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red8283

red8283

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Ah, I've moved into the realm of the diary.. I suppose I'll tell you a bit about myself, then move on to the generic questions so we can get down to the nitty gritty!

So, here are the basics. I'm a young lady (25 years old) living in Ohio. I have a three year old daughter. I'm going to school full time for Early Childhood Education, and I work part time as well. Busy, overall. To be completely honest, I've struggled with eating/body image/ etc. since my early teens, and I've been up and down the scale more times than I care to admit. I know that this is unhealthy, both in the present and in the long run, so essentially I would love to just be a healthy person, eat right, work out, all that business. Oh, another note, I'm a vegetarian, have been since I was 11, so I often get crap because people don't know how you can gain weight as such. Truth: vegetarians can still eat junk, or overeat healthy food. This gets me back to my healthy person goal!

Right now I weigh 158 pounds. My highest point on the scale (this time) was 174, in Oct. I've been heating healthy foods, trying to use moderation as my guide as far as eating so-called 'cheat' foods, I count my calories, and I work out at least 4 times a week, mostly treadmill and weights. I'd like to get down to between 125 and 130 (I'm barely 5'2").

While I was pregnant I got to my highest point (I can't even force myself to talk about that period in my life too much though, so maybe another time), but I did get back to about 140 by the time my daughter was one. It slowly has been creeping up again though, and the most important thing to me is that my daughter has a good, healthy body image, so I want her to grow up seeing her mommy eating good and seeing me run/walk, etc. I want her to grow up knowing that's the right thing to do.

My lowest point was when I was about 15 years old.. I actually was down to 112 pounds. I'm not gonna lie, I was very unhealthy then. It seems as though I'm very all or nothing about my weight. Either I obsess about it, or don't care at all. :banghead:

Hmm.. This is getting long. Perhaps I'll skip the general questions and leave you in suspense for another time!

Today though: I ate well, calories were low though (1150 or so), but I've been sick and not so hungry. Normally I've been eating around 1600 -1700 on days I work out, a little less on days I don't. I haven't worked out in 2 days though because of the sickness, but I'll be back on it tomorrow!

Thanks for reading out there :waving:
 
Thank you :)

I, for the most part, am feeling better when I'm not doing a whole lot. My daughter is not doing so well though, I think I'm going to call the doctor in the morning just in case.

My day went okay today.. I'm the baker of the family so I've been going crazy making cookies the past couple of weeks - today was sugar cookies! I didn't eat any of them, or the dough, so yay for that! I figure I'm going to just try to eat them only on the special occasion days, that way it really is something special.

Eating was good, 'bout 1400 cals or so, and I went on the treadmill for 30 mins and lifted a bit as well. The workout was rough though! I guess I'm not as well as I would like to be, because it was just HARD! I got through it though.. I've been really frustrated in general lately (guy issues). So I've been really happy that I've been keeping my lifestyle in check and not binge eating or anything like that, which I am prone to do. Just trying to remember that how I feel doesn't need to *always* be associated with food.

Normally I'm one of those happy/cheerful people, but this entry is just sad! I think I just want my baby to get better, and for me to figure out what to do with this guy nonsense. Hopefully tomorrow will lead me somewhere helpful!

:seeya:
 
My daughter and I are pretty much over the sickness! Yay!

Today (like probably the next few days before Christmas) involved more cookie making, and I've been awesome and haven't eaten any! Lately I've been feeling much more in control over what I eat and the reasons why I'm eating.. Which is probably normal for some people, but for me, not so much. It's a really good feeling, although I'm not gonna lie, I'm scared of losing it.. but each day is moving forward, and it's not like I have been without the stress that would normally make me overeat either, so I can't complain about how things have gone lately.

Today: Eating was good, 'bout 1450 cals, no 'workout,' but I was running all over with the little one and doing stuff around the house, so it wasn't like I was inactive either. Also work has been sooo busy the past few weeks, so that keeps me moving too! I do want to make sure I get my butt in gear the next few days though, because I'm working some long hours this weekend and may not really have the time/energy to get on the treadmill, but I'll keep everyone updated.. Also, as a goal for the weekend, I want to make sure I pack either my meal or my snack each day, as opposed to eating too much mall food (soo bad!).

:seeya:
 
Bahhhh, yet again today I didn't make time to work out.. I'm going crazy trying to get everything ready for the holidays and I haven't taken much time to myself. :willy_nilly: Tomorrow I don't have to work though, so there's a big workout planned!
I have been eating very well, 'bout 1350-1400 cals today, and my food overall was pretty good. A fair amount of fruits, veggies, and all that.. I've been working until 11 pm at least the past several nights, so I feel like that's really throwing off my eating habits. I'm trying to keep myself normalized, but it's going to be this way until next week.. I have to stay up later when I get home so I can wind down, and then I end up sleeping later.. It's a vicious cycle. I would probably get used to it if it was a regular thing, but oh well.
In any event, today wasn't too bad! Talk to you soon!
 
I've been so crazy/busy the past couple of days! Between work and trying to get everything organized for Christmas, things seemed to fall apart a little. I did work out on Thursday, but not Friday or Saturday.. My eating was really good though throughout, I even resisted cookies at work today, haha. The thing is though, I don't really feel that discouraged.. I'm proud! I know that it's just been a crazy week, but I'm eating well and have worked out when I could.. I am going to try to fit in a few more workouts next week though, I know I'll feel better if I do- especially with the big meals I'm sure I'll be having this week!
Oh, I did do good on my goal of only getting mall food once (not twice) per shift this weekend! I've gotten Subway (veggie subs) both days so far.. not that I have a ton of choices that I'll eat in general (vegetarian), but the veggies are better than the giant pizza! As for tomorrow, the plan is to work out, finish baking and wrapping, then work 3 to midnight.. ew! I'll let you know how it goes!
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My day went pretty well today.. I got most of what I wanted done! I still have a few more little presents to wrap tomorrow, run a couple errands, then get to work on Christmas Eve dinner and all that. I worked out today (yay!). I got on the treadmill for a little over 30 minutes, and I kept getting off because of various things with my little girl, but I kept getting back on, haha. Did weights as well.. I think I need to do a board search though for some good strengthening moves for my hamstring(s). Or if anyone should read this and knows of something, let me know. The basic story with that is.. When I was 17 I had my ACL in my left knee replaced (soccer accident).. they took out part of my hamstring to make it, and it's never been the same (duh). At the time I was really good about the physical therapy, but I can still feel that it's a lot weaker. I accept that it will never be 100%, but you know.. I want to get it a bit stronger!
Anyway, I'll update tomorrow night with how everything goes.. Hope everyone has a great night!
:seeya:
 
Hmmm.. Christmas eve. Not so much helpful with the healthy eating, and I'm sure tomorrow won't be great for that either, but in general I tried to keep things sane by eating a salad with my meal, not going back for seconds, things like that. I did have 2 cookies I made, but I hadn't yet, and today and tomorrow are special occassions! Actually, I'm not sure if I'll have any more tomorrow, as the sugar kind of made me a little sick, hahaha. I don't tend to eat a lot of it in general, so when I do it doesn't sit with me very well.

Anyway, overall I'm okay with my day.. I ate around 2000 cals, which is admittedly higher than I would like, but I'm not freaking out about it.. I think today and tomorrow I am just trying to not go crazy, and know that Weds. I'm going to go back to my usual routine (being healthy)!

Also, tomorrow I'll have time while my daughter is with her dad from about 11 to 3, so I plan on having an excellent workout! I usually do 30 minutes of cardio, but I'm thinking about upping it to 45 minutes now when I can. I just want to be sure to have time for weights too, so it'll just depend on how much time I have on the individual days.

I'll let you know how tomorrow goes... and Merry Christmas to all who celebrate it!
:party:
 
hey just dropped into your diary.

It is sooo great that you keep getting back on the treadmill even with distractions. i'm someone who gives up very quickly. you are doing amazingly.
you have the right attitude as well!!!

have a good day.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

x
 
Thanks angel! You're sweet :blush5:
I think that over time I'm coming to understand that I don't have to be so all or nothing with being healthy.. I used to give up a lot more easily! I just really, really want to be healthy and firm up! I know that I'll be losing some weight, but I just want to be in shape too, you know? It took me awhile to get to this point, and I hope that it stays with me, but thank you so much for the kind words!

Today was really a fantastic day! My daughter had a great time, and we visited lots of family that we don't get to see often enough! Also, she went with her dad a bit to visit some of his family, so in that time I got to have a little peace, and do 30 mins of cardio! Didn't have enough time to do the 45 like I wanted to get to, but I'm thinking tomorrow might be better for that anyway, haha. I kept the cals under 2000, but when I don't make the food I tend to estimate a little bit higher, just in case haha.

I'm not gonna lie though, I looked pretty good today! I fit into size 10 pants I haven't worn for many, many months! I was pretty happy about that, and it kind of gave me some more motivation to not overdo it with the food too much.. I want to be able to still fit in them!

On a funny side note, one of the things I asked my mom to get me for Christmas was sports bras, hahaha. I've been doing cardio at least 3 or 4 times a week for months now with just regular bras (ahhh!! scary!), and I figured it would be a great present, and I was right! My workout was awesome today! Thought you all would appreciate that information, hehe. :hurray:

Talk to you soon everyone!
 
red8283 said:
I think that over time I'm coming to understand that I don't have to be so all or nothing with being healthy.. I used to give up a lot more easily!
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yep thats me a while back. an all or nothing person. i'm not so bothered about my weight anymore. i just want to be healthier and lose some inches.


WELL DONE in getting into your old clothes!! that is the biggest motivation to keep going!

good to know you are still doing great!! i do the whole estimating more thing. that way if i go over its not sooo bad!

x


ps. congrats on the new bra! ;-)
 
Heh, yeah angel, I was way more excited about that bra than was probably appropriate, but whatever ;)

Today was back to my usual eating.. I refused to eat the last of the stuffing in the fridge, I hope someone ate it while I was at work tonight, haha, because it's delicious! I ate about 1600 cals today, and tried the whole 'eat smaller meals more often' deal.. it was kind of nice! I don't really have a problem eating smaller meals earlier in the day, but usually dinner is a big one. I had to eat before my family tonight because I worked before they were going to, so I had a veggie burger on wheat and a fair amount of steamed kale and onions.. it was great, I got surprisingly full, and ate a lot less than I would have with all of them around, so it worked out. We'll see how it goes when I'm with everyone though, haha.

On another note, I did 30 minutes of cardio today.. I usually do intervals of walking at a pretty fast pace and running. I had gotten up to about 18 minutes of running, but the last week has been soooo hard! I'll be able to do more at the beginning, but then after about 15 minutes I won't be able to run more than a minute.. maybe two.. without walking. I can recover pretty quickly, but I dunno what it means. Honestly, my breathing hasn't been great lately (I do have asthma), but it hasn't stopped me before, so I don't know if that's part of it now or not. I'm gonna give it a little more time to try to sort itself out, if it doesn't get better I'll ask my Dr. about it.

Oh, and after worrying so much about the Christmas eating, I'm actually down a pound! Yay!

:party:
 
Sooooo.. Let's start with yesterday.

I did really well eating.. sorta. I ended up consuming 1900/2000 cals, but I'm not gonna lie, the last few hundred were alcohol, haha. A friend of mine had a Christmas party, but I did good and had a couple drinks and had a little snack, not like I used to do! So overall it actually wasn't too bad, and I had a good time. I did 30 mins of cardio too before work, so that was good too. Oh, and I think that my breathing problems.. I work in a Fragrance dept., and I had been spraying a ton of crap for people because of Christmas. I think that was screwing my lungs up.. It's slowed down now, so things seem to be improving.

Today I consumed 1800 cals, did 30 mins of cardio again (no time for weights, I was sad!).. I think I'll make time tomorrow for that. At the moment I'm kind of sad.. Boy issues, but I'm doing okay for the most part.. I'm DONE eating for the day, I'm just gonna have another cup of tea and go to bed. Yes, good idea. Tomorrow I work 1 to 10, so I'll make sure to pack a good snack for whenever I get a break.. I'll prob do Subway for lunch (as usual lately), but that's okay.

Oh, and last time I weighed myself, I was 156, so that puts me down 18 pounds! Yay! I should get around to making one of those little tickers.. Maybe tomorrow night!

Nighty night loves..
 
Ugh.

Today was okay, I worked from 1 to 10, and ate well.. working out didn't happen though. I ended up at a little less than 1600 cals, which is fine by me.. I dunno, I think I've just been in a pretty awful mood lately. Maybe it's PMS or something, but it's pretty crappy, lol.

Tomorrow I shall try to be more cheerful! Then I'll probably write more too, I'm just not in the mood tonight :willy_nilly:
 
Thank you :)

Today eating was alright, about 1650 cals, but kind of more junky than I usually eat, and I have a feeling the next couple of days aren't going to be that great either, but as long as I'm working out and not overdoing it too much, I should be okay.

Also, as far as my crappy mood, I really think it's because of New Years. I know sooo many people love it and think it's the best time.. With me, not so much. I just tend to get really depressed, but once it's over I'm okay. So I just need to make it through the next few days and I think I'll start feeling normal again.
 
Hehe, it's okay, Happy New Year to everyone :)

Soo, new years eve was eh eating-wise.. about 2200 cals (oops), but I did some cardio too, so maybe it evened out a little! I had a pretty good day though in terms of not being depressed cuz it's new years, so I feel like I shouldn't complain too much.

New Years itself- I worked, ate dinner with my family and all that. Total cals was only about 1200 for the day though. I fell asleep with my daughter around 8 and didn't have my usual snack that brings it up a bit, oh well. So right now it's 5 am and I can't sleep! Ah!

Today I'm going to be going out to lunch with a good friend of mine, and hopefully that will go well, then I'm going to be doing a little shopping, then working later. Things have been kind of crazy (still) with the ex-guy situation, but I'm hoping things will calm down with that soon.. On a positive note, my friends noticed I had lost weight and were all happy for me and all that, yayy! Anyway, I'll keep you all updated on how the rest of my day goes..but I think right now I'm going to try to get a little more rest, then hopefully work out before lunch.. Have a great day everyone!
 

i think new years eve and new years day are a bit crazy for everyone. you're back on track which is good!!

its amazing when people notice the weight loss! no-ones noticed with me yet or said it but to be fair to them i am still wearing the same clothes i wore when i was about 20lbs heavier 2 years ago!!!

hope you had a good day

;-)

x
 
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