Pharinet's Journal

hmm i should do lamb but probably go for gravy beef :)

Whatevers cheapest at the time since im feeding 20 people!
 
wishes said:
Whatevers cheapest at the time since im feeding 20 people!
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LOL, yeah, lamb could get expensive for 20 people!

You're like a superwoman, wishes! Cycling like mad, fitness goddess, wife and mom, and now chef for the office! GO YOU!
 
I've been bad about updating the past few days, but I do have good reason.

On Friday, I had to go for a bunch of labwork for my surgery. Then, I had a lot of work to do. I picked up my friend from Philly in the afternoon, and went out with J Friday night...

He finally officially proposed, ring and all!!! WOOT! We spent today visiting family and sharing the news. I spent tonight hanging with the girls (eating lots of veggies and taking turns with DDR!!!)

I have my surgery scheduled Monday, and I'm getting very scared. :(

Though I haven't been tracking calories the past two days like I had been, I know that I haven't over-eaten, binged, or eaten things that I *shouldn't.*

I can't gaurantee food tracking for Monday, but I will most definitely get back on track with it on Tuesday.
 
good luck for monday! thinking of you! as for the stew i almost forgot it - i remembered sunday night and ran out and got all the ingrediants lol. And yeah i cycled about 160km this weekend im knackered :/
 
A Little Disappointed

First, thanks wishes. :) I'm deliriously happy about the engagement.

Second, my surgery went well and I came through just fine.

Third, I'm bummed out that I'm holding steady at 174. I haven't lost even a single pound in the last week. WTF? :(

The other bummer is that I can't exercise/do any strenuous activity for the next week (because I'm still healing). Blah. It's not like I love to exercise, but I do enjoy my DDR and occasional Tae Bo...and I really really really want to drop this weight.

Granted, some pants are fitting a bit looser, but I want to see the lbs just drop.

I guess it could be worse. I could have gained...

It's just that now that the engagement is real, I feel even more pressure to drop the weight so I can look nice in a dress, not like a fat girl in a big tent.

*sigh*
 
Today's Totals

11am
Coffee w/ Splenda and 1% Milk
Total = 31

12:30pm
Roasted chicken (dark meat), instant mashed w/ gravy, and cranberry sauce.
Iced Tea w/ Splenda
Total = 523
Comments: That's what happens when I skip breakfast. : /
 
wishes said:
hey try cycling 300kms in 10 days and still not loosing any weight ... its a cock i tell you :O
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Wow, you do have a way of putting things in perspective. I don't know what's more shocking, that you cycled 300kms, or that you didn't lose anything from it!!!

Keep at it, though. If I don't give up, no one else can. I said so! :p (sorry, sometimes I have these delusions of grandeur where I'm actually in charge. haahah)

5pm
Salad w/ Balsamic Vinagrette
Baked Potato w/ Salsa
2oz Kielbasa
Total = 491

Comments: I hate when my mother makes Kielbasa for dinner. It's so high in fat and calories that I can barely eat any. I tried to fill up on salad. I don't feel hungry atm, so I must have done something right. I also have a little wiggle room for a snack later if I feel I want one.

5:30pm
Coffee w/ Splenda and 1% Milk
Total = 31
 
yeah i still got fat lol, only on my butt and thighs tho - nothin up top *sigh*

Im sure it will disappear eventually anyway
 
So I haven't been very good about updating here or in my personal blog this week. Recovery has taken more of a toll on me than I thought. I have been keep track, though. I didn't do great on Monday, but not terrible. I did well Tues and Wed. Today, I didn't do so well. I went to a buffet with my brother. Instead of controlling myself, I just ate. I didn't eat until I was ready to burst. I didn't eat too much or too many *bad* things. I just ate more than I should have...and I had a pretty bad dessert (chocolate fudge brownie w/ soft serve ice cream and strawberry syrup...ugh).

I don't feel completely discouraged by it. I can say I am glad I didn't eat 'til I wanted to burst...I'm notorious for that at buffets. Instead, I just took very small portions and ate what I wanted, even if it was high in carbs or fried. : / Could have done better, could have done worse.

I'm not using today as an excuse to 'blow it' completely though. I'm not sitting here saying, "screw it. I already messed up today, so I may as well just have whatever I want the rest of today." I'm a bit proud that I've refused that mentality.
 
shit happens, tomorrows a new day. Its a great motto and seems to work for dieting.
Some days you do good, some days you screw it up. Everyone screws up ... continuously screwing up right after each other however is a cause for worrying :D

I love buffet - but i try and avoid them if possible lol
 
While I haven't been updating here as regularly as I had been, I'm still using Fitday.com to track my calories. I've had a few good days, and one bad day this week. Even my bad day could've been worse.

I've had no exercise this week per doctor's orders. I'm hoping to hop back on DDR some time soon. I'm still not feeling top notch, but I'm better than I was. I also ended up catching a chest cold from J. Grr.

I don't know how much longer I'll keep a diary of specific foods/totals. I'm likely to begin updating with a daily calorie total very soon (instead of meal by meal). I feel like I'm getting the hang of portion control and calorie counting. It was very difficult at first. Sometimes, I still struggle with restaurant foods, but I know if I'm teetering on my daily total, I should get a salad. Hehehe.

So far today:
coffee with splenda and 1% milk
banana
yogurt
fitness water
Total = 218

I'm still really struggling to drink water. I found a more flavorful water that has some calories and sugar, but tastes better to me than lots of the others I've tried. It's Propel fit water (by gatorade). It only has 25 calories per bottle. It's a lot better than the 100+ calories in coke or other soft drinks, so I think it's a good trade off/balance.
 
yeah i used to struggle with the same stuff, now its been practised so much its automatic. I still forget occasionally to drink more water, but most of the time its fine.
 
So, my life has been INSANE lately. I won't go into all the boring detail (mostly because I'm too tired).

I've been continuing to eat well. I have had no exercise in over a week because toward the end of my recovery from surgery, I got super sick with some chest/head thingie that won't quit. Now it seems as though it's a sinus infection. I just have no energy.

I weighed myself today...I'm down to 168/169 (don't have a digital scale atm). I was shocked and had to read the scale twice. I still think something is wrong with it. Then again, I wore my "fat pants" today (because I haven't done any laundry, lol), and they were super baggy/loose...I actually had to wear a belt with them...a belt I haven't been able to wear in a long time. Hrmmm...maybe this really is working. I would think by now people would see a difference though. The only one who has is my mom. : / I guess I'll keep at it, and get back to exercising as soon as I feel strong enough to do so.
 
Damn - I am really sorry that missed your diary for too long. What an exciting time you have been having - wow! Engaged! - ring and all!! Congratulations!!!

And now your weight has dropped a bunch!! (OK maybe the scales aren't exactly right - but you are much thinner). Congratulations on that also - well your behaviours fit with having a nice loss - fair enough!!

I hope you recover quickly from the bugs you've had lately - you definitely deserve to be feeling wonderful right now - I hope you don't have to wait too long to get that as well.
 
wooo you rock! loosing weight. Even when you felt like shit you stuck with it and it worked! horay!

you're gonna look awesome in that wedding dress :)
 
felici said:
Damn - I am really sorry that missed your diary for too long. What an exciting time you have been having - wow! Engaged! - ring and all!! Congratulations!!!

And now your weight has dropped a bunch!! (OK maybe the scales aren't exactly right - but you are much thinner). Congratulations on that also - well your behaviours fit with having a nice loss - fair enough!!

I hope you recover quickly from the bugs you've had lately - you definitely deserve to be feeling wonderful right now - I hope you don't have to wait too long to get that as well.
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wishes said:
wooo you rock! loosing weight. Even when you felt like shit you stuck with it and it worked! horay!

you're gonna look awesome in that wedding dress :)
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I just have to say that you ladies are awesome, truly awesome! Even while I was MIA, you checked in and had positive reinforcement for me. I don't think I can express how much that means to me. I hope that someday soon I can pay it forward.
 
yes please! lol. people forget that even though i might have lost a ton of weight, i still have a bit to go and i still struggle with it.
I have idiots commin into my diary and saying 'oh wow you've lost tons since i saw you last ... well done keep it up' when the previous post says how i havnt lost anything in ages even though ive worked at it, and you see also their same post in about 5 other diaries to others (ie its meaningless drivel).
But i know how hard it is to stick with a diet when you're having hard times or not feeling into it. Its just so tempting sometimes to go 'stuff it' and go way off the rails.
 
But i know how hard it is to stick with a diet when you're having hard times or not feeling into it. Its just so tempting sometimes to go 'stuff it' and go way off the rails.
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You're absolutely right. I think a lot of losing weight is really about learning other ways to cope with life and stress.

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Despite having a crazy schedule today, I managed to plan ahead and stick to it! YAY ME! I'm proud of that. Part of the reason I got to the weight I was at was because I didn't think about what I was eating, when I was eating, or how I was eating. I'm learning that I need to plan my food. I did that today, and it worked out well.

I know I've mentioned it before, but I can't help but say it again...my parents have been so supportive and encouraging. It's really awesome that they're behind me on this. I need to tell them that. Today, my mom commented that, "It really is noticeable that you're losing weight." This was before I told her about being down to 169!!! Woot!

J has been...eh, less helpful. LOL. It's not that he isn't supportive, he just doesn't seem to care if I'm 200 or 125lbs. When I told him last night that I had gone below 170, he said, "That's good." I said, "Damn, don't you even notice? I can tell!" He said, "Well, you've thinned out through here (gesturing to his face) a bit, but you know I don't really notice stuff like weight." I don't know if he was saying it to be nice or if it's because it's true, but I'm choosing to believe it's true (partly because I want to, and partly because I can see my face is thinning out).

All of this positive reinforcement really helps me to stick with it. I'm so glad to have their support.

The support I've received on these forums has been awesome, too. Whether it's a comment on my journal, or an answer to a question, it's really great to have a community to share this experience with.
 
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