Phoebe jumps on the bandwagon

Thanx for stopping by my diary!
You seem to be doing excellent!! Good for you! I am very happy! Usually all the people you meet never have lost anything, I seem to rarely meet the people who used to be big and are now normal (except for my man, who was quite big and is now a skinny minnie! He may even be chief skinny minnie!).
Well good luck, and I hope your girl gets better! Camy
 
Once around the park at a fast walk. Never got the urge to jog. 47 minutes.
Started the second lap at a jog, even without the urge, and gave it up about 3/4 of a mile in, when I was feeling progressively stiffer and less comfortable, rather than better. (Doesn't help that the first part is almost all concrete, and has the longest steepest uphill, which is why I usually use that as the warmup stretch. Oh, and it was into the 20mph wind.) Walked the rest, apart for one tiny stretch when I tried to jog with a tailwind, but was still too stiff. Too cold, maybe. Second lap was 51 minutes.
Went to my parents' house, where I did another slow mile with them and my kid. Kid wanted to go once more around, preferably with me pushing her (she has a trike with pushbar) at a fast trot, which I was not up for.

I did not freeze my bippy. Even though it was supposed to be colder and windier than yesterday, it felt much, much warmer.

Was looking forward to some black bean soup for lunch, but the beans are still crunchy. Bah. I'm ready for dinner now (which may be pork tenderloin, if I make that), but kidlet is in the bathtub, having decided to bathe at grandparents', rather than at our house (where I have the pork). Hungry now, though, and any dinner will be at least an hour hence, so I think an orange or a pear are in order.
 
Rained today, so only walked 2 miles at work. Have spent the last 2 hours sitting on my rear at the computer, so now must go pace the kitchen to get my 10,000 steps in.

Lunch was black beans and rice, which I love, but which are still too high-carb and low-protein to have a bowlful both at 10am and at 2pm. Wanted to make some pork tenderloin for dinner, but MIL made Chinese roasted pork (the bright red kind) and meatballs stewed with cabbage. I still need another 39 grams of protein, no carbs, and not more than 11 grams of fat, only 3 of which should be saturated. Ought to cook my pork now, and then pace. It will make a yummy breakfast in the morning.

I am PMSing something fierce. Everyone should live in fear of me. Except that I find myself living with people who expect me to act like a decent human being. :p Oh, and apparently instead of having a conversation I remember going something like "Does DD have school on Monday, or are they out for MLK day?" it apparently was heard as "DD has no school on Monday; don't presume to question me." So yeah, she had school today, but didn't attend. Bah.

I had a bottle of warm water with lemon after dinner, but I sense the illusion of fullness wearing off. Cook the darn pork, because it won't cook itself, Phoebe!
 
Oh, yeah. Eight months today.

05/21/07 - 197 pounds
07/21/07 - 182 pounds - 15 pounds lost
09/21/07 - 169.5 pounds - 12.5 pounds lost
11/21/07 - 153.0 pounds - 16.5 pounds lost
01/21/08 - 139.4 pounds - 13.6 pounds lost

Yesterday, though, I was at 137.6, and today's jump is all water retention, so I'm actually down more like 15 pounds for the last 2 months. Going by trend, which isn't affected by water weight, I've lost 15.1 pounds.

Feeling a little burned out on losing weight, although tonight is not a good night to be assessing. I'm looking forward to being done losing.
 
eevee said:
Wow, you are amazing w/ your weight loss! :hurray:
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Aw, thanks. :) Really, though, I'm good at losing weight - it's the keeping it off I'm not great at. Better luck this time, I hope.

I've hit a mental plateau. On the drive to work this morning, I found myself thinking "Maybe I've stopped losing because..." - at which point I caught myself, because I *haven't* stopped losing. I'm down 4.7 pounds in the last 22 days (going by trend), which is nearly 1.5 pounds a week, or right at 1% per week. It's also half a pound more loss than I anticipated having by this point - and I reset my goals on January 1. That's pretty darn good, and yet I've spent the last 3 weeks feeling like I'm not losing at all.

At the same time, I just recently keep finding myself running out of calories and still hungry, despite having bumped my calories up 100 or so a day. I've been happy in the range I started at back in late September up to this point, and all of a sudden it isn't enough, even though I weigh 30 pounds less. I'm guessing a combination of cold (January started out in the 70s, and is now in the 20s and 30s - I do at least 2 miles outside every day, and my office is poorly-heated enough that I work with my coat on), mental effort / stress (whee, tax season), and increased physical activity (I just calculated it out, and I'm walking an average of 8,000 steps a day *more* than I did before - which is about 4 miles).

I'd originally planned to just maintain during tax season, because it always makes me hungrier (and I don't normally gain, so those calories are getting used up). But I'm so close to being done that I just want to be done. Stick it out to the end, in part for fear that if I stop now, I won't find the impetus to pick it up again.

I are in need of a plan. Floundering for lack of a plan. "Eat more food" is too vague and nonspecific to be a plan. Heck, I'm having trouble with "eat 100 calories more food" - I need to know when to be eating them. Ah, that one is easy - immediately before I leave work for home, no matter how many calories I've eaten up to that point. If I eat a substantial snack then, I'll have some veggies or lean meat (usually there's one or the other, at least) with dinner with everyone, and some fruit after dinner, and maybe another something small before bed.

Here's a plan. Know what lunch the next day will be. If lunch is something high-carb, low protein, have a lower-calorie, higher-protein breakfast. A sawdust and guar-gum tortilla with cheese and pork = 150 calories and 19g protein. If lunch is something high-protein (I see tomorrow is tilapia), have a higher-calorie breakfast with some fat for sticking power. Tortilla + peanut butter = 250 calories and 11g protein. I can always do that, because my calendar tells me what lunch will be.

Have lunch when I get hungry. By which I mean noonish, not "2pm because I was in the middle of a big project and didn't want to put it down, even as my blood sugar spiraled downward." Go for a walk, come in and have some water, back to work.

Have a smallish snack when I get hungry again. An ounce of almonds is a good snack, particularly since I keep a can of almonds on my desk. An orange or a pear is a good snack. Maybe 2:30 or 3, depending on lunch. If lunch is out (like today), it was probably substantial enough I don't need this snack.

Have a smoothie when I get hungry again, around 5:30. Cup of milk, handful of berries, tablespoon of flax, maybe some banana. 250 calories or so.

So I should be at 900 or 1,000 calories before I leave work, and I was thinking that didn't leave me enough room for evening snacks. And it doesn't if I leave work at 5pm and hungry - but it works fine if I leave work at 6:30pm with a mostly-full tummy.

I wonder if we have a spare hot-water pot stashed somewhere. I know we got a new one for MIL right before she came back from Taiwan, but she brought one back with her. A hot water pot in my office, along with a bottle of lemon juice (no refrigeration needed if I put it in the window) would make for a happier work day. Must go look for that.

I have a plan. All is now right with the world. :)
 
"sawdust and guar gum tortilla"? What? I'm not sure that's food...

Glad you have a plan. It always helps to feel more in control of what we are doing.
 
AmbaLove said:
"sawdust and guar gum tortilla"? What? I'm not sure that's food...
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LOL. Mission Carb Balance Whole Wheat Tortillas. One of the ingredients is powder cellulose, which may have started out as sawdust or similar; another is cellulose gum, which serves the same purpose as guar gum. (I see now they also have Splenda in them, which I wouldn't have guessed - the perils of eating a food with an ingredients list as long as your arm!) I actually like the taste, but they definitely count as "cobbled together out of multiple non-food ingredients" in my book.
 
Good day today. Although I changed into a different pair of pants to go to a client's around 1pm, and didn't move my pedometer over. And the meeting went until 6:30 (what is it with me and stuff taking way longer than I think it will?!), so I went home after. No pedometer for me, and I didn't get my after-lunch walk, so I'm going to take the opportunity to sit still and relax tonight.

Also missed both of my afternoon snacks, although my client fed me a delicious chocolate meringue cookie. I turned down the offer of a generic office-kitchen cookie, and she said "Oh, you're being so good" (having earlier complimented me on my weight loss and having asked what I was doing to lose). So I explained that no, I wasn't being "good" - I could have a cookie if I wanted one, but they took more effort to work into my plan, so I didn't usually have one unless they were something really special. At which point she offered me one from her secret stash. ;) It was a good thing I had that cookie, too - I had a nibble every time I really started dragging, and we got the whole project done by the time I left. Tomorrow I need to send her a quote on some more work, because what we did today uncovered some massive errors - I think she's going to save $60,000 or so by having me fix them.

Still have another 150-200 calories for today. I need a little bit of protein, and lots of carbs, but no fat. An orange and a cup of (thawed!) frozen peas will work well in that spot.
 
There is no virtue in food.

Client's comment about "being good," by which she meant "turning down diet-unfriendly food" reminded me of a friend's LJ post awhile back, in which a stranger approached her in the library to point out the diet-friendly virtue of the stranger's packed lunch.

There is no moral virtue to be found in food; neither is there sin. The opposity of gluttony is not celery. Chocolate requires no atonement. However, an ostentatious display of self-deprivation looks a lot like pride.

In poking around on the internet, following this train of thought, I came across a sermon () on the topic. It says, in part:

Gregory the Great once said the sin of gluttony took on five different forms:
• Praepropere - eating too soon
• Laute - eating too expensively
• Nimis - eating too much
• Ardenter - eating too eagerly
• Studiose - eating too daintily
It is this final form—eating too daintily—that I find fascinating. I heard someone say once: Our vegetables have been made bad for us by mass production, pesticides and genetic manipulation. You can’t eat anything. By eating too daintily, Gregory is talking about using food to be controlling… We use it to look down on others who eat too much; or people who do not buy organic; or people who eat animals; we use it, sometimes unconsciously, as self-hatred—trying to control the hunger of the body…

In the case of all of the Deadly Seven sins, we are in need of negotiating our relationship to the good things of God. With pride, we must have a healthy relationship to the self—not putting down oneself as worthless—this is merely false pride and does not honor the goodness of God’s gift. With lust, we must put our sexuality in its proper place—not as “something dirty you must save for someone you love”—but as the powerful gift of God to bond with another body and soul. With gluttony, we must learn to relate to food again, with pleasure—but it must also relate the health of our body and mind. Otherwise, we will eat mindlessly, out of anxiety.
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(As an aside, most sources attribute the five forms of gluttony to Thomas Aquinas.)

The moral I take from that is that the opposite of overeating is not undereating, but eating with enjoyment and thoughtfulness and thankfulness, eating what your body needs (both quantitatively and qualitatively) to be healthy, without forgetting that life is the point of food, rather than food being the point of life.
 
1 mile at 15:10
1 mile at 15:30
1 mile at 14:05
1 mile and a bit at 12:30ish - my timekeeper didn't come along. Not faster than 12, not slower than 13. That at a jog, of course.
 
Biggest Loser play along at home

I'd definitely be out this week. Those missed bonus points in the first week just weigh on you forever. Points to date: 126.

With 2 people left to log in, I predict that Black will not be the winning team this week. If everyone logs in, I give a slight edge to Red as the winner.
 
Just toiling away here. Tax season keeping me busy, hanging in there with eating, getting my walk in almost every day.

Last night, I'd planned to have some oatmeal in the evening, but when I got hungry, I found myself in the mood for a peanut butter and banana sandwich. So I had one, and was happy.

Apparently I don't learn easy, because tonight I was in the mood for beans with cheddar cheese and salsa, but had some peas with mozzarella cheese instead. Because I didn't want to open new things of beans or cheddar, and did want to use up the peas (all gone now) and mozzarella (still bunches left - amazed it's not yet moldy). And now my tummy is full, but I'm still in the mood for beans / cheddar / salsa. Which fortunately fits well into the remains of my calories / macronutrients, but still. I coulda had it earlier, and then moved on to craving something else.

Weight still falling off, quicker than I have any right to expect, and pretty steadily, considering. I should have about 3 more days of really good loss before it starts to slow down again.
 
Nearly forgot - best thing ever, at least for today: Chocolate Cherry Diet Dr. Pepper.

Until it goes flat, it tastes mostly like fizzy water, with a little bitterness from the carbonation. But warm and flat, it tastes like it smells: like a cherry Tootsie Pop!

I don't usually drink much in the way of pop, but every once in awhile I need that caffeine boost. (I also had the foresight to grab a chicken breast and a fork, in addition to the CCDDP, on my way out the door, even though it was only 10:35. Since it was after 4pm by the time I had the next meal opportunity, that turned out to be a good plan.)

It did not keep my 2:30 client from claiming I was looking at him grouchily, however. Since I came bearing a couple thousand dollars in tax bills, I suspect him of projecting. ;)
 
My son wants to try that chocolate cherry dr. pepper. Does it taste like a tootsie pop? I just wonder. ;) Oops you already answered that! LOL That's what I told my oldest ds that I bet it tasted like a tootsie pop! :D
 
So I wrote in one of the February challenge threads:
My goal: 132.1 by trend. Will probably put me below 130 on the scale. Yikes. It's been at least 11 years since I've been there. ( I couldn't tell you what I weighed at any point between 1990 and when I needed to get new "nice" clothes in the winter of 1996-97 because elastic-waist skirts weren't enough. It's entirely possible I haven't been below 130 since the winter of 1989-90, but I suspect I was lower than that at some point in college, probably the summer of 1994. And there are a couple dresses in the closet that I know I wore in the winter of 1995-96 that did not fit me at 140, but it might be a shape-change issue.)
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After I posted that last night, I dragged out those dresses from the closet, and they fit me at least as well now as they did in late 1995 - maybe a bit looser. I tend to hold on to weight in my thighs and calves, which makes dresses fit me better when I gain and lose, and pants fit less well. So there's still some shape-change issue going on, but I think it's more possible I haven't been below 130 since late 1989.

When I was in high school, I was around 120. My senior year, I was an exchange student in Germany for a year. The first couple of weeks the whole group of us kids lived in youth hostels and got to see the country a little while the ones who spoke no German learned a little. I hated the food provided and had no opportunity to eat anything else, was miserable, and walked everywhere. I was down to about 113 by the time I was placed with my host family - where I was miserable and had tons of opportunities to eat junk. I came home around 160, and started college about 6 weeks later.

I have no clue what I weighed at any point in college. Met my partner sophomore year, and (judging by the size of the clothes I Goodwilled recently, which I remember wearing then) I was probably 145 or so that next summer. The summer before my senior year I stayed at school, living in an apartment with a roommate who didn't pay her share of anything (rent, telephone, food, nothing) and skipped town in August. Walked back and forth the mile to work and the 3 miles to the grocery store, ate mostly vegetables and rice - I wasn't trying to lose, and I don't remember my clothes being loose, but I did feel good about the shape I was in.

Partner moved up with me for senior year, and we ate all sorts of caloric food, so I suspect I gained some weight back. Graduated, lived in my parents' attic, got a job where I was miserable. The dresses that are just a bit loose on me now got worn there, along with a bunch of skirts that are long gone. So I was probably about the weight I am now.

Moved on to a job I liked better, relationship went downhill, gained a bunch of weight. Bought my first pair of size 16 pants. Been up and down a couple times since then. So it's been at least since summer 1994 that I've been this weight. Nearly 14 years.

Size 12 jeans that I could wear comfortably 15 pounds ago are now way too loose, even straight out of the dryer. I can almost wiggle them off without unbuttoning. The Internet says Lee Riders are cut right for me (and they've always fit me well in the past), but an 8 is verging on too big already, and a 6 is the smallest size they come in. (They fit big, so a 6 in those sizes is an 8 in "real" sizes.)

Ooh, I was just window-shopping on Lands End, and I came across my measurements from a year ago.
Waist: 39
Hips: 47
Thigh: 28

Will have to measure at some point, and see where I'm at now.
 
I liked the berries and cream dr. pepper and vanilla dr. peppers from sonic, back when I was still allowing sodas. I bet I would really like the chocolate cherry!
 
Wow you are doing well. I would love to be just a 12 right now. That's awesome that your 12's are too baggy!
 
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