimah just has a virus...maybe a soar throat and muscle ache. Switched to motrin and she is doing much better. So i didnt get to the gym yesterday cause of baby being sick. Today i had every intention of going to the gym but i started cleaning the kitchen and it took all day. I wiped cabinets, scrubbed the stove...washed the floor... even moved the stove!! So i did some exercise. Im going to try to kick my ass tommorow at the gym. I miss it....and i think the elliptical misses me too...lol You know....i really thought id like weight training but i much prefer cardio.
So other than my weight plateau things are ok.

Lets see today i ate:

For breakfast:
A banana
a 100 calorie pack peanut cookies
1/2 cup of espresso(hence the all day cleaning spree)

Snack:
luna bar-peppermint chocolate.....soooo good(think those mint girlscout cookies)

1 peach

Lunch:

healthy choice lemon pepper fish(pretty good....i was too busy to cook)

dinner:

small wheat pita with 2 small kebabs, tomato,lettuce and 1 tblsp of reduced fat mayo

calorie count......who the hell knows!?!?!? lol
im guessing around 1400

i really should try to count better

and thanx to Boam......i will not be weighing myself tommorow......next weigh in scheduled for august 4. :)

Rena
 
I'm soo glad the baby is doing better:)

Those luna bars sound really yummy... are they filling?
I don't count calories at all... i don't know if its good or bad ... I think if icounted them it would be like the scale and I would obsess over the numbers =0/ I have been losing and havn't been hungry so i can't be doing anything bad:)

Don't worry you'll break through your plateau soon:)
 
actually i find the luna bars very filling and they are perfect for on the go. for me they are a treat. They taste so good...fav so far is choc chip cookie dough. :)

rena
 
ummhusayn said:
ok...so went to the pediatrician yesterday and he said baby Fatimah just has a virus...maybe a soar throat and muscle ache. Switched to motrin and she is doing much better. So i didnt get to the gym yesterday cause of baby being sick. Today i had every intention of going to the gym but i started cleaning the kitchen and it took all day. I wiped cabinets, scrubbed the stove...washed the floor... even moved the stove!! So i did some exercise. Im going to try to kick my ass tommorow at the gym. I miss it....and i think the elliptical misses me too...lol You know....i really thought id like weight training but i much prefer cardio.
So other than my weight plateau things are ok.
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Hey Rena,

I'm glad Fatimah is doing much better. :) Whenever my niece would fall ill, it would be a domino effect at home. My sister would get sick, then my mum, then my dad, etc etc. hahaa Just take care of yourself during.

As for the cleaning, you know... I can bet that you burn probably more calories cleaning then riding stationary bikes and what have you. Not only that, you're probably chasing your son around also. haha! You're such a SuperMom. hahaaa! Have yourself a great weekend. I'll post you soon, girl! Oh and I just marked Aug 4th on my calendar. haha Check you soon.

-Sheryl
 
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