Reaching For the Dreams....
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xorie
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woohoo! I've really got myself super confident now. I'm on my third day straight of being good and I feel wonderful and more confident that I can reach my goals then I have been in a LOONG time.
Also, I want to go to senior ball this year, and blow everyone away, so I'm going to lose the weight and go in a stunning dress, then turn down every guy who's never looked twice at me when they ask me to dance!
Ok...maybe only the stupid preppy jerks who only care about their popularity....
Anyway, I've been looking at dresses, and here are a few that I really like...
Anyway, these are just a few, and when it gets closer to the actual time where I need to order the dress, I'll put up a few options and ask for opinions, or maybe have a vote!
p.s. there are four dresses...for some reason, I can only get the second one to show up as a dot... lol
Also, I want to go to senior ball this year, and blow everyone away, so I'm going to lose the weight and go in a stunning dress, then turn down every guy who's never looked twice at me when they ask me to dance!
Ok...maybe only the stupid preppy jerks who only care about their popularity.... Anyway, I've been looking at dresses, and here are a few that I really like...
Anyway, these are just a few, and when it gets closer to the actual time where I need to order the dress, I'll put up a few options and ask for opinions, or maybe have a vote!
p.s. there are four dresses...for some reason, I can only get the second one to show up as a dot... lol
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xorie
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Now I'm really proud of myself.
I went upstairs to get a drink, opened the freezer and pulled out a tub of ice cream, looked at it, thought about the challenge, ireland and my pretty jeans that I want to fit into... and PUT IT BACK! YES! Score for willpower!!
oh, and the Seahawks won! It was actually a really good games for both teams. now on to game two!
I went upstairs to get a drink, opened the freezer and pulled out a tub of ice cream, looked at it, thought about the challenge, ireland and my pretty jeans that I want to fit into... and PUT IT BACK! YES! Score for willpower!!
oh, and the Seahawks won! It was actually a really good games for both teams. now on to game two!
Great diary Xorie, I love your upbeat outlook on things. Great job on the willpower in resisting that icecream. I don't keep junk in the house in the house anymore, if it isn't here I can't eat it so I try to avoid buying it. My willpower isn't the best, I had to actually stop buying cereal because it was too hard to resist when I'd wake up and feel like munching on something. I'm glad you're doing well.
xorie
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Thanks!
Kinda broke down on the willpower yesterday and had the best tasting ice cream in a LONG time. oops. oh well. made up for it today by having a healthy amount of cereal that was good for me. I think though that I will take the three puppies for a walk today. should be interesting!
Kinda broke down on the willpower yesterday and had the best tasting ice cream in a LONG time. oops. oh well. made up for it today by having a healthy amount of cereal that was good for me. I think though that I will take the three puppies for a walk today. should be interesting!
a little ice cream never killed anyone all things in moderation - long as you're taking it into account for your daily calories -it's all good
enjoy it..
all things in moderation - long as you're taking it into account for your daily calories -it's all good enjoy it..
xorie
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ok. still at 208 this morning. That's ok by me. That's two pounds since friday! Was good yestarday, and so far today have been doing well. yay.
It's coming to the point in my life where I'm stranded writing dozens of essays for colleges and schollarships... and unfortunately for me, I keep getting stuck after the first or second paragraph almost every time! It's rather frustrating! I write a little, and then go back and try again, and yet no matter what, I can't seem to be able to do anything!
But, for those who are interested, there are four main colleges....
Everett Community College (for a year or two)
Then either Stephens College in Missouri
Montana State University
Colorado Mountain College.
*big sigh* It's just another step on the road of life, and it's taking me further from the roost. I'm super excited about being able to leave and not have to do anything, but then at the same time, I'm worried about whether or not I can actually make it on my own. I've got a lot of doubts about working with horses, yet I really want to do it with my entire heart! It is very hard to be good at what you do, and I would like to take the fact that i've learned so much and am actually very efficient with horses and I've only been working with horses for a year!
Anyway, TOM has a hold of me and I think that most of this is just little doubts and worries that are trying to pull me down... I don't think that I'm going to let that happen. I'll pick myself up and make myself feel better. Perhaps I should start writing some essays right now, get this emotion out onto paper and make the college boards think that I'm marvelous! *snicker*
Was good yestarday, and so far today have been doing well. yay. It's coming to the point in my life where I'm stranded writing dozens of essays for colleges and schollarships... and unfortunately for me, I keep getting stuck after the first or second paragraph almost every time! It's rather frustrating! I write a little, and then go back and try again, and yet no matter what, I can't seem to be able to do anything!
But, for those who are interested, there are four main colleges....
Everett Community College (for a year or two)
Then either Stephens College in Missouri
Montana State University
Colorado Mountain College.
*big sigh* It's just another step on the road of life, and it's taking me further from the roost. I'm super excited about being able to leave and not have to do anything, but then at the same time, I'm worried about whether or not I can actually make it on my own. I've got a lot of doubts about working with horses, yet I really want to do it with my entire heart! It is very hard to be good at what you do, and I would like to take the fact that i've learned so much and am actually very efficient with horses and I've only been working with horses for a year!
Anyway, TOM has a hold of me and I think that most of this is just little doubts and worries that are trying to pull me down... I don't think that I'm going to let that happen. I'll pick myself up and make myself feel better. Perhaps I should start writing some essays right now, get this emotion out onto paper and make the college boards think that I'm marvelous! *snicker*
xorie
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went on a walk yesterday! Twas fun...walking three dogs...or were they walking me? Anyway, I had a good time and the fact that I have had a pretty good day yesterday was an added plus.
However, I could still be doing better. i'm going to start logging everything I eat again, starting today...
Breakfast: 1 small bowl of apple cinnimon oatmeal.
Anyway, I had a good time and the fact that I have had a pretty good day yesterday was an added plus. However, I could still be doing better. i'm going to start logging everything I eat again, starting today...
Breakfast: 1 small bowl of apple cinnimon oatmeal.
What's the essay have to be about?
your best bet is to write about what you know... your experiences to date... Something that's touched you... Write about your weight loss journey and things you've learned about yourself in the process.. write it for yourself.. not about what you think someone else wants to read...
xorie
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There are ones that ask about a pivitol point in my life, or how a certain college best fits my criteria for a college, or "What is an american" and stuff like that. The pivitol point one is easy, but It's also the least important of all of them... it kinda stinks.
I've written more than normal today, so i'm getting better at it!
i stand by my statement -write for yourself and not for what you think someone wants to read...
just spell and grammar check it
just spell and grammar check it
xorie
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...I agree with the advice, only, see...
If I write for myself...then I would never want to show it to people. I'm not a very extroverted person, and I don't really like having people know things that are very personal/emotionally important to me. I wrote a really good essay once, but didn't turn it in because it had so much raw emotion in it and I felt that if I had turned it in, the barriers I have would have been torn down. I can cut and paste from things like, that, but I don't want to share with people I don't know. If I want someone to know something, I will tell them, but if it's intimate to my life/person, then I have to trust completely, or mostly to even begin to tell them...
This huge wall that I have is probably one of the reasons that I don't have many friends. People say that while I'm a very nice person, and don't try to be rude/mean, my attitude portrays that I don't like people, and would rather not talk to them. And for this point in my life, it's true. Many many many people in my high school are not worth talking to in my opinion, everyone has little petty ideas of revenge and gossiping and being plain disrespectful to the teachers. I don't want to associate with that kind of group so I don't talk to them, therefore coming out as mean, and a loner. Loner I may be, but mean...no.
I will probably end up turning in a compromise paper, some emotion, some drummed up fakery, and some of what I think would work for the essay.
....I had never thought that it would be this hard...man...growing up's a b****
If I write for myself...then I would never want to show it to people. I'm not a very extroverted person, and I don't really like having people know things that are very personal/emotionally important to me. I wrote a really good essay once, but didn't turn it in because it had so much raw emotion in it and I felt that if I had turned it in, the barriers I have would have been torn down. I can cut and paste from things like, that, but I don't want to share with people I don't know. If I want someone to know something, I will tell them, but if it's intimate to my life/person, then I have to trust completely, or mostly to even begin to tell them...
This huge wall that I have is probably one of the reasons that I don't have many friends. People say that while I'm a very nice person, and don't try to be rude/mean, my attitude portrays that I don't like people, and would rather not talk to them. And for this point in my life, it's true. Many many many people in my high school are not worth talking to in my opinion, everyone has little petty ideas of revenge and gossiping and being plain disrespectful to the teachers. I don't want to associate with that kind of group so I don't talk to them, therefore coming out as mean, and a loner. Loner I may be, but mean...no.
I will probably end up turning in a compromise paper, some emotion, some drummed up fakery, and some of what I think would work for the essay.
....I had never thought that it would be this hard...man...growing up's a b****
you have a good idea of who you are - something a lot of peope don't realize til they are way older than you are... that's a good thing...
any school would be lucky to have you...
any school would be lucky to have you...
xorie
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you have a good idea of who you are - something a lot of peope don't realize til they are way older than you are... that's a good thing...
any school would be lucky to have you...
Thanks.
xorie
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Woohoo! 206.5 this morning! yes Yess YES!!! I feel great now.
Also, I found these wonderful things on On Demand that are workouts, short 10 min segments for different areas of the body, 2 for abs, 2 arms, 2 legs 2 buns and thighs and cardio and other such fun. I'll be using them a lot now.
GO RED TEAM!
Also, I found these wonderful things on On Demand that are workouts, short 10 min segments for different areas of the body, 2 for abs, 2 arms, 2 legs 2 buns and thighs and cardio and other such fun.
I'll be using them a lot now.GO RED TEAM!
I was poking around on on demand last night and found them - there was one on standing ab workouts that - while I couldn't quite get myself out of the chair to do - looked interesting... but the instructor was entirely too skinny made m e want to hurt her