Re-motivationalization

Owl1

Owl1

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Starting a new diary, one that is more motivating and less...well, less nothing, just more motivation. Lesseeee, I started a diary a few months ago at 184 lbs. I got all the way down to 176 lbs, yesterday. And then, BAM, like emmeril and some chili powder I'm back up to 181 in one day. No salt added. And no, I'm not hormonal either. I'm just fat. Obviously the 176 was some kind of dehydration fluke because I didn't ever eat by 17,500 calories last night...that I know of.

Last time I zumba'ed fat was jiggling in places I didn't know I had fat to jiggle...

So, my routine needs refining, because I know I'm more than capable of losing this weight (keeping it off is another story). Last year this time I was on a mega-wannarexic diet where I worked out for two hours 5 days a week and ate 800-1000 calories a day. I'm not willing to do that again, but I am putting myself back on a really super strict, make me so cranky someone else will resign, diet. Strict seems to work for me. Other people seem to rebel when things get too strict, I on the other hand, thrive in strict conditions. It's when I give myself too much space for error that things crumble and fall apart.

So, I have an hour of zumba tonight, and then an hour of strength training at home with free weights, resistence bands and 181 lbs of lard on my ass to work with. And, I'm back on the Rockstar no carb and Mezzetta california hot mix diet. Basically, I drink a can of no carb rockstar in the morning, take a no doz, eat some hot mix and pickles all day long and have one main meal a day. It worked before, it'll work again. It, of course, is in no way a balanced diet. btw, no carb rockstar tastes way better then the sugar free rock star, and california hot mix is better tasting and cheaper then mexi-hot mix. FYI.

So, heres to a more focused diet diary...don't worry, I'll still be shamelessly candid. How could I not be.
 
I'm craving pickles. Not cheap pickles either, they have to be the kosher pickles with stork on the label that are in the refrigerated isle. I wonder if my assistant will lose all respect for me if I make her go to the store and get me some...?

Last night I did the zumba class. It was really fun, even funner then last time because so many people showed up. The instructor is moving the class from a exercise room to a gymnasium for October because there are so many people on her list. Yea! I'm glad its a popular class, that why they'll keep it going.

I'm trying to remember what I ate yesterday and I'm thinking it wasn't very much. coffee, rockstar x2, hot mix, fries off my son's plate, and a bottle of wine. okay, the bottle of wine was a bit much...I passed out really drunk and woke up around 4am half way hung over, yet still partly drunk...it was a strange feeling.

I've been slowly making my way through 4 seasons of The Office, because, Amazon shipped my season 5 a few days ago and I have to refresh my brain. I don't have cable tv at my house, refuse to get it. I either download shows on itunes that I want to watch, or I order them by the season, watch them and then re-sell them. Ya, its an archaic system of entertainment, but the last time I had cable I paid too much for it and there was never anything on when I actually had time to sit down and watch it.

My plans for today include, but are not limited to: Setting up for a health fair, which should be good exercise. Cardio. And possible going out on a date if I find a sitter. Oh, and getting my eyebrows waxed. well, rewaxed. I just had them waxed on friday afternoon, but the lady that did them kinda screwed them up so I'm having my regular eyebrow lady fix this disaster.
 
I am happy to hear that being candid and somewhat hilariously crass will remain in the content of this Diary as well Owl.

It - like Chef's ramblings - never fails to give me giggle first thing in the morning. And I thoroughly enjoy hearing your brutal assessments of various knob-heads who cross you path in life. It's poetic and beautiful Owl - and at times, so chunky you could carve it.


Owl said:
I don't have cable tv at my house, refuse to get it.
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Neither do I.
Waste of money and Life.
 
Thank you for the heads up on the diary change, and of course, feel free to get nekkid...

or at least talk about it for all of us closet voyeurs out here.
 
I just survived the most lamest of all weekends ever. I had to work on saturday morning really early so my mom decided to call me right before I was supposed to DRIVE to work and tell me some doctors found a huge tumor in my nephews ear that ate through his skull and got into his brain. So, while trying to drive to work and cry uncontrollable at the same time I rear-ended a cop. Hard. Hard enough to deploy all airbags involved AND I wasn't wearing my seatbelt. Then, of course, I was later then hades to the office and I have the key that opens the door so everyone was standing around outside waiting for me. Did you know you can't drive your truck when the airbag is deployed? I didn't. I had to invest in a rental until the shop can stuff that bitch back in. WTF.

So, then Saturday night EEEeeee and I went out for sushi and a few drinks. We both ended up with food poisoning. I guess we didn't take enough shots of vodka to kill the bacteria in the fish...ew. Although I'm more inclined to blame the water or the ice cubes in the water that was served to us then the fish.

So sunday I pretty much just stayed home and shat a lot. But, I feel like, 10 lbs lighter. I weighted myself and I'm NOT, but I feel like it and thats what counts....

more on this later.
 
I just ate a can of greenbeans for lunch, with hot sauce. To say that I am busy and can't get away is an understatement. I hate mondays.
 
Gawd, your weekend sucked!

Sorry to hear about your nephew. I wish nothing but the best...

Have a hug for now:hug2:
 
Hey Owl!

I found your new diary :)

OMG .. how is your nephew doing??? I'm sorry you had a crappy weekend.. wow.. that's some serious stuff to deal with. I hope all will be okay, and thank you for checking in with me!
 
I haven't heard back from my Bro on how the Nephew is, which is usually bad news. There was an MRI scheduled for yesterday and surgery for Thursday. I'm at the point that I'd almost rather not know, knowing hurts too much. My mom is a basket case but can't leave to fly down to be there. And I have to be in another city, 1000 miles away all next week because classes for my nutrition program start next monday and I have to fly out on Thursday. Life is always getting in the way of life.

I didn't eat much yesterday. Didn't have time to work out either. Work is hectic and I need to post jobs and hire new people or it will always be this hectic. No zumba this week due to instructor absence. So, I'll probably just go to the gym and use the elliptical or something. There is an indoor triathelon I want to join, but its a 1660 mile race divided into swimming, running and biking and I hate swimming. I'm still thinking about this. Maybe I'll come to a decision later.
 
I have so much to do before I leave tomorrow night. Didn't zumba last night, too hectic of an evening with all my sons freakin homework. Spelling, math and reading in one night...? I don't remember second grade being so lame.

I guess I'll update more later...
 
Zumba sounds really fun. I've been wanting to try that for a while now. Sorry about your nephew, I hope everything is OK with him. We're around the same weight, well, I weigh more than you but close enough. Would love to hear future updates. Good luck with everything! :)
 
Thanks for stopping by getfitnik!

So, I was just posting pics of myself to my fb profile and got really depressed cause my ass is so fat, like, 25 lbs fatter then this time last year. Damn I used to look fly.
This moment, brought to you by self loathing.
 
Owl said:
Thanks for stopping by getfitnik!

So, I was just posting pics of myself to my fb profile and got really depressed cause my ass is so fat, like, 25 lbs fatter then this time last year. Damn I used to look fly.
This moment, brought to you by self loathing.
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stop it!!!

Post some picies here so that we can ogle them. Ogling always helps one's self image if you are the oglee...
 
Owl said:
So, I was just posting pics of myself to my fb profile and got really depressed cause my ass is so fat, like, 25 lbs fatter then this time last year. Damn I used to look fly.
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You look pretty fly sucking on that lime in your profile pic Owl. Great nose - good complexion ...... :blush5:

And ah' ....... no .... I'm not hitting on you (even though it sounds like it) :leaving:

Just givin' a sister a compliment. :coolgleamA:
 
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Owl! I see you started a new diary! Cool....I hope everything turns out better...my mom just had surgery and the wound has gotten infected. She has been prescribed anti-biotic but its only gotten worse. They made 2 small holes one in the belly button, broke out in a rash.

I love your humor owl, and I agree with the others you should post some pics. :hurray:
 
Life_after_30 said:
You look pretty fly sucking on that lime in your profile pic Owl. Great nose - good complexion ...... :blush5:

And ah' ....... no .... I'm not hitting on you (even though it sounds like it) :leaving:

Just givin' a sister a compliment. :coolgleamA:
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yeah sure...:icon_bs:

Ooh, can I watch?

Yes I am a :piggy:
 
I'm on the "road" although, there really is barely any driving involved, its all flying. In the last three days I've flown over 1000 miles and next weekend I have to fly in the opposite direction, just as many miles to get home. And, to top it all off, I woke up this morning with flu-like symptoms and still had to work, and fly again. Right now I'm less worried about being fat and more worried about the hard long work week to come and not dying. Where I am right now, winter is setting in and it sucks.

Yesterday, before I started feeling so tired that I wanted to literally fall down and pass out I managed to make it out clothes shopping and bought new pants and work out gear. If I wasn't so sick I'd be in the hotel exercise room trying out my new new balance, but frankly, I'd rather lay here and play on the internet and wallow in my illness. I also bought a new DSi, since I accidentally left my old DS in my truck at the airport at home. I'm justifying the expense by promising my son it's really his for his birthday next month. He doensn't mind that I'm pre-using it for him...lol...he would never notice anyways since I always set them up for him before hand and enable parental controls.

In the last three days I've had very little time to focus on nutrition, but now that I'm "at school" for nutrition I'll be thinking about it non-stop for the next 5 days. I got my text books this morning and my first assignments when I checked in this afternoon. Be prepared to learn some cool stuff if you read my diary. I'm not going to school to become a nutrition advocate for nothing...you all are my guinea pigs, and me too..lol! I love my job! I get paid to learn stuff I want to learn. I love my employer for supporting me in this! I know I may bitch alot about how much I work, but it's worth it when you work for the company that I do because they don't pretend to appreciate you, they really really show you how much they appreciate you with benefits like free education.
 
Hey owl, way to go on the DSi. you know it has 2 camera's right? While you're at it, go online with it through nintendo's DSi network and download flipnote studio, it's free and it's animation software, real fun and I think you and your kid would enjoy it.
 
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