My Addiction.
Hi Guys, this is basically my story. Would love to hear if anyone has been in the same situation motivation is welcome haha!
Foods that bad for me which are now BANNED
My Past and present
I know that I am fat. I have been lying to myself and trying to avoid the truth. I am an addict. And my addiction is food. People don't think something like this can be an addiction, but believe me it can. i have battled with food since as long as i can remember. I was big growing up, my mum always did massive portions of food and i didn't eat meat therefore i replaced that with cheese, bread, pasta etc. The bullying started to get really bad and my weight was creeping up to 16 stone. I decided that i needed to change my life. so i did. I lost weight and cut out dairy from my diet. But then food again became a problem; in a different way this time. I started to get obsessed, again, I was addicted to now being skinny and it was controlling my life. I stopped eating, I would chew my food and spit it out on my plate at the tea table. I loved it when people told me i had got too skinny, I couldn't see it but I loved hearing it. I loved hearing that I looked ill. But then I slowly started eating again when I moved away with my then boyfriend. slowly but surely the weight started creeping on and I wasn't keeping it in control. I wasn't exercising and I was gorging on junk food all day. I got excited to eat junk food, I constantly thought about food. once i ate the food i would then be depressed and feel dirty. However the next day i would be back doing the same thing again. Well thats where I am now. Im getting bigger and bigger now at 13.7stone and unbelievably depressed. I have no idea how to stop and get back my strength like the first time i fought my food addiction. But I know things have got to change this time. I need to stop. Everything reverts back to food. I don't do anything, I have no confidence, I have lost myself, I have lost friends, I don't have a boyfriend, I don't love myself. My relationship with food is absolutely horrific and I think I will battle with this for the rest of my life.
Ways I am going to do this
Thanks for reading x
Hi Guys, this is basically my story. Would love to hear if anyone has been in the same situation motivation is welcome haha!
Foods that bad for me which are now BANNED
- Cheese
- Bread
- Pasta
- Chocolate
- Takeaways of any kind
- Crisps
- Pizza
- Cheesy garlic bread
- Cakes
- No sugar or processed foods only fresh
- Eggs
- All vegetables
- Chicken
- Brown rice
- Sweet potato
- Salad
My Past and present
I know that I am fat. I have been lying to myself and trying to avoid the truth. I am an addict. And my addiction is food. People don't think something like this can be an addiction, but believe me it can. i have battled with food since as long as i can remember. I was big growing up, my mum always did massive portions of food and i didn't eat meat therefore i replaced that with cheese, bread, pasta etc. The bullying started to get really bad and my weight was creeping up to 16 stone. I decided that i needed to change my life. so i did. I lost weight and cut out dairy from my diet. But then food again became a problem; in a different way this time. I started to get obsessed, again, I was addicted to now being skinny and it was controlling my life. I stopped eating, I would chew my food and spit it out on my plate at the tea table. I loved it when people told me i had got too skinny, I couldn't see it but I loved hearing it. I loved hearing that I looked ill. But then I slowly started eating again when I moved away with my then boyfriend. slowly but surely the weight started creeping on and I wasn't keeping it in control. I wasn't exercising and I was gorging on junk food all day. I got excited to eat junk food, I constantly thought about food. once i ate the food i would then be depressed and feel dirty. However the next day i would be back doing the same thing again. Well thats where I am now. Im getting bigger and bigger now at 13.7stone and unbelievably depressed. I have no idea how to stop and get back my strength like the first time i fought my food addiction. But I know things have got to change this time. I need to stop. Everything reverts back to food. I don't do anything, I have no confidence, I have lost myself, I have lost friends, I don't have a boyfriend, I don't love myself. My relationship with food is absolutely horrific and I think I will battle with this for the rest of my life.
Ways I am going to do this
- Go for a little walk and listen to music when I feel hungry or start having negative thoughts
- Avoid shops or takeaways
- Say no to every bit of food I am offered
- HAVE NO TREATS WHATSOEVER until I have the willpower to control it
- Be 100% strict (Its all or nothing)
- NO MEALS OUT always eat before going out, meet for drinks only NO FOOD
- Walk every day
- Shower every time i get in so i then feel clean and dont want to feel dirty after eating
- Try and do the 7 minute workout
- I WILL NEVER OVER EAT
- I will stop before I am full
- No more massive portions
- Dont beat myself up if i don't see change straight away, it will come eventually
- Smile at myself
- Drink lots of water
- STOP WATCHING TV ALL THE TIME
- NEVER EAT AND WATCH TV AT THE SAME TIME
- dont compare myself to other girls
- focus on myself and no one else
- Give up men for a while
- believe in myself
- Dont put a time limit on this, its a lifestyle change
- I will start having fun
- I will get to wear nice clothes
- I will be happy
- I will like myself more
- I will feel good
- I will do more activities that i want to do
- I will go mountain walking more
- I will make new friends
- I will loose weight
- I will feel proud of myself
- I wont feel dirty anymore
- I will have more money
- I will no longer be controlled by food
- I will be able to say no to food
- I will have more confidence
- I wont be as depressed
- I will be able to start doing things that I want to do
- My skin will be better
- I will be able to take photos of myself without editing them
- I will not have anything holding me back anymore
- I will be able to do cool things and make memories
- I will be able to start living my life
- I will be able to go out and party
- I will be able to show people the real me again
- I wont be miserable
- I wont be a hermit
- I wont stay in all the time
- I wont be lazy
- I wont be unhealthy
- I wont be tired all the time
- I can spend my money on the clothes I want to wear
- I will travel the world
- I will get so much more out of life
- I wont eat my favourite foods anymore
Thanks for reading x
