Urrg
I've been keeping track of what I eat and counting calories diligently for 2 weeks now. Yes, there were cheat days in there and I haven't been to the gym as regularly as I should be going. But it's just frusterating not seeing results- as I know I've been much more active and eating much better than I was in the summer.
I was afraid of this. I'm getting old. I remember a few years ago, if I ate like this I would be losing pounds. But now, now it's not enough. Now I have to get my ass to that gym 4 times a week and maybe, hopefully, I'll see results.
The hardest thing for me is trying to eat 1200 calories a day. I just can't do it. I look back at my Spark reports and see that although I'm averaging 1500 a day, I'm eating very low fat and everything is just, healthy looking. But yeah, I can't seem to get down to 1200 and I wonder if I should. With my desire to hit the gym more, and this new rediscovery of my pilates tapes that I can do on non-gym nights, i feel like 1200 is not enough. Then I wonder if that's an excuse, as surely other people eat 1200 calories or less a day and go to the gym.
I hear so many different schools of thought on calories too. Things like how 1700-2000 a day is what an active woman should eat. So i think "well, here I am eating 1500 a day, and nothing is happening." Then I have my Spark site telling me to go between 1200 and 1500.
So well, I'm going to keep at it of course. I just have to remotivate myself. But it gets tiring of thinking about what I eat all the time and worrying about my weight. It's not healthy for me and I know that, but I just can't find a way to stop thinking about it. Maybe when I see some results I'll feel better. I worry now that losing 10 lbs by April 1st is an impossible feat.
I guess what bothers me is that I thought if I just concentrated on going to the gym and increasing my energy and working on running and endurance, then I'd see results without having to obsess about things. But with the mono and recovery time, I sort of started with the calorie counting and well, now I feel just dragged down.
ps- this means that the lb I lost was quickly gained back, twice.