Rants & Ramblings ~My Daily Journal of Changing Life

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*~Rants & Ramblings ~My Daily Journal of Changing Life~*

I suppose there always comes a time in ones life when they finally begin to see the light; a sense of reality sets in and they finally snap out of the selfish state they have been in for so long. I think I heard that particular "snap" sound. Reality has officially been recognized. :D

So where do I begin in my ramble?

I won't bore you with my continual excuses, neverending snacking problems, and such, but I will tell you a little about me. ;)

I'm 5'1", 140, I have 2 son's - 4 and 10, a non-human son that's a mini schnauzer, a solid black cat I got for Halloween last year (that's a whole nuther story ;) ), & very happily married. Ta-da! That was exciting wasn't it?

Now, care for a cup of hot tea? Grab it and sit a minute if you will! I have more rambling to do.

Getting back to "Reality has officially been recognized" .... it has been folks. Yup, reality bites a big one doesn't it? Don't you hate that?!? Sheesh...I know do. Reality for me has been pretty harsh, I have always been fairly thin until a couple of years ago. The weight started coming on slowly then BAM! Just like that - it was like, "What the hell happened?!" Well baby, REALITY HAPPENED! That's what. R-E-A-L-I-T-Y! You can't have snickers for breakfast, then McD's for lunch then order pizza for dinner and expect to not gain anything! DUH! What the hell were you thinking? Shhesh! Dumba$$ :rolleyes:

I lost about 30 pounds a couple of years back on prescribed Phentermine and basic starvation, but that was nothing short of a severe pain in the ass in the long run. I was restless at night - all night - every night, a major BI-OTCH all friggin day, mood swings like crazy and the list goes on. My husband said I was nothing short of insane. Nevertheless, I lost the weight...just to gain it right back - and then some. Great. Thanks a friggin lot! :mad:

So here I go....on my final journey to not just lose weight. That is not what this is about people. It's about a life CHANGE. Hince I said life change. It's about taking that "SNAP" I told you about & understanding it was a sign to friggin DO SOMETHING! Do something about my aweful eating habits, lounging and all the stupid things that are in my book known as being LAZY and selfish. It's so stupid too though, because I'm not a "lazy" person...never have been, but my current behavior has led me to just that. Lazy.

Since reality has paid me a special visit, it can't be ignored and my journey begins now. TODAY, not tomorrow. Right now the changes have to be made! I refuse to be "lazy" and "selfish" and "unhealthy" and blahblahblah.

The fun crap is over. O-V-E-R! Well, it was fun while it lasted. Buh-bye fun. You really weren't all that "fun" anyway...you just thought you were. ;)

Thanks for hearing my rants & ramblings. Off to walk I go.
 
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Welcome to WLF and to your diary. I totally understand about the SNAP that you are talking about. Good to have another Tennessee representative here too. Welcome to your ultimate journey, it doesn't have to be devoid of fun. You will have a lot of fun here, I know I do.

Griff
 
Welcome to WLF. I totally know the snap of reality you are talking about! You are soo right about this being a life change and not a diet or starvation... no one can actually live their life on diets or starvation.

But don't think your going to be devoid of fun... there is tons and tons and tosn of fun great people here!

~Jenna
 
Awesome walk!

Well I went for a midday walk and it is absoutely BEAUTIFUL outside! This time of year it is very rare for Memphis to have a nice, cool breeze...but it's here!

I went to these trails not too far from the house. It's semi-shaded and goes around a lake. It's beautiful there. I saw 2 BIG butterflies fluttering around like they hadn't a care in the world! To bad our lives aren't that easy! lol

The trail is about a mile and a half and I did it pretty quick. My oldest son rode his bike in front of me. I have been a walker/runner off and on most of my life so walking 1.5 miles is never a big deal for me. I was tired...but a good tired. Not like "OMG...I'm going to die!" - Not at all! It was very peaceful and energizing. I'm so glad I went.
 
Isn't it great!

I go out at 5:00 AM for an hour, that still gives me some time to myself before Mr. Dictionary definition of the "terrible twos" (my son) growls to life.

But that hour is all for me. I'm fortunate to live right near Long Island Sound (large body of salt water that dumps into the Atlantic) so I can look at the boats and soon enough see the Sunrise.

I'm always happy on days I walk first thing.

David C
 
Welcome to WLF and your diary. :)

I wish you nothing but success!

What are you doing nutritionally to make change?
 
Right now I'm just trying to eat healthier. More veggies, fruits, grilled chicken instead of fried, etc. Simple changes that I think will make a difference.

I'm also walking every morning for 1.5 miles.
 
OMG! And I forgot such an important thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will be turning the big 3-0 next month too! Yup, 30. That just sounds CRAZY! I can't say I'm 20 somthing anymore!!!

I guess I figured if I start getting healthier now, it won't be so hard later to keep on. You know...how people say it's easier when your "young" type of thing. lol
 
I FINALLY decided to cut the yard this evening! That dreadful thing!
I love a nice yard, but I sure don't like to do it by myself! DH was asleep and I figured I'd go burn a few more calories and get something done at the same time. He works all the time so I guess I should pitch in a little more.
I mowed, edged, swept and moved a few Black Elephant ears to the south side of the house. They needed to be seperated a bit. You know how they reproduce like crazy! It's a good thing though...I don't have to go buy more. lol

For dinner I decided on something a little light so I had a small piece of grilled chicken with green beans. The kids and dh wanted pizza. :mad:

I reckon I'll go shower, meditate and get ready to chill for the rest of the night. I recorded The Simple Life goes to Camp and SunSet Tan on DVR so I might watch those too.

Nighty night!
 
"I won't bore you with my continual excuses, neverending snacking problems, and such,"

But, hon, this is EXACTLY the place where you CAN do that!! And we will support you and help you to get past it! Be open and honest and we will too!

I also understand that snap...unfortunately I ignored it for another 50 lbs...glad you chose another path.

Good luck!
 
Good Morning!

I am NOT going to complain about the AWESOME weather we have had over the past few days, but it is just so wierd! It was actually cold this morning! I got up at 5 to walk and I had to come back in to get my wind breaker! I wish was like this all the time, but that's just a wish. lol It will be scorching hot again soon I know.

I recorded the Simple Life Goes to Camp last night and it was hilarious! I don't know if any of you watch that, but it's a trip. I am really not into "reality" shows all that much, but I do like this one. Paris and Nicole are just so friggin goofy! Anyway, I watched that and hit the sack cause I knew I had to get up early before dh heads to work.

I only walked a mile this morning. The back of my legs were kinda hurting...aI think from mowing the lawn yesterday or something. Anyway, I went back to bed for a while for the kids to sleep in a bit. I had 2 small scrambled eggs (only one yolk) and a slice of toast with a tad of preserves. I figured that was better than butter. Oh, and I had a good ol cup of hot green tea.

Today I have a deposition at my attorneys office over a bad car wreck I was in a year and a half ago. I was rear-ended really hard at a stop light and tore the trapezious muscle in my neck/shoulder. They are finally going to try and settle it now that physical therapy is over. I'll be so glad when it's over so I can put it all behind me!

I better run now...going to check out some other diary's!
Have a great day everyone!
 
Well I'm back from that HORRIBLE deposition! I think the results will be good, but I felt like I was in the Army being friggin drilled! Sheesh...it was a car accident that was someone else's fault. Why ask me a zillion questions?

Anyway, I was downtown Memphis (YUK!) for several hours and didn't have time to eat...I just got home, but I did have a bottle of green tea with me and gum so that was better than nothing. I am starving though so I think I will start on dinner. Dh will be home soon too so I better get to cookin'! I think I'll fix baked chops, mac and cheese and a veggie...not sure what yet. Of course I think I will fix mac n cheese just for dh and the kiddos. :(
 
maleficent said:
a little mac and cheese never killed anyone :) enjoy your dinner :)
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Ahhh.....you're right...I did have about 1/2 cup. :rolleyes: It wasn't much, but better than nothing. It just has soooo many calories. I hate to eat that when I've been doing so good! lol It's like if I start - I can't stop. lol

After dinner the boys went to play across the street, dh was working on my son's race bike so I thought I'd hit the pavement since it has been so nice lately. I went back to the trails and did 1.5 miles. I did step in some friggin duck poo though! ewwwww!
 
LeoFireSun said:
Well I'm back from that HORRIBLE deposition! I think the results will be good, but I felt like I was in the Army being friggin drilled! Sheesh...it was a car accident that was someone else's fault. Why ask me a zillion questions?

I think I'll fix baked chops, mac and cheese and a veggie...not sure what yet. Of course I think I will fix mac n cheese just for dh and the kiddos. :(
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I had mac n' cheese for lunch today... I had been craving it ... I got one of those lean cuisine ones and it really satiated my craving... A little never hurts:)

Depositions are horrible I've given a few... your fault or not the grilling is just soo relentless and you have to know what to say and what not to say and barely answer. Then for my paralegal course i was being taught how to aid the attorney to prepare and take them its soo tedious and relentless for anyone. I hope it gets resolved for you really soon.
 
Well I'm kinda pissed this morning b/c I haven't lost anything. I really feel like I should have. I have worked my ass off lately. :mad:
 
K...Done pouting now. :rolleyes:

I guess I will go walk again before my son's race tonight. We will be there forever so I know I won't be able to go later. It's friggin hot today too. :rolleyes:
 
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