VioletSoul
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Hey, well i need some advice,kind of.. i find that todays views on whats ''skinny'' or ''overweight'' or ''nice middle'' has changed a bit, or perhaps its just my unhealthy view of what i think what body weights are suppose to be for myself that is wrong... im not overweight i think my body weight is pretty "normal" but lately ive been wanting to ose more weight and to tone up so my skin doesnt look so wobbly, i dont have much muscle even though im at a ''lowish'' weight... the thing is lately ive been wearing my ankle weights to work inside my boots, so its not very visible but a co-work noticed it and ever since she noticed, shes been asking why i want to lose weight or tone up.. to me im ''skinny fat'' so a person that has no muscle yet is at a ''norm weight'' for my height.. she keeps saying im very skinny and need to eat more, going as far as giving me some of her fruit in her lunch, even tho i tell her what ive ate in a day she thinks its still not enough compared to her intake, shes not overweight shes pretty normallish (whatever that means) for her age and height .. anyway shes not the only one whos commented on my weight tho, my friends and bf also tell me im skinny but i cant see that.. like i dont see me as skinny, i see normal and skin that is not firm because i have not enough muscle.. so ive been trying to tone up , by doing weights walking with ankle weights and low impact aerobics and soon ill be going swimming on my days off. im 5'9 and 132lb but i have a lage bone frame for a female, think german bone structure...so my hip bones are quite wide, which makes me feel larger and i dont fit in certain sizes as good cause of them, im always inbetween sizes.. anyway, i do get compliments quite often about my appearance, but i cant seem to take a compliment, i tend to shrug it off or feel forced to say thank you even though i dont believe it. ive been through a lot of traumatic things in my life and have ptsd and im sure that plays a part in my way of thinking and my 0 confidence.
my goal is to be 125lb and be toned to that my skin is tighter . i tend to lose weight in my face first then my boobs then my waist , and so forth... so unfortunately my face makes me look too thin at times especially in pictures, but thats the onyl part of me that i notice looks in my definition of what is skinny... i find that many peoples definition of skinny is a person who is in the middle of the healthy scale for there height weight and age.. but thats what i call normal. skinny to me is on the lower end of the scale of healthy yet still just above the unhealthy line... i eat pretty clean and the only meat i eat is fish. if i just keep eating clean but eat bigger portions of that and exercise will my skin tone up with out me falling into the underweight catagory?.. people seem worried that i may go to far, but i think i know my limits .. but lately ive been questioning that since everyone seems to disagree and they believe i shouldnt be losing weight.. but going from 132 to 125 is not much of a change but they still think i shouldnt lose it . how do i ease there worry , and as long as im intaking the right things and getting protiene i should be pretty safe right? i supose i should take there compliments to heart but its hard when i cant see what there seeing. or maybe my definition or image of ''skinny'' is just dfferent from what they think it is.. ugh i dunno .. im all jumbled and feel confused...if there are many people saying that to me then it must be the truth which mean the truth in my head that ''im not skinny'' must be a lie right?
my goal is to be 125lb and be toned to that my skin is tighter . i tend to lose weight in my face first then my boobs then my waist , and so forth... so unfortunately my face makes me look too thin at times especially in pictures, but thats the onyl part of me that i notice looks in my definition of what is skinny... i find that many peoples definition of skinny is a person who is in the middle of the healthy scale for there height weight and age.. but thats what i call normal. skinny to me is on the lower end of the scale of healthy yet still just above the unhealthy line... i eat pretty clean and the only meat i eat is fish. if i just keep eating clean but eat bigger portions of that and exercise will my skin tone up with out me falling into the underweight catagory?.. people seem worried that i may go to far, but i think i know my limits .. but lately ive been questioning that since everyone seems to disagree and they believe i shouldnt be losing weight.. but going from 132 to 125 is not much of a change but they still think i shouldnt lose it . how do i ease there worry , and as long as im intaking the right things and getting protiene i should be pretty safe right? i supose i should take there compliments to heart but its hard when i cant see what there seeing. or maybe my definition or image of ''skinny'' is just dfferent from what they think it is.. ugh i dunno .. im all jumbled and feel confused...if there are many people saying that to me then it must be the truth which mean the truth in my head that ''im not skinny'' must be a lie right?