Put that down, fatty! (again!)

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You are neither massive nor a manatee! If you were you'd eat nothing but salad and drink only water. I second Cate on both brave and smart. Also kind, funny and generally awesome.
 
Just had my first session - went really well. Have been given a prescription for Champix to help with the smoking and a drinking diary. They will weigh me each week too. The lady was really kind and helpful - I only cried once! First step on my journey to normal drinking! Woo!
 
Hey Hana,

I also have issues with alcohol and I used to be a massive wine fiend like you. Particularly when I lived by myself and I could get away with it. I've managed to limit the house drinking to just the weekend now, but even that has to stop.

Anyway, if you're like me, the two small bottles just won't cut it, cos once you start, you want the whole lot. Could you replace the wine with a sweet treat that you enjoy but that has less calories (for example, standard bar of chocolate) for a bit just so you still have something to look forward to but it's not as detrimental to your regime? I know the chocolate doesn't last as long as a bottle of wine can!

I just made a rule for myself that I can't drink during the week (from Sunday to Thursday) at home. I just felt I wanted to be fresh in work more than I wanted that fix in the evening. I'm not working at all now, so I could very easily slide back into it and it wouldn't have the same impact, but I haven't, because I've just realised it isn't worth it.

The weekends are another story, but I'm trying to tackle them as best I can.

Anyway, all these habits take time to break, it really is just a habit, don't get down about it, you'll get there.
 
Good to hear your first session went well! Being able to be completely open and honest sounds like a very good start.
 
Its so good that youve reached out for support with cutting down on wine Im sure it will make a huge difference..i think I need it for sugar.
Also you posting on another diary about your mother in law shitting on the carpet had me cracking up
I love that you tell it like it is
 
I think it's excellent that you are getting help with cutting down Hana. I also love how you tell it like it is. Don't feel there's pressure on you to always be upbeat & funny though. We are all only human, xoxoC
 
Hey beautiful people - thanks so much for the support. Emily, I think I'm a bit past trying to replace it with other things..I've tried for several years with low alcohol drinks, other sweet treats, herbal teas, keeping busy in the evenings etc. It's a drinking problem so something I'm going to need to reduce slowly I think. I'm hoping I'll do okay with the support of my well-being worker and you lovely people <3

Yesterday:
15,000 steps
1700 calories
500ml of wine
198lbs

My worker wants me to cut back slowly so I'm pretty much doing normal drinking but having a wine free day one day this week. I brought a bottle last night but didn't finish it which was quite a big deal for me! Feel quite pleased.
 
Thanks guys :D My new plan for avoiding a whole bottle a night is going to bed at 20:30 every night! Mwahaha, had like 10 hours sleep last night! Win win!

Went to see a lady from the Salvation Army last night - think I've already said about her but my stupid inability to say no has resulted in pretending that I was very interested in this old lady's ramblings about her church and the soup kitchen and I am now writing a fucking novel about the beginnings of the LifeHouse (which is where I volunteer) and this stupid christian bookshop. I cannot express how anti-religion I am. So this is a true test of "just sit and smile, Hana..Just sit and smiiiile." She was 40 mins late for our appointment last week (I took time off work to do this) and was 20 mins late last night. She's very sweet and passionate but very zealous and I find it uncomfortable. I'm hoping I'll be done writing it up soon so I won't have to do these sessions anymore.

No volunteering tonight as the local fire department are cooking and serving the dinners at the soup kitchen tonight.. I did ask if I could go to support/grope the firefighters but was told no.. Chronically disappointed.

Had cauliflower rice and turkey burgers last night (no bunnnns, sobsobsob).

Yesterday:
14,500 steps
1400 calories
550 ml wine
197.5 (-0.5)
 
:D Reading your diary is too much fun! But about the Life House Lady: next time you make an appointment with her maybe don´t just say when you will meet her but also at what time you have to leave. That way every minute she´s late is one less minute you have to spend biting your tongue. Being late is disrespectful and being late for an appointment with someone who´s doing you a favor is downright rude. Or, you know, drop an atheist joke. 50/50 chance of either getting out of your commitment or becoming her new pet project.
 
Wow Hanah you are doing amazing. So proud of you. You are really dealing with your problems in such a posetive way. You are really an inspiration. 15000 steps?? lol that is like 3 days worth of steps for me:rolleyes:
 
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No volunteering tonight as the local fire department are cooking and serving the dinners at the soup kitchen tonight.. I did ask if I could go to support/grope the firefighters but was told no.. Chronically disappointed.
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Haha, I love this. I would also have been disappointed. :D
 
Hi girlies - thanks for commenting. Love coming back and seeing your kind words!

Urghhh, so popped into the LifeHouse last night to make a new appointment with the lady for next week. She comes up to me and says "I've got a surprise for you..I've booked me, you and Yank a table for next Wednesday for Christmas Spanish tapas.." She's never even met my husband! I was completely flustered and couldn't think of an excuse on the spot so now I'm meeting her at 17:30 to do an hour on the story and my poor, poor boy is having to come meet us for food at 18:30. She said it was her treat which is really kind but she usually pays for her tea with change when we go out (like 2p, 5ps) so I know she's not got much money and lives in a bedsit. HOW DO I LET THIS HAPPEN. Trying to be positive - it's one night, she's wanting to say thank you which is kind and Yank will probably behave himself. He is so so anti religion and fiercely intelligent so is likely not to tolerate ramblings about the lorrrrrd and his laaaaambs. I will ply him with rum and hope for the best.

I have my best friend coming to see me on Saturday for a few hours. He recently was diagnosed with autism (I had always suspected) and has crashed into a depression as a result. He's been living at home since dropping out of Uni a few years ago and think he's getting worse since the diagnosis. He was best man at our wedding and stayed for 2 minutes before going upstairs in a complete panic and going to bed - he didn't do a speech, didn't eat, didn't dance.. missed the whole night. I still feel quite cross about it to be honest but have never said as I know his mental health is poor and he would have tried if he'd felt able to. We shall see how it goes..

Food and drink were meh yesterday - trying to use up what we had so we had pesto pasta for dinner and I ate too much. Yank had ice cream and I didn't though so that was good. And I brought a bottle of wine and left some in the bottle which was good.

Yesterday:
14,000 steps
2000 calories
500ml of wine
198lbs
 
O dear... My automatic, no-brain-involved reaction to any social situation planned FOR me without me being asked is "I'm sorry, I promised to help a friend with her furniture. That may not be applicable to you but people don't have a right to plan your time, no matter how well they mean!

Really sorry your friend is having such trouble but having a diagnosis can be an important part of figuring out how to solve your difficulties. I hope he'll be able to climb out of the hole he's in soon.
 
I hope she doesn't pay your whole meal in change!

Ah, these are the people that provide a witty story at a dinner party. ;)
 
Who says social workers all sit behind their desks all day!! This day has been a fucking nightmare. And its only 5pm! Now for the long walk home, feed the cat-babies and then go an attempt to have a social life. Give me strengthhhhh
 
Cant wait to hear how that dinner goes! Agree with LaMa though I would have been pissed that someone planned my time without asking no matter what their intention... But that might be because im an unsociable biatch
 
Oh, Han. Hope it goes OK. You, my lovely, are going to have to learn to protect your personal space & learn to say no. You can do it xoxo
 
Unsociable biatches unite! In separate rooms of course.
 
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