Radiant's Diary

So this pretty much blows. It is 3:30 in the morning and my finals start tomorrow and I have an eight am class. Guess what, I CAN'T SLEEP. Urgh. Plus I have to go to the bathroom, but truth be told, I'm scared of the dark and really don't want to :( :( This so isn't fair. Plus my computer battery is about to die. Laaaaame.
 
Sooooo I woke up late, obviously, since I couldn't fall asleep for the life of me. I tossed and turned and the last time I saw on the clock was 5:45-ish. I must have turned my alarm off without realizing it, because I woke up at 8:50 having already missed my first class and made myself late to my first final. Freaking wonderful.
 
Right... but should I make it a point to get the rest of my cals in before I go to bed, or can I just let it go since I didn't use as many?
 
Thanks, Mal. I don't think I'll have any problem having high enough cals today, HA! I'm already at 987 and one of my old friends... loooooong story there asked me to go to coffee today, so that'll put some cals on, plus dinner later. Hopefully I'll have enough time to exercise. I am so incredibly stressed/tired. The most time I ever have at once is about half an hour or forty-five minutes so I can't do much more than take a walk or something... generally end up studying.
 
Cals at 1635.. going to have a small dinner. Just did 25 mins on the elliptical and 35 mins of weights/stretching/crunches and whatnot. My exercise buddies ditched out on me tonight, but I was proud of myself that I went down and did my work out anyway :) I am headed over to their place to watch The Biggest Loser.
 
So I just haven't really been hungry today. Ate before class, probably grab something here fairly quickly. Going to work out with my buddies in a little less than an hour, then I have three rehearsals with people tonight, so I'm going to be exhausted by the end. Stupid finals.. even though I'm done with most of mine, I have top lay for other people, and it's NEARLY as much work! Sigh.
 
Cals at 418 right now... I've only had time for breakfast and a snack.. my schedule is so wacked out! I am going to go have lunch (although it is time for dinner) and then have some rehearsals and grab another bite to eat after that. Worked out for a while.. one of my friends skipped out but one showed up. Why is it the skinny one that can get away with not working out :( it pisses me off. Urgh.
 
*Sigh* just found out that an acquaintance from high school killed himself yesterday. I was not really close with him, but it is a shock all the same. It is just too much stuff going on like that lately.. and I am sick of it.

Uhg. Done with my rehearsals.. so yay for that. Maybe going to meet up with a friend later to hang out, but not sure. It would be nice if my boyfriend called me to do something... I havent seen him for a few days and I am starting to get lonely.
 
Today's cals are at 1841 after dinner. I think I am afraid of overeating, so I'm cutting down too much. I'll throw a snack in later.

Exercised today with one of my friends.. the other one ditched out today. Pfft. I was going to take it easy because I was exhausted.. but when I started, I just couldn't because it made me feel bored and lazy.. so I did a normal day.

I bought new mugs for tea.. they are Christmas-y and make me smile. Plus they were 99 cents each at wal-mart. That made me smile too.
 
Woke up this morning with a nice little surprise on my scale :) that'll put me in a good mood for the final I have in about an hour, hehe!
 
Went with my friends to work out yesterday, but had an easy day and just did some elliptical time and stretching.. which was nice for a change. Cals ended up being about 2,100... which is okay. Not sure what I am going to do today. Woke up at 8, read a book, haven't eaten yet and it's lunch time.. oops. I don't really have any food in my dorms and I'm SO unmotivated to go to the store :(
 
So I instead of going to work out tonight, I went to the grocery store :/ oops! BUT.. I got soooo much good (for me) food. Celery, broccoli, carrots, cookies.. for moderate use only, haha!, cereal, skim milk, peanut butter, cheese, and tomato soup! Yay, go me. Not sure what I am going to do with the rest of my night yet.

Cals are at 1554.. probably going to have some celery with a little bit of dip and maybe a cookie later on.. if I'm lucky.
 
Cals will be at 1898 after I go out to dinner with my boyfriend. We are going to my favorite pizza place.. even though I don't get pizza from there! They have the best house salad with pears, yum! And lodgepoles which are basically healthy cheesey bread!

Worked out for an hour and a half tonight with one of my friends. First time in three days, phew. I needed to get back to that!
 
So I forgot to add in the salad dressing I was going to have and I ate less than I thought.. so with adjustments it ended up being 1830 cals. Sweeeeet. I think I'll have an apple before bed.
 
So I woke up at 7, had a banana and a few bites of cereal, then was late and had to get to my final. Yayyyy, one more final down... three to go plus a performance at a Christmas party. It'll be so nice when all is said and done. I am meeting an old friend in 15 minutes for coffee.. or tea for me, then my mother for lunch. Not sure where we'll end up going, but even if I don't get something that great, I had just over 200 cals for breakfast, so I think I'll be okay.
 
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