Penguinita's Weight Loss Diary

Thanks Njoyabl-- That man has really become our family's #1 enemy.

My great aunt has been discharged, not because she's back to normal but because she's been in the hospital too long. As the doc's explained it, Hospitals are for acute care, not long term. As for the ass of a doctor, WHY he's still my great aunt's doc is beyond me. At least 7 of us filed complaints against him yet the hospital has been slow to replace him with someone else. As his douchebaggery goes, he 'forgot' to prescribe her diabetic supplies, and after hunting him down-- oh yes we're a hair away from going ape shit on this man--- he sends the prescriptions to a pharmacy. I've already told my uncles and aunts to sue him but they're not up for that.

Through out this whole thing we're just praying she gets back to functioning condition. Most of the family has already promised her to take her to Vegas and Atlantic city when she gets better, that always puts a smile on her face.

As for other stressful events, I'm still waiting to work. I've applied to so many places I've lost count. I was hired at JCpenney yet they haven't called me in for training. Last week the manager told me they were gonna call me this week to start training, but it's already Friday and no call. I also had another interview at a shoe store and haven't heard backs so I'm a little worried. I'm starting to think I should also apply at food places as a waitress. The only reason I'm avoiding food places like the plague is because when I was 150lbs at 17 I worked in a pizza store and gained 20 lbs in 3 months. I've done so good--- 50lbs down so I don't want to jeopardize my progress.


As for exercise I'm definitely getting more stamina. Yesterday I was able to run for 9 minutes at 4.5 mph in intervals. 7 minutes walking at 3.5mph and 3 minutes running at 4.5mph for 30 minutes plus cool down.

Status update:
Weight: 147.6lbs
Measurements:
July 12, 2010
Weight: 148.2
Bust: 37
Chest: 29 (3/4)
Waist: 28 (3/4)
Hips: 36 (1/4)
Butt: 37
Thighs: 23 (1/4)
Calves: 15
Upper Arm: 10 (1/4)
Forearm: 9 (1/2)
Body Fat %: 27.8

Just a tiny difference from last time. My calves however grew an inch, I'm just happy it was muscle and not fat! :D


Food Diary July 16, 2010

7:45- Lean cuisine pizza (310)
8:30- Raisinets mini pack (80)
-- 4 cups of water

Rest of the day plan

Probably cereal for lunch
I'll be cleaning all day so that's my exercise
Whatever grandma cooks for dinner I'll eat modestly
 
I'm so sorry about your aunt. That's terrible. I hope she can overcome this setback and regain some of her functioning.

Congrats on weighing 147!! That's really great, especially considering all the stress you're under. Way to go!!
 
Thank you Rox for the lovely comment :)

Unfortunately my great aunt passed on Sunday night. The funeral was last night and man.... I just realized I'm an emotional eater. I never thought I was, but after thinking about yesterday I have to face the facts. Luckily I've been active 6 days a week walking 5 miles a day or going to the gym which is more of an intense workout--- 30 minutes on a treadmill 12 of those are spent running at 5mph on top of weight training for an hour. Yesterday I had no real food until late at night. I ate candy, ice cream on top of ice cream and I wasn't even hungry but I have this stupid notion that chocolate and sweets can cure me when I'm sad. I know its not the case. Also the stress from being unemployed is annoying the crap out of me. Technically I'm hired at a dept. store yet they have waited almost 2 months to call me up for training. I've called and they keep 'putting me at the top of the list', 'will call soon' UGH. I just applied to another job in NYC which is a full time. so if I get it I'll drop the dept. store, shit do they really need people if they're waiting so long? I also want to start working not only to start paying student loans but to save for a ton of stuff. first is a trip to Dominican Republic, not for fun but to see my granddad. After my great aunt's funeral (his sister) he's become ill and I'd be so upset with myself if I don't meet him before I pass.
At the funeral I was also reminded of a scary future-- diabetes and cancer. 1 person had cancer at attendance and a TON of my family had diabetes, even the ones who've been skinny and active their entire lives. It feels like I'm going to getting no matter how hard I try to fight it.

I am also starting to feel anxious and it's messing with my rest. I need to volunteer more hours at OT places, get a job, save money, pay loans, study for GRE, review pre-req courses for OT, start writing personal statements, get written references, start apps for OT school incase I don't get in this year, pray that I get in this year, try to pass the nj road test, get driving lessons.... this list can go on but it's just making me insane right now.

I have also neglected to keep a food diary, however my weight hasn't gone up since my last drop to 147.6lbs. My size 8 clothes are fitting a tiny tad looser, not a hug difference but I guess I'm loosing fat. I guess I need to start getting control of my life in the little places I can. I miss being 6 and not having any responsibilities---more like not understanding what responsibilities are and the biggest worry was how much candy I can sneak into my mouth without my dad finding out.
 
Hey there. I'm so sorry to hear about your great aunt passing. Sorry it took so long but I've been away for a few weeks. I know you are having a hard time dealing being unemployed, but remember that good things come to those who wait, and I am sure that you are going to land something good and satisfying when it is all said and done. Try not to get stressed about the many things that are going on in your life, take it one day at a time. This coming from someone with experience to having many things on my back that I had to figure out in such short time. Take a day off. It prepares you for what you have to do next. Come back soon.
 
Like how many months later?

Thanks Njoyable, our family is still mourning but we're already at the point that we're happy she's where ever we go and not suffering like she was.


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Update
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I feel that I'm at peace with my great aunt passing, I keep wishing I knew her more and that I had more time with her, but that is out of my hands now and I pray she is happy where ever our next destination is. Also, a friend of mine from high-school was murdered a few weeks ago and I'm still not completely at peace with that. I'm so angry that he died, because he's one of these guys that are genuinely good--he was going to join the navy so he could buy his mom a house, when ever anyone needed something he was there to help, he made us laugh, I loved being around him. He was murdered for his WALLET. WTF?!!?!?! Honestly, $20 is not equal to a human life.

Ugh! I'm still so angry and sad. May he rest in peace, his time was too short.

On a different note. I weighed myself a few days ago, I think Sunday or Tuesday and I weighed in at 145!!! OMG when I haven't been calculating my calories, or exercising regularly (though I do watch what I eat and have been learning to consciously eat). I have noticed the weight loss before I weighed in because my belly pooch has significantly diminished and my thighs are not rubbing together!!! That's the biggest reward of all so far. But I still don't feel 100% comfortable in my own skin. I think I'm close though, I want to be able to sit down without having rolls on my tummy, take any picture and be OK with it, I want to go in any store and if something doesn't fit KNOW that its the designer's fault not my body's. I want to look at myself without clothes and not find flaws.

I've been really busy since I started a new job and have begun organizing the grad schools I'll be applying to for Fall 2011. The job is a part time, but I like it! My boss is great and his wife is so much fun. I'm also taking a real estate course on Saturdays so much of my days are accounted for. I started reading the idiot's guide to achieving your goals and it really has opened my mind to some things I've been putting aside, like keeping up with friends (I am so horrible that only get together maybe 3 times a month) and budgeting to have the maximum amount possible for grad school.

As for my weight loss journey I need to figure out a new plan. I was usually just walking in the morning but with the sun coming up later and I don't feel my area is the safest. I think It'll be better if I go to the gym at night---but that's the time everyone else goes. BLAH! I need to think about this more....
 
It's great to see you back here!

I'm sorry about the loss your family has suffered, but it sounds like you're pulling through it.

Congrats on keeping that weight off, even while not in hyper-vigilant mode. that's a good sign that you are going to get to goal and then be able to maintain. Maintaining is the golden ticket.

Good luck coming up with a new and SAFE exercise plan!
 
Hi Njoyabl,

I've been completely MIA these past months. As for weight loss I've only lost 1 more pound, down to 144.0 lbs. But honestly, I haven't been trying. When I've lost weight consistently it was because I made consistent effort. I do try to make myself more active than the situation warrants however. With a desk job I try to move around and stand as much as I can while doing work so I won't give in to the sedentary habit. My boss is great though, he gives me a lot of work but he also keeps asking me if I get too much to do just tell him since he was trying to do my work plus his before I was hired and he couldn't do it.

At this point I'm finalizing my applications to a couple Occupational Therapy programs in the USA. I will get into a school no matter what! My dream is possible and its what I want more than anything at the moment.

As far as losing weight as I mentioned before I only lost 1lb. But! my Size 8 clothes are fitting a little looser not to mention that I need to get new bras because the band and cup size are loose. I've definitely toned, how I'm not sure, maybe its a combination of walking to the bus stop and being young. My arm would jiggle and now it doesn't, my butt is firmer and higher, My thighs have gotten smaller and best of all my belly pooch that I thought would stay there has firmed up. I was sooooooooo happy when I noticed my belly flattening out, the first sign was when I put on my skinny jeans and I sat down, usually there's some excess that tries to pour over but now nothing!!! : D!!!

I miss working out, but I'll keep trying to sneak it into my daily life since I want to be active for the rest of my life, not just during the losing weight period.

I've been lurking on this site since I went MIA though, I am so amazed at the transformations that have happened and I know everyone will continue to succeed.

If I don't appear for a while again, Happy Holidays and Happy New Years!!
 
Hey, it's nice to see your posting, and that you are doing well. I keep popping in and out also. It's time to be honest, I have had some deaths of fam and friends and I believe that these events as well as the holidays have contributed to my slow weight loss and eventual weight gain, but I'm back and checking on my buddies and you are all motivating me so hooray for achieving our goals in 2011.
 
Reassessment of a Penguin

March 14, 2011

Almost the middle of march, accomplished quiet a bit, and have been in a plateau for months... I think this calls for a reassessment of daily activity and goals.

Since I started my journey in 2009 I have lost a lot of fat and gained nice muscle. I started at 198lbs in February of 2009 at my lowest in this journey I was at 142lbs, at this point I'm in 147.2 <--- I'll know for sure tomorrow morning and post it. I started out wearing size 14's and they were tight, right now I'm wearing size 8 and they fit well, some a little loose. My bra size was a 38DDD now it's a 36DD. My waist was 39 inches it is now 28.75 inches. So overall it's been a big change, I used to have a double chin now I don't. My thighs use to rub together, now they don't. I would keep eating even after I was hungry, now I don't (even at buffets!)

I feel a need to reassess my current activities and goals because my old goal was to be at a healthy weight.

I want to:
- Exercise DAILY for 30mins to 1 hour
- Keep calories in one of two zones
*Excellent= Under 1400
*Good Enough= Under 1600
~ This is based on my caloric intake of 2200 a day to keep at my current weight.
- Do 50 push ups (military style) a day
- Do 50 Squats a day
~ The push ups and squats are part of the daily exercise
- Meditate or just go into a relaxing zone for a few minutes a day
- Laugh daily :)
- Be thankful for all that I had learned and gained, will learn and gain, will learn and gain in this journey.
- Drink Plenty of water
- Replace one cup of coffee with green tea (I drink 2-3 cups of coffee a day)
I'll go off to do the squats and push ups in a few minutes

Stats:
Height... 5'4.5"
Weight... 147.2
Waist... 28.75



Ultimate Goal:
- Be in the Upper 120lbs-Lower130's by the time I enter my masters in NYU this Fall.
- Maintain weight during my first semester of MS.
- Be a size 6
 
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Hey Penguin, good to see you back!!! I saw your journal a few times last year, glad to see you've done so well!!

You're so close to your goal now too :D Keep working hard and you'll be there in no time :D
 
Hey Luzdafuzz! It has been a while thank you for stopping by with your kind words of encouragement! :)


March 18th, 2011

I'm about to jump in the shower before going into work. I weighed at 147.2 on Tuesday, I planned to do it Monday but when I remembered to weigh in I had already had my breakfast and had my coat and things loaded up LOL I wonder how much weight that would have added and made my head spin.

My boss is coming back from his vacation and I'm so happy! Even though I've had the office to myself these past two weeks My boss takes a load of my work. Currently his wife just ADDS to my work so I've been working twice as hard and more hours just to meet the demand. This Saturday is going to be Awesome!!! I'll be meeting a friend I haven't seen in almost 2 years!! She's a really close friend, even though we lose touch for a year or two when we get together its as if we were talking daily. I also can't wait to see her reaction to my transformation, in 2009 I was still very heavy and a size 14. If I remember correctly the last time I saw her I was so happy about finally fitting into a size 12! Lol now I'm happy to be an 8 and moving on to a 6. Also I'll be going to a baby shower in the evening and being with my mother's side of the family who are all very funny and loud, I'll laugh all night I just know it.

I think from these two years in this journey I've learned a lot about eating and eating habits. What I really like about being in this journey so long is that healthy choices are becoming more AUTOMATIC.

Like this morning,
I'm looking to make myself something to eat and my choices are, Oatmeal, Cheese sandwich and cereal. I chose cereal and not because I was consciously thinking "it's one of the healthier choices" but because it was the most appetizing.

In the active section I'm into the push up challenge and squat challenge. Two days ago I did 50 military style push ups and 100 squats. I think I'll stick to that number until I feel I've gotten strong. But my arms are more defined and my butt looks like it's been lifted! Almost 8:30 gotta hit the shower then the road.

Today will be a great and blessed day, good things will happen and if there are things that are not I will see the good in them. :D
 
March 18th, 2011 --- Night time

I'm back from work and I realize I have to break this habit of just plopping down in my couch, holding my laptop while watching TV. I really miss exercising, I think I'll do my 100 squats and 50 push ups and I'd like to jump "fake" rope for 30 minutes. Fake jump rope is pretending I have a jump rope, ( I refuse to pay 7 dollars for a piece of rope!)

As a treat I think I'll hit Forever 21 ( I have a gift card I got as a Christmas present I still haven't used)

Food for the day:
Morning
- Chocolate Cheerios 100 cals
- Almond milk 3/4 cup 68cals
Mid Morning
- Medium banana 105cals
- Coffee with 1/4 cup of soy milk and 1 raw sugar packet 60cals~
Lunch
- Quick Check turkey sandwich without cheese 300cals
- Soup 8oz (threw most if it since I was full but I'll count it all) 260cals
Dinner
- 1/4 cup of yellow rice 150cals
- 1/2 chicken breast 45
- DD Caramel latte lite small 80 cals (No swirl, or extra syrup)

Total= 1168 Calories Today's a really good day :)
 
March 19, 2011

Baby shower today!!!

I came back from Forever 21 and used my gift card, I bought 4 items and it came out to $44. I bought the cutest little dress!! I never bought a dress for myself before, EVER. I always feel more comfortable in jeans and plain colors, but I have to change that. Most of my life being over weight meant not drawing attention to oneself in fear of negative comments, but now I don't give a flying rats ass about anyone's comments just as long as I feel good.

I'm going to work out before getting ready, I just ate so I should rest and not jump into exercising. One of the hardest parts of weight loss after 50lbs is finding something to stick to! I love walking but it's too sunny outside and I tan very easily, just 5 minutes and I'm darker. I think I'll just jump fake rope for 30 minutes while doing push ups and sit ups..

So,
10 Minutes jumping rope
25 squats
15 push ups
15 minutes jumping rope
50 squats
25 push ups
5 minutes jumping rope
25 squats
10 push ups

Challenge: 50 sit ups, 50 crunches, 50 reverse crunches, 50 lunges (25 each side)

Food:
Breakfast
Cheerios w/ 3/4 almond milk 168cals
Lunch
Whole wheat bread 250cals
Ham (4 slices as directed) 70 calories
1 TBSP of mustard 35cals
Snack
Hot coco mix w/ 1 cup of almond milk 210

Total calories: 733cals

I WILL BE 120LBS!!!!
 
Hi there! It's so nice to see you back here and doing so well!! You are so positive and energetic!

I'm sort of where you are right now...pretty happy with where I am, but trying to make that final push to goal weight. It's tough, but we can do it!
 
Thanks Tally29, I will be 120lbs! Lol I hope to get there by next year, Ideally by september but that's 5 (1/2) lbs a month or 1.35lbs a week and it's hard! I remember when I was 180 and all I did was walk 5 miles and dropped 4lbs a month.

Rox!!! It's been a while! Lets do our best to break through this lull in our weight loss. I was reading this Jillian Michaels book and she did say that when it comes sto major weight loss the last 10-20 lbs are always the hardest.


March 24, 2011
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I honestly thought I posted something a few days ago :0!! Did I not hit the submit reply button or what I don't remember... So I should only write here when I'm fully awake! Lol

I weighed myself this morning and was 148 =.=;;;;;;
I won't let it get to me, a few days ago I had more alcohol than I usually drink (at a baby shower no less!! Dominican people and parties man). I had rum and coke in a 16oz party cup which the bartender was trying to skimp on the coke! so there was more rum than coke @_@ and if that wasn't enough I had a bottle of Corona beer, HOW I WAS NOT DRUNK IS BEYOND ME. I wasn't even tipsy <--- that was not my goal! I did wake up a little puffier than usual and I'm thinking my body is still trying to get rid of all the toxins since I'm not an avid drinker (maybe a glass of wine or shot of hard liquor once every 3-6 months). I still have a bottle of wine from Feb half way in my fridge that I bet is just a bunch of non-alcoholic fermented grape juice by now.

I really have to get my ass on the gym schedule! I miss the gym so much. I went on Tuesday around 6pm, which was a BAADDDD IDEAA. I think everyone in Hudson County was there, I waited 5 mins for a treadmill (which isn't bad) but then I waited 15 minutes for the elliptical which during rush hour is set to 30mins max. I figure I get warmed up for 30 minutes in speed walking/running intervals and then really get a good sweat on the eliptical by raising the resistance to 8-10. I would like to hit the weight machines but last time there were all these muscly men trying to prove themselves to each other and kept hogging them D:. I did see lots of people who were KIDS like baby face/puberty not reached yet. It was a little sad to see obese kids but I was happy to see them having fun working out and that alone will make a huge difference on their future.

Today I had my physics midterm and I'm so happy my boss is back from his vacation because it means I have Tuesdays and Thursdays to myself!!! YEAH
I'll hit the gym in a little while (before people stop coming out of their 9-5s).

Food today
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Breakfast:
1/2 cup of Special K 80 cals
1/2 cup of Multigrain cheerios 50 cals
3/4 cup of soymilk lite 53 calories
Total: 183calories
Midterm :0!
Dunkin Donuts Caramel coffee black no sugar or milk 15 calories
total: 15 calories
Lunch
6 inch whole wheat bread 300 calories
1/4 cup of grated cheese 110
2 ham slices 30
1TBSP of mustard 0
3 thin mints from supermarket brand 80 calories
1 cup of vanilla almond milk *ran out of soymilk* 90
Total: 610



Tally so far: 808, amount left for the day: 592
Exercise: walked home (1.6 miles), going to the gym then walking home (2.0 miles).

*** I did it again! lol I forgot to hit the submit reply button***

I'm back from the gym I did 40 minutes on the treadmill and 35 on the elliptical burned a little over 700 calories

Dinner
1/2 Cup of white rice 120
1 chicken thigh 109
1/4 cup of red beans 30 calories
5 supermarket thin mints (LOVE CHOCOLATE) 135 cals
1/2 cup of silk lite soy milk *I even went and bought some more* 35 calories
Total: 429

Total calories for the day: 1237 calories. I have 163 left for the day, I think later on I'll have crackers and 2 TBSP of hummus 120+60=180, if I'm over 20 calories from my idea loosing weight calories that's just fine.
 
Yesterday March 25, 2011

My calories were in check and I did burn a little over 300 calories at the gym
I ate:
Whole grain roll - 300
1 tbsp of hummus - 25
1 egg - 70
1 egg white - 15
Espresso - 5
Creamy coffee house cup thing 1 - 30
total: 440 calories

Work snack
1/2 cup of multigrain cheerios - 55

Lunch
Tri colored pasta -190
1.5 TBSP of pasta sauce - 17.5 ~round to 20
1 chicken wing cooked regularly - 110
1/4 of chicken breast - 25 calories
Total: 345

Later work snack
1/2 cup of multigrain cheerios - 55

Dinner
Lean cuisine dinner - 300
some meat size was like credit card - assume 150
1/2 cup of soy milk- 35
6 little thin mints - 160 (LOVE STORE BRAND TINY THIN MINTS YUM)
Total: 645

I burned 300+ calories at the gym

After dinner I didn't eat anything else so
Grand Total: 1540 <-- and I thought I was at 1400 XD lol

I re-did my Total Caloric needs to make sure I was on the right track
If Light active (MY MINIMUM) - 2270
If Moderately active (MY IDEAL) - 2559

According to this I should be losing 1.9lbs a week with a combination of lowered calorie intake and daily exercise. : ) MAN I hope that's the case

Today!

Breakfast
1 Cup of Multi-grain cheerios - 110
3/4 cup of soy milk lite - 53 calories
1 thin mint- 27 calories
Total: 190

I plan on going to a Japanese Buffet for lunch with my mom. I <3 it there because they have a TON of veggies and fruit and its so fresh! I plan on loading up half my plate of just veggies, 1/2 of fruit and the last 1/2 of just meat. Second wind will be tiny portions of anything that's obviously bad for you but I'm at a Buffet so why not?

Before I go I'll do my jump rope (pretend one lol) for 30 minutes. That should be around 300 calories, just in case I'll continue for an extra 5-10 minutes

** Japanese buffet is out, my mom didn't feel like going and I won't go alone that'll just be too sad.

Midmorning Snack
3 Soda Crackers - 60
1 TBSP of hummus - 25
Espresso - 5
Coffee house creamy thingy - 30
Total: 120

Total so far~310
Lunch I'm planning salmon with steamed veggies I'm craving for something rich in protein and fat :) as long as the calories are fine I'm not against fat.

Lunch
1/2 Salmon Fillet - 185
2 Cups of Broccoli - 108
5 things of asparagus - 20
1/4 cup of red pepper - 12
6 Thin mints - 160
Cappuccino mix - 45
Total: 530!! I thought it would be more because after this meal I was stuffed!!! Go Veggies

Dinner
Yellow rice - 300
5 small shrimp - 70
2 clams - 30
1 cup of soymilk - 70
Total: 470

I'm hoping to have enough calories for a hot chocolate of 170 cals.... Drum Roll.....

Grand total: 1310.. so I'm only allowed 90 calories, such a conundrum!!! I guess I'll do the hot chocolate w/out milk, that will make my grand total: 1410. What a great day : ) I hope to remember to weight myself tomorrow I'd like to see where I'm at. As for stuff I'm noticing, I'm more energized so that's a good sign.

This coming week I've already planned
Tomorrow Sunday I'll do a work out DVD Biggest looser DVD may only be 10 minutes a segment but it always kicks my ass.

M- Work then Workout
T- Work out challenge! which is burn 1000cals or more
W- Work then work out
Th- Work out Challenge
F- Work then work out
S- At home chillaxing, probably work out DVD (Calories are at 1400 or less! I do allow myself to go over 10-30 but no more!)
Su- Chillaxin
 
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