Ok, so I said I'd start a journal in the new year and here I am. I'm finally ready, this is it! I've had problems dealing with weightloss since my early teens, a little younger even. I've put on 36lbs since I got pregnant with my first. In my lap sits my 3rd and a roll of fat. I took pictures last week and I guess I was in denial. I really didn't think I was that big. My weight is not out of contol, 148 at 5'6", but my Dr would like to see me lose some and so would I. DH says he'd love me if I was 400, but I can see him have to struggle a little more when he picks me up. I also don't feel like I'm setting a good example for me kids. I'm constantly eating, constantly. I feel like I'm addicted to food. I'm almost never hungry, probably cause I'm eating so much, yet I just can stop eating. I'll eat til I feel really sick. I've been on slim-fast the last week and gained a pound. I do alright, minimal cheating all day as I'm eating choclate all the time, but once dinner is gone, I blow it big time. So, that's where I'm at. So....what am I going to do? Just do it! I'm doing good so far today. I'm going to plan out what I'll eat everyday, I just bought billy banks boot camp, so I'll be doing that and keeping a diary here and on paper that records my food, execise and thoughts on my success and failures as well as weekly measurement updates. So, here it goes!! I WILL fix my body in 2006!