Project C

Kaitie - Awwwwh. Thanks Kaitie. *huggles* You're so sweet. Thank you for the balloons, gifts and presents. ^___^ It cheered me up. :)

Crunchie - Thanks Crunchie. :) Yeah... My relatives can be jerks. Especially my grandmother. I really can't forgive her for everything she's done. I'm just not that saintly.
 
Week 7 Challenge: WAKE UP!! (Cumulative)

Day Forty-Six:

Okay, so today I TOTALLY underate. I only ate about 600 calories (15% overall fat & 3% saturated). What happened was I woke up late DESPITE going to bed early. Blah. And so I had a late breakfast, a strawberry/blueberry smoothie and then a late late lunch of chickpea sandwich. Anyways, by the time I was hungry again, it was like 9 o'clock. And THEN, I remembered tomorrow morning I was getting my blood test done and I can't eat anything for 12 hours before that. And I have a pap smear test tomorrow with a doctor so I skipped dinner and am just guzzling some water now... Which by the way is 3L for the day and only 1500 mg of salt. I'm sure I would have been way over with the salt if I had dinner though.

Anyways, I better hit the sack... Like I said, gotta get up early for my appointment & get bloodwork done... *sarcasm* Yay... a pap smear on my birthday.

 
*hem hem*

Happy Birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!
Happy Birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!
Happy Birthday dear Initial C---eeeeeee!
Happy Birthday to you!

How old are you now?
How old are you now?

Hee...won't go there!
 
I am so sorry you are down in the dumps. These kind of things are very difficult. I decided a long time ago that blood was not thicker than water. There are several people in my family I just don't talk to. I don't go to their houses, they are not invited to mine and I don't go to places that I know they will be unless it is somewhere I really want to go to for some other reason. I'll tell you it was one of the best decisions I ever made in my life. No stress about seeing them and pretending to get along. Makes the holidays much nicer.

Does the Dr. tell you that your health situation as far as the hormonal thing will never improve? Has he said you will not be able to conceive?

Thanks for sending me that link to the exercise bike reviews.

Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday to You!!! Not your Grandma, just you!
 
My Dear Hi C

HUG
KISS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FRIEND!!!!!!

I'm sorry I didn't send this before but my mom had an accident - she fell on her face in the street and had a bloody nose and we had to go to the doctor with her. Thank goodness she didn't break anything but looks like she went 12rounds in a boxing ring. She says, "You ought to see the other guy!" Anyway I've been busy giving her extra TLC and she will be just fine. Whew!

I hope your pap test went as well as one CAN go and that you were able to get some YOU time with your boyfriend to enjoy YOUR birthday the way it SHOULD be enjoyed. :)

I join your friends here in wishing you all the best because you sure deserve it, honey!!!!!!!!
 
Kaitie - LOL! Don't make me feel old. ^___^;; I'm 25 this year. So old enough but not old enough to start lying that I'm old enough. LoL. ;) Thanks Kaitie.

Piney - Thanks Piney. Yeah. My relative can be... Just awful at times. I really didn't want to "handle" them on my birthday. The PCOS thing... Well, it's hard to say. The hormone thing will improve probably with weight loss. Hopefully, my period will become regular but nothing is set in stone. Especially if the ultrasound confirms cysts in my ovaries... which will cause more difficulty. It's not that I want children now or anything. I just want the option to be open.

FB - Awwwh. Thanks FB. That's so sweet of you. Sorry to hear about your Mom. I hope she gets better soon. *huggles*
 
Week 7 Challenge: WAKE UP!! (Cumulative)

Day Forty-Seven:

It's my birthday... It's my birthday. No wait. It WAS my birthday. :)

Anyways, my birthday along with the rest of the week was pretty crappy. Not as crappy as I thought it would be... but crappy enough. I had a blood test done in the morning along with a pap smear. Ouch. It hurt. But more importantly, I also asked the doctor to do a breast exam and she said she found something hard. So I am doing a breast ultrasound along with a pelvic one. Greeeeat. Just what I wanted to hear on my birthday. "There's something hard on your left breast." Blah.

Calories for yesterday was about 1700 (overall fat 36% and 14% saturated). Breakfast was my fries with gravy. I was at the mall after my bloodtest. And I was going shopping. Bought a cute pair of khakis at Additionelle for $15. Dinner was 1 cup rice, 2 cups green beans and a tofu & beef stir-fry with oyster sauce. It was pretty good except I took my family out for gelato. and I got 3 scoops of gelato which kicked my calorie count to 1700. Oh well.
 
Yuck, Paps are one of the worst experiences a person can volunteer to have. I guess we should be glad we don't have to get prostate exams though, I would imagine that to be even worse ;)

Honestly, I think we can forgive a little extra gelato after a pap smear and other ominous news from the doctor, personally I just hope you'll be okay :(
 
Aw shoot, I forgot your birthday was yesterday! Happy belated birthday C, hope you had a nice time despite the dreaded relatives!
 
Oh C
***hugs***
What a tough week you've had :(

But getting the information and the diagnosis is the first step towards finding treatments - You're in my thoughts hun, and I'm sending you many wishes for a good birthday *year* not just the day that was, but for the whole year.

And I don't blame you one bit (and have been in similar situations with family members) about not going where your grandmother is.

Good for you for sticking to your principles!
 
Beagle - Thanks Beagle. I hope I'm okay too. :( It's been pretty rough week. PCOS, the ovary ultrasound and now one for my boobs. Bleh. It's so hard to be proactive about one's own health... It's hard to be strong and just WAIT. bleh.

Crunchie - Thanks girl. :) It was alright. It was nothing spectacular. The only real good thing that came outta that day was I bought khakis on sale plus I had an extra 10% discount since it was my birthday. Otherwise that, it was kinda blah.

M2M - Thanks M2M. I needed a hug. :( It has been a rough week. :( PCOS and now maybe breast cancer. :( *pokes her own boobs* I hope not though.
 
Week 7 Challenge: WAKE UP!! (Cumulative)

Day Forty-Seven:

Welp, I woke up at 9:15 today. Earliest ever. Hopefully I can maintain this early wake up... Calories for me today was 1600 calories on the spot with 21% overall fat (8% being saturated). Breakfast was my usual. And lunch was dinner's leftovers. Dinner was rice, chinese cabbage and steamed chicken with ginger. And then for dessert a slice of mango mousse cake. My dad made it for my birthday.

To be honest, I'm still feeling a lil down. I don't feel like writing much. I think I'll just crawl into bed now. I feel extremely depressed. :(
 
Thanks M2M. I appreciate the support. I think the worst part now is the waiting. I just want to get the ultrasound done with. It's not even about the news anymore.
 
Week 7 Challenge: Wake Up! (Cumulative)

Day Forty-Eight:
Welp, yesterday I had about 1200 calories... 18% overall fat & 8% saturated which is an estimate. The thing I ate wasn't actually IN fitday but I chose the things must similar to what I had. Okay, so brunch I went out with my best friend for Vietnamese food. We both got vermecilli which is Vietnamese noodle but not in a soup. You pour a sweet fish sauce over it. And I had grilled pork & one deep fried spring roll in my vermecilli. Dinner was my usual lunch... cereal, milk & cheese. Under with water today... Only about 2L. My best friend missed my birthday cause she was working shift so she came to hang out with me on Sunday before her camping trip/vacation which was nice. I'm still pretty depressed about everything... I keep poking at my breast trying to see if the lump would disappear and my tummy to tell my ovaries to work... I'm weird like that.​

End of the Week Reflection:
Well, the challenge this week has been full of hits and misses. Alot of the times, I wake up... But then I go back to bed or take a nap later in the day. It's kinda hard too cause when I'm depressed I tend to sleep. I like to cuddle up in bed and just sleep away my depression as opposed to eating. I guess I can be an emotional eater... but it's not very common anymore. Anyways, since I'm bringing this through to the following weeks, it shouldn't be too difficult especially with my program starting today which I have to wake up about 7am for everyday.... *yawns*

Last week was been pretty depressing for me. With all the medical physicals and testing... And then the news about me having PCOS... Then the pap smear on my birthday ALONG with news there's a bump on my breast. Gah. That is NOT what someone wants to hear on their birthday. And then the whole eating alone on my birthday thing... It was just miserable. Probably the worst birthday of my life. :(


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Summer Challenge Recap:
(1) - Portion control/low cal & low fat diet
(2) - Journaling on my Fitday account
(3) - Making sure I get 2.5 liters a day of water
(4) - Exercising at least 3x a week (most likely M/W/F and alternatively T/Th/Sat)
(5) - Must Eat Breakfast Everyday
(6) - No Eating Three Hours Before Bed
(7) - Move More
(8) - Less Salt
(9) - No Weighing Until Monday
(10) - Dance More
(11) - Wake Up​

Week 8 Challenge: No Fast Food (Cumulative)

Current Weight: 262 (down 2 pounds again... YAY! :) )

Day Forty-Nine:
So I started my government job search program today. It's 1.9 km away from my house... The building where it's held. So I've decided to walk there everyday to and from if it's not raining or too hot (ie: 40C) So I woke up extra early not knowing how long it'd take me to wake 1.9km. I timed myself and it took me about 30 minutes to get there. And actully only 25 minutes coming back. Not bad. :) So I'll be doing that everyday now for the next 3 weeks... which is good. Hopefully, it'll break my lil fluctuating plateau where I'm stuck in the 260s. I can't wait to get outta the 260s... Only 5 more pounds and the big zero will disappear to the back of the scale forever. Yay. This week's challenge is also cumulative. It's no fast food. This is an important one because the building where the program is held is RIGHT NEXT to a big plazza. In the plazza, there's a KFC, Taco Bell and a Pizza Hut. And these three stores are RIGHT next to the building's entrance. I'm talking 20 steps here from building entrance to the KFC/Taco Bell's door. And we get 1 hour off for lunch. With the pther participants going to get their lunches, I'll have to try to be steadfast and not breakdown and buy something next store.

Today's food isn't bad. About 1350 calories with 18% overall fat and 6% of that being saturated. Breakfast was my usual multigrain cheerios, milk & light Laughing Cow wedge. Lunch I packed a chick pea sandwich (chick peas mashed with mustard & mayo), 6 baby carrots and 2 small clementines. As a snack I had 1 cup of blue berries with 1 cup of milk. I also snacked on 2 pieces of Fani Pala candy bars that my boyfriend sent to me... Which isn't bad. I estimate it at MAX it's equivalent to half a bar of Kit Kat. Dinner was rather plain... I had a cup of white rice with cooked chinese cabbage/Kale. And also some stir-fried tofu with beef. Water intake is 3L today with sodium UNDER for once... YAY! It's sitting around at 1700 mg.
 
Week 8 Challenge: No Fast Food (Cumulative)

Day Fifty:
HOLY! I'm on Day FIFTY! Who thought I'd be on Day 50 already! WOW! There's about 3 more weeks left... 16 more official days but I won't do the official weigh-in til the following Monday which would be September 4th. Labour day.

Anyways, walked 3.8km today again.... 1.9km to the program and then back home. It's been nice actually... Nice and cool in the morning... A lil TOO sunny in the afternoon but not horrible. I'd forgotten how nice a walk with yourself can be. I like to use it as a time to clear my head and just reflect on stuff I need to do and how I'm feeling. Basically get organized emotionally and psychologically.

Today was Toonie Tuesday. Americans might not be aware of this... But Canadians do. Tuesdays are Toonie Tuesdays at KFC. For $2.22, you can get a 2 pc chicken (thigh & drumstick) with small fries. Don't worry though... I DIDN'T get any. YAY! :D I must admit though... I was a lil tempted. Since the program is held RIGHT NEXT TO A KFC. Gah. But no... I packed my lunch and I was content. :) Breakfast was cereal, milk & laughing cow again. Lunch was a grilled cheese sandwich with fat free mozzarella, 7 baby carrots and 2 tangerines. Snack was 1 cup of milk with 0.7 cup of blueberries. Also 16 mini wheat thins & another slice of fat free mozzarella cheese. Dinner was 1 cup rice, tofu & beef stir-fry with chinese broccoli steamed with a lil oyster sauce. All in all today, not bad... Under 1300 calories with 16% overall fat and only 3% saturated. WOW! My lowest yet. Water is 3L. :)

Had dinner a lil late today... So won't be sleeping until around 12:30am... which btw... I'm not getting peaceful sleep I've noticed. I keep waking up an hour or so than I'm supposed to naturally. But I wasn't awaken by anything and I'm still tired. I don't know why my body is naturally jolting up at around 6am. I've hidden my scale... I've noticed I've been cheating and weighing it more lately. So I've chucked it under my bed for now. Hopefully, that'll keep my urges at bay.

 
Hey, C.

Throw yourself a Birthday Party when your friends are all available. Go out and have a good time. You derserve a day to celebrate, even if it isn't on your actual birthday!

So good of you to walk to the job thingie. What is your 50 day count? What are you counting exactly? Keep your chin up!
 
Oh my god C!! Jeez, I'm gone for a while, come back and all hell has broken loose... *muah* hugs honey!!
 
C - you are doing an amazing job!
You're keeping it all together, eating well, out there walking!

And who knew 50 days would go so quickly!
 
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